The Blender Board

(moving back a couple of chairs so he can be closer to eve)


psssssssst! Eve! It's safe to pass your poem up to the front now!

hey you all, it's november!!

break out the new poems...

-K

test

*scribbling on a piece of paper - muttering*
I will master haiku ... I will ... I will..

Kevin - you are the word master.. *winks*

Isolde - I am still flattered about "bliss" I am going to print it out .. *grins* and what you said about the layout of the words on the page.. well I work as a Desktop and Web Publisher (when I am not here) so that probally helps me "see" the movement of the words.

I found a book of New Zealand Haiku ... here is one I liked
"Sitting on the bed,
...looking at me,
His reading glasses"

*bell rings for the end of class*
I am out of here.. hometime for me.
dee

So another month's issue is here.

Sorry I haven't been making more of the changes to the site I promised, I'm actively investigating chat and the other things are simmering too. It's a very busy time for me, my real job is releasing the website I've been working on tomorrow and my freelance project's a constant eater of free time. But I always make time for the monthly Blender, even when my computer crashes halfway through going through the month's submissions and I have to begin again. Though I do have to say I'm skimming the Blender Board now instead of reading it, with its greater volume of material.

Anyway, I'm sleepy and have a website rollout tomorrow, so good night. AND REMEMBER: the "front page picks" of any month's digest reflect my prejudices about art and poetry and that's about it. I shouldn't be the ultimate judge of anything...

Thanks for adding "Static Cling" to the front page, Kirk. I really appreciate the fact that you corrected the apostrophes and quotes. I owe you one, bro.

Great job to Angel, ZoE, Misti and Shadygirl. Really respect your works. :-)

I'm sick of being cyber-stalked, so I'll tell you all about myself. Just 27, single, searching and living in Southern California. Had a couple of sour relationships, but still a hopeless romantic.

Still writing mediocre poetry. Maybe I'll share a piece of my heart with all of you soon. :-}

Take care.
Scott

Thak you for loveing mi poem
I am so happy!

Brandi

Kirk,

Well, I believe I just sent the happiest first grader in
the world off to school...She was thrilled to have made the board...she was jumping up and down telling the bus driver.
She says she is going to write another...that she is still
in love with the little boy who was her inspiration for
heartshine. Thanks!

Angel

CONGRATULATIONS to all who made this months front page,
especially my own talented little six year-old. Funny,
how most of the picks would have been mine also. Great
work! Kevin,Marla,heartsong,shady and ZoE.

Angel

ON KIRKS" RAMBLE Mo,

He painted it in CYBER SKY for you! Sweet~

Angel

(the teacher calls on him as he looks around to make sure no mistake is being made)

I agree with Kirk’s ramble. I conversed with Marla about one of her poems a couple of weeks ago about this very subject. I too used to rationalize away the meaning of those three vital words. I used to believe that (being a lover of words as I am) saying “I love you” too often diluted the meaning of those words. What a fool I was to think that. It was by a close friend of mine (a woman, of course) that I was properly reproved and disabused of this notion. By my reckoning, I need to tell my wife those three words about two hundred times a day, for the rest of my life to compensate for my lunacy.

When you are in a truly committed relationship that is built to last, claiming ownership for the intent behind those three words is absolutely vital for the continued growth of love. When truly coming from the depths of a heart of a woman, the utterance of “I love you” is the most romantic thing that can be said. But most men (at least the men in my milieu) don’t have their emotions attuned to receive that. As a man, I would have to say that we are socialized to behave differently, and behavior in this case tends to mold the feelings, or at least leads us to subsume them in our actions. We, at least in this culture, are ‘doers,’ and so feel that showing our love for that significant other should be enough to get the point across. Well, it does fall short, for as Kirk points out “sometimes the deeds alone aren’t enough.” If you do not claim ownership of the intent behind what you do for the one you truly love, thereby pouring your heart, soul, and mind into the deed, acts motivated by love become nothing more than random kindness. And romance is the polar opposite of anything that could be considered random.

So, to the love of my life, for now and forever, I love you.

-K

p.s. - thanks for the selection of "Never in fashion." That proves to me yet again that I can never know whether what I write will strike people in the way I am struck at first writing, or second reading of my own words. I also found my metaphor to capture that truism, although it was not behind the original inspiration...

(trying to hide now from the teacher)

pssssst! hey everyone, kudos to all for some really great stuff this past month! But especially to ZoE. My dear, you *do* possess a talent for this, and the poem Kirk picked is everything HE says it is. There is a growing depth to what you are doing, and we all knew you had it in you! Can't wait for more. So a special tip of the hat to you, ZoE.

heart Song, :-) (words can't say)
Shady, Marla, thanks for inspiring me...

-K



-K

Good Morning everyone!
Hope everyone had a great weekend and safe Halloween!

I had a great weekend!

Congratulations to all of us that made the front page of the Blender!!! :-)

shady :-)

(standing up in front of the class, <blushing>, and horribly embarrassed)

ANGEL,

I am so sorry! Of course I forgot to credit you with some direct inspiration (remember the "human organ smoothie"???). Please accept my humble apologies...

(slinking back into another seat, moving back to the corner to hide)

-Kevin

Starting a forum...

QUESTION: Tell me/us about the more romantically UNIQUE or HUMOROUS things that have been said to you. Skip the standard stuff. Lets hear something just a little out of the ordinary.

I'll start off. Here's one of the more memorable ones that have tickled me:
"When I'm with you, I'm almost jealous of myself!"

Congratulations Everyone!

I am so proud to be included in such a wonderful group of people who have become such dear dear friends!

You may not know how often I come to this place to find peace and comfort in the words that I read here.

Many of you have been a source of strength to me, a friend to laugh with laugh with a shoulder to cry on.

And today I would just like to say to all of you.

Thank you all from the bottom of my heart!

oh and how can I forget to say thanks to the creater!

Kirk,

You have been my life saver, because without you there would be no blender! Thank you most of all. I really think you've got a great thing going and do you know how many lives you have touched and how many friends you have brought together. People always say, if I could touch one persons life, If I could make a difference, then it will be worth it. I will have achieved something! Kirk, you've done that and more. There really are no words to make thank you mean enough!

~Melissa~

SJ:

Well, at the risk of being immodest, one quote *I* made was "Sometimes us romantic adventurers get bopped in the nose." (April 26 1996) The lesson I learned from that day was take a little care when sneaking kisses on body parts that might be sticking out of the blanket.

Seemed amusing at the time, at any rate.

~Kev~

{{{you make me smile}}} ~~~:)
I posted the poem, made a little change.
Thanks Kev...HUG! ....

Congrads to all on the front page!!:)
I swear tomorrow I am sitting down and catching up on the blender! I miss sitting and reading and enjoying everyones work!!! (Homework, house work, all work can wait!! I need a Blender fix!!!!)

Cant believe its November already!! Brrrr, cold too!

