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By Ali Date: 2007 Oct 05 Comment on this Work [[2007.10.05.08.57.26960]] |
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I still can't think, which pretty terrible, because I'm waiting, again--and you know how much I hate waiting. It's like some sort of crazy Groundhog's Day mini-marathon inside my heart, and all I can think is, "I wonder if he feels as crazy as I do, right now," which is rather funny, because then we'd both be nuts. Then again... But, suddenly, I know that I can't care anymore. This isn't all up to me, even if it's felt like that, lately. As much as I don't want to, I'm saying goodbye. I'm telling you everything, and I'm giving you a choice. I'm doing everything right in the pursuit of something so exquisitely wrong. When it comes down to it, I'll fight for what I want, and for what I believe--but not if I'm the only one. It takes courage to be a casualty in this, to even risk the possibility. And I did it, and I'd do it again, willingly--but not like this. I'm walking away. Because you don't see me clearly. And there's so much you don't do that it outweighs the overtures you have made; even those, they are too distant, too rare and raw to matter, now. Groundhog's Day is over, love. And if you want me, today or down the line, you're going to have to prove it. |