By Farah
Submitted by twisted_lie
Date: 2017 Aug 22
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Total eclipse of the heart

Of all the things I felt, sadness prevailed today.
I don't know why but every single bone in my body just hurt.
I felt the tissues in my heart being ripped.
Like someone just pulled the inside of my bowels and stirred everything up there.
I'm sad because what I felt inside could not be measured in words.
I felt hurt.
I gave you power over me.
I let myself get caught up in a sort of fairytale, but we all know there's no such thing.
I felt hurt because I wanted to believe that for once I was enough.
But no.
You think it's a silly thing but I tried to tell you over and over again how difficult it is for me to trust someone. I hated you.
I really did,because I knew you would not understand how much these little things trigger awful feelings and dark thoughts in me.
My heart aches and I hate you for that.
Embrace for impact.
Total shutdown.