Hey Marla...have you been in rollin my yard!! LOL!!
Someone thought one of my tree's would look good with TP hanging in it LOL!! Was it u???? :)

First of all I want to congratulate all my friends who have made the cover including my little friend "brandi" who is becoming quite a poet taking after her mommy!I also want to really thanks Kirk(for making this all possible,he is a true master) along with all the friends I have made on here. They are all great poets/poetesses and great friends. My life has been enriched by both knowing and sharing my poetry with them.Special *hugs* go to HeArTsOnG,KeViN,AnGeL,ShAdY,MiStY,IsOlDe!
in regards to the funniest thing you've ever been told "romantically".Well, mines not particularly romantic but a pick up line that i thought was kind of funny was once used on me:"Does your mother work in a juice factory,because you're so VERYFINE!"
Someone once said something funny to me romantically though:"everyday i see you i wonder what it's like to be you without knowing what a beautiful,caring person you are." i thought that was sweet but at the time all i could do was blush and supidly mumble,"your nice too!"
--------------------------ZoE

I found your site this summer and found it to have some very good poetry and prose. It was extremely moving. But for the last 2-3 months when I have looked at your site, while you have listed it as new and added a new month's name to the home page, all of the content has remained the same for several months. Maybe it is just a matter of not getting new submissions, but I hope this site stays alive for it is wonderful to read and feel.

Hi everyone!

Aw, I see everyone is feeling especially mushy with the new issue of the Blender...you guys kill me, I just love ya all!

*hugS* to all of you!!

The funniest romantic thing...? Hmmm...well, this is a little personal, but, it was really sweet, and amusing...I am an artist, so I paint alot, and sculpt, well, my ex, who was not much into the arts, least of all museum kind, decided to surprise me and act out a scene from "Ghost"...what he forgot was that Demi Moore and Patrick Swayze are magically all cleaned up, and all over eachother with in seconds in the movie...clay takes a little more time to clean up in real life...it didn't quite end up the way he wished, but it was alot of fun and silliness anyways. :-)

We have to ask more questions like this, I love traveling down all the little paths to cutesy memories of lost loves...:-) This is stuff I haven't thought of in forever...thanks for the reminder!! :-)

I have one more story, this one is funny, has nothing to do with romance, but all of the parents may get a kick out of it. A friend of mine's little brother made a cute little scene at a family party over the weekend. He's about 2-3, somewhere around there, and he was watching tv, and he yelled for his mom to come in the room, so everyone's attention was grabbed of course, and he yelled out, pointing to the tv at Tori Spelling, of all people, "Mommy, I just wanna bite her hiney!". (spell check) She said everyone cracked up, and he started crying, but, I thought it was such a cute story. :-)

Well, now that I've written my book for the day...

g'night!
shady

Hello everyone! I feel like I've been away forever but I'm here until Friday then I move and will probably be down for a week or so :-( I am already feeling the effects of withdrawal.

Kirk,

Thanks so much for picking my poems this month. "Mississippi Here I Come" was a little different than my usual style, but so vivid in my mind because I played out that scene so often for such a long time.

To whomever asked about the most romantic thing or whatever it exactly asked, here's mine...

The first night I met Sean we were walking down the riverwalk and he pulled me into a dark corner grabbed me close to him and said "Now that we're engaged what do we do" I replied "I don't know, I guess we buy the book". Little did he know he had just sealed his fate :-)

Anyway, he is here finally, so no more sad I miss you poems, let's hope!!!! YEAH!!!

Well, he's harassing me as always, he just doesn't understand the importance of and addiction of this site :-) Catch you all later.

Marla

My tidbit for the forum~

Quite a few years ago(I won't say how many) after a
clumsy yet somewhat passionate first kiss, my new lover boy
looked at me amazed and said,"I can almost taste your heart!"
hmmmmmm! whataya think?

Angel

(standing up in front of class again)

Eve-

YES! I love your poem even more now than when it was an infant in your e-mail... I am so happy that we bounced that word's meaning off of each other. The words of this place certainly texturize our lives, don't they! Outstanding work, Eve...

(teacher tells him to 'siddown, ya stooge!')

-K

Hello. My name is Jasmine, but my real name is Amanda. I go by Jasmine because that is my favorite shade of purple. Anyways, I'm new to this site. I am 16 years old and I love basketball & writing poetry. I have three adorable nephrews.
I am the youngest of 6 children. My youngest(oldest) sister just got married two weeks ago. I live in Texas. But, I guess I will go now. Be back later.


BuBYe,
Jazz

Firstly... I am glad to see three of my faves on the cover this month... Kevin, Romeo .. how I wish you guys could teach Ade a thing or two on words...

Brandi ... Well done sweet thing.

and - Kirk, thanks for adding in those paintings for me... I feel that both poems don't seem so "bare" now that they are together.

Funny/unique thing ever said...
I made my husband ask my parents hand in marriage, (ok call me old fashioned.. *grins*)
Ade said to my mother.. " I like her, I want to marry her." (how is that for romantic... *rolls her eyes*)

Another time.. we where at night club, he was going to the bar and asked me "what I wanted" (meaning what drink) I put on my best sexy voice, put my arms about his neck, and whispered in his ear "I want YOU" ... "you've got me." he replied and walked to the bar...

dee

Eve -
I have just read "Tell me - I'll try"
Oh wow.. I loved it.. wow.. I don't even know how to express how I felt about your words...
-thankyou.

dee

Shadygirl,

I liked your comment about the forum questions. "...traveling down all the little paths to cutesy memories of lost loves" I totally agree. It is far more enjoyable to read and participate in a conversation that has deep unough meaning to make you think and feel. I started walking down that path trying to remember a cute romantic instant and it was just the key I needed to open a floodgate. I must have just sat for the past hour just re-discovering all those dusty memories with a huge smile on my face. One particular memory had me laughing out loud to myself, but the story is too long for the board. So I'll have to write it up in a short story form later and share it.

Angel. I love that quote about tasting your heart. Good one.

(okay, okay, i check this place out at work too!!!)

Jenna-

Your poem "You Forget and I'll Remember" evokes within me a bittersweet emotion. I was deeply touched by this particular work... I empathize with the feeling you emote here. As a male, I can only say I realize that many of us are exactly the way you describe, yet I also wish it were not so... Two things I believe down to the core of my being are this:

1. The opposite of love is indifference. I believe that if you fall completely out of love, then it was never really love to begin with. (That makes the concepts of falling 'in' and 'out' of love rather foreign to me...)

Passion once ignited takes on a whole range of manifestations. You captured one of these manifestations beautifully in the lines

"I turned around and gave him a long, hard kiss. One that
consisted of passion and anger. I never kissed anyone with so much intensity."

2. A woman's heart never forgets that it has loved.

Perhaps most men think they can turn love on and off like a light switch. Again, you conveyed this well, I thought:

"He said he wanted to forget!"

Now, a hurt that such a thought can bring I *have* felt before. Perhaps that is the single most hurtful thing any man could ever tell a woman. This, coupled with belief number two certainly leads to the conclusion in my mind that the best place for a man to find out about love is through the exploration of a woman's heart...

just my 2 cents, plus interest...

-K

(looks as if im the "new kid" in the class)

Kevin-
Thank you for the feedback on my poetry! It feels good knowing someone can relate to your work! Anyway, what you said about the opposite of love being indifference and that if you fall out of love you were never really in it in the first place, I have always agreed with that. I tried to explain it to my friends once but they continued on to explain that everyone in the world is a liar then because the phrase "I love you" is said once to often to too many people. (or something like that) May i also tip my hat at your work entitled "you drive my pen" Moving on.. not only did i get yor 2 cents but interest too (i feel special!) Ha ha ha.

- - Jenna

One of the most memorable things said to me was by my boyfriend, when we first met. I even wrote a poem about it entitled "beautiful." He kept staring at me and i asked him to stop and he said "Im sorry if i like to stare at beautiful things." It may sound like an old fashioned one, but before and after then no to this day (other then him) has called me beautiful. It was always cute, or innocent, but never beautiful.

