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From: Galadrial
Date: 1 March 2000



Morning all---

Dee----Just 'cause----Oh lord woman, you really know how!

And Gup---the tulip thing---the vase of---imagery proved to be a bit stunning with my morning cup of joe----surprised you didn't call it "Flowers By Lorena"---
but I liked it much....

And Caly Lady---your last was like a perfect flaky croissant, many layered and buttery....you go girl.


Megs? Think nothing of it---fairy godmothers have to earn their wings....


Gala


From: Angel
Date: 1 March 2000

just 'cause~by Dee
and
between the lines~ by Kevin
made me <sigh>

Angel *SMILE*


From: Misti
Date: 1 March 2000

Megs,
The engineer of my train is always drunk, the bastard. Ha! No, I didn't get wacky in the photo booth with Toby Keith. I'm definitely not a Toby Keith groupie. In fact, we left Billy Bob's before he even took the stage. Step-dad #2 felt "convicted." The Holy Spirit told him he'd had enough hedonism for one night and it was time to scoot his boots out the door. Sometimes I think I'd be better off if I'd been raised by a pack of wolves...
Anyway, I was alone in the photo booth. Same photo booth I hung out in with my ex last summer. I was feeling nostalgic.
*** I have a new computer now but it's worthless 'cause when I try to get connected to my ISP it tells me Can't Find Modem. This sucks. I was up until two o'clock in the morning trying to figure it out. I was so looking forward to the ICQ thing. Truth be told, that's the only reason I got the computer. People don't talk on the phone anymore.
*** My screenplay will be completed when I get to SCENE 90.


From: deevaa
Date: 1 March 2000

thanks Angel, thanks Gala

Its my wedding anniversary today... sad day.

dee


From: Calypso
Date: 1 March 2000

Gala,

Croissants, hmmm? How'd you know they were my favorite romantic breakfast food? I really did like your analogy...Thanks!


From: Misti
Date: 1 March 2000

I'm online! Yay! Tonight I'm going to light candles and write poetry and drink beer and celebrate life.


From: Galadrial
Date: 1 March 2000

Hey Caly,

Since you write exquisitely, it would figure that you also honor the fifth food group---croissants! They're not just for romantic breakfasts anymore! But I must admit, I enjoy the help cleaning up the crumbs....


Oh, bad Gala!


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From: deevaa
Date: 1 March 2000

Team New Zealand crossed the line ahead of Prada again today - its official the America's Cup is STILL New Zealands Cup.

Team New Zealand: 5 Vs Italy's Prada challenge in Luna Rossa: 0

Riggs we may suck at Cricket, but we KNOW how to sail (that - and our boats don't break in half...*wink* )

dee


From: Riggs
Date: 1 March 2000

Touche. That was an sad day for Australian sport. We do appreciate however that your boys had the decency to fish us out of the water.

Thanks Galadrial, I actually thought the last piece I did was pretty mushy, but hey, you get that sometimes I suppose.


From: Misti
Date: 2 March 2000

I don't know anything about any sports in any country. I've been online since 4:30 hanging out in Yahoo chat rooms. I finally found a cosmic connection in the Love Stinks chat room. Totally hit it off with this crazed animal character. We were both goofy. I pretended to feed him peanuts. He asked for cashews. I told him I ate 'em all. Threw him some pistachios. We discussed the Doors and Jim Morrison's poetry. Come to find out, the dude is 45 years old! But that's fine. We had fun. I'm just rambling 'cause I have my own computer now and I want everyone to know how happy I am. Now I'm going to try to do the ICQ thing.
:)Misti, a PC owner


From: Galadrial
Date: 2 March 2000

Hey Riggs,

Hmmmm...Vivisection of love, huh? Not for me to judge dear heart---but I live in a culture that rewards women for being pretty boxes. Perhaps it's different Down Under? So long as men play that particular tune, they shouldn't be affronted to find that it's usually the only game in town---and that the fanciest package usually is put around the the dullest product.


So Says Gala


From: Galadrial
Date: 2 March 2000


Madison---


I'm struggling here---Reunion...dear lord---such amazing range of texture and emotion, tightly woven into such a tapestry....

Maybe I should give up my feeble attempts... I not only love it---I'm completely consumed with pea green jealousy and envy...

Not the best shade for an elf...


Gala


From: kevin urenda
Date: 2 March 2000

Madison-
I agree with Gala, in the sense that the texture of "Reunion d'amour" has a very high thread count... exsquisitely done...

Gala (and everyone else within ear, er, EYE shot)-
Poets are sharing of themselves here as mirrors of truths... EVERY one has their own truths to express, so trust your poetic voices...

so says a humble poet

k


From: Misti
Date: 2 March 2000

Madison,
I remember Buda! I used to drive through Buda to get to Austin from San Marcos. Love the poem, btw!


From: deevaa
Date: 2 March 2000

<shivers> ohhhhh man, gupp, whoooooaaaaa.... god!

You = freak.


From: kate
Date: 2 March 2000

Many have mentioned here the book "Reflections on a Gift of Watermelon Pickle" - any suggestions on where I could locate a copy?


From: Megs
Date: 2 March 2000

Ok I finally jumped on this ICQ bandwagon (and figured it out all by myself I add) so everyone tell me your names or numbers or whatever the hell they give you so I can have ICQ friends :)

Hehe...I have a new toy to play with...
Megs


From: Misti
Date: 2 March 2000

Megs,
My ICQ handle is Becca.


From: Madison
Date: 2 March 2000

It's been the most exceptional day, from daybreak till the moment I just walked back in the door. Now the things you sweet sweet guys have said, I'm smiling all over :)


From: deevaa
Date: 2 March 2000

Madison... do tell


From: Megs
Date: 2 March 2000

Misti-
And anyone else-
I am MegAngel on ICQ (Yup original but...if I get too mixed up in names I forget them)

But Misti I couldn't find you to add you? Too many Becca's?
What email did you put on ICQ?


From: deevaa
Date: 3 March 2000

and Megs... I am deevaa all lower case - the only one there...


From: kevin urenda
Date: 3 March 2000

Megs-
I THINK I requested authorization of the right one of you (there are several megangels on ICQ - well, okay, only five!)

k


From: Galadrial
Date: 3 March 2000

Oh that will teach me to make a sub a 2:45 a.m. again---the word in the description was supposed to be "warm" not "eram" or whatever I botched....


and Dee---you're known as Deevaa all over?
Dee=MAJOR FLIRT And you tell people WHAT about me?
Sheesh...Still making mud pies in that department, whereas you have the advanced degree...

Dr. Deevaa, TPF----Trans Pacific Flirt?

(running quickly to avoid hurled objects of blunt heavy nature...)



Gala




From: Misti <ebullientchica@icqmail.com>
Date: 3 March 2000

Megs,
I should have tried harder to be more original! I'm very disappointed in myself. Anyway, e-mail me and I'll send ya my number!
:)one in a million becca's


From: Megs
Date: 3 March 2000

Deevaa- The one and only...actually I found two of you and one said authorize and one said allow so I just did both cause Heck if I understand this thing yet :)

Kev- How do I find you?

Hopelessly confused but having fun...
Megs


From: Misti
Date: 3 March 2000

Megs,
I just read your two newest submissions. Muy bueno, chica! Damn, wish I could've written that well when I was your age...many moons ago. Ha!
:)misti


From: deevaa
Date: 3 March 2000

*winks@Gala* Dr deevaa TPF ... I think I like it!! I'm either, dee or deevaa or Davena EVERYWHERE - oh I am sure a few folks call me other things behind my back, but this girl doesn't mind that much.

Megs - there is 4 versions of deevaa in all on ICQ, but only one all in lower case.. that is me - the one with Deevaa was me before I forgot my password. I can't get into that one any more so you might as well delete it.

Happy Saturday Morning ya'll

dee



From: Megs
Date: 3 March 2000

Misti---"When I was your age..." Tell me about that long ago day Grandma Ebullience ;) 'Sides I am an old old soul...wise beyond my not even two decades. <sigh> Its a burden I tell ya.

Deeva---Gotcha. Knew one of them had to be the Kiwi Chick.

Kev--- I have a feeling if you requested authorization you got the wrong girl. E-mail me and I will give you the #
Megangel25@yahoo.com

Have a great weekend kiddies :)
Megs


From: misti
Date: 3 March 2000

megs,
when i was a youngster, we had these things called 8-tracks and there was no MTV ('til I was nine)...there was just Wolfman Jack on the radio and John Belushi on "Saturday Night Live." Those were the days..."The Banana Splits" and "Captain Kangaroo" and "321 Contact" and Otter Pops and roller rinks. Ha!!! Why didn't you send me a message after I authorized you?????
* a quizzical, troubled old timer*


From: Megs
Date: 3 March 2000

Woman you must be senile in your old age. You never authorized me while I was on. Then I had to leave without the privelage of talking to the one in a millionth Becca.

Did share a nice convo with Deevaa though...:)

Anyways I had to leave ICQ back at school as I headed home for a weekend of relaxation. Talk to you Sunday. You BETTER get on there and I BETTER be authorized...or I will kick your geriatric butt ;)

What IS an 8-track anyway?

*giggles*
Megs


From: yustas kotz-gottlieb
Date: 3 March 2000

Blue Reincarnation
Narcissus, oil painting by Jaisini

By Yustas Kotz-Gottlieb:

The theme of Narcissus in Jaisini's "Blue..." may be paralleled with the problem of the two-sexes-in-one, unable to reproduce and, therefore, destined to the Narcissus-like end.

Meanwhile, the Narcissus legend lasts.

In the myth of Narcissus a youth gazes into the pool. As the story goes, Narcissus came to the spring or the pool and when his form was seen by him in the water, he drowned among the water-nymphs because he desired to make love to his own image.

Maybe the new Narcissus, as in "Blue Reincarnation," is destined to survive by simply changing his role from a passive man to an aggressive woman and so on. To this can be added that, eventually, a man creates a woman whom he loves out of himself or a woman creates a man and loves her own image but in the male form.

The theme of narcissism recreates the 'lost object of desire.' "Blue" also raises the problem of conflating ideal actual and the issue of the feminine manhood and masculine femininity. There is another story about Narcissus' fall which said that he had a twin sister and they were exactly alike in appearance. Narcissus fell in love with his sister and, when the girl died, would go to the spring finding some relief for his love in imagining that he saw not his own reflection but the likeness of his sister.

"Blue" creates a remarkable and complex psychopathology of the lost, the desired, and the imagined. Instead of the self, Narcissus loves and becomes a heterogeneous sublimation of the self.

Unlike the Roman paintings of Narcissus which show him alone with his reflection by the pool, the key dynamic in Jaisini's "Blue" is the circulation of the legend that does not end and is reincarnated in transformation when autoeroticism is not permanent and is not single by definition.

In "Blue," we risk being lost in the double reflection of a mirror and never being able to define on which side of the mirror Narcissus is. The picture's color is not a true color of spring water. This kind of color is a perception of a deep seated human belief in the concept of eternity, the rich saturated cobalt blue. The ultrahot, hyperreal red color of the figure of Narcissus is not supposed to be balanced in the milieu of the radical blue. Jaisini realizes the harmony in the most exotic color combination.

While looking at "Blue," we can recall the spectacular color of night sky deranged by a vision of some fierce fire ball. The disturbance of colors create some powerful and awe-inspiring beauty.

In the picture's background, we find the animals' silhouettes which could be a memory reflection or dream fragments. In the story, Narcissus has been hunting - an activity that was itself a figure for sexual desire in antiquity. Captivated by his own beauty, the hunter sheds a radiance that, one presumes, reflects to haunt and foster his desire. The flaming color of the picture's Narcissus alludes to the erotic implications of the story and its unresolved problem of the one who desires himself and is trapped in the erotic delirium.

The concept can be applied to an ontological difference between the artist's imitations and their objects. In effect, Jaisini's Narcissus could epitomize artistic aspiration to control levels of reality and imagination, to align the competition of art and life, of image with imaginable prototype.

Jaisini's "Blue" is a unique work that adjoins reflection to reality without any instrumentality. "Blue" is a single composition that depicts the reality and its immediate reflection. Jaisini builds the dynamics of desire between Narcissus and his reflection-of-the-opposite by giving him the signs of both sexes,but not for the purpose of creating a hermaphrodite.

The case of multiple deceptions in "Blue" seems to be vital to the cycle of desire. Somehow it reminds one of the fate of the artists and their desperate attempts to evoke and invent the nonexistent.

"Blue" is a completely alien picture to Jaisini's "Reincarnation" series. The pictures of this series are painted on a plain ground of canvas that produces the effect of free space filled with air. "Blue," to the contrary, is reminiscencent of an underwater lack of air; the symbolism of this picture's texture and color contributes to the mirage of reincarnation.

"Blue Reincarnation" (Oil painting) by Paul Jaisini,
New York 2000, Text Copyright: Yustas Kotz-Gottlieb
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED
Send private comments to author Yustas61@aol.com


From: Ashley Skye Ash10782@aol.com
Date: 4 March 2000

Hey everyone, I just thougth I would intoduce myself, as I feel i know some of you from reading your work, whch I want to say is very inspiring to me. I never have really written poetry, but as every day goes by, and I am faced with new problems, I have been writing them down. They are words that I don't take a lot of time to think about, and most of them are quite simple. I have read many wonderful poems in the Loveblender that I know really come from the heart, as mine do. They are structured and written so well, that I hope one day I can write like that also. If anyone reads my work and has any suggestions or constructive critism, I would love to hear it, I would appreciate it.


From: Ryan , Misti's lil' cousin
Date: 4 March 2000

Misti,
I've been trying to find you on the internet. If you havent gotten the e-mail yet my e-mail address is cactus_jack_wwf_2000@yahoo.com. E-mail me!
Ryan
P,S: Sorry to misti for sending this on the blender!!


From: Madison
Date: 4 March 2000

To someone who just submitted an *original* work: You can't change a few lyrics of a song (Misty Blue, just as an example) and then call it yours, anymore than you can drive down the road, stop to repaint someone's house trim, and think you own the deed to the house.


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 4 March 2000

March Digest is here.

Does anyone know what that Yustas art critique is all about?


From: deevaa
Date: 4 March 2000

goofy pic Kirk!! hehe... nope no clue about the art critic - was hoping you'd tell us!


From: msj
Date: 4 March 2000

Kirk--Congratulations! That is awesome that you and Mo are finally together forever. She'll have lots of beautiful poetry to look forward to for a long time to come.


From: poetwench
Date: 5 March 2000

Congrats to the happy couple...talk about a love story for the new millenium...and where I ask, is the media coverage?I'm far more impressed with a tale of living, loving, and that ultimate yes, then 50 beach bunnies on parade for some rancid little despot....

And my thanks Kirk---Prism was me playing again...and anyone who tries to suggest that wizards, dragons, unicorns and other such are mythical---therefore made up, will have me to contend with.

Prove they are real? Okay. Right after you show me what love looks like...because "proving" that love is real is an equivalent task! So I will believe in dragons, gnomes, unicorns and love---and other rare but wonderous beasties....


The Wench


From: Madison
Date: 5 March 2000

(pssssst.... take a look at the very top of the March 2000 Blender. Is THAT cool, or what?)


From: poetwench
Date: 5 March 2000

Fardles!

I also want to give the curtsey to Toklas, Guppy, and Kev Urenda---along with the other front page picks---silly scribbler I---way impressed to be included with such a stellar cast....


The Wench....


From: Dana
Date: 5 March 2000

This is for Mark, author of "DANA"...

If you haven't already, you should show that poem to the DANA for whom it is intended... This Dana loved it. I am sure your Dana will too.


From: Toklas
Date: 5 March 2000

Dear Kirk,
Thank you for your beautiful comment about my work!
The magic has been working both ways for me here. This is a wonderful site. It has fired my creativity and given voice to my work. Thank you Kirk for all your hard work to keep this site going.

Congrats to all the Front Page pics!
Toke


From: Misti
Date: 5 March 2000

Just submitted the same poem twice by accident. Sorry 'bout that.


From: Misti
Date: 5 March 2000

Just submitted something else more than once by accident.
!!!@@@@###$$$ I worked on that poem for over an hour but I know it wasn't good enough to submit THREE times. Man oh man. I need to take a break from this computer before I throw it out the window!!!!!


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 5 March 2000

Misti, I gotta ask, how are you submitting things three times? I'm not asking in an accusing way, but I tried to make the UI so that it was rather difficult to do- just reloading doesn't do it (because the "save" script forwards you to a "Thanks" screen that doesn't do anything- and in fact, that forwarding should make it hard to use the back button to get back to the "Click to Submit" screen.


From: Misti
Date: 5 March 2000

Kirk,
When I was trying to submit stuff earlier, this box came up that said I had been disconnected. So I hit the back arrow and pushed the send button again. Kept pushing send until I got the message to go to New Submissions. I got frustrated when trying to submit the poem I wrote because it was mostly in my head and my printer isn't working. There was one misspelled word- went back to correct it and the poem was gone.


