From: DeJaya<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Michael--no need to change your name.  it doesn't hurt anymore.  it's nice to know you're here.  i will just try to fade once again.  back to where i've been..."don't go changin' to try and please me..."<BR>
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To everyone else...great stuff!!
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From: Kiwi<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

My cat's name is Daisy May!! No joke! :-P
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From: Paul B<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Whew...finally caught up on the new stuff.  I sent Nikki and Megs attaboys for a couple of theirs.  And Sara - In The Morning was very good too!
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From: Eric, [email-masked]<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Megs,<BR>
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hey, my cousin, umm....to stay safe from personal stuff that i realized you unleased on this site, I strayed from reading your comments, so as to not pry...i search for my name on the board and respond accordingly....and even though i think i have an idea as to what you're talking about...i don't.  so...you have NO worries there<BR>
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but don't let me know, because i wouldn't feel right keeping it from someone, anyone, even with blood and its consistency....:-) soo....just don't refer to whatever you're talking about, and my name on here and we'll be fine, cause...i mean, i'm pretty bad about coming here and reading stuff, so, like i said before, don't worry
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From: Kiwi *gushing*<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Michael~ I love the Grandpa poem!!!!!! 
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From: nikki<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Gala--the story is unfolding nicely....keep it up woman..<BR>
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The new subs are great...I am forever amazed at the amount of talent in one place...<BR>
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personal note...disregard my latest...the product of an over-active imagination, thinking there is something where quite possibly is nothing...<BR>
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pondering the length of a love affair...nikki
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From: Michael<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Kiwi ~ Thank you for the comment. My grandpa is AWESOME. <BR>
Luca and violet...hmm...what about moonflower and anastasia? ;-)<BR>
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You ever see a bruce lee movie? I'll embrace and extend a <BR>
quote of his. <BR>
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I do not write. &lt;waves keyboard&gt; The words write themselves.<BR>
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Words unsaid richoet in you head. And if you ignore them you'll end up dead (inside). So you should just say them or write them instead because if you don't they will build up until you can contain them no longer. You can get RSI or ulcers or headaches or all sorts of stress related things if you don't just let it out.<BR>
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And you post here, so I'm preaching to the choir. At least that's what I think. Sorry I'm rambling. Can't ... stop... rambling...<BR>
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Dejaya ~ Well its good to know that I'm not hurting you. Next time please send me an email response to a stupid question I ask instead of posting something that I will misunderstand. I need more context. I mean I'll misunderstand anyway because I don't speak Dejayese but the phrase "You know." and a old poem don't come across as clear on this end. I finally and only dimly remember you did read that poem to me a long time ago after some hurtful exchange of words was said but ?before? some other positive things happened? I would talk about this more in email but it is past and it doesn't matter that much anyway. I think I got what you wanted me to get.<BR>
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Even though you inspired me to write some really good pissed off poetry it brought me down when I was already pushing my luck. I had just gotten back from a party it wasn't practical to go to at 2 am where I had fun and flirted a bit with a brilliant beautiful woman and rereading that brought me so down from fairly high because I had no context. And I wrote "Words" in 2.5 hours and I had to get on a plane 4 hours later, and I got very little sleep because I had to pack afterward and I couldn't stop typing because as I said to Kiwi --<BR>
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I do not write. &lt;waves keyboard. Martial arts noises.&gt; The words write themselves.<BR>
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And also -- don't worry about posting as yourself. You don't have to do this D.L. thing either. (I'm guessing it's you because it sounds like you and it mentions smoking and fidgety feet and some negativity and an inability to not look outside the window and I rememeber your middle name.) If you're posting as someone not you, I'll just end up wondering if it's you anyway. It's not like I don't have samples of your writing almost memorized and plenty of experience recognizing the confusing collection of your thoughts. Even if I can't understand them. And if you need to trouble me -- still -- I can listen (or read). Without having to understand or even trying to. And it's really easy to listen if I'm not one of the people that is involved in the thing you're talking about.<BR>
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deevaa and megs ~ I think breven is a Fantasy RPG style name. Sounds like a half-elf fighter. Geek? me? No whatever gave you that idea? Anyway it's weird but not bad weird just weird. Adetokunbo ?? I don't even know how to break that down into hooked on phonics. =) There's nothing wrong with Daisy.<BR>
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Sometime soon I will post something I wrote for Candace. Candy. Mmm..Sweet..beautiful candy..<BR>
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sarah [email-masked] ~ I read "in the morning" and I really like it and wrote a sort of mirror image to it -- as homage -- embrace and extend -- but I don't know if I should post it because it's sort of copying. Anyway I think it's great and if you want me to I'll send you my "modified copy"<BR>
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I think I'm abusing the message board now. <BR>
Goodnight everyone. And if I post tomorrow you must all call me a lazy bum because I'm going to read some poetry  at a friend's bonfire. I will be there to get numbers and make new friends.
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From: Deb<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

