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By ~Harem~ Date: 2009 Mar 14 Comment on this Work [[2009.03.14.16.59.30426]] |
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I seem to be stuck in Reverse and though I know it's wrong I can't seem to look ahead of me I'm singing a backward song The past has a grip upon my soul that I can't seem to shed the pictures of my former days are circling in my head Like a broken record that's caught that spot with continual repeat i'll never hear the final verse no melody complete My mind replays those horrid scenes that I know I should forget but everytime I try to break free I falter back instead It's almost like a punishment that I've devised within my heart to torture myself in many ways it's breaking me apart I have a life that now is joy It's what I always wished for So why do I replay the past and live in Life's remorse ? My former days were filled with hurt and pain beyond compare So why can't I just walk away and leave it right back there ? Will I undermine what I have now ? The pleasures of this Mate ? Will I find a way to save this day Before it is too late ? I'm talking to myself out loud and wonder why I do this. At first I thought that I could write and find some therapy thru it Can I let go - should I release the lessons that I learned ? Am I afraid that I might persuade my memory to return? I pray each day - to find the way To shift toward second gear I must refrain from my former pain and find my way from here To forward walk, and talk the talk No longer peruse the curse unstick the shift of life's past drift no longer in Reverse. |