From: Goldn Boy
Date: 5 March 2000

The Goldn Boy says i love poetry! AND I LOVE LOVE STORIES! I'm a 21 year old, multi-talented sexy guy with a heart of Gold!
"
In his mind he see's himself smiling, he remembers times and days gone by, how once upon a time everything seemed crystal perfect. How at one time there were people who were really magical in his life and kept his spirits so high and sadness so far. He didn't just reach for the sky, but to the **Stars*****! But much to his dismay, those days are gone and they are never coming back..." © 2000 By TBHC

www.goldnboy.friendpages.com


From: Madison
Date: 6 March 2000

kev ~ "we love enough to wish upon ourselves" I really like that.

and Gala? is that you? have I not known all this time you are ALSO the wench? duh me. Nice work, oh wench one!

oh, one more thing... didn't mean to scold the person who sent in the Misty Blue poem. I realize we have no idea the age of people who submit, etc., but Ummm... did a little hostility show through? Didn't intend for it to, that issue just really gripes me. When someone works to create something from their heart and then it's copped, well ... to me it's a little like kidnapping, wordnapping I guess. So I aplogize for jumping on that one :)


From: ROLndo@hotmail.com
Date: 6 March 2000

it really sucked you fucken faGGET BOTH OF YALL JUST NEED TO GO SUCK MY BIG DICK


From: Gala/Poetwench
Date: 6 March 2000

Criminy....busted. Thanks Madison.

I feel the need to explain the multiple persona thing---lest someone think I play two names so one can praise the others work! That is too tacky---never done it, never will.
Actually, Mr. Urenda cracked the code a while ago...not half so clever as I immagined myself!

But we're all more than one person inside---Gala is a married woman with a child--- Poetwench can be sassy, brassy and bold without the same connotations! Some poems come from the very soul of Gala---but others are written by the evil twin werewolf chick who hides in my brain, emerging with the full moon.

I ask the pardon of the Blender for this bit of caprice on my part---Kirk in particular.


I guess the Wench is dead...I shall miss her---but since she's seeing more action then crusty old Gala, I guess I can claim her as my own.


Love to all, except Madison who blew my cover!

Galadrial
Elven Imperatrix
Elven Information Officer


From: Madison
Date: 6 March 2000

Holy Crapola!

I thought I was the ONLY one who didn't know! I am so sorry... It was about a week ago I noticed it. You'd mentioned a typo in the description line of a poem you'd written. I searched HIGH and low for a typo from one "Gala" who had posted the typo thing, and it was not to be found. Then bingo! There it was, the very same line you'd described, but not from Gala, from the Poetwench. So.... I just assumed EVERYONE knew but me, since you *were* the one to point it out.

Sorry - <Madison shrugs her shoulders and twists her mouth up in a most apologetic fashion>


From: Gala
Date: 6 March 2000

Oh Subliterate One,

The correct spelling is "faggot", from Old English, and it means a bundle of sticks...

As far as big anything is concerned, I doubt it in the extreme---roll of dimes...

How proud you mom must be!


Gala


From: Gala
Date: 6 March 2000

Oh Madison,

I love you anyway---was tired of not being able to claim the Wench's stuff anyway---and you're probably right...(sigh) Loved your pick by the way...

Gala


Date: 6 March 2000

Here it is, Gala:

From: Galadrial
Date: 3 March 2000
Oh that will teach me to make a sub a 2:45 a.m. again---the word in the description was supposed to be "warm" not "eram" or whatever I botched....

Love ya, too - I had no idea it was a secret. Thought I was just "duh" ~





From: Madison
Date: 6 March 2000

hahahaha speaking of DUH, what happened there? haha okay nice try, I'll try again:

From: Galadrial
Date: 3 March 2000
Oh that will teach me to make a sub a 2:45 a.m. again---the word in the description was supposed to be "warm" not "eram" or whatever I botched....

*hugs*



Date: 6 March 2000

ummm, hey! is the sweet elf brewing some magic? I'm feeling a little auro of greenness around me here! Honest to Cheeses, the first time I submitted the copy/paste of the "evidence" it wasn't there when I looked!

Madison


From: Galadrial
Date: 6 March 2000



Elves do not hold grudges...and you should be fine after you eat a few pounds of flies Mad...

Okay gang---now I'm curious...who really knew the Wench and Gala were related before I got "outted" by the Wench from Wisconsin?

Gala


From: Megs
Date: 6 March 2000

Gala/Wench/Fairy Godmother

I was on to you in all your personas (from the same evidence that Madison claimed nonetheless). People who have secret identities should BE more careful...tsk tsk.

Poems still wonderful no matter what the author's name.

Madison...I am glad I wasn't the one to blow her cover...but only because you got to it first *hehe*


From: Megs
Date: 6 March 2000

Misti-

Paps eating circus peanuts and watching a porno...now THERE is an image. *giggles*
Spunky ole fart isn't he?
I LIKE him lots...don't let anything sad happen.


From: GalaWench
Date: 6 March 2000

Okay Fairy God kid,


Rub it in....you really wouldn't have outted me, would you? (Gasp) Now I have to be a damned grown up...(muttering)

Gala,

Her wand wilting...


From: Misti
Date: 6 March 2000

Megs,
Funny you should mention that (not letting anything sad happen). Last week I saw a rainbow and had this vision. I remembered something a prophetess told me in church back in '97, right before I found the Blender. She told me that she saw a raincloud over my head but assured me that someday there would be a rainbow in its place. When I told her my name she really freaked out! Anyway, I thought maybe I could have Becca see a psychic in Vegas who tells her the same thing. Then she and Papaw could be drivin' along in the desert when all of a sudden she sees a rainbow and gets excited like I often do and loses control of the car. They would both die instantly. The film would end with Derek sitting in a bar remembering the karaoke experience. Then he would release two blue balloons into the sky or something Symbolic like that. Ha! My friend Paul doesn't want me to kill em off, but I can't stand the idea of Papaw going back to the nursing home!!!!!


From: Megs
Date: 6 March 2000

Misti-

While your ending has a flair for the dramatic...I can't bear to see Papaw DIE either...there has to be a good solution in there somewhere.

Funny that I am more upset at that then at the aspect of Becca dying...<is thinking> Not that I want to see her die either.

Hmmm...Becca and Papaw drive through the desert and are almost on empty and pull over at a gas station where they stumble across a lost 20 dollar bill, blow it on dollar scratch off tickets, hit the jackpot and BUY the rest home where Papaw runs it at his whims with Becca and Derek by his side and the sunsets over the roof.

Now THAT is a happy ending ;)
But do as you will...I will love it one way or the other...

Megs


From: Megs
Date: 6 March 2000

And Godmother dearest...

It was just your fairy dust making me more intuitive.
You think I would turn you in?
*gasp* NO!!!

*Loads of mischievious giggles*
Fairy girl Megs


From: Ashley
Date: 6 March 2000

Ifellapart, I don't think I have ever seen any other work by you in the blender, but I just read your whole Words Untitled, in its entirity. I couldn't stop reading it. It was different than most of the poems I read, but it was real. It was easy to understand, and every word on the paper, was about every emotion i feel too. i just was wondering how old you are?
Good Work!! Ashley


From: mEg
Date: 6 March 2000

Really enjoyed going through the March submissions tonight ...

Toklas... Reading Latin...

all I can say is.... (after I *sigh* and *close eyes* in contentment)

perfection.

mEg


From: deevaa the button bar maker
Date: 6 March 2000

<pout> been busy at work, everytime I re-design something they change the names of the projects - I've just re-made a button bar damn well 4 times... grrrrrr.....

Loved some of the new subs but I wasn't organised enough to write em down!! I'll do it when I get home.

For those of you that know the story of the Ex who wanted a gift back in return for him returning of my spare set of house/car keys, you'll be pleased to know that asking my truckdriver/bouncer friend (who happens to look like a wrestler) to pick them up from the Ex, did the trick and Jimi - the friend, is now the proud owner of an undergarment the Ex decided to wrap the keys in, Jimi hopes they are mine (I've not sighted them, so I am not sure) and is planning on pinning them to the back wall of his truck... *rolling her eyes*

I'm happy that I didn't have to part with the watch, as a matter of principle however I'll never wear it again.

Gala - I'd have outted ya if I'd been more of a detective like Madi... or at least used it against ya for awhile. *cheeky grin* although seeing as you told me yourself I guess its no issue!


From: Debbie
Date: 7 March 2000

All the poetry on your site is great but kevin urenda's poetry is awesome! Very Impressed.


From: Megs
Date: 7 March 2000

I have spent more time chatting and writing than I have actually READING on this site lately...so I took the morning (lovely to have nothing to do...) to read some of the new works.

MY GOD YOU PEOPLE ARE GOOD!!! I might never submit again.

Kev- You are amazing in everything. You could not know how much I want to be you (well at least writing-wise...otherwise I am good to go) *giggles* No really...I can't pick one piece. You Rock!!! *Cheers with a Zima bottle tilted your way-hehehe*

Guppy- I took the time to read through all your tangents...sometimes I don't have the patience for long pieces but Lord man you have an amazing command over words.
Guppy= Word Master

Misti- Liked the piece you submitted three times but only enough to read it once *grins* And I really liked that "I'll think of you" piece. Take care of Papaw woman!!!

Ok there were others too...but my memory leaves me. I thought the new piece from a person named Jill, the "Sociology" one, was cute cause I can relate ;)
Its that college thing.

*Starts burning her notebooks and considers career as a critic instead*
Megs


From: Misti
Date: 7 March 2000

Megs,
We have the same taste in poetry, it seems. I agree with all the compliments you just flung out like confetti. The Blender is the best poetry site on the Internet and features the best poets! Party time! Guess I'm being egotistical, but that can't be helped. Glad you liked the poem it took me an hour to write and submit, but what about Cracked Crystal Ball? Ha!
Oh, don't burn your notebooks, though. Jim Morrison did that once and he regretted it. So I hear. Believe me, I don't pass out idle compliments. I've enjoyed reading your submissions. You would laugh if you could read the stuff I wrote when I was in college.
If you get tired of the notebooks, invest in a tape recorder. Then you'll be like me and Agent Dale Cooper. Certifiable. Ha!


From: Galadrial
Date: 7 March 2000

Hey gang,

Okay...I'm not being huffy anymore...Hey madison, got a great recipe---Shoo Fly pie...having any strange cravings?

Yes Megs---you are ever my fairy child. Knew you wouldn't let me down!

And Dee---pppppphhhhhhhhhhhhhttttttttttttttt!

Gala


From: Beth (Angel1624@hotmail.com)
Date: 7 March 2000

To my sweetie,
I don't know if you read the board or not, but just in case you do i thought i'd send out a thank you for ya.....you are wonderfull in every way.

I love you,
Beth


From: Jenna Holland (poetic_angel@gurlmail.com)
Date: 8 March 2000

Stupid me I just realized... you WASH and then RINSE... so in my poem "Second Chance" it is supposed to me
Wash...
Rinse...
(and so on)

-Jenna-
*Running away hinding her head in shame*


From: Megs
Date: 8 March 2000

*grins* Does it make me silly that I read Jenna's poem and didn't even CATCH that till she said something...wow maybe I was tired. Anyways I wanted to drop a compliment her way on that last set.

Ok I put a personals ad out on Yahoo...just for fun to see what kind of results I get...I KNOW I have a boyfriend and I fully intend to mention this to any replies I may have. Does this seem like a bad thing to do? Hmmm...

We shall see...Megs


From: kevin urenda
Date: 8 March 2000

guppy-
I think what Kirk said once about you being our resident "beat" poet was right on the mark. I get the picture of a small stage in a jazz bar full of burgeoning intellect and curling smoke as you come up with some of these little inspired gems in the course of your extemporaneous poetry... Case in point: the lines in your poem "slurry" - "my brain has episodes like vietnam / flashbacks of emotional napalm raining..." Simply brilliant.

MVR-
even though I had visions of Bruce Willis in "Pulp Fiction" with the last three words of "prescription," I thought this poem was YOU - as if you were the poem.Madison,
thank you for the kindness. I rather liked the way that particular line rolled out too (sometimes I think I can actually DO this poetry stuff!)...

Debbie-
Thanks! I'm pleased to have made a good impression...

Megs...
(I still love your name (maybe because I picked it out for MY baby girl) <giggle>)
First a poem comment: I liked the simplicity of "Darkest Hour." It reflects a deep-seating longing in just a few words. It also shows you've been nipping at Gala's magic dust...
Lastly, thanks for your effusive praise. In truth, I can only attribute the quality of what I've been writing lately to the quality and depth of my inspiration...
What I'd say about YOUR writing if you hone the craft of writing, you'll be ready when that inspiration comes. What that means to YOU, Megs, is that you already reveal a depth within you that is belied by your years. Don't burn those notebooks. Look at them in twenty years to show yourself how much more depth you've gained.

Gala (savoring the best for last)-
I was so moved by "Comfort Zone," that the experience of the first read was rather like feeling your hands reach into me and cradle my soul. THAT is the epitome of "evocative." Thank you.
Oh, BTW - now that my Grandpa's gone, my father is "Mr. Urenda"... I am just

k


From: Misti
Date: 8 March 2000

Megs,
Have fun with the Yahoo Personals thing. It's good for a laugh! You can really meet some cool people that way, too. That's how I met Paul, who is helping me with my screenplay.
Kevin,
I hate Bruce Willis! The only part of "Pulp Fiction" that I've seen is the best part, when Travolta and Thurman are hanging out in that diner/dance club. But thank ya kindly!
Mojave,
I love your latest submissions, especially the one that mentions Texas! Great structure, awesome imagery. Etc. etc.
Muy bueno, chico!


From: Megs
Date: 8 March 2000

Kev- "My Muse"
Thanks. Brought the tear to my eye. Probably cause I am on the verge of a big ole nervous breakdown at 19. I swear I think the cheese is slippin' off the cracker here *grins*
What does not break us makes us stronger? But I am getting a hell of a back strain trying not to break........

Take care of yourself...
Megs


From: Galadrial
Date: 8 March 2000

Megs!

Are you okay fairy child? Wanna have a cuppa and talk about it? I'll be on and off all night long---my house is a pit---given a choice between Blendering and cleaning I pick---well, since my house is a pit, guessed you figured that one out!


Gala


From: kevin urenda
Date: 8 March 2000

Mojave-

THAT was a gem! Love is "metaphysical misery" and "Zen torture"... it often IS!

Also, it's better to drive I-40 on the eastern edge of N.M. (that's Nothing Much" for you in the eastern U.S.) at NIGHT... when everything is SUPPOSED to look the same! he he he

k


From: Megs
Date: 8 March 2000

Gala love-

I see concerned wrinkles and they are unbecoming to your elfen features. No worries...I am equipped in my 19 going on 42 years to deal with most tragedies/nervous breakdowns/issues.
I am coping and some great stuff should come of it.
Just a crazy girls nightmares no concerns.
Megs


From: Mojave (mojave7299@yahoo.com)
Date: 8 March 2000

Thanks a bunch Kevin, Misti! I like your recent stuff too...

By the way, my comments about eastern NM & west TX were coming out of a deep affection. I truly enjoy the nothingness. There just isn't enough of it around here (NY)...

But as long as we can express ourselves, there is hope... There must be, right?!

Misti--

Just read 'Programmed But in a Pretty Way' and HAD to tell you how much I loved it. And to everyone else: read it if you haven't already!

Way moving...

Mojave (Chris)


From: Misti
Date: 8 March 2000

Mojave,
Thank you. I'm glad you've found the Board! Man, I miss West Texas. I used to live in Monahans and Midland. Best sunsets I've ever seen.
I checked out Edward Abbey on the Internet tonight. Printed out a bunch of his quotes. My favorite: "Every man should be his own guru; every woman her own gurette."


From: beth <beth@picknowl.com.au>
Date: 9 March 2000

Blenderites, one and all.

Your writing inspires me, you amazes me, and enthralls me. This little Australian has been observing the Blender for a while now, soaking up the beauty of the emotional rawness and honesty you all weave into your poetry and prose. I'm seriously blown away again and again!

I've also enjoyed being a fly on the blender-board (sounds kinda unhygenic!) as you all express your love and care for each other. It's a very special community who can encourage and comfort and share the way you all do.

Love Beth - the little South Aussie one!

P.S. Misti - where can I find the first scene of 'Candy before bedtime'? I want to be able to read it all in order. =)


From: Megs
Date: 9 March 2000

Awwwww...Beth.
Speaking for myself that makes me feel about the warmest and fuzziest I have felt in days.
What a sweet pea ;)

Gala- extra fairy dust is in order to ward off some nightmares *blah* your benediction DOES have effect!!!
Or maybe I am superstitious.

Misti- My horoscope for yesterday mentioned "not taking one's intuition lightly because it has been infallible in the past" How much did I flip out? Fitting Calvin for one of those electrocutional dog collars
*hehe*

Take care folks-
Megs


From: Megs
Date: 9 March 2000

Oh and to Mojave-

WOW Another person to envy. Just my luck. Nah...just kidding. Your work is great and glad to see it up there.

Megs


From: Misti <mnemosyne26@hotmail.com>
Date: 9 March 2000

Beth,
I've heard that Texans and Aussies have a lot in common. The main thing is the unapologetic wildness! And the love for good beer! Actually, I guess good beer appreciation is pretty much universal. But I hear that in England they drink it warm. ANYWAY, you'll find scene one of "CBB" at the Heart on Sleeve Corner of the January Digest. Could you do me a HUGE favor and e-mail me a list of Aussie slang terms? I'm thinking of writing an Aussie dude into the script. When I was in Vegas in '95 I was hangin' out in the Treasure Island casino and this Aussie guy started hittin' on me. When I talked to my friend later on, she said the same guy had been hitting on her! It was hilarious! So I thought I'd create a similar situation for Becca. I'd appreciate it, chica!
Megs,
No collar. I've got some better advice (not remotely astrology related) but I'll have to send it to ya in an e-mail. I've been advised to start being more mysterious and classy, like Grace Kelly. Ha!!!


