By callaphair
Date: 2007 Jan 09
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The next night

All I want to do is cry
As much as I wish I could admit it
I can’t

I love you
I shouldn’t
But I do

I want you to be here
With me
Warming my bed
Warming my body

Instead, I took the high road
The road often traveled
And I am miserable

But really, if I didn’t, the only thoughts of you would be false

I dream of you being here
You aren’t

You never were

And 8 months later

I now know it

But god damn it,
If I could just believe that you wanted to be here,
And stop lying to myself

Maybe I wouldn’t be so cold tonight…