By Briana Kassia
Date: 2008 Jun 27
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In Bitterness

In bitterness I write you
Who never loved me once
who could have
who should have
but who betrayed me at every step
no matter my loyalty

who betrays me now but worse
because you manipulate our children
and bitch me out in emails
because I tell them I am hurt
"guilt-tripper" and
"liar, manipulator"
the names you batter me with
"puppy-kicking bitch
(who then blames the dog for the blood on her shoe)"
was the best.

And what, pray tell
did I ever do to you?

I bore you two beautiful sons
I was honest
faithful
and true.
I tried.

I failed.

In bitterness I tell you
I never loved you either
and I didn't know it until
I knew real love
A man who holds me sacred
who protects my heart
as more precious than his life
who gives and gives and gives
and asks nothing in return

(except he'd really like to kick your ass
for all the stress you still ladle into my life
through the two souls who deserve it the least)

In bitterness I write
and look forward to the day
when your sons see you for what you are
and through the reflection of the real men in their lives
judge you as you should be judged

You will be tried
and you will fail
and that is all the comfort I have