From: Megs
Date: 9 March 2000

I LOVE Australian accents. English accents. ANYONES accents besides mine. LOL.

Misti- Got your letter and read it and well...good sound advice. I will write more later but I am sneaking in these few minutes and running from a guy who figured out my AOL screen name through my personal. DAMN Internet spies...


From: Galadrial
Date: 9 March 2000

ZIINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGG!!!!

Extra large dose of fairy dust for my favorite collegiate elf!

Sweet be your slumber,
and happy your waking...


Love Gala


From: deevaa
Date: 9 March 2000

Beth - welcome! hehe... I'm the kiwi in the house, so I guess I have to promise to play nice, I am very kind to Riggs the other Aussie regular here. (well ok, so not THAT nice, but I do talk to him!)

Nice to have some more down-under folk so I don't feel so isolated.

<grins and wiggles out>

take care of your hearts

dee

PS... I PROMISE to write down my comments on the new subs soon, work has been CRAZY...


From: Mojave (mojave7299@yahoo.com)
Date: 9 March 2000

Welcome Beth!

Australian accents ARE great. We have no accents where I live... Not fair!

Thanks Megs... (Btw, good things can come from Net personals. Yes! I got into them totally for fun, just to see what would happen--and was very surprised.)

Oh--and burning notebooks is BAD. I know 'cause I did it my last year in high school--for reasons too silly to even discuss now...

Later, all!


From: deevaa agigglin'
Date: 9 March 2000

You guys!!!! god... tooooo funny 'I have no accent' - LOL and neither do I when I am at home... but ask Kev, Guppy, Unit305 or Shady what I sound like and they'd say 'hell yes - accent girl'.

I was flying from Chicago to Columbus, Ohio last year and had to ask the flight attendant 8 times for APPLE juice... I thought she was taking the piss outta me.... finally I said - 'Any kind of juice will be fine' and she replied with "would apple be ok?" arrrrrrghhhhh!!

and the New Zealand accent is way nicer than the Australian one... <grin>


From: Megs
Date: 9 March 2000

*after laughing at Dee*

The personals have been bad to me.
But man my friend is cashing in hardcore...she had a NBA pro contact her.
Hmmm...and I wrote both of the ads.
Ironic I guess?

Megs


From: Toklas
Date: 9 March 2000

Megs, gala, thank you so much for the encouragement.
And wench/gala--the magic in your "Prism, Light defracted" was wonderful!

Misti,
Your "Done in" is a really fine poem!
Mojave, I enjoyed the wisdom in "Wisdom." So true!
Lately, my parachute is on vacation...

Megs! your "Darkest hour" has a great rhythm ! It is really a very good poem. I enjoyed it so much!

I have not even half caught up on my reading here... Many good poems yet to explore!
toke


From: deevaa
Date: 9 March 2000

Megs - a fun one to do is at http://www.thespark.com -- do the spark match test and it 'matches' you up with people... but both men and woman so its an interesting way to meet people its by no means serious.

My sorta man and I both did it about a month ago and had a competition to see who'd get the most replies without contacting anyone ourselves. It gives you matches in your local area as well as international, and it also gives you your own comments board so people can contact you without giving out your email address...

I had to take my name off the list after receiving 45 responses in 4 days (including one I am still in contact with, he sent me a courier parcel full of photos!!) -- the sorta man got 2, one of them was me.... <grin>


From: Megs
Date: 10 March 2000

Hehe...I did that too Dee :) The Spark thingy I mean. I got a few replies (nothing to the tune of 40 dear GOD)
Tell me your secret...*very quietly so now one else can hear please* hehe.

Had a VERY odd evening last night. Let a therapist analyze THIS!!! My "former best friend" (as high school labels these things) and my ex-boyfriend...who are now dating (that is why she is former) came up here and even though we hadn't spoken since a fateful Steve Miller Band concert in August (picture too much alcohol, hurling insults, and pulling of hair) we all ran into each other down town and ended up going out. Drank bunches- cause it makes the kind of thing easier. They ended up staying here (at Calvin's)

Its just funny when your past slaps you in the face full force. It was nice to accept it this time and move on...but still very weird.

WOW I do run on...
Going to catch up on much lost sleep...Megs


From: SwtLiz@yahoo.com
Date: 10 March 2000

By Angel no1halo@yahoo.com. ...on the roadmap of love.

Thank-you....

something that hits home to me....
:)


Date: 10 March 2000

hey Megs, I just had to comment on your story about running into your former friend last night. I have been through the EXACT same experience. Had a confrontation about 2 years ago, and just this year started talking again. It's very weird, but i think I know why it happens. Ive learned that you just realize that things must happen for a reason, and because you were friends with her before, you have history and things in commin, so it's easy to put the past and the betrayal behind you and get along. I mean I don't know if I will ever fully forgive my former friend for what she did to me, but I'm mature enough to just be friendly and go on with my life. It almost feels like a weight off your shoulder doesn't it. Anyway, i understand how you feel. And I also read a quote somewhere that says~~~~"When another girl steals your guy, there is no better revenge than to let her keep him."





From: Ashley ASH10782@aol.com
Date: 10 March 2000

Haha, silly me forgot to put my name on the last comment that I wrote to Megs, but just so she knows, it was from me!!
*Ashley*


From: Megs
Date: 10 March 2000

Thanks Ashley-

I had a BIG deal with it all awhile back...but you know? Life's too short. Worry causes wrinkles. And the guy I have now is 10 hundred times better. THAT is the best revenge *giggles*

Just wondering...how old are you? I am a college freshie and I feel like the youngest old soul here *winks*

Good to know I am not the only one on days like this.
All smiles though...Megs


From: Madison
Date: 10 March 2000

Setting my coffee cup down, getting ready for a night out with the girls... it's time to catch up on the Blender Subs. The topic is Poetry, the category is Woah Baby:

"between the words", "unrelenting", and "stars" By kevin urenda. "through the streets of anywhere" By Charles Bukowski and "I'll Think of You" By Naomi Sheldon. Submitted by Misti. "From His Eyes" & "Darkest Hour" By Megs. "Keeping Today" By Shadygirl. Mojave, "Going Eighty" "At the Airport At Dusk" (mine was in Seattle) & "3 Haiku Upon Hearing Some Music" - "Love at First Franchise" by Susha - and so many more I know I missed.

~ later y'all :)


From: Madison
Date: 10 March 2000

glad I looked again before shutting down tonight, Gala, sure liked your last submission "True Elvn Magick"


From: deevaa [deevaa@paradise.net.nz]
Date: 10 March 2000

Ash -- ohhh thats a great quote... I'd love to know where you found it!

dee


From: Ashley ~~ASH10782@aol.com
Date: 10 March 2000

Well Megs, you are definitely not alone. I do know exactly what you mean. This girl was my best friend in the world, and when trust is broken from your best friend AND your boyfriend, it definitely hurts, but it also makes for good writing!! So I also look at it like that!! I guess I can say the revenge for me was that i am now friends with all of his old friends since they don't like "HER".!! It's not as good of revenge as yours, but hopefully i will find someone hat will make me very happy, but I am still young. I'm younger than you are actually. I am 17 and still in high school. Where do you go to college, and what are you studying?
By the way, I like all the recent submissions by everyone, but they are making me jealous because im having writers block,oh well, I'm sure I'll get something when I least expect it, the words will justcome to me!! Haha
*Ashley*


From: Megs
Date: 10 March 2000

High school is a crazy place. I miss some things...I even realized how much I missed my "best friend" when I was out last night...we had one of those drunken sloppy confessions where you sob "I was wronnnnnnnng." and stuff. *giggles*

Ash- you'll find someone. Don't ask how I know, its just Pisces intuition. heehee. Seriously you sound very sweet and bad stuff makes us stronger right? And better poets!!!
I noticed you have AOL...I have an AOL address and instant messanger...I will see you on sometime :)

I too am suffering HUGE amounts of writer's block. A lot has been happening though. Once I process it...its purge time!!! *Fair warning*

And Kev- I have YET to see you on ICQ :( I am disappointed.


From: Ashley~~ASH10782@aol.com
Date: 10 March 2000

Megs,
Thanks soo much for giving me hope on finding a nice guy!! And for saying I seem sweet. What a nice compliment!! yea, put me on your buddy list and if you ever see my name come up, (which is often), drop me an IM!!
Well everyone, it's Friday and i figure even though I don't feel that great, I am going to go out with my friends and have a good time. What the hell,your only 17 once!! maybe something exciting will happen that will cure this dry spell of no poems!!!!
*Ashley*


From: mojave (mojave7299@yahoo.com)
Date: 11 March 2000

Madison, Toklas, deevaa--love all your recent stuff! ('Reading Latin' is wonderful, Toklas.)

Guess I have some major catching up to do...

:)mojave


From: Megs
Date: 11 March 2000

Deevaa-
YAY!!! Poems by Dee ;) I very much liked "I'll come to your mountain. Just wanted to tell ya since I was buggin' you about NOT submitting...hehe.


From: Gala
Date: 11 March 2000

Oh Dee---


Mountain moved me---but the next---brought me to tears...lump in my throat---well done Little sister...now where's the tissues? And have a hug....


Galadrial


From: Galadrial
Date: 11 March 2000

And btw---thanks Madison---am taking some new steps, trying for a fresh voice---and am horribly nervous about the whole thing....

But no more "bastard" poems...promise!


Gala


From: deevaa
Date: 11 March 2000

guys thanks alot -- Megs, your buggin' me made me make time to sit and write... the second one came to me while writing 'mountain' but I don't know that number for sure, I just guessed, so stop sobbing, its not that sad!

Thanks for the really good comments, it made me feel great -- esp from those with such amazing talent, Mojave I have several of your pieces on my note pad to comment about, just haven't done it yet.

thanks a heap, you've made my Sunday morning

take care of your hearts

dee


From: mabry85@ameritech.net
Date: 11 March 2000

this is the most creative website I have ever seen. thank you for making it.


From: Megs
Date: 11 March 2000

Dee- Bugging? What a negative word...prompting perhaps? Inspiring? Not BUGGING...:( All these good poems and I am called a bug...how sad.

Hehe not really...now I am "bugging" you.
*giggles*
Ornery Megs who has been cooped up allllll day.


From: deevaa
Date: 11 March 2000

Megs -- you used buggin' first.... only used it cause you had, I am pleased you 'inspired me' to find time to write. Thanks you. <blows a spare kiss for you knee>


From: Dr. Love, Searchr123@aol.com
Date: 11 March 2000

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"THE SHY MAN'S GUIDE TO MEETING & DATING WOMEN" for all you shy guys like myself who have trouble meeting the right woman. Would like any positive feedback when there is any interet. Thanks for your time.


From: Megs
Date: 11 March 2000

OOPS...I said buggin? hehe...I hadn't noticed.
Sorry I jumped off so suddenly...the computer is mad at me and likes to toss me at whatever moment appeals to it.
Talk to ya later...as long as I am not buggin' ya *winks*


From: drama_queen_ja@hotmail.com
Date: 11 March 2000

I really liked the poem "Tim" by Tiffany in the March Heart-on-Sleeve Corner
I think it was really interesting how it went from an intense feeling of inferiority to how "Tim" makes her feel more complete. This girl has a real gift for emotional contrast. Her words really spoke to me and I could feel her emotions change.


From: Misti
Date: 12 March 2000

I feel so DUMB. I just submitted another poem that contains a misspelled word! In *Chilled* I spelled "attractive" ATTACTIVE. In another poem awhile back I spelled "nickel" NICKLE. I'm not going to waste any more space by submitting the same poem more than once. It's not that big of a deal, really. Serves me right for the "stunt" I pulled tonight!!!


From: Gala
Date: 12 March 2000

Hey All---

Megs---Oh sweetie---I hope you got that Nap---most beautiful moment, captured beautifully......


Madison---All right. You're a good detective----but you are a wizard of a poet! You go girl! Khaki...pulled me right in...

And Mojave? I had a hard enough time keeping up with the Blender folk before---but now I have to read ALL your subs too---because you really have an exceptional way of catching the moment. Merry met, and all that...and welcome/ Pull up a chair and stay a spell, won't you?


Galadrial


From: Toklas
Date: 12 March 2000

Misti,
I just read "Translucent Gold." WOW I really love it!
Sometimes a poem just connects and that one really does.
thank you for that one!
Toke


From: Misti
Date: 12 March 2000

Toke,
Thanks so much! Glad you enjoyed it. I have had a burst of creative energy this weekend. Hope everyone enjoys my latest offering, placed at the altar of Sappho.
Hehehe.


From: Tonya (TGillman85@hotmail.com)
Date: 12 March 2000

Kevin

Your works are absolutely beautiful and I fall in love with your words every month. Thank you for sharing


From: Tonya (TGillman85@hotmail.com)
Date: 12 March 2000

I've been coming to this site for quite a while & have only had the nerve to submit one (2/00 <3 on sleeve). I can only hope to be as good as the regulars I enjoy here one day.


From: Misti
Date: 12 March 2000

"A prayer for the wild at heart, kept in cages."
~Tennessee Williams
(quote on the inside of Angelina Jolie's left forearm)


From: Megs
Date: 12 March 2000

Mojave- Sunrise Hike- Muy bueno!!!
I have read your works and just decided to jump on the praise bandwagon :) As if one more compliment won't make your head swell...*hehe* Nah just kidding. GREAT works...this last one says lots to me. Welcome aboard.

*Picture all Blenderites with open arms*
Megs


Date: 12 March 2000

Misti - if you where so truly unique and exciting you'd not have to scream it from roof-tops we'd all be able to see it for ourselves.

A good product sells itself with no advertising. You seem to be all advertising and no product. Don't try so hard.


From: Galdrial
Date: 12 March 2000

Okay, who's picking on Misti this time?



Gala


From: Barb Yawp, PR rep for Misti Velvet Rainwater
Date: 12 March 2000

Bored? Lovesick? Looking for a UNIQUE, cutting edge poem to slip under your lover's pillow? Then go to New Submissions and check out Misti Velvet Rainwater's latest offerings to the Blender of Love! You'll laugh! You'll cry! You might even BLUSH! But don't forget your earplugs...her poems are kinda LOUD.


From: Misti
Date: 12 March 2000

Thanks, Barb. <sniffle, sniffle>
Don't know what I'd do without ya.


From: Megs
Date: 12 March 2000

Please lets not take up MOUNDS of space with this whole insulting people thing. It really is ignorant and a waste of space.
Sorry if that sounds harsh...it just irritates me.


From: Madi
Date: 12 March 2000

thanks Gala, that one's been on the emotional shelf for a few years, a little hard to write - I think it wasn't sure it wanted to be seen on paper; this morning, it wrote itself.


From: Galadrial
Date: 12 March 2000

Hey Madi---

The very best poetry happens like that---the stuff I struggle with is always sub-par. When it comes out all by itself---even if you thought about it forever---BINGO!

And forgive me folks, but after that last one, I could use a cigarette!


Gala


From: Megs
Date: 12 March 2000

Damn!!! Gala/Wench...
*Giggles*
Last one has some great images.
That is all I will say.
Cause I am just an innocent fairy child eh?


From: Madison
Date: 13 March 2000

hey Gala, how does it feel to be liberated from the poetwench? I'd say this was a cosmic outing! Nice sub, and err, how was the smoke? (reminds me of the old joke "The sex was so good, even the neighbors lit cigarettes" . . . teehee


From: Galadrial
Date: 13 March 2000

Blushing to the roots of my hair....thanks.


Gala


From: deevaa
Date: 13 March 2000

so thats what I am missing -- a PR rep!
*grin*


From: Misti
Date: 13 March 2000

Dee,
I'd be happy to give you Barb's 1-800#. She's the best, hands down. Ha!


From: mojave (mojave7299@yahoo.com)
Date: 13 March 2000

To the person taking cheap shots at Misti:

Last time I checked this was poetry, not "product". And I didn't think we were "selling" anything either...

Real art always makes people uncomfortable on some level. That's the point.

Peace, love & all that,
mojave


From: Galadrial
Date: 13 March 2000

Morning all...


Mojave---you did it again...nice stuff...you make this flatlander itch to check out what's really west of the Rockies...

And Megs---very nice---IF you finished the Spanish paper!


Gala


From: Gala (again)
Date: 13 March 2000

Megs Honey?


You okay?


Getting the fairy dust ready, just in CASE!

Old Aunty Gala


From: Misti
Date: 13 March 2000

Mojave,
I am way honored to be defended by one of my favorite poets. Muchas gracias, chico. I just read your newest submission and I was blown away, as usual.
Guppy,
Glad to see you're back! A nursery rhyme...<sigh>


From: Megs
Date: 13 March 2000

Gala- You had my confused for a minute...couldn't figure out why you asked if I was okay and what you said was "good IF I finished my paper"...then AHA- There is another Meg on here...this one is a mEg (no "S")
The other Meg writes well...DAMN!!! Maybe I should just let y'all keep complimenting me for her works...but that would be cheap.

ANWAYS I did finish my Spanish paper and that drowned out all thoughts creative. Then I found out today it wasn't due till Wednesday <groans> of course.

Good work to the Other mEg.

