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By Violet Date: 2008 Aug 16 Comment on this Work [[2008.08.16.00.51.18774]] |
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she is beside me on the crowded floor of the shower her little legs stick out in front of her and her face squints up at the water large drops fall from her long eyelashes, from the tip of her nose she fills the lid to my shaving cream with water and dumps it out this process is repeated many times, pausing only once in a while to say "hi!" i study the small frame, the matted tangle of wet baby curls i run my hand up and down her back her skin is still remarkably soft, even when wet mine is slick and smooth and feels old in comparison her sister stirs inside me, reminding me of the impending arrival i cannot comprehend that i will love her enough, like i love this child this little bird, my dearest dream come true for 17 months i have given all of myself to her and now i am faced with the knowledge that some tricky division of time and energy lies ahead how will she ever forgive me? how will i ever forgive myself? |