I swear I corrected the word "Rhythm" after leaving out the first "h" in my haste this morning getting ready for work.<BR>
I hate when Im careless.  Please forgive me Blenderites.<BR>
I cant let that remain uncorrected.  
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From: Megs<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Any name would have been a crappy name because I am clear through irritated about the INCONVENIENCE of a baby in the whole situation that is already too complex.  *sigh*  Ok inconvience is a bad word for this ummm...it just seems like one of those insurmountable things.  I mean...hello...a baby.  Much more important than anything else.  With the ex...which gives her the baby card to play when she needs him.  *sigh*   Not that he is paying much attention to me anyways...I did the obligatory congratulations and we talked for a few (about Breven :P)<BR>
Don't want to throw anything heavy on him right now anyways...just playing it cool.<BR>
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Auntie Gala-  Thanks for the talk yesterday.  Somehow it fortified me...*grin*<BR>
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Dee-  TK is going to be one of the few wonderful men around...save him for me.  Age is all relative.  LOL.  <BR>
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From: Angel<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Dee, I'm so glad Brandi was a girl. She could have been HARLAND RUFUS!!!!! LMAO
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From: Angel<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Sarah~I liked the mystique of "Captured"...And I love STRONG messages in few words...good one:)
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From: Angel<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Crystevin~"Battered and Tattered", good play on words.:)
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From: Angel<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Moonrise~yes, i do...and i thought "Poof" was very well written...nice flow:)
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From: Angel<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Gala~ Great start on the Manifest Destiny...like your pen name :) Hate the EARL...can you have him burned at the stake or something...or perhaps trampled by a carriage an drug a couple hundred feet or so...? I am eagerly awaiting the next chapter.
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From: Gala<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Hey Angel---<BR>
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            Well irony would demand that the Earl gets offer by a nasty bit o'crumpet...but if that's not my chapter, I won't have any say...so what do you think guys? Is this lighting up the creative fires out there?<BR>
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            okay---another couple of pages and I'm handing over the baton...who wants the next crack?
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From: Megs<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Yelling waaaaaaaaaay up to Angel- Thanks for the compliment on "He Knows"  Me? Profound?  Alright...I'll take that. *grin*<BR>
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Eric-  I appreciate your silence.  And your not reading into this.  If it makes you feel any better I told Calvin some.  But we are keeping it all between us.  I do love him sweets.  I just need to love ME first.  'Sides you SHOULD read some of my poems...topic aside the aren't half bad.  <BR>
(((Hugs)))<BR>
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Dee-  I sent you an email but it bounced back at me...did I mistake your address?  I could use some of the wisdom of the Divine Kiwi Goddess...*grin*  <BR>
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And Fairy Godmother-  Wonderful job handling the first chapter...I couldn't follow THAT act...slide me in the middle somewhere.
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From: Gala<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

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We've had the "name" talk before---so y'all know why I hate my "real" name...but then Chuck  I waxed way poetic...and named my little girl Desiree Angelique...so I judge no one!<BR>
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P&gt;S&gt; I meant to say that the Earl gets "offed" not offered...
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From: Angel<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Ashley~"My Bliss", was a beautiful read:)
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Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Angel- thanks for the comliment, it means a lot, it helps me keep writing, even when I'm unsure.  By the way, I enjoyed "Inhale" very much!!<BR>
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Megs- I love all your new submissions, especially the "Summer" one and "Heart Broken". I have a quote on my profile that I thought you might like, when I read all the stuff your going through, it reminded me of it.  <BR>
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 "Everything ends up okay, if it's not okay, then it's not over yet"  , Im not sure who said it, but it helps me smile, even when it's hard.
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From: Ashley Skye<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Angel- thanks for the comliment, it means a lot, it helps me keep writing, even when I'm unsure.  By the way, I enjoyed "Inhale" very much!!<BR>
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Megs- I love all your new submissions, especially the "Summer" one and "Heart Broken". I have a quote on my profile that I thought you might like, when I read all the stuff your going through, it reminded me of it.  <BR>
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 "Everything ends up okay, if it's not okay, then it's not over yet"  , Im not sure who said it, but it helps me smile, even when it's hard.
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From: Kiwi<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Michael~ Thank's for sharing your Bruce Lee quote... I wasn't familiar with it. :-) Are you making fun of my childrens' names? *grrrowl* :-P j/k!
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From: Michael [email-masked]<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Kiwi ~ The quote is from bruce lee talking about martial arts and how to fight. I find it applies to a lot of other things. <BR>
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More context =<BR>
From "Enter the dragon"<BR>
" Bruce Lee : A good martial artist does not become tense but ready, not thinking yet not dreaming, ready for whatever may come. When the opponent expands I contract, when he contracts I expand and when there is an opportunity I do not hit, &lt;waves fist&gt; it hits all by itself.<BR>
"
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From: Michael <BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Oh and there's nothing wrong with strange names. My mother almost named me "Long" which means Dragon. I don't remember what the middle name she was going to give me was. If I was going to a girl I would have been Christina Que-Ling. I don't remember what que-ling means. Some type of flower. I would not like to be a flower. Weeds live easier.
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From: deevaa<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Megs the most common mistake is that it is deevaa with TWO e's and TWO a's.... most people put deeva.  <BR>
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my email address is [email-masked]<BR>
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Micheal... you are sweet.<BR>
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Dana ... &lt;grining&gt; its your turn to email! a you owe me a LONG email.... <BR>
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Hey Gala -- I've got a friend coming this weekend to do a photo shoot with me, maybe I could get a long raven wig and do the cover shots for the story while we are at it. &lt;giggling&gt;<BR>
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Kev glad to see you back, I got your mail, I'll reply later once I reply to Gala's cause she is being very un-fairy like and tugging my hair.<BR>
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dee<BR>