The original Megs (the one with the "s")


From: Helen
Date: 13 March 2000

Thank you so much for the inspiration I found here - judging from the emails I've been getting though, I think my boyfriend found this site first!! Will have to polish up my work before I attempt to submit it!
This site is amazing though.... thanks!
Love
helenxxx
ps winner of 'most complicated love life' award at school - i think i've been looking for this site all my life!!!


From: deevaa
Date: 13 March 2000

Megs and mEg -- hehe I got the two of you confused for abit, however I hate to break it to you Megs, I've a feeling mEg has been about longer than you, however that doesn't mean you aren't wonderful! TK adddddddddores his WV mumma.


From: Megs
Date: 13 March 2000

Ah so it seems Deevaa-
BUT I have a recorded front page pick from way back in my days of first encountering the Blender more than a year ago...hehe...Plus uhhh...I called it (kind of like shotgun in a car)
*giggles*


From: Gala
Date: 13 March 2000

Sorry Megs---

My "true" name is the "Jane" of the 60's----every third girl born had the same moniker....wrecking a perfectly cool name for me....hence Galadrial....


From: Megs
Date: 13 March 2000

Gala love-

YOU could never be a Jane...what is the middle name.
No matter...Gala you will always be.


From: Galadrial
Date: 14 March 2000

Hi Folks---

And no---I haven't lost my mind---what little of it I may have. I wrote "no time..." this morning with my morning coffee. I veered slightly from "romantic love" and trust that I shant annoy the Blender Keeper overly. If the Poetry Police get wind of this, I will no doubt get keel hauled---but I offer no apology for the work.

Like a perfect cup of java, a fine truffle, or the most delicate croissant, it was just what I needed at the
moment. Now back to real life...


Galadrial, the not so elven today


From: Galadrial
Date: 14 March 2000

Oh and BTW Madi----

Thank you---I think. Poet Wench used to deal with the lusty stuff---allowing Gala to do the-trailing-wisps-of- gossamer, tiptoe-through-the-toad-stool-pieces. Gala isn't gone---but right now, the Wench is calling the shots---and maybe locked the poor silly bitch in a closet. Fear not---elves come complete with a lock picking kit---Gala will emerge again when she's ready...


From: Gala
Date: 14 March 2000

I swore I wouldn't do this...But Mojave---you rock...no apologies required....


Galadrial


From: Misti
Date: 14 March 2000

A note on *Barbie and Ken, a Dialogue*:
When I was a kid, I loved to play with my Barbie dolls. Most of my friends were content to just change the dolls' clothes and style their hair, but I always created these elaborate, schizophrenic soap operas with my dolls. Now whenever I'm talking to my sister about whatever guy I'm dating, we'll laugh and compare conversations I have with real men to conversations I made my dolls have when I was younger. There's usually not much difference.
If love is a battlefield, like that Pat Benatar song claims, a highly developed sense of humor is my uzi. Never leave home without it.


From: mojave (mohave7@hotmail.com)
Date: 14 March 2000

Misti:

'Barbie and Ken'--inspired! Had me laughing like hell--which I NEEDED... Thanks!

mojave


From: Misti
Date: 14 March 2000

Mojave,
Thank GOD!!! I was scared the next time I came to the Board I'd find a comment from someone saying something like,"Misti, I've got this number you might want to call...1-800-GET-SANE." Ha! If you got somethin' from it, that's good enough for me!


From: deevaa [deevaa@paradise.net.nz]
Date: 14 March 2000

<dashes in between meetings> -- oh man my life has been INSANE, but I just spent an hour at new subs over a mocha and called it lunch... the blender = food for my soul.

Riggs -- come here my Aussie sweetheart (((Riggs & dee)))

Gala -- 'No time for pretty' ... <shivers> "I am quicksilver fire beneath your fingers, I am Salome dancing to your tune" ohhhhhh yummy!!!
'Erotic Imagining' I'd love to post that with one of my paintings - you know which one.

Misti -- I've got this phone number... <grin>

Megs -- 'Silly thought' made me giggle, and as for 'Afternoon nap' ohhhhhhhhhhhhh <gasp>

guppy, babe 'Jake and Jill' -- Misti had this phone number <cheeky grin>

Mojave 'Tell me' YUM!

Thanks for all the nice stuff about 'mountain' and '11.38am' I'm trying not to count down the days (8) but I simply can't WAIT!!

Take care of your hearts

dee







From: deevaa
Date: 14 March 2000

Kev -- your new one... <gasps> WOW!
LOVE it!!


From: Galadrial
Date: 15 March 2000



Hey All...

Been baking brownies since 7:45---a charming domestic scene completely at odds with my latest submissions. Consistency is not the Hallmark of Elven behavior. Said brownies will be shipped to certain deserving souls who have garnered fairy favor.

Forgive Dee---have no idea how long it takes something to get to NZ---and rather than ship you a box of "yuck", I'll work on those macho boy books for TK!

1000 Letters---dear god---know that. Been there. Still have the ticket stubs...

Indiscretion---Oh---nice one Kev...

And Mojave---she must have been a hell of gal...

Well, gotta check the brownies....

Happy day all........

Gala

Elven Imperatrix,
Elven Information Officer


From: Galadrial
Date: 15 March 2000

Oh and Dee---

They do work beautifully together---I swear I was thinking of that painting while I was writing that piece---and I am honored that you even thought to pair them up....

Glowing Gala


From: kevin urenda
Date: 15 March 2000

Gala

watch that glow, hon...
I can't, my glasses are still steamed up!
Can barely even see to type this, in fact!

And Dee-
The painting adds a wonderful touch to Gala's work... very very nice...
I hope you climb the mountain as many times as you can, dear...

k


From: Debra654@aol.com
Date: 15 March 2000

Riggs---- Self Crucifixion---- ooohhh!!!! been there before will be there again.


From: Galadrial
Date: 15 March 2000

Hey Riggs---

Bad enough Dee and I are teasing the Poetry Police---but you bring in religion? During Lent? Well fella, they're gonna hunt us down!

Did enjoy Self...however.


As Ever,


The Brash Yankee Elf


Gala


From: kevin urenda
Date: 15 March 2000

by the way-

BEWARE the Ides of March...


From: deevaa
Date: 15 March 2000

Riggs -- and you where complaining that no one comments on your work... ha! (and I had NOTHING to do with this I SWARE)

dee


From: Riggs
Date: 15 March 2000

Gala
Guess I'll just have to take my chances with the almighty. He's got a sense of humour. Glad you liked it anyway.

Dee
Complain??? I think not. guess you were right though.




From: Gala
Date: 15 March 2000

God isn't the problem Riggs...some of his admirers have interesting and peculiar ways of observing their devotion.
Books have been burned...and so have people!


Galadrial


From: deevaa
Date: 16 March 2000

If you remember Cosette and sinneD you'll be as thrilled as I am to see this in my web-sites guest book!!!

Miss ya!
by: libs (aka cosette)
will you remember me??? its been quite a long while!!! your page is really great... i adored TKs work.. quite a young talent and you look prettier on your close-up pic.

i happened to dream last night about *FAMILY* and *UNION* with X poem on it.... really hits me now!!! its quite strange they were so vivid on my dream when i first saw them nearly a year ago...

i havent been around blender and i miss the crowd.... send them my love and the news im getting married to sinned of course! (apr.7) and we're moving to Atlanta,GA on may 8... it gets really exciting.... dreaming about paintings and poetry... haha.....

miss you really and take care!"

<grin> ohh it feels so good to be the bearer of such great news.... I'll be sending an email to her tonight!!

dee


From: Galadrial
Date: 16 March 2000

Hey Mojave,

Have you ever met, heard of, or encountered an "uncomplicated" Goddess...? Just musing....


Gala


From: Ashley Kessinger JKessinger@earthlink.net
Date: 16 March 2000

So close we were,yet so far away
We meet once again...
Yet nothing seems to ever change
We'll always remain far friends...
The times we had, have slipped between
the memories we've left behind...
The time we said "I love you"
Have been fading for sometime...
Your lips I felt so close to mine
Your love I knew as lies...
Your hands I held, are so far from now
and my faith so pushed aside...
Our days are found, but lost again
As we silently still feel...
The longing of me holding you
Makes wanting you surreal...
My feelings dim as I realize
There's nothing I can do...
My thoughts I had, I had alone
All I wanted was just you...
Now that I have realized
We now live two seperate lives
I brought you here, just one last time
To say I love you and "Goodbye"


From: Misti Velvet Rainwater
Date: 16 March 2000

Oops! That excerpt I just submitted is from *Wuthering Heights*...one of my favorite novels.


From: Megs
Date: 16 March 2000

Even without explanation...I really really liked "First and Shining". Wonderful picture there...especially the last couple of lines...two thumbs up Misti :)
Email me and tell me some tales of Misti- I have ZERO time for ICQ or much correspondence these days but I am waiting to see how accurate my Pisces intuition can be ;)

Can I just say right here that March is only half over and I do NOT envy Kirk the job of narrowing things down to a few front page picks...
I was thinking today while browsing (though I don't know what others would think of this- esp. Kirk) that it would be neat to set up a sort of vote sytem or something...like the Blender's choice...where visitors to the site could vote on one piece to be featured on the front page...does that make sense?
Or not...just Megs Musings.


From: Misti
Date: 16 March 2000

Another oops! Too many to's used in my description of *First & Shining*...the poem I'd only describe to a really close friend...at gun point, MAYBE.
"She is filled with secrets."
-Little Man from Another Place, pilot episode of
"Twin Peaks"
(the dream sequence)
...Props to David Lynch for being a misunderstood genius.
...Props to Mojave for worshipping a complicated goddess.
...Props to Emily Bronte for Catherine and Heathcliff
...Props to Willie Nelson for "Blue Eyes Crying in the Rain"


From: Misti
Date: 16 March 2000

Megs,
I've got to run to Decatur to talk to an attorney. When I get off work I'll e-mail ya! Glad you like *First & Shining*! I think that's a good idea, especially so close to Academy Awards time. Later, chica!


From: kevin urenda
Date: 16 March 2000

Gala-
RE: your comment to Riggs... guess some perfervid people took burnt offerings a little too far!

Megs-
What about me? (pout) We keep leaving little electronic post-it notes on ICQ... You want EMAIL instead?
(Yes, Angel, I owe you too)

Still reading poetry, brewing a few comments (some nice work being done!)

k


From: kevin (sorry!)
Date: 16 March 2000

p.s.- I have never heard of an uncomplicated goddess, not even mythically... I think that would be an oxymoron...


From: Misti
Date: 16 March 2000

In mythology, goddesses had clearly defined roles. Themis was the goddess of justice. Mnemosyne was the goddess of memory. Athena was the goddess of wisdom. Perhaps the "complicated goddess" in Mojave's poem is a woman whose role in his life isn't clearly defined.
...And not every woman is complex. I know quite a few women who have a noted lack of duplicity to their nature. So "complicated goddess" sounds fine to me.


From: kevin urenda
Date: 16 March 2000

Agreed. Complicated goddesses abound. And as a philosophical point, a lack of duplicity does not naturally lead to a lack of complexity. The character of that complexity is what makes each woman so exotic, so fascinating... At least it has been so for every woman I have ever known... Been married for nearly 17 years now, and I STILL haven't even figured HER out (not completely)...

k


Date: 16 March 2000

Sounds like Misti is hoping she is one of two things
A/ Mojaves complicated goddess
or
B/ seen to be her


From: Megs
Date: 16 March 2000

Kev- Heck yes I want email you dork *giggles*
What do I have to do to win the privelage...I mean I
I let you bounce ideas off me and everything.
You must be an ICQ night owl or something...so anyways...email me :)

Oh and please don't say anything containing the word "philosophy" :) Having a TEENSY bit of trouble in that class.

Dee- How many more days in the countdown to "the visit". I miss your ICQ's too (and pics of my fave little boy)
Give him a BIG kiss from his WV Mumma.

And as for complicated goddesses and complicated women and such...I just don't think a woman is half as much fun if she isn't a wee bit complicated. Gives you that much more to look forward to in the pursuit.

Or maybe that isn't even relevent...
Just throwing the two cents of one of the MOST complicated women (not sure about goddess?)
Megs


From: Riggs
Date: 16 March 2000

Perfervid huh?


From: Misti
Date: 16 March 2000

wOw. Yet another anonymous stab aimed at my delicate ego.
<sigh> here's a thought: maybe I'm defending Mojave's poem 'cause I like it?
please, whoever you are, don't come back with
"misti and mojave sittin' in a tree! k-i-s-s-i-n-g!"
LMAO!!!!!!


From: mojave (mohave7@hotmail.com)
Date: 16 March 2000

lanna--

Welcome! Glad you submitted...

You'll hear from me...

mojave


From: lanna (precious_lana@hotmail.com)
Date: 16 March 2000

all of this talk about complicated or uncomplicated goddesses is killing me...all women are goddesses in one way or another, depending on whose looking ...and complicated is what makes us so much fun...

hmm...or i could just be having a hell day...oops

mojave..'tell me' is awesome...you really know how to reach out and grab a soul...thanks for the welcome...and I better hear from you :)

on a happier note...I'm happy to have been introduced to this site...so thanks again mojave


From: Ashley Skye~ASH10782@aol.com
Date: 16 March 2000

Misti-
I just wanted to tell you how much i loved reading "First and Shining", it was easy to understand and relate to, and I had a smile on my face the entire time I was reading it!! It brightened my day!!
*~Ashley~*


From: Talia Hill Talia11714@hotmail.com
Date: 16 March 2000

I think that you have a very good page. My best friend, Tiffany Peterman, just posted a poem on your page, so I thought I would check out her poem and your page! I really like it! I will add a poem to your page also! Have a good day!

~Talia~


From: lanna (precious_lana@hotmail.com)
Date: 17 March 2000

megs....thanks for posting 'The Letter'. at a time when I needed that, from thinking of a love that will soon be in the past...it hit the spot

L


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 17 March 2000

Megs-
I've been thinking about some kind of vote system. The things is I'm not completely sold on pure Net Democracy, it would be tough to make a non-easy-to-abuse system, at least until I do that proper author and user tracking I've been thinking of.

I have thought of some kind of 'inner council' who would do the poem selection, using a variation of the tool I use now to keep track of potential frontpage picks.

But, I don't think things are gonna change any time real soon, I just don't have the development time.


From: Megs
Date: 17 March 2000

Kirk- No worries...it was just something I thought would be neat. I read someone else say something about having author profiles or somthing...maybe it could work that way...those who take the time to fill out a user profile could have voting privelage...BUT I am just a girl with too much time on her hands. Site is wonderful as it is.

Lanna- The song is even more beautiful with the music...its from the Tigerlily CD and though I was never a HUGE fan the one song says so much :) Glad it helped you too.

To All the Little Leprechauns- Wear green...Drink green beer...and generally take part in all the excesses that make this holiday delightful...

Deevaa- Sorry I bumped off so quick last night. Hope TK enjoyed the fire truck. Do you all do St Patty's day in NZ?

Top o' the morning
Megs
(A little Irish fairy)


From: kevin urenda
Date: 17 March 2000

lanna-
thanks for the perspective...
you are dead on target - ALL women are goddesses to the men who adore them... (most of us men are mere mortals, though <*-wink-*>)

The dichotomy of ALL lovers has always been interesting to me - that they are flawed and yet perfect for us; complicated and yet so blissfully simple... The paradox of love is that it envelops all the contradictions of humanity and somehow just makes perfect sense.

k


From: TOLGA dogan_tolga@hotmail.com
Date: 17 March 2000

I need love


From: Misti
Date: 17 March 2000

Then help yourself to some. Love is a veritable all-you-can-eat buffet. Love is a beggars' banquet. Love is a taco stand in East L.A. Ignore anyone who tells you that it's a five star restaurant in Chicago and you have to have reservations and you have to wear a coat and tie or pumps and pearls.


From: deevaa
Date: 17 March 2000

ohhhh less than 5 days now... <grin> TK's dadda arrives in Wgtn tonight.... hmmm,.... not sure how I feel about all this.

and kevin -- you make mountain climbing seem so sordid!

I've had a good idea for some new poetry/artwork ideas... need to write something now...argh.

dee


From: Misti
Date: 17 March 2000

Ashley,
Thanks so much for the compliment on *First & Shining*! My sister's middle name is "Ashli" and my brother's middle name is "Sky." Pretty wacky, huh? Hope you're enjoyin' this green holiday!
Dee,
Hope all goes well with TK and his Dadda. I love your artwork! I was at your site the other day and was wOwed by your poetry and paintings. I only have one painting to my credit. It's a watercolor painting of an angel/comet with a tear in her eye, reachin' for Saturn through the cosmos. I painted it in my motel room in San Antonio the night before I left for basic training. I was in love with a Capricorn, the sign that is ruled by Saturn.
Anyway, you have inspired me to consider takin' up painting, when I have the time and money. Take care and luck o' the Irish and alla that!
...Speakin' of Irish, where's our Shadygirl????


From: lanna (precious_lana@hotmail.com)
Date: 17 March 2000

kevin-
no problem for the words....i am generally into speaking my mind..i have to say though, that to the women who adore them, even mere mortal men can be gods.~grin~

mojave-
i got kind of confused by the beginning of No sad Lines...but the last few phrases hit it right on the head for me. (like we ever really learn those lessons, anyway) keep 'em coming, my friend


From: nick
Date: 17 March 2000

I give up. Two submissions and both got lopped off before the end. The ending was the best part...


From: Toklas
Date: 18 March 2000

mojave, "No sad Lines" really struck me... especially those last two lines.


