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By Dana Date: 2006 Nov 25 Comment on this Work [[2006.11.25.15.28.21980]] |
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you were a real challenge for me my first challenge and while i wish i could have done more to help you, i know in my heart that i guided you as best i could. still, i wish you would have called like you used to. i wish you would have come to see me like you used to before you began having those thoughts again. before you began preparing. before you ended your life. still, i think of you and probably always will. you were a real challenge for me. my first challenge. i can't help but look back at the progress you made, the steps that you took, but i guess the nightmares you had just wouldn't subside. i think of your family, your mom, your sister, your son and daughter. still, i wish you would have called. i wish you would have stopped in. you were so young with so much potential. i could see it in you. in your eyes. in your ache for happiness and normality. it was as though you feared success because all you knew was failure. every time you made progress, every time you took one step forward you always took three steps back. i wish i could have known what was going through your mind. i wish you would have called. i wish you would have stopped by. i wish i could have guided you just once more. you were a worthwhile first challenge for me and i'm happy to have known you for who you really were. it's been three months now and still i think of you. i always will. 8/8/06 dselfridge |