By Marfell1964
Submitted by marfell1964
Date: 2012 Jun 17
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Settling

4:30 am most days
When I wake
And it only 
Takes seconds 
To remember 
Second failed marriage 
And the need 
To
Suck it up
And move on...
Both times
My fault
I settled..
When I knew
I shouldn't. 
My need to please..
From long ago.
Brutal hour and twenty minute
Commute..
But cradled in 
The arms of
People who
Love me.
All black most days...
Dressed for the city..
In the city..
City busy..
City weary.
All my mistakes 
Cloud my head.
But on that 
 Commute home..
When I leave
The interstate 
And hit the 
Two lane..
I feel the shift..
I turn off the air..
Roll down the windows..
Smell that black dirt.
Feel the open space.
I slip off my heels
Drive barefoot...
Wind blowing
Messing' up my
City hair.
Turn the music up
Remember who I am..
And promise myself..
No more settling. 
This time
It's all me.