From: Toklas
Date: 18 March 2000

mojave, "No sad Lines" really struck me... especially those last two lines.


From: Toklas
Date: 18 March 2000

oh hell,
technical guru I am not, sorry kirk--but if your fingers hit the wrong button when you are sleepy--the cyber glitches win...

Sorry for the double post.


From: mojave
Date: 18 March 2000

Toklas--

Thanks for the kind words.


From: Misti
Date: 18 March 2000

Man, my descriptions keep getting cut off! This is what
I was trying to say:
In my opinion, "Nevermind" is the best CD to burn
bridges to. Jack and Coke help tremendously. Oh,
and light candles. The results will be amazing. Unless,
of course, you abhor Nirvana.


From: Megs
Date: 18 March 2000

Hmmm...abhor Nirvana no...but the words to that last song sound a lil icky :) Chew your meat up and pass it in a passionate kiss...not my FAVORITE mental pic *giggles*
Sorry Misti for poking fun but I do have to write you today...*grins like the Cheshire Cat*


From: Misti
Date: 18 March 2000

Megs,
I found those lyrics on the Internet. I always thought it was,"too late for you." Now that I know it's "chew your meat for you," I am no less dazzled. That would be gross, though. Oh my gosh! I just remembered something really weird! The last time my ex was at my apartment, we did that with a Slim Jim! No, it wasn't gross! It never is if you really, really like someone! Ha! Yes, send me a letter and SOON you crazy little Pisces chic!


From: Megs
Date: 18 March 2000

Slim Jims are gross period....ewwwwwwwwwwww...
Letter coming though :)


From: By Loving-X , for those who understand love.
Date: 18 March 2000


There is nothing to write
There are no words which describe
What is within me

Following the path towards heaven
I find that I have not been able to go all the way
For you have washed it away and I can not see happiness

Life has its ways
Its reasons

Its just in my case
They hurt

The constant twisting and turning in my stumach
The constant pounding of my heart when I hear your voice
or see your beautiful smile

I have come to the point where I believe that I can not
concur you
No matter what I do and how hard I try


From: Niya (lovebee@vnet.net)
Date: 18 March 2000

Hmmmmm.............I am quite new here.
I submit passages anytime i can
nevertheless....they are semiphenomenal nearly
cosmicly kickass (at least I think so)
*grins*


From: Galadrial
Date: 19 March 2000

Morning Madison---

Oh---don't hit me with stuff like Tanzanite mid coffee...Made me sit up and blink, I'll tell you. For comfort, I think we all have had one of those....but you sketched him in such a way, that I saw my Bad Boy's face in his place...BRAVO!

Gala


From: Jenna Holland (poetic_angel@gurlmail.com)
Date: 19 March 2000

Lanna- "The Chase" Been there.. done that.. you captured the feeling well.

-Jenna-


From: Madi
Date: 19 March 2000

Gala, thank you :) Hope you didn't spill your coffee. Will I be hearing from your attorney?


From: Lanna
Date: 19 March 2000

Misti--Nirvana is definitely one of the better ways of cleansing the ravaged heart...although the chewed meat puts a new spin on it for me :)

Madison--Tanzanite brings me back and answers a few questions i often asked...well done

Jenna-- thanks for the kind words re:the chase;currently it's stuff like that that seem to be flowing quite easily from my pen these days.


From: Toklas
Date: 19 March 2000

Madison,
I also just read Tanzanite. Very beautifully crafted! It is perfect!
thank you for that one!
toke


From: Misti
Date: 19 March 2000

Lanna...:)By "burning bridges" I mean, uh, getting it on!!! "Nevermind" is the only CD that works for me. My ex played that Nine Inch Nails CD once, the one that has the animal song on it, and I was just laughing too hard!!! That song cracks me up. I prefer "Head Like a Hole." But yeah, swapping meat in a French kiss is definitely a ritual reserved for the Church of the Absurd. Ha! I'm a deacon. :)
S. Fisher...
I looooove *Rosia* and *One Night Stand.* You know you're good. I just wanted to confirm it!


From: Galadrial
Date: 19 March 2000

Hey Madi---

My lawyer? No. But Uncle Vito and the boys? Well.......



Gala a laughing....


From: lanna
Date: 20 March 2000

Misti--:)you know, if I might pay more attention and not try to think right when I wake up, I might have gotten that...as it is, I am sitting here laughing hysterically at myself for missing it...

S. Fisher--Rosia and One Night Stand...all I can say is DAMN....I love 'em both!!!!

as for any of my own....I fried my brain with video games to escape the never-ending works on heart break...a slump I seem to be stuck in, but with hopefully change with some other forms of inspiration... :)

L


From: lanna
Date: 20 March 2000

oops....and apparently I shouldn't try to think before I go to sleep, either...~with~ in the above post, should be ~will~...I think it is time for me to just give up tonight...happy Monday to all (for tomorrow).

L


From: Galadrial
Date: 20 March 2000

Morning Gang---

I have to ask a favor----the next time I try to submit something before my eyes are focused would someone kindly lock me in a closet? Or just smack me a few times till the urge goes away? Dee? Madi? Megs? Kev?

Talk about Monday Blues....


Gala


From: Gala----
Date: 20 March 2000

Kirk---

Years of classical education and I can't remember if I spelled Aphrodite correctly....please save me from shame if I did not?

Gala


From: kevin urenda
Date: 20 March 2000

Gala...
no smacking...
not on a Monday. Just gentle hugs while holding your hands AWAY from the keyboard!

k


From: Riggs
Date: 20 March 2000

Gala
Aphrodite...very nice.

...and as for all this talk of Nirvana. I have to join in, I can't let a NIrvana discussion pass me by now can I. Not after my crappy little band has covered so much of their stuff. Possibly Cobain's greatest and most powerful line (with the obvious exception of "I hate myself and I want to die") is from the same song as the chewed meat thought, but comes in the very first verse.

"I don't care what you think unless it is about me."

That is brutally honest in my estimation, mind you DRAIN YOU is simply a brilliant song. Anyone else notice Cobain's tendency to associate extremely graphic and even gross images with thoughts of intimacy and love. DRAIN YOU has another one in "I travelled through a tube and end up in your infection." And from RAPE ME "I'll kiss your open sores.."
It's disgusting but so brilliantly effective in portraying a twisted type of unconditional love. That's my spin on it anyway.


From: Madison
Date: 20 March 2000

Gala I'm trying to figure out what you're apologizing for. My eyes are still asleep right now too, but I just read your new sub and I think it's astounding. I like the way your work is moving & growing - it sounds like you're drinking up life and swishing it around before you swallow. Or skipping the swish part altogether and throwing those stemmed glasses up against the wall. Morning thought: imagine substituting "I'm sorry" with "So what"? It's Goddess month! (thanks mojave for getting us rolling) And yup, Aphrodite, (spelled Aphrodite = Diva) who the Romans called Venus (= more dignified), was the goddess of love, beauty, and fertility. Or that's what someone told me anyhow. Rumors. ha!


From: Patrick Burnett
Date: 20 March 2000

Love is like racing across the frozen tundra on a snowmobile which flips over, trapping you
underneath. At night, the ice-weasels come. -- Nietchze


1) You misspelled Nietzsche
2) Nietzsche didn't say it. Matt Groening did, in "Love is Hell" - he just jokingly attributed it to Nietzsche


From: Madison
Date: 20 March 2000

S. Fisher, "One Night Stand" - I loved the lines, the thoughts, the images; very nicely done.


From: Misti
Date: 20 March 2000

Riggs,
I also appreciate the stark idolatry of "Heart Shaped Box."..."I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn black." <sigh>


Date: 20 March 2000



From: A hopeless romantic sailor (exundertaker@hotmail.com)
Date: 20 March 2000

Your tender glance
luring and clever
what a pleasant dance
the curve of your lips so entrancing
they spin my mind, like the marriage of Figaro.

Your body so soft and tender
I feel I'm in heaven when I hold you near
the feel of your soft skin sends me to the clouds
the feeling of your arms embracing me is a dream come true.

Your eyes are more beautiful than the stars in the heavens above me
they speak many words of love
I get lost in their diamond like sparkle
as I gaze deeply into their eternal depth.

Your lovely silky hair
I can only dream of running my fingers through such a heavenly place
its softness sends my mind spinning to the clouds
oh how I dream of its silky touch


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From: Madison
Date: 20 March 2000

Gala! when I said "so what" I meant "so there!" I was still asleep.


From: kevin urenda
Date: 20 March 2000

Gala-
I whole-heartedly agree with Madison's take... You have nothing to apologize for. There is an unmistakable beauty to the power of raw emotion that continues to bloom in your work, and you ought not disparage its voice...

mojave-
reading over the poem that caused a stir - "...complicated Goddess" - I am struck yet again by the sheer force of the truth in it. Loving a woman is VERY difficult to define, even after you have settled into some level of comfort. On certain levels it is very simple, because it makes perfect sense. But on several other levels, it is so complex that it takes a lifetime to begin unraveling the mystery. That is what makes real love so wonderful - it CAN'T get 'old.'
And--- thanks for evoking an old memory with "No Sad Lines Tonight." I purchased the only book of Neruda poetry that I own seventeen years ago today (as a matter of fact) whilst on that first honeymoon...

lanna-
I understand where you were coming from with "The Chase." For even after I caught the One I was chasing (well, she DID fire the starting pistol those many years ago, I'll give her that!) I find myself wondering from time to time what being pursued BY her might be like...

Toklas-
I adored the ethereal quality of "Letter to a Lover." It reminded me yet again how wonderful it was in the times before Email existed to WRITE a love letter...

Megs-
You are wise FAR beyond your years, dear. I see a lot of what I have lived through in "Comfortable Routine," and I KNOW that she must once have "worried the passion was gone." I have as well, but we somehow we both stumbled across the truth of a life-long love - You MUST make it new again for yourselves... Not that comfort in and of itself is a bad thing - companionship is truly important when you have been married for a while. But you have to keep the coals of passion hot (well, at least *I* do!)...

WOW there is some great work here this month!

k


From: Toklas
Date: 20 March 2000

Thank you Kevin, glad you enjoyed.. but I have a question.

Let us say you just received this letter.... Change the one line from "goes sadly" to "goes wildly." (that is how I sent it ) What would you think of the letter? What message did you get? If you get a minute --you--or any of the guys-- what message came across from the "Letter.?" Not an idle question--just looking for some input on how a guy might see it.(I did send this "Letter")
Toke


From: Megs
Date: 20 March 2000

Gala- Even though I told you in the IM...I loved Aphrodite...so as we decided...only compose in the earliest AM *grins*

Kev- I am the oldest of old souls somedays (esp. lately)
How was YOUR weekend? Hope all went BETTER than perfect.
If I told you about mine I would lose your respect as a mature girl *sneaky giggles*

Deevaa- *Peeking in corners* Where are you???
Hehe...Miss you.

Toklas- I read your Love Letter (but I am not a guy so my input isn't what you want) I am interested to see what Kev or Mojave or someone else says about it. (Male perspective and all...) But what I wanted to say is your letter is what made me think to submit "The Letter" I have never sent the letters I wanted to send and I am glad you sent yours.

Till Later-
Megs (off to study- no fun for me)


From: Madison [aka_madison@hotmail.com]
Date: 21 March 2000

Oh man, Tanqueray Cowboy did that ever catch me off guard. Just a week ago, I was in Hastings and looked up from one of the magazine racks to see Jimmie's face smiling back, pensively, from the cover of a music magazine. It had been misplaced in the section I happened to be looking through, now I wonder just how coincidental that was. Of course, I bought the magazine and went home to catch up on what's happened to him since last we saw each other. He was a good friend of mine in the Austin scene years ago when I was doing backup vocals in a little makeshift recording studio down on Burnet for Joe Gracey. I used to go hang out at the Alamo Hotel on Sixth Street and hear him sing out the very song you just submitted to the Blender. Going to try to catch him at one of the local gigs next time he's in my area. The magazine was out of Seattle, it's called "No Depression" - If you know Butch or Jimmie or Joe Ely, it's a great ten page spread on them all, but mostly showcases Jimmie Dale Gilmore. Well, I know I need to look him up now, two jolts of Jimmie in one week is a little too transcendental even for me to ignore.


From: Madison
Date: 21 March 2000

PS....just went back to look at the song again, and flashed back to a Summer in Austin/living room/Jimmie singing that song on my old gibson acoustic :)


From: Toklas
Date: 21 March 2000

Oh thank you dear megs-- I should not have said just the guys anyway--silly of me. I am just in a state--you know the kind you wear on your sleeve ha ha!


From: lanna
Date: 21 March 2000

Gala--excellent piece, Aphrodite rising, Venus Falls. perhaps there are a million people out there who do as I do, but the last stanza reads me like a book. :) keep making me think...

L


From: kevin urenda
Date: 21 March 2000

Toke-
the change you mention would reset the entire tone for me - I take words seriously - strong, black, no cream or sugar. My 'take' would no longer be bitterweeet (as submitted), but passionate... Something about ink on paper as opposed to emoting electrons that makes the words themselves seem more real... I am not sure if that answer satisfies, but...

k


From: Crystevin
Date: 21 March 2000

*swinging through on a gust of wind*

Hi blenderites!

Kirk, hope to told Mr. "pay me for a link O'Neil" you don't need to pay money to have people visit your site.

just rambling

-Crystevin


From: Galadrial
Date: 21 March 2000

Morning All---

Wanted to say thanks---Aphrodite really was written when I was straining to wake up---but if it worked, perhaps it was because you have to "put yourself" on every morning---and i was too sleepy to set up the filters we all use to keep from saying too much. Lanna, Kev, Meg, Madison--even our dear Aussie Riggs---thank you all.

The amount of raw talent that flows from you people makes me reel. I write "Blender stuff" and it goes here alone---and sometimes it takes amazing courage to toss something out---knowing the caliber of those who will see it. I'm nothing great---but I've cornered the market on brave this month! Madi---thank you. I lost a persona, but I think I joined two halves of a broken coin. Gala and the Wench are learning to play nicely together.

By popular resolve, I'm going to stop writing prose when I'm awake enough to seem coherent. On your heads be it if I spout nothing but vague weirdness in the future.
I can't give up coffee as Meg suggested...I'd sooner give up sex---and the subs from last week suggest dim odds of that---ever.(wicked grin)

Thanks again, kind people. The Elven Queen gathers her skirts in a flourish, executes a small dignified bow...and vanishes softly into the cyber-mist.

The best magic is still love...


Gala


From: Gala
Date: 21 March 2000

And just to show that I really hve been paying attention,

Guppy---I can't believe you...you say your piece with the eloquence of Byron---minus the nonessential bullshit. I am impressed.

Chrystevin---Have missed your stuff...welcome back---and Wow!

Toklas---you're really going to make me give this up...your prose breathes and dances...

Madison---Oh girl...you got the gab---and the grab.

Kevin---that's some lucky lady you got there...poet...lover...philosopher...what a package she has!

And Meg---girl---if i had your talent at the same age...I am pea green with jealousy at your ability to catch the common thread and weave it into tapestry....

Okay. Said my piece. Drank my coffee...on with life...

Gala


From: Ricky Boyer Ricky.Boyer@iss-shipping.com
Date: 21 March 2000

Why I Love You As Much As I Do

The way you always smell good even if its just shampoo
The way your head always find the right spot on my shoulder
How cute you look when you are asleep
The ease in which you fit into my arms
The way you kiss me and all of a sudden everything is
right in the world
The way you take hours to get dressed but in the end it
makes it all worth while
You are always warm even when its minus 30 outside
The way you look good no matter what you wear
How cute you are when we argue
The way your hand always finds mine
The way you say you look a mess when I know different. I know you are the most beutiful person I have ever laid eyes on.
The way you smile
The way you say "lets not fight anymore"
The way you kiss me when I do something nice for you
The way you kiss me when I say "I love you'
Actually ... just the way you kiss me...
The way you fall into my arms when you cry
The way you hit me and expect it to hurt
Then the way you apologize when it does hurt.
(even though I don't admit it)!
The way you say "I miss you"
The way I miss you
The way your tears and smiles make me want to change the world so
that it doesn't hurt you anymore.....Yet regardless if I love you, hate
you( you know I never could), wish you would die or know that I would die without you ... it
matters not. Because for once in my life, whatever you were to the world before we got together you have become everything to me. Your all I have ever wished, prayed and hoped for. When I look you in the eyes, travelling to the depths of your soul and I say a million things without trace of a sound, I know that my own life is inevitabley consumed within the rhythmic beatings of your very heart. I love you for a million reasons,no reason greater than the other.No paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.


From: Misti
Date: 21 March 2000

I'm not sure if they use pesos in Brazil. Frankly, I don't give a damn. It's just a poem, not a travel brochure.


From: Toklas
Date: 21 March 2000

Kevin, thanks for responding. Passionate-yes I hope that message happened. I guess I wondered if a person reading would get it that a question was being asked about the feelings on the other end. The "desecrated flowers" in the beginning refer to the old superstition of pulling petals off flowers with the words, "loves me, loves me not." Supposedly when you get to the last petal, you have the answer.
Also, I have been thinking about the difference between a "love letter" (this is-and is not one) and a letter to a lover. The first (a love letter) suggests all is settled in the relationship and partners freely write one another "lovey" stuff. The second --a letter TO a lover could be many things--. These are just rambling thoughts on letters... Any one else have any thoughts on this?
Toke


From: deevaa awigglin'
Date: 21 March 2000

ohhhhh I'm sorry I've been absent from my blender duties.. thank-you Gala, Riggs and Megs for noticing! (made me feel like you cared even *gasp*)

Crys welcome back handsome, I can't tell you how much I've missed you babe.

