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By ladyinwaiting Date: 2006 Jul 09 Comment on this Work [[2006.07.09.23.55.13357]] |
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i placed my items carefully in the pew before the event me sitting beside you him at my side and her at yours how ironic and uncomfortable this seems so i offer a mint you remark with sarcasm i should have guessed you would come prepared and i think you've always been a poor excuse for a human but not today, i will not allow you to affect me as i watch my son you know the one you were a sperm donor for he glows with love as he watches her walk the isle and i wonder did you ever see me in that light before alcohol and drugs became your lover his contentment beats the hell out of his look of disappointment through the years because you were never there as he says i do you bend over and ask does he need a lifesaver about now no not today, i will not allow you to affect me when it is time to exit you ask what do i do now i think to myself you should have been here for rehearsal better yet you should have been here for his life then you would know but not today, i will not allow you to affect me i sit here beside you, you bastard and damn your dysfunctional family who are so codependent that they have enabled you and i'm the bitch in their eyes the eyes that can't see what they have done nor can they see what you are or what you look like can't they see your stomach and how pathetic you look like a toothpick with a pea attached can't they see or they don't want to but not today, i will not allow you to affect me but tomorrow maybe your lover will be your death and i will not allow you to affect me |