--Jenna

One of the most memorable things said to me was by my boyfriend, when we first met. I even wrote a poem about it entitled "beautiful." He kept staring at me and i asked him to stop and he said "Im sorry if i like to stare at beautiful things." It may sound like an old fashioned one, but before and after then no one to this day (other then him) has called me beautiful. It was always cute, or innocent, but never beautiful.

--Jenna

(whispering to no one in particular)

Perhaps it is I who utter the humorous in my relationship with the love of my life. I love to make her smile and laugh... The other day she was watching television stretched out across the bed, and I knelt down next to the bed, and just watched her. I just put my hand in my chin and gazed at her with those 'lovey-dovey' eyes, in wonder that I feel more love for her with each passing day. She looked at me, rather puzzled, and asked, "What are you doing?" I answered, "I'm just watching you." She smiled and said, "You're silly!"

Love is spoken in such moments...

-K

H A P P Y (late) B I R T H D A Y!
J E S S I C A

Angel and Brandi

Hey everyone! Happy Tuesday!

Angel, I loved your story, "taste your heart" how cute!!!

Dee, you are so funy. I was cracking up when I was reading what you wrote about your husband...you just gotta love the way men are...how silly...:-)

T.K., thanks, I can't wait to hear your long story...:-) e-mail me! :-)

Jenna, I can relate to the 'beautiful' comment. I'm always told I'm cute, because of how I act or something, but never pretty or anything. LOL, last week at my aunt's wake, everyone in our family we haven't seen in a while was saying how handsome my brother has become, and they actually said "and you are still so...alert." to me. (That kinda hurt then, but it's amusing now...:-) But one guy told me I was beautiful once upon a time. It's amazing how being beautiful just once, in one person's life, can be enough. ya know?

Kev, hehe...you ARE silly ;-)

HiHo HiHo, it's off to work I go...:-)

shady

WOW! I can't believe how many new subs. there are...I"m so far behind in my reading...but I've been soooo busy lately...school functions,family gatherings,setting out bulbs and mums....Whew! I'm pooped! But, Mac is back...YOU
KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS :-) CATCH-UP TIME!...I will read later.
Toodle-loo!

Angel

(whispering to Shady)

psssssssssssssst!
hey, Shady!
I THINK YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL!!!!
:-)

-K

Kev,

I know you too well, I was almost going to add to that last comment for you not to say that, because I knew you would...LOL...(or maybe I didn't add it just so I COULD hear it...bad bad bad me:-)

Thank you though...so sweet. :-)


shady

Online Blender Chat is up!
http://loveblender.com/chat.html - I'm asking some of the regulars on the Blender Board to try it out before I make a big deal announcement of it.

I'm using java chat, with almost all of the service provided by the fine folks at www.chatplanet.com. A Blender reader Dave also suggested the software at http://everychat.ml.org/ , which is entirely HTML based. If a lot of people have trouble with the java, (or if chatplanet ever proves to be a problem) I might switch to that instead, or maybe some javascript homebrew solution.

Anyway, I'd like to keep bug reports and the like here on the Blender Board, instead of in my mailbox.

Have fun,
Kirk

Jasmine,

or whomever you really are... I am curious, last week you submitted a comment saying:

From: Jasmine
Date: 28 October 1998
Hello everyone. I'm new here.

I read about Mandy. That is soo sad!!

But, let me tell you about myself. I'm 17 years old, I have a 2 year old daughter. Her name is Abigail. I have been married for 3 years and I still love my husband very much.
And I am expecting my 2nd child.

But, hope to talk to you all later.


Bye,
Jazz

Which no offense, but I found the whole comment to be very uncouth. I don't think death and introductions are appropriate together. But then again, that's my opinion. Needless to say, that's not the point. The point is... now you submitted this comment, sorry if I seem to be confused, but really is this whole farce necessary?

From: Jasmine
Date: 2 November 1998
Hello. My name is Jasmine, but my real name is Amanda. I go by Jasmine because that is my favorite shade of purple. Anyways, I'm new to this site. I am 16 years old and I love basketball & writing poetry. I have three adorable nephrews.
I am the youngest of 6 children. My youngest(oldest) sister just got married two weeks ago. I live in Texas. But, I guess I will go now. Be back later.


BuBYe,
Jazz

I mean I guess you forgot who you were. I know, it happens some time, right? Anyway, just wanted to let you know in case you forgot.

To my fellow blenderites...

Sorry I just had to point this out, I'm not trying to be vindictive, I just can't stand stuff like this!

Marla

Good eye Marla! I had thought something was weird the first time I read her thing, about Mandy, but I had not made the connection.

Kirk, I tried Chat, but no one else was on, it seems to work well though! So far...:-)

Everyone!!! We have to designate a time to try this out for Kirk!!! I am home tonight, from 5pm to 7pm E/T, and I should be home around 10pm after that. If anyone will be free and wants to give it a whirl with me, I'd love to chat. K?

shady

Hey everyone, I finally got a chance to go through all of the new submissions!! After only 3 days!!! Geepers, you all!!!

Kirk should make a daily issue (just kidding Kirk...hehe;-)!!!

ZoE - "my heart" - even though I’m not sure if it is considered a haiku, I really like it. The words you used were perfect, simple, just perfect. :-)
"page ripped out..." anger, I love anger in poetry, it is so much more real, seemingly. Less foggy, to the point. I love what you did here.

Kevin - from "wordmaster" to lovemaster, eh? Loved it...

Angel - "Smile" - very cute…creative...
I loved "lost" too...a lot...
"Thru my heart’s eyes" Oh that last line was great..."sharp love"...you were busy!!!

Meg - "After great friends" that was really good. As with ZoE, the portrayal of anger, fear, self-pity...very emotional work!

Jenna - "That’s Mine" - YOU GO GIRL!!!
"You forget and I’ll Remember" once again, another great piece.

Romeo - "Blush" - that is so cute...so sweet…a creative gift for a lover indeed...;-)

Well, I'm off to lunch!!

shady

Guys, if people want to play with their identities, it's their business, just so long as they don't try to steal other people's. That's one of the cool aspects of cyberspace, you can try out different roles. Yes, that means you have to take what you read onscreen with a grain of salt, but it beats all this "unmasking" that people seem compelled to do.

In regards to multiple identities, for the most part I agree with Kirk as long as it is done with some degree of good taste or legititmate reason. What do I mean by this? Authors use multiple pen names all the time for various reasons because it lends to or even separates their different types of work. Sometimes you want to change or use a different identity simply for privacy reasons. As long as it doesn't hurt or insult anyone in anyway, no problem. However, when one does start inventing and using different identities solely for the enjoyment of fooling or deriving entertainment at the expense of others or worse, I feel that crosses the line and shows a severe lack of integrity and class. And for that, I have no respect at all.

I agree with "The next letter..."...

And it seems most of us have been made the center of fun-poking by various 'identities' on the Board recently. Hell, if someone wants to pretend they are someone else, that's their prerogative, but, I personally feel like a putz when I am talking about personal things with 'friends' who end up not being who they really are, I would appreciate not having to go through that. I don't disagree with Marla pointing out the "Jazz" falsehood. I appreciate it.

shady

heart Song,

Another sweet something...:-) I really liked "Please",
especially the last line, using the word "let",
doesn't give the work the usual feeling of helpless-out-of-control-ness...