I've got a list of recomended reading from the board.. and I can't wait to get into it. Gala, Megs, Madi, and S. Fisher have all have raves that just makes me NEED to check out the works behind them.

For those who keep track of my life (wish I could right now) its umm... (counting it out on her fingers) less than 24hrs before I start the drive to the mountain -- about 30hrs and I'll be wading in the ocean, thats if the weather clears!

I'll be MIA 4 days we have a no computer, no cell phone rule.

Email me... I'd love to hear all the gossip when I get back!

take care of your hearts

dee


From: kevin urenda
Date: 21 March 2000

Dee-
where I live, MIA means "Missing in Albuquerque"
<GIGGLING>
Seriously, have a most wonderful time, and may love wash over you as the waves, and IN waves... Be contented and filled with joy.

k


From: Megs
Date: 21 March 2000

Dee- I expect an ICQ session tonight if you are going AWOL on me. I will be off and on playing around with a paper I have to write on Hemingway (rotten bastard)

Gala- Love ya. That's all. Your compliments mean so much just cause (I know you aren't "blowing smoke" *giggles*)

Misti- mail waiting for you to respond to. I missed my 24 hour update.

Kev- I am so glad to see you back in my inbox. Yay and back in the new subs.

What was WITH the guy saying all that about paying for links blah blah blah...I didn't have the patience for all that. Wondering what it all means???

Off I go...





From: Megs
Date: 21 March 2000

Sorry I am back...

Kev and Gala- like your takes on "I love you"...*ideas bouncing over here*

And Toklas- I know exactly what you mean about "love letters" and "letters to lovers"
I have billions of letters I have written to lovers that don't fit in the other catergory. I could publish a BOOK!!!
Although I never send mine. Maybe someday for Blender consumption. My letters are too personal for the people they are written for...:)


From: Jenna Holland (poetic_angel@gurlmail.com)
Date: 21 March 2000

*shaking head at the absence of inspiration* Oh what to do... what to do...I feel like an outsider looking in! Help!

-Jenna-


From: Derrick.vannoy@compaq.com
Date: 21 March 2000


Just wanted to say that I loved Naomi Sheldon's poem "I'll Think Of You". It really hit a cord with me, and my feelings of Love and sharing Love. And it was all too perfect that that poem was entered on my birthday. Thanks...it was beautiful.

/Derrick


From: deevaa
Date: 21 March 2000

Kev - Love? *hands over her ears* la lalalala I can't hear you.. lalala... no no.. no love allowed, fun and tenderness only.

Megs - you'll need to be on LATE your time... after about midnight or so... the time difference makes things abit akward, I do need time for a pampering bath too.

dee


From: lanna
Date: 21 March 2000

Ok....third time's a charm right? The cimputer is getting the best of me tonight, and whatever I wrote the last two times seems to be lost forever...such is life, I guess...

Misti--Reeling with Reality definitely hit a tender nerve. I feel like you have reached into my mind and said the words I haven't yet found the guts to say...

Gala--I Love You as Incantation...I hope someday that I have the courage and grace to let go of a dying flame, rather than drag it out, but knowing myself, I won't :)


From: Crystevin
Date: 22 March 2000

Dee-

Thanks for the welcome back sweets. Twas a wild and tiring ride and there is much acclimation to do as i resume some sort of normalcy in my life. Figures as soon as i get back, you're out the door on one of your many travels..Stay Safe, see ya soon.

Gala-

Thank you also for the welcome back, hope to be submitting more as things settle down and i'm looking forward to reading your submissions as well as the many talented regs i've been missing.

Crystevin


From: Galadrial
Date: 22 March 2000

Hey Lanna,

The Circle---never be afraid of what a poem says---or says about you...after some of my recent subs, if the poetry police haven't raided my home and taken away my puter---it just won't happen.

You touch on something that gives people the shingles---it's just not PC---but I applaud you because feelings, particularly desire cannot be regulated or compartmentalized. I am regarded as a strong woman---I hold a position of authority in my community---but who I choose to be in my private life---well that is for me to decide. Consenting adults is the assumption.

You go girl.


Gala


From: Ricky Boyer rickylboyer@hotmail.com / Ricky.Boyer@iss-shipping.com
Date: 22 March 2000

Hi, new to the chat. I just wanted to know peoples thoughts on the bit I wrote above titled ''WHY I LOVE YOU AS MUCH AS I DO''. My girlfriend asked me what it was that I loved about her and so I wrote the above verse. She loved it and I just wanted to know what others thought..


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 22 March 2000

Ricky, not to sound cranky, but did you miss where it said "If you wish to submit a poem or story (yours or somebody else's) please go to our Submissions Page" on the comments page? People on this comment board are often happy to give comments on poems that are submitted the "usual" way if you ask.


From: kevin urenda
Date: 22 March 2000

happy hump day, all...

It is weirdness in N.M., where the weather is wackier than the 3 Stooges. Winter actually comes here twice a year - usually once in November and once again in March.

TO the poetry:

Gala-
I, for one, savored the flavor of your poem today. As for the matter at hand, you are right on the mark, for love is never a question of degree, or correctness, or sensibility, it just IS. The heart usually ignores the questions the head asks anyway, so any cross-examination of love degenerates into a sort of internal mud-wrestling. So just LOVE...

gup-
the imagery of "ink cloud" really struck me, as well as the underlying tone. I have been there in love... when you know that the words alone will not suffice... And you must risk bringing life to the passion that words will no longer contain. very nice.

lanna-
there was nothing untoward about how this reader received your poem "My circle..." It was a glimpse into a facet of love I have not experienced, and so I am enriched by the reading of it. Thank you.

all for now, the grindstone beckons...

k


From: Debra654@aol.com
Date: 22 March 2000

Re: I hear you whisper....
the complete title submitted was
I hear you whisper... "Bye Baby"
I typed it in but it didnt show up on the page.


From: deevaa girl! (deevaa@paradise.net.nz)
Date: 22 March 2000

OK OK OK... I know I am ment to be flat out at work trying to catch up on the work I'm not yet behind in -- but hell its only an hour before I jump into my can and head to Mt Taranaki, and I am so full of so many emotions I can't concentrate.

So what to do? I come read the poetry I am so far behind in.
(got tears in my eyes now, been hit hard by some great works!)

Toks - 'Kentucky Blue Grass', full of so many images. WOW

Gala - ditto what everyone said about 'Aphrodite', it was WELL worth the wait. Also 'I love you as an incantation'... <sigh> thankyou.

Kev - 'enumerate'

Crys - 'Coming home'
(and babe, I'll be back Monday, please email me if you have time I can't wait to catch up with you! You won't (well maybe YOU will) believe what I've been up too!!)

Misti - I forget the name... but the one about cyber reality. Sometimes email and telephone calls touch you deeper than dinner dates and cheap wine.

Madi - 'Kismet' and 'Cranberry sauce' ... nice flow on, loved the way they moved in my mouth.

gup - 'Operator assistance' yes yes yes... and OMG 'shroud' can you stop hitting me? damn.
I just love you. Fullstop, end of story.

Well thats it from me... wish me luck or something.

only 5hrs now...

dee


From: lanna
Date: 22 March 2000

Happy Hump day all!

I don't have time right now to say everything I want to, but I will return later...

Gala--thanks for the encouraging words you offered on 'My Circle..'. I wasn't so much afraid of the reaction, as concerned that it would offend someone. I write what I write because it is the feeling that overtakes me at the moment. I'm glad to see that you understand, though. :) Perhaps I will submit a few more along the same lines.

Kevin--Thank you as well. I'm glad that my writing can offer someone else insight into something they have not experienced. That's what writing is somewhat about after all. Evoking feelings in another where they might not have thought there would be any.

More to follow later....L


From: Ryan Reed, ryan_r2k@yahoo.com
Date: 22 March 2000

My sonnet to a lovely girl i know, She makes
me very happy.

I love all of the time we spend together
My weekend plans with you are always set
And it seems like I have known you forever
My life has changed since the day we met.
When i see the stars, i think of you.
Apart from my mind, you'l be never.
Lovely as the skies, your eyes are blue.
With you, in dreams of stormy weather.
Who knew that I would meet a girl so sweet
On the phone, when you turn off the light.
And we hang up, my day is complete.
And i drift off happily into the night.
You're the only one i want to hold,
When the weather is stormy and cold.


From: Galadrial
Date: 22 March 2000

Oh Mojave,

The Vegas thing---oh man---am speechless. You lay it out, seize the heart strings, pull hard and sweep that wench right off her feet!

Nice job!

Gala


From: Pralmis@yahoo.com
Date: 23 March 2000

I myself ,a poet with no audience is seeking to bet feed back on some of my old and new material. Where would i send it to for the world to see and judge?


From: Galadrial60@aol.com
Date: 23 March 2000

No offense Pralmis, but it's rather informal around here. No engraved invites---just submit your stuff...people respond to what they like...or what works for them. Toss something out, then come back a day or so later and see if there were nibbles/

Gala


From: Misti
Date: 23 March 2000

Kevin,
Just read *a fighter for love.* Very impressive!


From: mojave
Date: 23 March 2000

Kevin,
Thought 'A Fighter For Love' was wonderful! Really hit home.

mojave


From: lanna
Date: 23 March 2000

hey all....i just can't catch up with all the great stuff you guys keep posting....sheesh...

Kevin-'A Fighter For Love' is amazing. i guess i never thought of it that way before, althoughi can't imagine why not...thanks!

Channy-'Impotence'....i can't even think of a word to describe the way that felt...some writer i am, huh? it really got to me, though, and what a strong ending!! Good Job!

I know I'm forgetting a lot, and gala, i wanted to say something about redemption, but i need to read it again...

more to follow later, all! (Almost Friday! Yes!)


From: albert, xface121@aol.com
Date: 24 March 2000

"love knows not its own depth until the hour of seperation"


From: Galadrial
Date: 24 March 2000

Kirk---


Was poring over subs this morning---abashed to discover yet another typo in Aphrodite...It is supposed to be "soundtracks"---dropped the "r"---Save me from my stupidity, please?

Gala


From: kevin urenda
Date: 24 March 2000

mojave, lanna, Misti-
thank you for your kindness... I rather liked that poem myself. It is satisfying to a poet when a poem simply 'works.' It is deeply gratifying when other poets recognize it too...

k


From: Galadrial60
Date: 24 March 2000

Hi Kev----


You've been truly amazing this month..."Secrets"
is just one of many in a bouquet....truly a pleasure!



Gala


From: Ashley Skye
Date: 25 March 2000

Misti-
I have to say, "Serendipity Doo Dah", was absolutely the most eye-catching thing I have ever read!!
It was honestly one of the best poems I have ever read also. I wish I could write like that, words flow unbelievably. Thank you for sharing that with us.
*Ashley Skye*


From: Misti
Date: 25 March 2000

Miss Ashley Skye,
Thanks, chica! Wish I could take credit but I owe it all to my Muse. <sigh>
~Misti, Blissed out in Love


From: Galadrial
Date: 25 March 2000

Hey Toklas Honey----

Oh---hairpins---how many times have I let my heart out when I let my hair down? That is an event short haired women will never appreciate! There's pathos in the act at times...your heart goes---but even as it rides the crest of the mane...thanks...


And for anyone who wonders---I've been trying to work a splinter loose from my heart for a few months now. Finally got rid of it this morning with Delete... I am a new woman---a happy Gala...poetry to purge the soul of unquiet ghosts who like to play games with our hearts.

Love wisely, love well!


Gala


From: Toklas
Date: 25 March 2000

Oh Gala, wish I had that button... sorry you have been hurting. Poems are at least as good as a delete button though... I once completely rewrote the end of an affair in poetry. and somehow --it helped. It seems to me we love here in this hard space called "reality" but we also love in another place that has nothing to do with outcomes--it is that eternal, spirit place of love where outcomes don't enter into it. All that is important there is our own place as lovers--how we weave that into our art.

thank you for your comments
toke


From: Toklas
Date: 25 March 2000

In case anyone was wondering, "Incunabula" means old books published before 1501. It also just means old art, books or artifacts. If you wonder what this has to do with love and why I am explaining... it has to do with my comment above to gala. My poems this month were meant to describe a complete cycle of love beginning with Whimsy/Letter to a lover/Kentucky Blue Grass (the highpoint)/ . Broken Moon (the lowest point) comes after Kentucky Blue Grass (sorry I got the order wrong when I posted, it was late when I was working) then Hairpins and finally Incunabula. The "moment of sad grace" from hairpins leads me back to incunabula-- where I live-where there are no outcomes.

toke


From: lanna
Date: 25 March 2000

ok...I am dedicating as much time as it takes to say everything I want to about everything I am reading...there are some truly amazing pieces out there, and I feel blessed to be in the presence of the trully talented that I have encountered here....

Gala--'Redemption'..in a place where so many think that they are 'owed' love...it is refreshing to see someone who sees love for what it is, rather than as a cure-all for everything suffered in the past...'Modern day Translation'..I can't say what Webster's or Roget's would think, but I think you said it beautifully..

Tanq--'The Test'...what a great piece. it brings forth the very essence of what people forget most at the end of an affair...no matter what...'i'm still here'...thanks

Gala--again, you've blown me away..'Delete'...I've used that button a few times myself, and eventually, my heart does catch up with the fact that it has been used...well put!

Kevin--'True' grabbed me...when the 'honeymoon' is over, and the true aspects of a person show through, then is when one can tell what they have....keep up the good work

Misti & Gala...it's truly a pleasure to see you both so happy....I'm approaching a feeling of bliss myself..and there is nothing better in the world

Toklas...I have to agree with you on your words about outcomes...it seems to me, that in the end...what matters most is the feelings that were experienced during the affair (and I use that word loosely). It doesn't matter how it ends, it matters most what you experience while it's going on....

That's about it from me all...I swear I will submit something really soon..as soon as the clock slows enough for me to breathe...

Love safely all, as safe as love will allow...L


From: Megs
Date: 25 March 2000

Awwwww you guys...
The only thing that makes me happier than my own wonderful man (who gets kudos and deserves a love NOVEL after his support of me this week) is seeing y'all so happy.

Gala- Not only do I get to enjoy the results of your poem purges but you are becoming happier in the process and getting a dose of that fairy dust back atcha...you deserve it lady. You are a blessing in so many lives.

Misti- Knowing more than most here all I have to say is I am rooting for ya 100% You've earned this kiddo.

And Kev is submitting his usual tidings of love and just celebrated another wonderful year in a wonderful marriage and Dee is off with a new interest and Lanna sounds happy and all is right with the world and Kirk got engaged earlier (he got the happiness ball rolling looks like)

Ashley- So you can see it all works out? *giggles* Us young'ns can take a lesson

Let's take a minute and enjoy this kiddies. Despite tough stuff we are all blessed.

*All grins and wish I could wrap you all in a victory hug*
Megs
(Who WILL write poems one day on Spring Break)


From: lanna
Date: 26 March 2000

If my head wasn't attached, I'd leave it begind somewhere....

just a short note....Kirk-- I wanted to tell you that I absolutely LOVE the Newmatic Viewer...it makes it so much easier, for me at least, to read the pieces, rather than hiting the silly back button all the time....thanks!


From: lanna
Date: 26 March 2000

ick.....someone remind me to stop writing this late at night....my last post should read 'behind' not begind.....forgive a late-nighter for her lack of typing talent....L


From: Audrey Zak, amzak49@ameritech.net
Date: 26 March 2000

I wish you would add a author search to your site.
That would link all works by a author in one spot.
As I can never find the ones I'm looking for.
when I come to the site to show it to a friend.

Thank You, Audrey Zak, Whitewater, Wisconsin


From: lanna
Date: 26 March 2000

mojave--Your last piece..'After A Night...'...if you ever write something that doesn't grab me, it might be a shock. It makes me wonder that I'm not the only one that feels as though I don't have much to offer. When it comes down to it, all we really have is ourselves, though. Keep up the brilliant work...L


From: deevaa is back!
Date: 26 March 2000

*grin* ohhhhh I've had the best weekend, I'd forgotten what it was like to sleep in, and the get back rubs 'just cause' and breakfast in a bed you don't have to make! B-L-I-S-S. (spell it with me... I know you can!)

Gala, Kev, Toks, Mojave, Crys, I'm looking forward to catching up on your new ones... I've had a quick skim of the new subs, but haven't given them the full on attention they deserve.
(Misti and Mojave, are you guys founding members of the 'Pet Shop Boys fan club'?? hehe.. and here I was thinking that only they where a British phenomenon that didn't make it big in the USA.)

Audrey *glancing at Kirk and hoping I'm not speaking out of turn* The author search is a good idea, but imagine the work it'd take to link every new poet to their own page, Kirk runs this site out of the goodness of his heart (and pocket I might add)... it'd be a lot of work to get that going and keeping it maintained.

Megs - is it my turn to nag you? why is there nothing new from you? hmmm???

Well.. take care of your hearts.. I really must get back to work, but I really don't wanna!

dee


From: Toklas
Date: 26 March 2000

Gala, Deeva, I love the Waterfall collaboration. A lovely poem and painting.
Deeva, I am also a visual artist and have tried to put my poems and paintings together. I just finished one of cedar trees and a poem about Cedars.

