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By darwin Date: 2007 Sep 14 Comment on this Work [[2007.09.14.10.37.23277]] |
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i'm watching the light fade in the room. clouds white, bright on the blue sky, absorbing the light of the sun. it's simple to imagine myself beneath them, watching them, their singular purpose. to float. how easy it would be to float, no other purpose then to form and move across the sky. to move across life. to never admit that there's always the want for something more. whether it's walking across a carpeted hallway in the morning, cool air of approaching fall flowing from the open windows. to know that who you are is just that, who you are. simple words, not a simple acceptance. that the need to love in those moments, the wanting, is greater then anything else. he loves me. and i wonder of the moments he thinks of me. if he would stare at my face one moment when im not watching and feel that almost hurting feeling. like the one when you have a bruise you can't stop touching for the pain is almost exquisite. he does that to me. makes my heart feel that pain. in it's almost clairvoyant moments, seeing what will be. yesterday i was divorced. enough to see his face to know that i won't ever let someone do that to me again. to trust that someone will love me as completely as i love myself. to trust that my heart is safe within someone elses grasp. it's a tender thing, a prized object. a tenuous line to be drawn in the sand, but not a name. i wish he were here. his lips left too quickly this morning. and i need him still. |