Very nice!

shady :-)

When you walk, its the walk of beauty
When you smile, its the smile of grace
And when I find true beauty, its found upon your face
When up at night and thinking of days and days to come
It makes me think of what I'd do, to be your only one
I know this might suprise you
But trust me it is true
(girls name goes here)
I am falling in love with you.

~Kirk~

I tried to get into ~Blender chat~...
It connected, well it said it did...?? But nothing happened.
Has anyone else tried? Shady, you out there?

~Kev~

(sitting quietly, blushing...feeling warm & mushy inside!)
Thxs Kev, sharing anything with you!! Is always a pleasure!!

~~Deeva~~

Owww! I'm reallt blushing now!! :)
Thanks for the kind words!!!

Shady,

Thank you! I'm glad you liked "Please" and I'm glad you appreciated the key word! I'm just glad I finally found time to submit.

I noticed right off that Jasmine used a different story the second time and I also felt that the comment on Mandy was not quite right. How did all this make me feel.

You know, I don't know how to explain it! I was heart broken and upset when I read about Mandy and her son, and if it was a joke I hope whoever pulled it off is very happy with themselves and let me be the first to say congratulations. I will admittedly say that I am naive! I am a gentle caring person who takes people at face value, I would have never suspected that I may have been decieved except that a friend of mine pointed it out. That someone would actually be bent enough to play with peoples feelings! All I do know is that I mourned for the lose of two people I didn't know! I was quite upset! And I'm not sorry for that. Because I know who I am and what I feel is real and I'm proud that I am naive, and I'm proud that in this sometimes cold, hard, sinicle world that I have not been dragged down to that very level and I am not going to let it happen now! I am who I am, and who I appear to you to be! And I know who my friends are here, and nothing anyone does or says is going to change that!

Eve,
I was just in the chatroom and noticed that you just left! Pretty snazzy!

Great going Kirk!
I'm going back there now!

~kirk~

I did get in...:)
But no one was around...
I had 'asked' if thier were any "Blenderites" here?
Someone asked..."What the hell is that!!" lol!!!

I answered, some really wonderful people!!
I truly cant wait to chat with you all!!
And get to know more about you :)

Kirk, I do want to thank you! For this wonderful forum!
I have met some wonderful people, made great friends!!
This site has enriched my life!! And I owe this to you!
Thanks for all your hard work and all the time you put into it! :) Hugs for Kirk!!! And a big big round of applause!!

ps....:) think the line out gettin' bopped in the nose was so cute!!

Yeah, you tend to get a lot of people on the chat board who are obviously channel surfing. It is tough to schedule people.

It's Tuesday night, 7pm EST, I'm going to check the chat board intermittently over the evening. (I wish there was a way to broadcast an alertsound to all the people lurking on it.)

*totally inspired and not sure where to start*
eve... I ment it, I thought "Tell me, I'll try" was fantastic.
heartsong - " Please" captured me... *grins*

Romeo - I argee with Shady (I think it was Shady) what a perfect gift.

Jessica - "I want to be in love" I thought it was sweet.

Isolde - Ethereal Joining.. *deevaa once again bows to the haiku goddess*

*deevaa dances about...* I am so inspired.. I don't know if I should pick up my brushes or my pen!!

dee

Yippy! *excited about the chatroom*.
At first I thought the teenage mom thing in here was just a coincidince but now i see their are a few out to deceive! *ok,now i feel a little stoopid and naive that i beleived the whole thing!*
ShAdY,
thanks for the compliments on my "sorta haiku"! i tried...thanks for making me smile!

HeArTsOnG-i really liked "please" especially when you said "teach me to love"
ShAdY-"sun without you",what can i say....you are the best,that poem really sucked me in!
"the blush"-A sweet one KeV,i loved it!:) made me smile!
---------------------------ZoE

Hey all...

ZoE, I hope I did not offend you with the 'sorta haiku' thing...I can be so darn rude...with out meaning to be...thank you for your comment on Sun, with out you...:-)

heart Song, Nice to see you, I feel like I never get to see you anymore...busy little bee...;-)

Kev, thanks for your e-mail, I'll write back in the morning. I'm kinda pooped now, just got home.

Everyone else...goodnight! Sweet dreams ;-)


shady

Hey! Is "Ouch" a Haiku? I just re-read it after reading you guys work and now to me it looks like a Haiku! If it is I didn't know it. I think this Haiku thing is very contagious and I want to know who gave me the germs!
All in all, I think it's a very deep little peice, If I do say so myself, and everytime I read it I have to rub my cheek!

I absolutely can't believe all the great work so soon!
ZoE, I truely loved "Pages Ripped" all your work so far this month has just been great!
Thanks Kevin, You are our "Wordmaster"!
Angel, thanks to you and Brandi for Jess' Birthday wish. I'm glad that Mac is back! I love "Lost" you just have a way with words!
Meg, I really loved "After Great Friends"! Thanks for submitting it!
Deevaa, "Stars" was Brilliant! Loved it!
Eve, "You Forget, I'll try" was great! I admire such tact! Great finisher!
Jenna, "That's Mine" that is me! "You Forget, and I'll remember" I absolutely loved it!!!!!!!!!
Jessica, I want to be in love too! Great work! Great feeling!

And it's just the 3rd! It's going to be a great month!
oh, and sorry about writting that book!

Hey! Is "Ouch" a Haiku? I just re-read it after reading you guys work and now to me it looks like a Haiku! If it is I didn't know it. I think this Haiku thing is very contagious and I want to know who gave me the germs!
All in all, I think it's a very deep little peice, If I do say so myself, and everytime I read it I have to rub my cheek!

I absolutely can't believe all the great work so soon!
ZoE, I truely loved "Pages Ripped" all your work so far this month has just been great!
Thanks Kevin, You are our "Wordmaster"!
Angel, thanks to you and Brandi for Jess' Birthday wish. I'm glad that Mac is back! I love "Lost" you just have a way with words!
Meg, I really loved "After Great Friends"! Thanks for submitting it!
Deevaa, "Stars" was Brilliant! Loved it!
Eve, "You Forget, I'll try" was great! I admire such tact! Great finisher!
Jenna, "That's Mine" that is me! "You Forget, and I'll remember" I absolutely loved it!!!!!!!!!
Jessica, I want to be in love too! Great work! Great feeling!
Shady, Your writing has taken a turn! Great Depth!

And it's just the 3rd! It's going to be a great month!
oh, and sorry about writting that book!

I can't believe I did that.

A silent prayer

Dear Lord,
Please let kirk get one of those repeat submission off the board before the morning so everyone doesn't see what a goof I am.(The first one Kirk, I added something to the second one, I thought I cancelled the first one!) Thank you Lord,

Amen

Oh, and God Bless everyone!

Amen!

(whispering)

psssssssst!
ZoE!!!
hey, Romeo was the one who wrote "blush."
I won't speak for him...

-K

(standing up and clearing his throat)

heart Song-

Your latest songs take my breath away. I sit motionless, waiting for the abundance of the emotions your poems have filled me with to soak into me. There are not yet words invented to describe what that feels like. But I shall try once I am full... To have your songs is to feel them as any beautiful music. Thank you.

Heather-

I was touched by your poem "For Everything There is a SEASON" as well. It is in the change that comes with this season that my own awareness of love becomes heightened. Love is everywhere. Not everyone is lucky enough to find "The One." Some do, and lose them... But loving someone and being perfected in and by your love for them and their love for you can overcome any paucity of luck. True love can overcome just about anything if given free rein... So keep running that race...

