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By Farah Submitted by twisted_lie Date: 2017 Aug 22 Comment on this Work [[2017.08.22.02.24.10388]] |
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Of all the things I felt, sadness prevailed today. I don't know why but every single bone in my body just hurt. I felt the tissues in my heart being ripped. Like someone just pulled the inside of my bowels and stirred everything up there. I'm sad because what I felt inside could not be measured in words. I felt hurt. Powerless. I gave you power over me. I let myself get caught up in a sort of fairytale, but we all know there's no such thing. I felt hurt because I wanted to believe that for once I was enough. But no. You think it's a silly thing but I tried to tell you over and over again how difficult it is for me to trust someone. I hated you. I really did,because I knew you would not understand how much these little things trigger awful feelings and dark thoughts in me. My heart aches and I hate you for that. Embrace for impact. Total shutdown. |