By you have ransacked my heart
Submitted by Ali
Date: 2007 Jun 12
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an old love, a new pain.

There was so much
and then so little—but
how familiar it seems,
in the little heaves of silence,
old mistakes limping by, outrun
by each quick disaster:
how could you not know?
It seems too easy to pretend.

The phone swallowed my hand:
the circle of a snake, kneeling
in a wayward Eden—
I will dial the numbers, but to what end?
You no longer wear my face,
and I seem to only brandish yours
in response to this:
again,
you have ransacked my heart.

Which part forgets, and which
strike of innocence is remembered?
An untrained soldier once, could I now be
a casualty uncounted?  The truth
seems more possible than all this is worth,
and I am only angry outside of your eyes.

There was so much
and then so little—
but unregretting, unrelenting, unacknowledging
you consume (and then spit out)
every breaking point
of my resistance—
I would hate you,
but deeper than this surface rage,
I know,
I know I can’t.