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By Mercy Echenique Date: 2009 Apr 24 Comment on this Work [[2009.04.24.19.42.14373]] |
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02/03/2009 What is this feeling? Why do I have the need to always cry in the dark? Why is it that everytime I'm alone in my room, I break down in tears? Sometimes I feel so alone. I feel like I have no one. I am once again in my depression phase. All I want to do is get on my bed, crawl under the sheets, and sleep. Why can't I be happy? Why is it that I must always be sad? I've cried so much that my eyes are dry, yet I still have tears left to continue to cry and my face always remains to be wet. Tears flow like a waterfall, fast, hard, salty, and wet.Once happy eyes, are now sad. There's this feeling inside me that I just can't shake. I feel so isolated from the world, like I have no one. Someone told me, when you fee alone, turn to god, but I feel like god has abandoned me and turned his back on me as well. I cry out for you, screaming my lungs out to be heard, yet in the most quietest room, I am not heard, all that's there is silence. They say death is bittersweet, bitter in the death, sweet in the salvation. I want the savior to come for me, I'm tired of living life in lies and pain, I have served my purpose, to make others happy, to not fight with your fellow brothers and sisters, to cherish and appreciate what you have. I've left my mark. I'm done here, I'm ready to move on to the next world. Take me here and now, for I am tired of living in agony. All I want is to be happy. Do I not deserve it? They say if you want something bad enough, you'll get it. Well I want to get out of here. Leave this god forsaken place where people are so hateful and full of sin. They don't deserve to be saved, but what makes me think I do? What makes me better than these humans? Aren't we all alike? We talk crap about one another, lie, cheat, steal, act worse than the animals. They behave better than us humans ourselves. Well, I guess for now I'll have to stay in this pathetic world, for if I'm in god's plan, he'll take me not when I'm ready, but when he needs me... |