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By corinna Date: 2007 Aug 02 Comment on this Work [[2007.08.02.11.18.4540]] |
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He tells me he loves me when he's not sober. He says he doesn't want to let me go. He swears I mean the world to him But when he's sober I just don't know. He looks at me with sad eyes when he's not in the right mind. He makes me feel so sad inside He makes me think I'm everything to him But I can't help but feel its all a lie. Because there's days when I'm his enemy There's nothing buy mean words and angry taunts When he's sober after all his partying I find it hard to believe I'm the one he wants. But when he stops for a while or more He's a whole other being it seems We get along so perfectly He makes me feel we're meant to be We may sit around doing nothing at all but still we laugh joke and play I look at him with adoring eyes And I can't keep my hands away. I wish everyday were like that I'd love it if we got along more than fight I know not all relationships are perfect But why can't we get this right? I love him so much it hurts But still I don't know if he feels the same You'd think I'd know after a year and half But we're still playing stupid games I wish we could both grow up But the only time we talk is when we're not sober There's no yelling, shouting or screaming But there IS talk of it being over. I just wish he could choose me first Put me before all the minor little things A relationship should be give and take Its not about who loses or wins I'm pretty sure I want a future with him But we both need to get our lives on track I'm just so afraid that its too late I'm scared there's not turning back Regardless of where the road leads I know he's left a stain upon my heart He'll always be part of my soul He'll always be in my heart. If you ever read this Joe, Know that all my bitching wasn't for fun I just wanted you to see things my way I wanted you to its because you're the one. I love you with all my heart. I've never meant you any pain or harm I just hope you'll find the right path Cuz I'll be waiting at the end with open arms. |