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By Irongirl Date: 2017 Jul 07 Comment on this Work [[2017.07.07.23.14.30024]] |
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3:18am I've just laid down next to you again and placed my hand on your right arm. Still molecules exist between my palm and your skin. Slow, heavy breathing sounds orchestrate the memory I'm forming in my head of how you feel. The shape of your arm. The goose bumps on your bicep. The smell of your t-shirts. Oh. My. The smell of YOUR t-shirts. The shivering your form took earlier tonight when crying and ending us. The disbelief that still covers my eyes as I count the seconds of you until morning. My heart has never been SO sad. So forever sad. I won't blink or sleep despite the exhaustion from hours of tears. Forming a deep core memory of you from head to toe to rely on in days to come when I can barely breathe out of nowhere. No one as good and kind and wonderful has ever liked me, even for a minute. To have a whole month of you was a gift. I didn't know. I didn't know my crime. I was never given a chance to right the wrong you felt from me. 1 strike and I was out. If there was a way to exit this world while still holding you I would pick this moment. 6:22 AM. You stir and my horrible nightmare begins without you. With my Freeze-ray I will stop - the pain. |