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From: Gala<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Unfairy-like? You Kiwi Tart!  Kev---Terry---she's being mean to me!!!!!!!!!HUMMMPH...just for that, you take the next chapter....
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From: deevaa<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Gala -- no not me, after all I am doing the cover shoot this weekend, I vote for Megs because she is very charged emotionally this month AND she needs something to distract her away from boys............. &lt;smiles&gt; hands up who agrees.<BR>
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dee
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From: HMS<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Gala--<BR>
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Great idea.  I vote for Megs, too.  Please please don't assign me anything until I'm done teaching (6/9)!  I'm eagerly awaiting every page--it's just great.  (The earl getting offed by a bit o' crumpet is de rigeur, I do agree.)  You'll be a tough act to follow, but I think the Blender is up to it.  But how's about sending ALL of us (not just the kiwi faction) your thumbnail sketch of the events of the day?  Shoot, I mean, U.S. History was a LONNNNGGG time ago for some of us...ahem...more MATURE Blenderers.  (If you're willing, my e-mail is [email-masked].)  Merci, madame!
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From: kevin urenda<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

back from the road trip (LATE on Monday) and caught up (almost) with everything...  A lot has happened in the last week (and not just to me, obviously).  There is much to be said...<BR>
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The one thing that will become indelible upon me is that I can no longer ever see any of you as simply emoting electrons...  pseudonyms and fantasies cannot affect any of us as only real people can...<BR>
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With that, I must respond to commentary during my absence...<BR>
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Someone mentioned love is simple.  Yes and no, I say.  Love IS simple, at its root; and lovers 'just know'...  but if it is real, it also will hold neither simplicity nor certitude...  the definitive dichotomy, love is........<BR>
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Michael-<BR>
thanks for what you said...  btw, I am not a Texas-phile, but neither can I disdain it - my parents met and were married there.  And I have many pleasant memories of time spent in Texas.<BR>
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Megs-<BR>
I wasn't AWOL, I HAD that leave coming!!!  I needed a long trip to clear my head (most of my 4 days away were spent alone on the road).  I hope I have begun to make up for not being here when you needed me...<BR>
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Dee-<BR>
Thanks for missing me too!  Now you and I have something in common...  Also, the sentiment you showed in "for Megs" melts the heart of this friend of you both.<BR>
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Angel-<BR>
Thanks for missing me!  &lt;wink&gt;  Like I said, you'll have to bug heart and Katie for the pix...  Mixing in poetry comments - I liked the idea of "Like kittens" because I believe I know how playful you are.  And your "Answer for Meg" I know came from your heart...  And thank you for the imagery of the sea (as I have commented on before) in "love tide."  The rhythms of the ocean have always been soothing to me...<BR>
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And you, Megs...<BR>
Only you can sort through the situation you are dealing with 24/7, but you know those of us who know and love you support you no matter what...  My Lord, though, girl...  What breathtaking poetry...  "Pandora's Box," "Musing," "When its Morning," "Leap of Faith," and "Carried Away By Moonlight" all had something in them that took my breath away (the author?)...  and you wondered where your inspiration was...  <BR>
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MVR-<BR>
"Held" is a poignant work.  From it I can tell what he means to you...<BR>
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gup-<BR>
I sure recognized the face I saw in "whine and cheese."  Thanks for the memory.<BR>
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HMS-<BR>
the "heady flow of joy" you mention in "State of grace" is most certainly your due...<BR>
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sarah-<BR>
the last few lines of "in the morning" are incredibly evocative...  that sense of alienation is something *none* of us is due...<BR>
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Debra-<BR>
I adored the image of "...the edge of the world / where our lips first met."  You captured that sense of excited discovery quite well...<BR>
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Lastly, as in saving the best for...<BR>
Gala...<BR>
one word - wow.<BR>
The juxtaposition (though perhaps not intentional) of "Erotic Empathy" with "Regrets Only" displayed to this reader an incredible range...  of a heart that has loved much...<BR>
I KNOW exactly what you meant with "Don't."  Sadly, I've been in the vicinity of that place too...<BR>
But the emotion you evoke with "If I Should Cry Before I Wake..." made me FEEL it deeply.  Very powerful...<BR>
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that's all for now...  Great work, fellow Blenderites...<BR>
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k<BR>
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p.s.  I want a chapter WAY later in this ripping story...  Personally, I wanna be seared several times with those green eyes before I even go near our heroine...
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From: Paul B<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Deb,<BR>
   Don't sweat the mistake.  I just submitted one and overlooked a typo.  one = once!<BR>
   Not the first, most likely not the last.
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From: Eric, [email-masked]<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Megs,<BR>
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trust me Megs, I've been readin' the poems...I didn't think that leaving you a message could justify their great ability to captivate the reader...i figured the poems speak for themselves...they're obviously good, i mean, look at all the people talking about them.  I knew that eventually all that writing we did as kids would pay off...I mean come on...when at 9 years of age, we write 'Was It Real'...destined for greatness pops into the head...maybe lol<BR>
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Definition Section:<BR>
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greatness - Publishing poetry on Loveblender.com<BR>
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But Megs, one suggestion for future reference with relationships and so on and so forth...why oh why post comments about your relationship on a website???  that is almost ASKING for it to come back on you....and you want to be a lawyer...i'm ashamed :-) lol  love you sweetie<BR>

