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By dragonflydancer Date: 2006 Dec 04 Comment on this Work [[2006.12.04.14.26.32028]] |
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hardest time of year enjoying the holiday or trying to while knowing just a year ago you suffered the most and we suffered the most knowing you weren't any longer will it snow there today? a sign from you that you're ok like it did those days when the pain in my chest was only soothed by large fluffy ones on my tongue.. like frozen tears from you up above saying you were sorry you had to go grown up christmas list playing the tree i'm decorating trying to honor you relishing moments new bittersweet tradition of christmas decorations to celebrate the season and your spirit this day hits hard when so many others have passed by unnoticed a long string of pinpricks little hiccups of emotion easily brushed aside and forgotten but today cannot be forgotten memories vivid in their detail rush to the surface and stupid me laughs then cries when i realize "that ornament is from my student" came from my lips and not yours i drank to you tonight please don't be disappointed i cheered to you on this day that i had anticipated as well as dreaded and it has passed like so many others with tears burning in my eyes and running down my face breath catching in my throat i can't fathom how needing you and missing you can be so overwhelming so disabling so like your favorite song i ask you to hold me together be forever near me be a breath of heaven and lighten my darkness when tonight passes let me find peace in all the reminders of you that surround me i miss you... |