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By Ali Date: 2006 Jul 12 Comment on this Work [[2006.07.12.08.45.25187]] |
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How long has it been, since you Avoided my questions? Touched me, when I didn't know You were even behind me. You used to scare me awake, But only sometimes with a smile On my face. How long has it been since you-- Spoke my name? I can't remember. (Or at least that's what I say. In all honesty, I know that it was August 28th, 2000. It was The last phone call I got from you, And the last lie you ever told me.) I know you noticed me, in that crowd, And I saw you pretend, again, not to see What you couldn't help but see-- Me. How long has it been since you felt Without discussion, without wondering How it would all play out, in the end? You already knew, didn't you? You took me for a pawn, and I didn't understand That we weren't playing for keeps-- You were just playing for the stakes, Betting on desire. It's been too long, but not long enough for me To dismantle your ghost, to unremember The way you used to grin, from the corner of your mouth-- That self-effacing mouth that kissed like a textbook, But I didn't really know any better, Having had scarcely anything to compare it to. |