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From: nikki<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Hello All!<BR>
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Megs--that is some great stuff you submitted.  I especially like Thoughts You Won't Hear...just because I chave seen myself saying these things and more out loud.<BR>
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Sarah--Energy Drain is really good...I know you didn't mean it as poetry..and what do I know...I liked it anyway.<BR>
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Gala--If I Should Cry  moved me almost to tears...and Manifest Destiny is really coming along.  I didn't even expect the mugging! (Yikes...for those who haven't read it yet...sorry :(  )<BR>
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Paul-- Love Rekindling...I really like that one too. <BR>
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You know, there are just too many that I really love being posted here.<BR>
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Kev-welcome back!  Patiently waiting to see what you have to show.<BR>
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Love you guys....Nikki<BR>
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From: Megs<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

I am not married...a harmless dallying should do my political career no harm...who here is going to tell right?  *glances nervously about*<BR>
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I volunteer for a chapter coming a lil later...thanks for the nomination there Dee...:P  I am way too busy with "boys" or rather a HIDEOUS work schedule.  And my problem with your email was I got the last part all mixed around.  WHOOPS!!!<BR>
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Thanks for all the postive words...everyone...whether they have come in an email...a phone call (FGM)...or here on the Board.  Yes, it looks crazy that I come here in this SUPER public place with my problems but...is it strange that I consider you all even perhaps on a level of understanding above my friends?<BR>
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I need my girls here to take me out for drinks and rag on men and pretend no deepness sinks inside.  I need the Blender folk to pour out my heart to and to share their own...the wisdom here is WONDERFUL.<BR>
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Love you all...Megs<BR>
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From: Megs <BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Oh and Ash- <BR>
I flipped by your profile.<BR>
I collect quotes...I have THOUSANDS!!!<BR>
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My current creed is one by Gilda Radner-<BR>
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"I always wanted a happy ending.  Now I have learned the hard way that some poems don't rhyme and some stories don't have a clear begininng, middle, and end.  Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity."<BR>
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Also I heard one- "Our lives can change with every breath we take"- from the movie trailer for "Where the Heart Is"<BR>
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Anyways...take this wisdom for what it is worth...anyone interested in massive lists of quotes...I am your source!!!<BR>
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From: Megs<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Ugh...sorry Kirk...<BR>
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Lastly to Gala- Thank you sooooo much for your poem for me...I am thinking of printing it and carrying it around as a charm, a reminder, something...anyways...its better than fairy dust.<BR>
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From: Ashley<BR>
Date: 25 May 2000<P>

Megs- I would LOVE to see your list of quotes!!! I spend a lot of time going through them and picking ones out that relate to my life! haha, Maybe Im crazy.  If you can, send me some. Thanks!!<BR>
             ashley
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