-K

Slips in the back door ... gives note to teacher saying "Crickettt has been absent due to making final wedding plans".

Hi guys! Seems the chill of November has brought out the best in you. There are some REALLY great pieces already this month.

Angel
"Lost" ... you just keep getting better

Kevin
"this mood, this process" all bandaids removed I see : )

Romeo
awwww Romeo .. "Blush" .. she is a lucky girl!

HeartSong
"Please" ... I always look for your work, easy to relate too

Eric
"dancing gown" ...can see her, love still in her eyes

Zoe
And then there is Zoe ... "said it's never be this way". You express emotions far beyond your years.

Heather
"seasons" ....Perfect timing for this one. I hope to "see" more of your words

And to all the rest I failed to mention ... "bravo" !!!

hey everyone...hump day has arrived.

heart Song,
Thank you for your 'added' comment...;-)

hehe...


shady

Hey all...just read the rest of the new submissions...:-)

ZoE - "said it’d never be this way"…oh my lord…it is amazing…very emotional…imagery is outstanding, your descriptions and colorful explanations add so much flavor. I really loved it, Reread it in fact, something I do not do often (since I read most of them at work...bad me...:-)

heart Song - I really liked "Ouch"…very sad…and "reaching" was very nice too, very soft.

lorimeyers - "soimaskeptic" - very good, I enjoyed it, the twist at the end…expected, but needed, and added a touch of amusement. :-)

Kev - ""Given freely" - honey, we could never get rid of you that easily…hehe…you’re in each of us now. You’ve never been just cold words on a screen. I liked this, a perfect example of why it is so nice to know more about each other on the Board than just the typical romance chatter…:-)

Even more great work everyone!

OK! I am all caught up...I think! Thank you guys!

Little ZoE! "my heart" sooo raw.......

Eve "*Tell me,I'll Try*", beautiful...really loved the 3rd
stanza,'close your eyes baby, find me,breath in my spirit,
melt into me let my words love you in my abscence...."Ahhhh!

Jenna,"You Forget and I'll Remember"...I could feel the sting...see the tears flow...very emotional!

jessica, "I Want To Be In Love", heartwarmingly fresh!

Kevin, "This mood, this process"...so true...we do feed
and grow on the words and acts of others!

Romeo,"Blush", a male blushing, always captures my heart!

heartsong,"Please".....sooooo endearing!
"A Book of Lessons", you taught me a thing or two!
NO!,heartsong,you are the one who has a way with words-you
never cease to amaze me!

lorimeyers, "soimaskeptic", I remember that feeling all too well!

Shady! "Shedding Midnight"...'I step on your fallen laugh'
caught my eye instantly...the other words trailed very well!

MARLA~ AND WHERE ARE YOU? I MISSED YOU OVER THERE!

~ I'd like to say to all of my Blenderite friends that it is great to be here amongst you and be able to share this one common love that has united us...the love of beautiful words...pleasantly and painfully penned emotions...I feed on this 'stuff' and all of your words are blended and absorbed into my soul, and I hope reflected back to you in my own maturing works. Thank You!

~ Also, I'd like to tell you that my little Brandi has started another poem-sounds GREAT so far! GO BRANDI!

Angel

SJ:

I simply LOVED "Cut the Facade." I don't have the words to tell you how much...unfortunately.

I feel your feelings.... We all want to make a connection, NOT to be single anymore... want to meet "the one" who will
understand (and love) our sensitive side, our ability to feel, who will appreciate our beautiful words on paper (although they often eminate from pain)...we WANT someone to WANT us for jour passion and empathy. But, why, oh why, can't they handle it, in the end?

Just read "White Noise", by Jeannemarie.....I really related
to that ONE ...loved the last line!

Angel

Zoe,
My reply to your questions about my favorite music was stuck on last month's board, in case you missed it.
Scott/Romeo,
Thanks for the compliment! I've always wanted to live in
Southern California. I've visited L.A. three different times and I loved it. I hope to make it back there someday. I'm a native Texan and proud of it but people tend to be too conservative and conformity-oriented in these parts.
I STILL HAVEN'T HEARD FROM JOSH!!! WAAAAA!!!):

It was nice to come home to so many wonderful new submissions. I just finished reading them all. I especially enjoyed all the new haiku (my favorite, as always)...I just love opening those little packages.


Kevin-
"Wordmaster" - I liked the "building" metaphor & language
"When words..." - a beautiful poem, how can I not be moved?

Angel-
"Smile" - very clever! I always like the "visual" aspect of the words on the page, and you used it well.

Eric-
"dancing gown" - a powerful image (still stuck in my mind)

Shady-
"Suddenly Midnight" - excellent title & imagery

heartSong-
"A Book of Lessons" - very moving in it's sincerity
"Ouch" - a great haiku!

crickettt-
"Love's Fabric" - nice haiku. I liked the way you carried the "sewing" imagery and theme throughout


It's nice to be back...

-Isolde

Shady, I'm climbing the mountain!


Marla, for godsake girl come up for air would ya? LOL

While the class sits quietly...From the back of the room.
A sniffel, a deep sigh.... Eve stands up, (ya know the quiet one) with a tear running down her cheek! She whispers...
Group hug, group hug!!! I am having a miserable, miseriable day...sniff...my heart is heavy...!! Had a misunderstanding with my baby! Wondering...why do men turn to silence when they are upset??? Me...sniffel sniffel...I cry, then feel guilty for everything!!!...Silence cuts twices as deep! I'd rather he said something, even yelled anything but this!
Oh woe is me....Hi icky ho Hi ichy ho off to work I go!!

ps...heartsong & poetic angel, sorry i had to be so short last night. Hope to met up again with you guys :)

Eve - Babe I hardly know you... but damn! ((((hug))))
My man doesn't have much of a way with words (I think I have proved that already!) but he also uses silence as his weapon... Ggrrrrrrr...

deevaa

As far as the "unmasking of Jasmine" issue goes:

While I understand Kirk's point that the assuming of alternate identities might appeal to some as a way to spice up their participation in cyberspace, I disagree with his apparent theory that it is always okay "just so long as they don't try to steal other people's" (identities).

In my opinion, it stops being okay when they are assuming different identities for the express purpose of manipulating the emotions of others. For me, that crosses the line from having fun with an alternate identity to intentional cruelty and mind games. (I thought "The Next Letter" addressed this entire topic quite eloquently).

While the "Jasmine" posts were mildly irritating to me (and yes, I noticed the inconsistencies right away, and even found her first post odd), the truly hurtful part, in my opinion, would be if Jasmine is also Mandy and Mandy's mother. I was truly moved by the news of Mandy's death, along with her young son. I shed tears.

Perhaps that means I am an overly sensitive sap. Perhaps when I saw the post from Mandy's mother, I should have taken it with a "grain of salt", and told myself that it might not be true, so I won't allow myself to feel anything about it. But what if it was true? What if I didn't allow myself to be moved by such a tragic loss because it might be just a joke, just a manipulative mind game on someone's part? What a truly a double edged sword...

If the Mandy posts were just an intentional sick joke on someone's part, I for one do not think that qualifies as harmless or legitimate "fun with identities" in cyberspace.

Just my opinion-
Isolde

Isolde,

And a good one at that! Thanks for your comments on "The Book" and "Ouch" I didn't even know I could write a Haiku! I guess my subconcious wrote it! Thanks for the subliminal lessons!

Eve, HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGgggggggggggggg!
Here one for fun!

