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By Crystal Date: 2010 Dec 30 Comment on this Work [[2010.12.30.23.05.19093]] |
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You intrigued me. I wanted to understand you. I wanted to go out of my way to get to know the real you. I found you so admirable. I found myself with goosebumps, my heart racing reading the words you would type. For one conversation, within a matter of moments. I saw the real you, my heart dropped. I gasped reading every line of it. But I've not seen that from you since as though the text faded from the screen. So I wonder, why you closed yourself off. I want you to know that it's okay if you didn't mean the words you said to include me. I won't cry or be hurt. I will only smile because for a brief while you gave me the pleasure of feeling I had a heartfelt conversations with you, for one short while you gave me the fantasy of being with a man that wanted the same thing I did only to love and be loved, and that in itself was something I'd not experienced my entire life. I thank you for allowing me to enjoy your friendship regardless of it's short visit. It was special to me to know that there really are men out there that feel as lonely as what I hide from others behind all the positivity and smiles I sometimes paint on my face like makeup covering blemishes. You made me want you. You made me want to be yours and those are the words I've typed myself many years ago, my text faded as yours did never to be mentioned again until now. For one short time my heart intertwined with yours. *SWOON* |