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By callaphair Date: 2008 Jul 14 Comment on this Work [[2008.07.14.03.38.20124]] |
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You wanted this break. You asked me to wait patiently, but six months is a long time to wait. I wasn't actively looking. I never wanted to replace you. But when he kissed my neck, I knew I was a goner. I didn't need your permission, but I wanted your advice. How is it fair that you left me alone for four months and did not expect me to find someone else? How is it fair that you put me on the sidelines, waiting with bated breaths for your next words? How is it fair that I love someone who gives up on me? I never wanted to hurt you. I never wanted to lose you. I never wanted to love him. But the last time I needed you, you never came. You arranged. You confirmed. You never canceled. but you also never showed up. If I would have seen you that day, talked to you about my feelings, told you how scared I really was, things may have ended differently. Instead, you gave up. Maybe you really didn't care. Maybe you really didn't need. Maybe you really didn't love. I just expected you to fight for our love, and not let me walk away. Did you expect me to run? Did you expect me to leave? Did you expect me to hide? I know you will never answer these questions, but please, please, just tell me, did you ever expect me to forget about you? |