Gladly will I give a word to the wise
Become a nun Forget the guys!

Hey, no offense guys!!!

Thank you to everyone who wrote about "Numb." Guess I was
having a bad day that day (to say the least). Much better today...and for that I am HAPPY!!!!

It's so nice having a place on the net to come and read and share what's inside. The feedback is wonderful and always makes me feel better. I love the connection between everyone.

Thank you, Kirk, for making this all possible. From the sound of your schedule and life, sounds like you are pretty busy. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for taking the time to put this all together, and to keep it going month after month after month. No small feat. You should feel great that you have brought so much into people's lives.

Everyone, have a great Wednesday (what's left of it). Take care.

I guess that I'd have to say one of the most romantic and/or touching things he has ever said to me was... when he was just looking at me and began to cry (we were listening to the stereo at the time and I thought he was touched by a song). I asked him what was wrong. He looked at me, shook his head and said "I just love you so much." And, being the romantic/sappy person that I am.... I melted into oil on the floor and cried too.

Thanks cRiCkEtT and ShAdY for your compliments on "it wasn't supposed to be this way". i was debating whether or not to post it but i think i needed to....so i did!*hugs* ShAdY>no offense taken about my crappy haiku!:)
Thanks AnGeL for your compliments on "my heart". wasn't sure if it was a love poem but decided to post it anyway! *hugs*
MiSti,
I didn't miss your post....hope you didn't miss mine 'cause i told about the music i like!
Eric,
"Dancing gown",left an impression on me....i hope you continue to post!
-----------------------------ZoE

Isolde, thank you for your comment on Shedding Midnight. :-)

heart Song,
Hun, dear lord...I hope you have the proper equipment...hehe...I'm sure the view will be beautiful once you get to the top! ;-)

Eve hun, chin up. Men and women will never be the same, just have to accept that. The day the average man comes to terms with his emotions and allows himself to have a real emotional outburst...hell will freeze over. :-)(that excludes every guy in the Blender, you all are WAY above average, except Mobius...LOL) Don't let it get ya down hun, stay strong!! *BIG HUG*

Jeanmarie,
That is so sweet! I'd have cried too, you're no wuss!!! :-)


Talk to you all later!!
shady

KIRK:

Can you PLEEEEEZE take out the description of the following THREE poems I submitted today: "Can't Find the Words, Ants, Even the Beautiful Get Sad." MAJOR GOOF!!! Sorry.

Thank you!

crickett - loves fabric,
kevin - given freely,
Jeanmarie - With him,
Heartsong - Ouch and enfolded in my soul ....
mmmmmm-mmmmnnnnnn .... liked em all!!

BTW I tried to get into the chat-room last night and each time it would open to 83% and then Netscape would crash.. yet I could still get into my usual chat room... bizzare... anyone else have problems?

deevaa

dafsadf

OK, So I cheated...read from the bottom up...but, the title caught my eye...so I read...and LOVED "The Temple Door"by X

Angel

Happy Thursday Everyone!!!

"There is no pain like that of desire
Is there no difference between women and fire?
One burns the spirit,
The other the flesh.
Is sex worth
The price of certain death?"
~Type O Negative

To:
Deeva, Heart, Shady!!! thxs!! for the hug and the wishes!!

With a such a look in his eye's...
He said, "You know I,..." I interupted," me too!!!"

Well, I am ummm, feeling, kinda... well you know what they say 'bout making up...lol :) Eve's awl better! lol!!!


Mmmmm men!
Cant live with 'em
Cant live without 'em....

I AM teasing !!

Thxs to all for comp's on Tell me.

Thxs. Kev ~~smile~~

I can hardly believe the amount of poems.
The emotion and passion that is shared here...~whew~
I started reading to catch up, and couldn't stop!!
ALL OF YOU!! SIMPLY AMAZE ME!!!!
I am actully exuasted, from reading the power of all your works!!!

Jeanmaire, "For J" I heard your soul scream...chills ran through me...

Heather,"For everything there is a season" simply beautiful!! Excellent! Amazing...heart felt!! Loved it!

X.. "Temple"~whew~...damn!! Loved it!!! Grabbed me in puled me in!

Shady, "Lying in Autum" very nice :)

Eric, "Beach sunrise" I could feel the warmth of the sand.
"Dancing Gown" this image was soooo clear!

Jenna....Girl...~whew~ You forget, I'll remember! The title says it all! Excellent piece! Also, Love to lie! This has touched me very closly, I know this feeling. It's the of most painful things I've ever felt! Hugs!

Angel!!!! "Smile" oowwwww loved this!! :) :) :) :)