Mojave, What a wonderful tribute to the lady whose poems you read all night. A wonderful poem! thank you.


From: deevaa
Date: 26 March 2000

Toks - I'd love to see... have you got the image scanned? my email address is deevaa@paradise.net.nz -- please share!

dee


From: Galadrial60
Date: 27 March 2000

Hey All---


It's a bird---it's a plane! It's DEE, floating on a cloud---I'd know that grin anywhere! Welcome home! Gee, It's getting crowded up there---think I saw Misti floating by as well...

In any event----Toklas, I can't thank you enough for the kind words and encouragement...I read Thistle, and it put me to mind of the original Rumpplestiltskin tale---the millers daughter was given the task of weaving not straw into gold, but thistle into flax...and every time she touched the thistle, it burned her fingers...enter funny little man with odd name...loved the poem---but interesting how we go off on tangents---just wondered if you'd read that...

Lanna, I love you---but you have to stop or I will get a big head, and assume I'm Little Miss Poet Laureate!
Thank you...and your stuff is pretty damned good girl. Keep chugging.

Megs (sternly) People are gonna think I'm Mother Theresa or something! And I look awful in an habit! Not my style! (lol)

I don't know about the rest of you, but March has been an amazing month here at the Blender. Write on, bon amis!


love Gala


From: Galadrial60
Date: 27 March 2000

Morning all---

Rather than a poem today, I find myself rambling about love---it's nature and history to be more specific. Love has existed forever---but what is it, really? Attraction is something akin---but it's not love. Romance is a side course---but it's not love. And up to one hundred years ago, weddings based on love were queer and strange. There is certainly no more awful a sight in the world emotionally then love gone bad.

So I'm putting it out to the sage minds and tender souls who visit this place. I've noticed that Spring can really turn up the emotional barometer...so Gala asks threse three questions, possibly in the interest of prompting inspiration, clarity, or focus.

1. What is love to you?

2. How many forms of love to you recognize in your life? (And no dear hearts, chocolate does not count.)

3. If you have someone you LOVE (all caps emotionally) in your life, what emotional feature draws you to them>


And yes, if people take the Gala Challenge II, I will answer my own damned questions. but we got lots of new folks milling around---and I don't want to cramp anyone's style. Again, there are no right or wrong answers---ready? Set? GO!


Gala


From: Toklas
Date: 27 March 2000

OH gala, I had forgotten the fairy tale. But yes I had read it many years ago. And so true. And I think my thistle did burn my fingers... As soon as I read your post I had images just bursting in my mind.
Toke


From: MEKKA_LUVS_JAY@YAHOO.COM
Date: 27 March 2000

i LIKE MOST OF THESE POEMS BUT NOT ALL GUYS(OR GIRLS) TURN OUT TO BE YOUR "SOUL MATE" i WOULD LIKE TO HEAR SOMETHING THAT IS MORE REALISTIC LIKE A BROKEN HEART OR THINGS LIKE THAT. i HAVE JUST BROKE UP WITH jAY(AS IN MY E MAIL ADDRESS) AND I AM LOOKING FOR SOMETHING TO DESCRIBE MY SITUATION.
THANK YOU FOR LISTENING.
mEKKA_LUVS_JAY@YAHOO.COM


From: Megs
Date: 27 March 2000

Gala- Ick I don't want a nun...I want a fairy godmother. I'll stop polishing your pedstal for now.

Dee- *As she checks inbox* I am not seeing any report from you concerning this weekend. Pop off that cloud for a second and drop me a line kiddo. If you do I will consider writing some ;)

To Gala's questions...YAY I love the question game.

*Dashes off to formulate answers* Kev expects me to sprinkle some of my wisdom here...can't disappoint or he might stop emailing me again...hehe...

Megs


From: lanna
Date: 27 March 2000

Gala!! Brilliant challenge. Don't know if I can think straight enough to answer them, but I will give it my best shot. And if you would STOP writing stuff that knocks me on my ass, I might stop praising you!

Mekka...not that I am liking the caps all over the place, but I'll take up the guantlet and post a broken heart poem for ya. Fortunatley, for those who have been paying attention, I am moving out of that slump, though, and am becoming blissfully happy.

Mojave...I love your latest submission, and if I wasn't so damned distracted, I might remember the name of it. It's brilliant, though.

Two of my new ones, which I am posting, were written at work, so I hope the Gods of Poetry (and Goddesses) will forgive if they seem somewhat scattered...

That's all for now.

Gotta love LOVE! L


From: Galadrial----
Date: 27 March 2000

Oh Gang----come on!


All right...since everyone is "thinking" about it, I'll go toe to toe with the line....

1. All forms of love are a sense of attachment or connection to another being. Your "heart" gets involved on some level, greater or lesser...and your emotions come sharply into play. Love to me is a bolt from the blue----logic had nothing to do with it---common sense even less....
which is why the saying "love will find a way" is such a profound truth. We don't just fall for suitable matches. The road to love is bumpy as hell...and once you get there, the scenary constantly changes---so pack light---and like they say in the Casinos or are Wall Street---don't bet more than you're prepared to lose...

2. Love comes in too many forms to count---even if you leave out crushes and obsessions. There are even shades of romantic love---though we get less of them these days. As Americans, we assume that love between men and women MUST have an element of sexuality---or at least attraction. Courtly love can still happen---but when it does, we hide it----simply beacause no one will believe it. We have but one word in English---love, and to distinguish what kind, we depend on modifiers, In other language, each form of love has it's own distinct form---confusion is more easily avoided---at least that's the theory. I love my family---my husband---my fairygod kids---my friends---and every once in a while, even myself. (For a very brief period!) I've even discovered that I can love people I've never met---no lie!
So my world got bigger and so did my heart. The Blender folk are very special to me---and I can say that I love a lot of you---Megs, and Kev, Madison, Toklas, Shady where ever the heck she is---and DEE! My very own Kiwi clone, my sister, and my friend. Yup. I can use love with all of you---and mean it.

3. All Caps Emotionally---that one is tough. The most obvious common thread in my life is the ability to trust the A>C>E>---(Ace? That's wild!) This question was actually born a year ago, when I asked my husband why he married me.
He looked at me intently for a moment---and gave an answer I never expected in a billion years. It was, in retrospect a good answer---a fine answer, in fact...but it was utterly unexpected. And apparently utterly true. He loved me, of course. But love isn't the whole ball of wax.

It will sound stupid---but what attracts me to the A.C.E. the most is the abilitiy to surprise me. Chuck still has it---after almost 20 years. Just when you think you know the guy...he says or does somthing utterly unexpected---usually something sweet....so there.


Iy you think you can do better, put in your two cents!


Gala


From: kevin urenda, kluless70@hotmail.com
Date: 28 March 2000

Gala-
Questions? Guess I cannot take a pass because I missed the LAST ones!

Love is, to me, far more than a subset of emotions (for most of them attend real love), more than a commitment, more than comfort, more than taking a lifetime to grow into the three words "I love you." It is all of that, and more.
Love is making a life together, the sweet kisses and the morning breath... The perfumed finery and the bed head... Breakfast, lunch, tea, dinner, and a midnight snack... The sappy and the sublime...

And Love is when you accept yourself the way your lover sees you.

I recognize as many forms of love in my life as there are people, for each relationship takes on a personality all its own. I hate to categorize love by type, for it is far too special to circumscribe in any manner. There are so many different types and levels of love that it is like a kaleidoscope gone mad. Simply, though, there is love, and then there is LOVE (yes, just as you pointed out, Gala). And in those to whom I have given a big piece of my heart and life, I can almost recognize the mark of what I have given them. For it is special to them, as they are special to me. But broken down to a finite level, love, to me, is much like the alchemy of old... In this system, there were thought to be four elements - earth, air, water, and fire (yes, I know, for those of you who actually have seen "The Fifth Element," this is tedious!). Anyway, the proper combination of these elements was supposed to transform (magically?) into Gold. Simply put (metaphorically speaking, since alchemists never DID find that formula for real Gold), the four elements can be equated to the Heart, the Mind, the Spirit (soul), and the Body. Love is the Gold you get with the proper combination of all four. And repeating that combination as often as possible is the mark of a good life, particularly if you are able to create this kind of Gold with one or two people in as long-lasting a manner as humanly possible.

And at the root of that creation is where the answer to the third question is to be found. A deep and abiding love is something that must be built and rebuilt continually. Tended to, much like a house or a garden... There is an art to it, but it is mostly a craft (meaning it's easy and it's hard work). Those I am most drawn to (IN LOVE with as set apart from other people I love) give me that which is unexpected, yes, beginning with the grace of their love. More than that, though, they stir within me all four elements of LOVE. Friends can stir a couple, GOOD friends can make make three of the four, but only the "A.C.E." can put all four together in that magical way...

k


From: Galadrial60
Date: 28 March 2000

And the elven queen did little suspect an alchemist in the midst of the Vale...

Good job Kevin!

Okay you guys----only two more days before the questions vanish from the viewer...don't all wait till the last minute---lest your deathless prose shall die aborning!



Gala



From: Misti
Date: 28 March 2000

1. Love is...my 19 year old cousin Holly calling her husband, Ryan, "Grouchy Bear" in the morning. Love is Holly waiting tables and going to school full-time and Ryan working at Wal-Mart and going to school full-time. Love is Holly and Ryan taking a marriage enrichment class at church and love is Holly and Ryan walking to the altar to pray together on Sunday morning.
Love is my grandfather calling my 64 year old grandmother "Girl" and touching the hospital bracelets on her arm after she has had hip surgery and telling her that her arm looks swollen.
Love is my sister Autumn and her boyfriend Jeff dancing to a Merle Haggard or George Strait song in Billy Bob's Texas in the Stockyards on a Saturday night.
Love is reading sweet e-mail from someone who lives hundreds of miles away after coming home from a lousy date.
2. There are so many forms of love in my life that I can't count them all. There are the obvious forms...romantic, erotic, the love I feel for my family, the love I feel for Julie Kate (the daughter I placed for adoption), the love I feel for my friends. Then there is love for the simple things, like hearing a favorite song on the radio or eating bacon and cheese omelets and drinking coffee at IHOP at 4 a.m. after a night of dancing. I use the word "love" a lot to express my enthusiasm for various things. I love Las Vegas. I love good beer (not cheap beer! not light beer!). I love playing songs on the jukebox at Pizza Hut while waiting for my pizza. I love walking in the rain. I love "I Can't Tell You Why" by the Eagles. I love spending two quarters on a book of T.S. Eliot poetry at Goodwill.
3. I LOVE him 'cause he says he's so crazy about me that he has insomnia and he's been smoking cigarettes (and he's not a smoker)and he matches me in so many unbelievable ways and his e-mail and poems feed my soul and I'm smiling the whole time we talk on the phone. I could go on forever with this answer but I need to hop in the shower and get ready. You'll find more answers to this one in my poetry, anyway!
~misti, still bLiSsed out IN LOVE


From: Galadrial
Date: 28 March 2000

Cool Beans Misti---wonder who the source of light, heat, and happiness could be?



Thanks!

Gala


From: mojave
Date: 28 March 2000

Yes, love is complicated (hmm...a favorite word of mine), and never more so, I think, than when we are right in the middle of it. That's probably why this is a very difficult series of questions for me to answer right now. So this may only be a partial answer, but it's about all I can manage, I'm afraid.

As for me, the person I LOVE quite simply is my life at the moment. How do I know? They make everything seem new to me; they make ordinary things seem like little miracles. They make me feel like I don't deserve them but assure me that I do--and I BELIEVE them.

They make me think anything is possible. They make me feel every day like I do when I hear Janis Joplin singing 'Summertime' or Billie Holiday singing almost anything. They make me forget what I was thinking about before all I could think about was them...

Stuff like that.

That's all. That's enough!

mojave


From: deevaa
Date: 28 March 2000

ok... deevaa's short take on it all..

Love is, well it is LOVE. It is the sparkle in your eye when you catch him smiling at you, it is the way he pulls you in tighter when you try to get out of bed, its the smile in your voice when you say his name...its feeling a part of someone even when you are apart, its the way your heart feels like its going to explode, its sharing, its laughter, its adoring and being adored, its being truthful, and open, and taken, and wanted and it hurts like hell.

How many forms? there aren't enough words and there isn't enough ways....

and number 3... well I don't qualify for that one.

dee


From: Megs
Date: 28 March 2000

Ok I have to take a stab...Gala you sparked a long prose piece in my head and I have been tossing this around.
There's poems a-comin' There's poems a-comin'...*giggles*

1. I am learning now more and more what love is. Love like everything else has its dark side and its light- I have seen love bring new life to a person and seen love abused stifle a person's soul. Love to me is taking the time to learn a person...to appreciate the intricacies that make a pair a like and different.

2. There are as many forms of love as there are rays of sun over the ocean...I heard that quote once and I believe it...Even my feelings toward the person I am "in love" with are varied...I love him as my best friend...I love him in a passionate way...I love him because I can invest 100% trust...I love him in that childlike way on the days you just need cuddled and comforted.
And too Gala- I love you too Awwwwwwwww...
I would definitely answer this one along the lines of Misti...she said it as I would have.

3. I am in love and so certain of it that I am past the typical childlike demands and skirmishes of high school etc (well I am most of the time) I think I am growing into love as I grow up.

Well I am trying to sound wise...but Misti, Gala, and Kev took most of my ideas (ya you think- what a cop out!!!)
And I love you guys too- the ones I have gotten to know have formed one of my many families- families of heart not blood.

Awwwwwww Big Blender Hugs (((Hug)))
Megs


From: Tanqueray Cowboy
Date: 28 March 2000

"...Gala asks threse three questions, possibly in the interest of prompting inspiration, clarity, or focus."

Well, since you asked...

Love?
Love is the heart singing. The tempo and melody will vary, but a song IS there and it's plainly audible to your inner self.

Kinds of Love?
Just two kinds of Earthly Love: (in no particular order) First, platonic. Family and really-just-friends. Really-really-please-I-really-don't-ever-want-to-see-you-naked-Friends.
Second, everything Else.

Emotional features?
Assuming Romantic Love... and certain degree of mutual Attraction... I'd have to say Kindness. She must be kind to me to win my favor, and kind to others to keep it. Oh, and Humor!

Thanks for asking, Gala! Best Wishes, All.

tc


From: Galadrial60
Date: 28 March 2000

Tanq---

My mouth is hanging open about a yard...see, the reason my husband said that he married me was...my kindness.
He said it was so rare---and at first, I was embarassed. What kind of reason was that? It made me sound like an over grown girl scout..and made me want to wack him...What about my passion? My talent? (Oh yes Gala, very sure men chose their brides with meter in mind!) My cooking? Something---
socially acceptable----but he said the same thing you did.
I'll be danged...

In the last year, I've some to the conclusion that Chuck was in fact very wise. That was a dynamite reason to spend your whole life with someone.

And thanks everybody----I have truly enjoyed
and the thinking, and the insights...

Oh---and Kirk? Are you going to kill me for these pop quizes?


Love Gala


From: lanna
Date: 28 March 2000

ok....figures I'm a bit behind everyone else on this.....but in answer to your questions gala....

1)Love is really so many things to me. Holding my niece for the first time, looking forward to holding my nephew. It's looking up at the sky and knowing that he is seeing the same thing I am, even though he is so very far away. It's the shock at seeing a phone bill, or the jump my heart does when I see his name, or think about him. It's cherry garcia ice cream on a hot summer day, or a cold winter night. It's seeing my younger brother make the same mistakes I did, and letting him, knowing he will be stronger for them, in the end.

2)I'm in agreement with most of you, there are too many forms of love to count. I see love in places I never would have thought to look, every day it seems. The love I feel for my family, my friends. I see a butterfly in spring and I tear up because it touches my heart so. I see a stinking Folgers commercial at Christmastime and I run for the tissues. How many types of love are there in my life? Endless.

3)The someone I LOVE in my life...what DOESN'T draw me to him. His amazing capacity to make me smile, even after the crappiest day. The amazing way he captured my heart, even before we've met face-to-face (16 days to go now). The way he seems to understand what I am feeling, before he even hears what it is. His truly brilliant talent for always having the right answer (in my opinion, anyway.) There are a million and one things that I LOVE about him, but if I have to pick one thing, it would have to be the way he tells me everything will be ok, and I actually BELIEVE him.

I hope that's good enough for now, Gala...wow that took a lot out of me. :)

Happy LOVING everyone!


From: Galadrial
Date: 29 March 2000

Coffee? Who the hell needs coffee this morning? Just read the last three by Guppy, Dee and Toklas---My heart is de-pressurizing over here....guys please---wow..........

Well Gala's just going to gather her crayons up and retire quietly....

Dee Girl---You're making me THINK..The title sets you up so beautifully, and bam----elegant my dear. No histrionics---just the raw ache of a seeking heart...(double hug)

Oh Gup---we all fear the monster with the angel's voice..or feet. Your still lifes amaze me...as per always.

And Tok---you used a few deft strokes---and created an Andrew Wyeth scene---love Wyeth BTW...

And eveyone---love is one other thing to me...it's putting the good of another before your own---and not minding doing it. It's a love gift from the spirit, and may very well seperate us from the monkies for all time.


It's Spring---I'm sad/happy today. Thanks people---we needed a shot of poetic insuliin I think. Okay. enough of the sweet stuff---let's get gamy again!


Gala,
wand a waving


From: Beth (Angel1624@hotmail.com
Date: 29 March 2000

Hey guys,
Sorry it's been such a long while since i've been on......Just thought i'd answer the ?'s.


