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By sapphyres_serenade Date: 2008 Oct 15 Comment on this Work [[2008.10.15.08.40.27604]] |
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*this is a very rough draft, I really don't want to change it, but maybe it needs a different title?* My Angel, My Equal Many nights spent alone eyes shut in the darkness I laid still in the quiet just me and my prayers. Please guide me, the storms are too much. I don't know what to do, who to trust here, or where my life is going. Silently each night, I sent prayer after prayer, hoping an answer would someday come and shine its light into my bleak oblivion. I prayed for guidance, and wisdom to understand, the situations I was in, and I prayed for help, for someone to support me. I could be brave 99% of the time but the other times, I was a solitary lonely soul, Seldom leaving the house. Crying myself to sleep, hoping sleep would last, not to wake to an empty bed, yet sleep was short, days were long or far too quiet for my liking, still I prayed. I prayed for friends, a shoulder to cry on, arms to hold me safe, and keep me upright, when I grew weak from struggles. I prayed for angels, to come and guard me, to help heal my soul, and fix the broken parts. Patience and tears paid off, prayers were answered. Oh yes, I've questioned, is this for real, the answer to my endless prayers? Are you the friends sent, to be just for me, mine only to share, when or if I see need? Are you the angels sent, to remind me of melodies, to the songs in my heart, knowing I'd long since forgotten the words? Ive asked and prayed again, that you are the answers, to those prayers, in darkened rooms. With tear stained cheeks, red rimmed eyes, no mortal knew existed, nor sought to witness. The answers remain unchanged, you were sent to me, the lone answer to many prayers, no matter right or wrong, in public view or belief, sent to me a friend, an angel, a gift from God. I wasn't looking for anyone in particular. I wasn't looking for you, specifically. My answer was sent to me, the form of an earth-bound angel. A friend to help me, through his own abilities, t,o remind my heart of its melody to guide me to the shores, and through this hell. A year has passed, a door long closed, I've stood lost, wounded, alone, in the hallway, longing to find, that next open door, just for me. My prayers led me to a place, warm, inviting, peaceful, its door open, welcoming me inside, to greet my angel. Your arms have held my body, when I was too tired to go on. Your ears have listened when I had to rant or cry. Your lips speak no harsh words your kiss, sublime. Your smile has reassured me, your work is far from finished, to remain my angel for times to come, is your noble decree. To be the friend I prayed I'd receive, to help me find myself, to guide my soul back to its home. To others who see you as wrong, not an angel, too dark to be good, twas not their prayers you were sent here to answer. I sought guidance, wisdom, an angel, grace gave me my answer. A dark angel you may be, sent by God just for me. I did not ask specifically for you, He knew what I surely needed to help me find my soul, my will, my peace, here you are to guide, to teach. Too dark they say you are for me, perhaps my darkness matches you. No light without dark, no good without evil Rare as it may seem, too good to be true. I have God to thank for you I'm 100% sure. You are my answer My angel, my equal. ©October 15 2008; c.f. aka sapphyres_serenade |