Romeo, Romeo...."Blush" sweet, touching!


~~~~Heartsong~~~~
What can I say...... Ouch, Please, A book of lessons,!! Enfolded..."wraped in my love enfolded in my soul!!"
Bravo!! Excellent!! I truly love all your works!!
I can relate to so much of what you say!! You are very
talented!

~~ Sweet Kev~~
Given Freely, When words are all there is..ALL OF THEM!
..Delete, electrons, wires..Kev..it is a machine! You are the force behind it! I believe in what Heart said, you have touched us all...:) I sit and read your words, feeling as if I am literally pulled into yout thoughts. Perhaps, seeing more then I should! (" Turning the page, dating it, Nov 5...") Still cant get over it!!!!!!!!!!! Kev, your heart is no longer on your sleeve. It lyes here...

Hey everyone...

Eve,
hey hun! *hugs* You're more than welcome, just keep submitting!! ;-) Thanks for your comment on Lying in Autumn...

:-)

To everyone else...Happy Thursday! Friday's not too far...



shady

This might sound weird, but the most romantic thing that ever happened to me was when I was hanging out with Josh in his motel room. I mean, I had just met the guy but the connection was unbelievable. We were just laying there, staring into each other's eyes, and he caressed my face. No guy had ever done that to me before. I will always cherish my memories of that night.
I don't think I'll ever hear from Josh again. I sent him the card and picture knowing he probably wouldn't respond. He's only nineteen, after all, and I probably overwhelmed him. But I felt like I had to let him know that our time together truly meant something to me. I had to take that chance.
Now, against everyone's advice and my own better judgement and intuition, I am once again involved with the guy from my past. Not much has changed. He still gets on my last nerve. But I have been very lonely these past few months and he has filled a void in my life. I don't think anything will come of it. I'm hoping we can just be casual friends. But is that possible with someone you've had sex with? I really don't think so.
I know all the right answers but that is so meaningless when my life is fallling down around me.

Oops...that should have been "falling", not "fallling".
Anyway, I didn't mean to go on like that. I just feel very comfortable opening up on this board.

Misti,

Hun, there is nothing wrong with following your heart. Ya just have to be a little more careful, try to save it from as many tears as possible. As most of us know, torn hearts repair themselves with thicker walls...innocence is our best gift from childhood, and saving as much as possible is hard, but necessary, I think anyways. (I'm babbling because I am dealing with a similar situation). I'm sorry you think things with Josh will never rekindle. Everything happens for a reason though hun, again, another belief of mine (watch out, I'm preaching so much, I may ask to hear an AMEN!!! hehe...) so just take it as it comes, but be honest with yourself. Which you seem to be. Save yourself the heartache if ya can. And if he starts treating you bad, there is gonna be a gang of big scary Blenderites all over his ass....LOL...;-)

I'm happy you feel comfy opening up to all of us. I wish I could feel that comfortable talking about myself...

Stay strong hun, you are a fighter.


shady

AMEN - tell it like it is sister!!

Misti -
All your new stuff speaks volumes... please take care of you. My heart was breaking as I read some of your new postings.
"Taste Test" tore at my heart strings... as did "Haiku 2" If you ever need to talk ... email me girl.
dee

Ooopies...sorry...(excited pinky finger :)


Misti...I loved Haiku #2...
Touched on a part of my life that I have just recently left behind. "trying to find center" I spent countless hours and sleepless nights, trying to figure what center was. It took me what seemed like forever...but ya wanna know something Misti...I have learned! It's more fun to 'sail' through life enjoying what is!! the beauty before me, and thrill of finding new, fresh and exciting things. And believe me, I am happier for it. I truely dont know if 'the center' exsist. If it does...then I am going to make damn sure...(while sailing merrily along, on my way there)I have a damn good time and enjoy all, instead of miss things that are not in my life...

just my 2 cents...take time to enjoy what you have, the rest will come if your desires are strong enough!! Hugs.. misti!

Eve,

You are the Greatest!

Eve:

Thanks for your comment about "For J." From you, that means a lot...your work is so good. Hope it wasn't too chilling an experience.

Happy pre-Friday, everyone.

Went into Blender chat yesterday. There was a psycho-sexual pervert in there (just waiting for me...haha). Lovely, just what I needed the first time I went in there. Oh well. Maybe one of these days, I will meet some of you guys in there....fellow "Blenderites" so I don't have to watch my back (end). LOL.

See ya.

deevaa-
"fighting words" - very well done. I liked the first version when I saw it, but think the second is much better. I liked seeing the creative process at work...how you changed it, focused it, in the rewrite.
"goodbye" - nice image and word placement, both neatly tucked in a haiku (3 of my favs)

X-
"The Temple Door" - Wow! Very erotic...

Kevin-
"for a friend" - I can really relate to this one personally, so I was very moved...

Misti-
All your new submissions today were quite powerful. You surely have a way with words, and I find that your directness strikes me to the core. I especially liked "Haiku #2", with the 'completion - circle - roll' trilogy.


This place really is addictive....

-Isolde

Took a quick look at the Blender Chat room. Got in just fine, but was alone so had to talk to myself (lol).

Then made the error of deciding to find out what the "channel" button did. It jammed up and wouldn't let me back out. It ended up crashing my whole system. So imho: some parts work well, some parts don't.

-Isolde

(not afraid to stand up because everyone seems to be absent from or late to class today)

Isolde, deevaa, Angel, Shady, Crickettt,

I don't want any of you (or anyone else sitting on the periphery of the room) to think that I do not read what you write to me on this board. As Isolde put it so well, this site is quite addictive. I do not want to find the cure. I thank you all for you kind and gracious words about what I write. I am filled with awe that you all actually read all of this and humbled that a few of my words can touch you. I read everyone's poetry, and as some of you know, words themselves are special to me. That the words you all share here come from the hearts and lives of *real* people (as opposed to the virtual) makes me truly feel like I am a part of something special. I remain ever mindful that there is real flesh and bone, heart and soul reading what I write. So thank you all again...

(sitting down again, and whispering)

Crickettt, band-aids don't work when words sometimes cannot stich our wounds closed again...

heart Song,
<sigh> what more can I say to you?

Eve,
(I passed you a note!) You are *incredibly* perceptive... I am deeply touched... Just one more thing (call me a traitor once again to my half of the species):

Men- you can't live with us, you can't leave us at the curb to be recycled... (LOL)

(sitting down again to take more notes)

-K

I never said I didn't like men...I LOVE men, they just confuse the hell out of me...hehe...

Speaking of which, I think I may have found one...I don't want one, but someone kinda popped up, out of no where, and what's weird is I've known him for about 3 years, and never ever considered him, in any way. Not even once, and then, well, yesterday, he shared 2 short stories of his with me...and never would I have ever guessed he had as much sensitivity in him as is apparent in his writing. Ugh, y'all...I don't know what I am doing, or why I am even considering having feelings for this guy, but, all of a sudden, I get all shaky when I know I'm going to see him. I can't even look him in the eye anymore. We went from silly friends, to a feeling of vulnerability, something I absolutely do NOT like, but the thing is, I'm kinda enjoying the awkwardness. I don't know...he is so not my type, that he is exactly my type.

Anyways, I'll keep ya all posted. Hopefully he'll call this weekend and join my friends and I for football sunday and dinner...we'll see...


shady

P.S. Happy Friday everyone (and payday for those of you like me;-)

To Shady-

Good luck with your "new" enamoureux. Yes, it can be scary to feel vulnerable, I totally understand where you are coming from. But if you never take the chance, you'll never know.

I happen to be a musician, and your post and my feelings about it reminded me some pithy lines from a couple songs I know:


"It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes a chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live"



"But your bound to lose
If you let the blues get you scared to feel,
And I feel like I'm just being born,
Like a shiny light, breaking in the morn..."


The first is from Bette Midler's "The Rose", the second from Joni Mitchell's "Willy" (yes, I know Bette didn't write it, she just made it popular).

Go for it Shady....and good luck.

-Isolde

(Chastizing self for having had the temerity to use the "P" word in that previous post)

Ooops! So sorry....

Perhaps it was a pithy Freudian slip?


-Isolde

Thank you Isolde...unfortunately it is a little more complicated, and I'm not sure if I am ready. I am not worried about my love being returned, I'm worried about it being returned too much, and then not being ready, not being able to handle that much love. I like him, I don't want to hurt him, but that's all I seem to do, because I try, and things go good, but then it just changes, and oh, I don't know how to explain. He is a great guy. Very sensitive. I think it could work if I was able to share all of me, but I am not sure if I'm capable. I know he kinda has feelings for me, by his actions, I know he kinda wants something to happen to. Ugh, I just don't know. I want him to call but I don't. I'm just all sorts of confused...well, why worry before he calls...right? Silly me...