Hmm. What is love? I believe that love (for someone else) is when you would truly do anything for them. You're willing to sacrifice time and efforts to help them along. When you love even the bad things about someone, or the things that drive you nuts, along with the good. When you really like just everything about them. And of course, when you're willing to clean up after someone who has the flu!

There are so many types of love in my life i can't really even begin to explain.

As for the love in my life, it's hard for me to single out just one feature that really draws me to him, but i would say his openness. Just his willingness to share, and listen, and be supportive, and all that.

Beth


From: Jennifer
Date: 29 March 2000

Kirk,
Stopped by for the first time in a while, since I saw you at your party, and now a haiku for you and Mo, ok mostly for Mo...

Congratulations!
I wish both of you the best,
Bridesmaids wear lilac....? :)

JT


From: Jennifer
Date: 29 March 2000

Sorry...I meant Shane's party, too early...


From: Megs
Date: 29 March 2000

Ok I just submitted the MONSTER submission...this is what I got after reading Gala's questions at 1:30 a.m. and it comes from so close to home I wanted to keep it to myself.
But for my fairy godmother...

The quote is supposed to be "Some of its magic. Some of its tragic. But I had a good life all the way." By the great Jimmy Buffett and that seems to sum it all up perfectly.
ESPECIALLY the longer version that I didn't have the heart to type.

EXCELLENT poems coming out lately. Did my favorite godmother jar us out of our writer's block???

Longwinded (as usual)
Megs


From: Galadrial60
Date: 29 March 2000

Oh Megs----

Girl you just danced me down memory lane..and showed that wisdom isn't the result of being older---more like it's something you acquire when you pay attention...We all pay the piper, one way or another...but he doesn't have to pplay the same song over and over---not if you pay attention.

You are witty, wise, wonderful---and way talented. I'm proud of you Girl---you're worth your weight in purple peeps!


Love Gala


From: Buddy
Date: 29 March 2000

Someone Please, help me with my problems. It seems like I keep going around in circles with my x girlfriend.


From: Buddy
Date: 29 March 2000

Someone Please, help me with my problems. It seems like I keep going around in circles with my x girlfriend.


From: deevaa
Date: 29 March 2000

I was wrong to post 'well at least she didn't...' I've calmed down since last night... here is how my day went yesterday.. it might help make my words clearer.

5.05pm the ex arrives (35mins late) with my child and car, the car is playing up, and he is in a fowl mood.

5.15pm the ex, TK and I spend time together at a pub with some friends to farewell him on his trip back to Japan, TK is given coke and turns hyper, Ex ignores the child and Mumma gets stressed out chasing him about.

6pm dinner with child and ex. Very strained, not much talking, apart from with child.

7pm drop ex off at the bus station for the trip to Akld to get on the plane, child screams for his dadda the entire 35min drive home... mumma cries too.

8pm can't get onto the internet and desperatly need a hug.

8.30pm 'sorta man' phones, we talk for 3hrs, a woman in his class has made it clear she is interested in him, he is going to test it to see if it'll work, we have to cool off.

11.30pm I feel deserted and alone from everyone.

11.45pm get out of bed and write that wreak of a poem. Get back into bed... can't sleep. Crawl into bed with my son.

3am woken by large earthquake.
3.30am... woken by second larger earthquake... can't get back to sleep...lay awake thinking I've not really lost anything with the sorta man... after all 90% of the time we are apart, we still have a good friendship to continue, get over the anger and fall asleep.

the end.

sorry.

dee


From: Ashley Skye
Date: 29 March 2000

Megs,
Props to you and your new poem!! That is great!! Very true. Too bad for me I still have writer's block. hey, maybe one day soon!! Still looking for inspiration, but in the meantime, I'll read everyone else's good stuff!!
~*Ashley*~


From: lanna
Date: 29 March 2000

Wow! there is some great stuff out there today! You guys are awesome. I can't comment on everyone's poems....I just don't have the attention span I used to. I hope this says what I mean though...

I read the new subs, and thanks to all, all of the doubts that sneak up on me in the middle of the night, and the excitement that distracts me at work, has been temporarily banished as I sit here smiling a bit at the thought of angel toes vs. medusa toes, and also as I try not to cry reading Dee's sub, knowing how close to home that really is. My heart goes out to you Dee, even though you explained it away, I still feel for you.

Well, I am too wound up to write for now, but that can change with the drop of a hat, so we'll see. Keep up the great work, everyone! L


From: Megs
Date: 29 March 2000

Thanks Ash...I im'ed you earlier but you signed off. Fine don't talk to me...hehe.

Kev...welcome to the ultra competitive baseball challenge!!! It wouldn't let me scout out your team so give me the scoop...who'd you pick? Hehe...I am going to kick your butt. Want to make a wager on this?

GOSH!!! March is almost over...does anyone know where the new year has gone...its been TOO fast...


From: Crystevin
Date: 30 March 2000

LOVE IS:

as diverse and indivdual as the poetry of our muses, is in fact, the poetry of our hearts. Simply put, Love is personally perceived through heartfelt experiences.

-Crystevin


From: Crystevin
Date: 30 March 2000

Dee-

email me, lost my addy book.

*hugs*

Crystevin


From: Galadrial
Date: 30 March 2000

Hey Chrys---


Think I'll leave the dreaming to you for a while...are you sure you're not my brother or something?
The snooze button is always the first thing to wear out on my alarm clock....

Gala


From: Megs
Date: 30 March 2000

Misti- I miss your comments and emails lady...but a good poem you wrote last...lets me know what is going on.

To everyone- My last submission (god I have been long winded lately) is trouble...new guy from awhile back enters the scene (someone I will work with) and I am caught somewhere between throwing caution to the wind and saying I am only 19 and trying to make a go at new things or sticking with the one I love who has been beside me for everything and then some for fear that otherwise I would lose him forever. HELP!!!

Does that make sense? I know we've all been there...I need you fairy godmother and Kev and Dee and all the other voices of wisdom. I can't screw this up.

*Somewhere near sad*
Megs


From: Misti
Date: 30 March 2000

Megs,
I love your two newest submissions! Sorry I haven't e-mailed ya in awhile. I've been at the hospital all week and I'm still tryin' to find a job!
You know what an astrology freak I am...I say hold onto your Crab for dear life! It's in the stars, chica. Taste testin' can be fun, but I think you've found some rare vintage stuff in Calvin. He's certainly inspired some kick ass poetry!
I'll e-mail ya later on!


From: deevaa
Date: 30 March 2000

Crys -- sure thing I will handsome.

Megs -- well I am not a whole lot sure if you really want to hear what I am feeling right now, I feel a little like the one that was thrown aside for the taste test, firmly believe he'll miss what I have and want it back, and what then?

dee


From: Ashley
Date: 30 March 2000

Misti-
I accidentally skipped over the "No small things" the other day. Well I went back tonight and read it, and couldn't help but notice george Strait's name and HAD to comment!! He is the ultimate man!! The love of my life, which is rare for a 17 year old girl to say!! I have a george Strait pillowcase and a 6 foot cardboard statue of him in my room, along with a border!! I gues syou can say I am a little obsessive. I think it has something to do when I was little. I have always been a country girl at heart, stuck in New Jersey. I had that picture in my head of what the perfect man would look like, and it wasn't until my 8th grade year that I first heard him, and then saw his face, the face that was in my head my whole life. He is the epitome, in my opinion of the perfect man and cowboy!! I wrote him a while back and confessed how much I wish he was my father!! haha, I am crazy!! well I just wanted to share that with you!! Seeing now that you are a texas girl!!'
~*Ashley Skye*~


From: Misti
Date: 30 March 2000

Miss Ashley Skye,
Bless your heart! In love with George Strait and stuck in New Jersey! Ha! My mom has always been in love with George, too...ever since "The Chair," I think. My all time favorite George Strait song is "This is Where the Cowboy Rides Away."
Did you know he lives in a subdivision in San Antonio called the Dominion? My mom and sister went to an open house festival there once. He graduated from SWT in San Marcos, which is where I went to school for two years.
I'm sure you've seen him in "Pure Country." I love when he sings "I Cross My Heart" at the end. But I think his best love song is "The Man in Love With You."
"I may not even be the dream you wanted to come true...but I'll always be the man in love with you."
<sigh>
:)Misti, the Lone Star Lolita of the Blender


From: Megs
Date: 30 March 2000

First *concerned* Dee you sound soooo blue...positively NAVY my love. I am worried. Your email reply a few days ago sounded ok...the last comment sounded full of sighs and confusion and I am thinking about you. (((HUG))) Please chin up babes.

And now a lil grin to Misti and Ashley...do I see country fans hanging round here...country girls...it warms the cockles of my barefoot backwoods WV heart. I myself will marry Tim McGraw if he ever leaves Faith and I ever disentangle myself from the "Summer of Love Triangle"

First a fairy godmother...then a cubbies companion in Uncle Kev ;) (errrr...should I call you old fart here *giggles*???) and now two country girls. The Blender has a great lil mix. Oh and I can't forget the mumma of my fave lil boy...

A lil less blue on my end- just a touch of azure perhaps.
Megs


From: Toklas
Date: 30 March 2000

Megs, I just read All you know about lOve. It was wonderful. I was deeply touched by your words- thank you for sharing them.


From: Kirk, Blender-Keeper
Date: 30 March 2000

I just bought a frickin' big tv. Mo bought me a DVD for my birthday, except I couldn't plug it directly into my TV (lowend 27"), so instead of looking for a $50 convertor box I bought a $2000 monster of a television. The RCA MM36100. 36 inches, digital ready, can act as a monitor. Getting it up the stairs into my apartment was an adventure- even with the strongest friend I know, we barely managed its 190lbs. I am a bit worried it's going to start influencing decisions about moving and stuff. But damn, it looks good.

Sorry I haven't been more social lately, work has been friggin' nuts...


From: Paul
Date: 31 March 2000

Meg -
I just read DISAPPOINTMENT. And I guess I took offense to you lumping so many males into the catagory. Now, please, don't take offense but....the one common demnominator in all this is YOU.

Peace


From: mEg
Date: 31 March 2000

Paul....

Dear....

I take no offense as I was being dramatic
and was writing it as such at the time.

I was "VENTING".....expressing frustration
and disappointment at a particular moment of
time.

I know I am common denominator in the
document I wrote - DUH.

When I point a finger, I'm intimately acquainted
with the fact that four are pointing back at me.
But that wasn't the topic of what I wrote... I'll
save the "mEg self analysis" for another date...

Cheers and Chill out (Hope you look for all the lumps
in life)
mEg







From: Misti
Date: 31 March 2000

Meg,
I was just wOwed by *Disappointment.* As someone who has been dating for the past 11 years, more or less, I can tell you...I identify!!! I don't know who this Paul is when he's at home, but you are NOT a "common denominator." Yeah, yeah, I get the analogy all too well, but someone who writes like you do is NOT common!


From: Misti
Date: 31 March 2000

Oh gosh...I just realized I have a friend named Paul who drops by here on occasion. Hope this is a different Paul!!!


From: kevin urenda
Date: 31 March 2000

mEg-
I was not put off in the least by your poem. Nor, strangely, by that first comment. My first thought (other than "how typically male" - but then I guess I just see women in a different light than most men) was that some people, even if they LIKE poetry, just do NOT 'get' how deeply personal the act of putting yourself on paper is (or your emoting electrons in the ether). To become too entangled in the words themselves is to forget the whole idea of context.

A true artist always has a deeply introspective element, whether they point a finger in the mirror or not. Many poems spring from all of that, whether they bring catharsis or not, and as a fellow poet I thank you for the demonstration...

k


From: Galadrial60@aol.com
Date: 31 March 2000

Okay---a desperate plea---does anyone have the lyrics to the dick haymes standard---"You'll Never Know?"


Gala


From: kevin urenda
Date: 31 March 2000

more month-end poetic commentary:

Channy-
I adored your poem "Exquisite Requisite," as I am DEFINITELY not made of the same stuff as some stud muffin... (but I am handy to have around the house!)

Dee-
every time I even THINK about your poem "for you," I just want to reach out and hug you...

mojave-
must be SOME muse you have there, friend...
The point of "You Were Right" is well-taken (I am continually told that I err too much on the side of worship, when all I want is for her to KNOW down to the nucleus of every cell of her being that I ADORE her). And the first three lines of "After a Night of Reading Your Poetry" struck me hard - right in the gut... But, to borrow a Kirkism if I may, I only WISH I had written "just let me." That is poetry, epitomized, sir...

Toklas-
I cannot tell you the myriad of images that "Bonfires" evoked within me... all were quite striking and pleasant. Much like the soul that would create such a poem, no doubt. Thank you for sharing.

last, but never ever least
Megs-
it is quite true that the pain of life enables us to grab a little more clarity with which to see how things truly are. That you possess a wisdom far beyond your years is almost too trite to say to you. Belittling, in a way, after reading "All You Know About Love." When I mentioned above how deeply personal (and private) the act of writing was to a POET, I suppose I was thinking about your prose in this work... You are braver than I could ever be to share your life with everyone this way. Thank you... for everything...


Gala-
just e'd you those lyrics...

k


From: Misti
Date: 31 March 2000

<raises a glass of riesling, toasting Meg>
Five stars, two thumbs up and You Go, Girlfriend!!!
(your Self Analysis kicks some major booty!!!)
:)Misti


Date: 31 March 2000

Misti-
"Cross my Heart" was actually the first song I ever heard by George, which made me fall in love with him!! Also, at the end of your comment, you called yoruself the lonestar Lolita of texas, It caught my eye because Lolita is my mom's name!! How ironic is that!! She used to live in Corpus Christi and loved it, I can't wait to visit there one day.

Megs-
You are gonna hate me when I tell you this, but last August, I MET Tim Mcgraw. I got 2 autographs, and A blown up picture of him and I in my room!! What a good-looking man!! A close runner-up to George!!!
Well have a great weekend everyone!!
~*Ashley Skye*~


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From: Galadrial60
Date: 31 March 2000




Thanks Kev---could rememebr exactly half the song---couldn't brak it free from my brain until I knew the other...

Dee? How's You?

And where the heck is Madison? What girl? You give us up for Lent of something?

Don't even get started on Shady----

Megs? Read your mail, honey---and hang in there!


Gala


From: Misti
Date: 31 March 2000

My picks for the front page:
*Dot-Dot-Dot-Dash...* by mojave
*mEg's self analysis* by mEg
*medusapedophobia* by the guppy
*Madness!* by lanna
*Wine Tasting* by Megs
*Serendipity Doo Dah* by me (just bein' honest! i like it)
*a fighter for love* by kevin urenda
There have been MANY kick ass submissions this past month but those are my favorites.


From: Misti
Date: 31 March 2000

Oh, and *Erotic Imagining* by Gala/Wench
and *Rosia* by S. Fisher
and *Not a Question of Heart* by Channy
(sorry!)
:)Misti


From: Jenna Holland (poetic_angel@gurlmail.com)
Date: 31 March 2000

~Ashley Skye~
"Reflections" After reading: -I know you so well, yet know nothing of you- great poem! Glad the inspiration is back!

-Jenna-


From: Paul
Date: 31 March 2000

Yep, Mist, it was me...looks like I got my wrist slapped for having an opinion.


From: deevaa
Date: 31 March 2000

OK everyone... I am fine thanks for all being concerned.
'He' phoned me last night from work and I am certain our friendship remains intact, our time hasn't come and for that I am thankful.

I am however blue and maybe a little tenderhearted, and all these kind words keep making me cry, so could you stop trying to ruin my staunch image and just lay off.

dee


From: Misti
Date: 31 March 2000

Paul,
Sorry, dude! Do I still get the McDonald's coupons and help with my screenplay?
:)Misti the Jobless Waif


From: lanna
Date: 31 March 2000

Well, all, another month gone by. I can't believe how fast this year is passing!

I just wanted to say that I am so very impressed with the work that's been coming out. Of course, now I am stuck and can't write a thing, but I'm sure given time, it will change....(we can always hope.)

Not gonna comment on any one in particular today. Just know that you all have touched my heart, my soul, andmade me think. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and emotions.

Talk to you all later...and keep up the inspiring work.

Lanna


From: Megs
Date: 31 March 2000

Toklas- Thanks for the kind words on "All I Know.." It means a lot coming from you considering how much I admire your work.

Kev- Same goes to you of course but you already know I love you to death. You are right about the coming from the heart part...I am learning to wait more so I say EXACTLY what I want to straight from me. Email waiting for you.

Gala- Email for you too...I just read your big long reply and it made me happy and sad at the same time. ((HUG))

mEg- I got confused reading Paul's comment at first...hehe...I was like what did I do??? Then I remembered you and ran off to read your works which I loved both. Self Analysis was VERY nice.

Ashley- Ahhhhh Tim is a hottie *Woohoo* And I have seen that movie where he sings "I Cross my Heart" and I love it...awww...

Which prompts me to make my own Blender Inquiry ala Gala:
I am wondering what everyone's favorite "In Love" song is...as well as there favorite "Sad Love" song.
With all the poets gathered here I am interested to see what kind of a list we come up with.


From: Megs
Date: 31 March 2000

Whoops...
One more to Misti (even though I dashed off an email to you earlier with many ???) I LOVE the woman I am because it says in essence something I have been trying to say...anyway it hit home.
I read your last email and I am a bit confused...need details.

Till then a cyber toast with Long Island Ice Tea-