Let me ask a question, is it possible to still hold some part of yourself in the dark, from the one you love, out of fear of hurting that person? Just past experiences? Things that, if he loves you, would probably kill him and make him feel helpless? Or does it mean, to love someone, means to surrender yourself wholly, and hope for the best to work out?

I'd love feedback on that one.

(I'm sorry, I'm such a child, whining about something so silly as a sudden crush)

Thanks everyone! :-)
shady

(whispering to his shady friend)

pssssst... Shady!

It is extremely frightening to know things about yourself and believe that someone for whom you have intense feelings for (whether they may be potential lover or a very close friend) might pull away from you if you share this knowledge with them. Recent experience has taught this lesson to me yet again; however, I have to say that you might be surprised by the results of baring your all to someone who genuinely cares about exploring the depths of YOU. But it is always risky... I have been very blessed, but I realize that it can go either way... So take it easily and slowly, my shady friend... You deserve to be loved deeply, not just intensely, and that will take time.

Listen to me, the very paragon of impatience, counseling you to go slowly! Ha!

(btw, I still think you're beautiful, so THERE! :-)...)

-K

*poutuing cause she can't play in the chat room*

Your poems were great,
i've been searching for a
interesting place to read
poetry and I found it.
Thanks.

-Mike-

Ashame such a promising site joins the realms of the thousands of other chat rooms on the net.

HeY gUyS iT'S Me,
Haven't been around for a while and i wanted to check up and see how my friends....KeViN,HeArTsOnG,ShAdY,IsOlDe,cRiCkEtT,and MiStI!
KeV and HeArTsOnG,
I'll probably be online around 7 or 8 'o clock my time! PaGe Me!!!
--------------------------ZoE

Hey all,

I have missed you these last couple days but we are finally ready to hit the road around three tommorow morning. I can't wait until the movers meet us in NC and I get my computer set back up. I will miss you all and take care.

Marla

Hello, people

I've been reading this page forever and this is the first
time I actually write something at the board. First of all,
a thousand tender thanks for all of your poems. It's
beautiful. Human nature at its best.

What is love? What about it that we're so passionate? That's
the question that I've pondered forever and couldn't come
up with a justified answer.

I think that love is the only way to grasp another human
being in the innermost core of his personality. No one can
become fully aware of the very essence of another human
being unless he/she loves her/him.

Well, any other ideas are welcomed on this matter. Gooday
people.

(clearing throat, standing up)

Herr Nietszche,

Welcome. I find that these poems are beautiful because they contain the disclosure of our innermost selves, expressions that are simply not possible within the confines of each of our daily lives (obviously speaking for myself, but hoping I am not) - except that with our lovers we share them in intimacy, and with our friends we celebrate these expressions here.

As a philosophical question (the one you have posed here), love is a celebration of one's own humanity. Part of why I think love exists along a continuum. You have exposed a part of this. The discovery of the very essence of another is what ignites the passion. What I believe keeps the flame burning is that we discover the very essence of *ourselves*, and to our surprise and great joy find ourselves lovable, indeed LOVED, by that other somewhere on the path of discovering and loving *them*. Truly loving another implies balance, for it is in this penultimate act of our humanity that we center our very existence in this world.

That's just my two pfennigs (or shillings, if you like), thats all...

-K

A friend becomes a lover when you stop becoming self-absorbed by your past and focus on NOW. Now is the only moment over which you can exert any control.

Nietszche,

Brandi says love,"is a gud thig!" I tend to agree!

Angel

Hey everyone!

Thank you, again, Kevin. Ugh, ur crazy. :-) (And quit that beautiful stuff, your making my cheeks red...hehe ;-)

Thank goodness it is the WEEKEND!!!



shady

Nietszche asked:

"What is love? What about it that we're so passionate?"

Not an easy question to answer, or even fully understand. To start with, what are we even referring to when we use the word "love"? The ancient Greeks, had many different words for love, one for each of the different types of love relationship. In English, we have only one word, and we apply it to the entire spectrum of love and relationships. In my opinion, the answer to the question "What is love?" will be different depending on which type of love you are referring to.

However, since this is a romance oriented forum, I will assume that the question refers to romantic love. To me, romantic love embodies that quest to find our soul mate, that person who will complete us utterly.

Like moths to a flame, we are always drawn back to this quest, even if our wings have been singed, because in the deepest reaches of our hearts I don't believe we ever stop searching for, hoping for, that one true love (except, of course, for those who are fortunate enough to actually find their true love). True love is when we know and are known completely by another, the real "us" underneath all the armor and masks and walls we build to protect ourselves, and when the result of that deep and total knowledge is acceptance, passion, intimacy and joy. Love is touching souls.


-Isolde

yawn~~~
I've come to peek in ....it's 12:40am!
Some quick things come to mind...

Mr. Passerby,
So curious! Why the comment with no name?
The chat connection was a gift from Kirk to those who wish
to connect. How can you look at this gift and say it's a shame!! tisk tisk.....perhaps you should keep walking!

Errrr sorry guy's! It just bothered me, got a bit under my skin!

Heart!!! Big thanks!! Think your wonderful too!! :)
ps...well Heart...I did it!! LOL!!!

~Kev~ I am here....just so crazyyyyy! busy! someone stop the
world I want to get off! :) I have been dying to write! 'E' and poems...you should see the collection of bits of papers, napkins, envelopes with notes on them :) I miss my private time! A funny story for you!! :) When I recieved your 'e' the other morning. I printed it and put it in my books and ran out the door to class.<grin>...during Eng. Lit. I saw the corner of the paper...:) couldn't resist!! LOL! There you were Kev...:) passing notes <wink> in class!Tee Hee! Will write in the morning..k...much to say...:) Just ~yawn~ :) sleepy sleepy!!

Oh....Deeva...dont know if you had a chance to get into the chat. I have a ? for you....Is your hard drive almost full?
If so, delete your cache, this should give you the bit o' space to connect to chat....k It happened to me before my upgrade...:)

Night to all!!! sweet dreams....

i just found this place--------i like it a lot

ZoE----
i feel like 'said it's never be this way' was written by me
it seems to be that smell that gets you
heres a good one though---his front steps were icy and i fell straight down them

keep 'poem-ing' yall
*love*

Damn. Submitted the same piece twice. That's what I get for being here at 2:00 a.m.

Sorry guys....

-Isolde

Hi, Blenderites. Thanks for the compliments on "The Blush." I hope my most recent poems don't disappoint; I'm still working on a few others. :-)

Take care,
Scott

Shady~"Lying in Autumn", I love to daydream too!

Jeannemarie!"Mirror Mirror", sometimes we just gotta wake-em
up!

Kevin~"For A Friend", your words always flow so freely, like over greased glass, how do you do it? ...lucky friend!

MVR~, "Sedated", especially loved,'you take me like I'm a piece of candy, a small bit of flavor to savor until you have time to eat', LOVED IT!

Thank You, Isolde for EXCERPTS from PLATO"S DIALOGUES...have read before and always loved and pondered the idea of another half...enjoyed reading again.

Did someone SCREAM for me? thanks

Angel

Isolde.........

"Taking the Cup"

<deep sigh> Simply Beautiful!!
The feeling, emotion......so pure.......simply beautiful!

Romeo, Romeo...

these words you speak
so sweet they pour from your heart
they pain they bear
one day will softened
but will never disappear.
Always a gentle ache,
will follow your thoughts...

Romeo, Romeo

Her love was once yours,
and for this, please do... smile softly
Rememeber her, cheerish her...
For what she was... with you.
She will never be this with another.

For each love we live
our soul grows on...

Not to fall from...
but to lean upon and learn to love on...

One day to be...
reborn innocently, in the eyes....of another love.

Scott,

It's a Shakespaerian kind of day for me...:)
Hope you didnt mind me ...reflecting off of you!

I read you poem..and was touched
The words just ........just......ya know what I mean :)

~~smile~~
Thxs........;)

(whispering to the new kid)

pssssst. sCrEaMiNgAnGeL! What a powerful poem - "too bad these are the memories." I undertstood instantly the truth you speak in this poem. 'Forgetfulness is cowardice.' That first line is an undisputable truth.

It is impossible to love someone unless you give yourself over to THEM. 'Plastic words' and 'wallpaper approval' are inspiring metaphor. That some people put forth a facsimile of themselves in relating to others, even in a supposedly intimate relationship, is sad to witness. It is an indignity to have someone do that TO you. This poem captures that wonderfully. You certainly deserve better...

-K

ScReAmInG AnGeL,
Funny,i thought the same thing when i read your poem...."too bad these are the memories". Think we'll be friends! so tell me about you.... here's me:
my real name is ZoE, i was named after david bowie's son
i live in New York City (Manhatten)
i'm 16
i have a 2 year old daughter, DeZiRe and i live with my boyfriend,Matt
YoUr TuRn....

AnGeL,KeViN,HeArTsOnG,MiStI,
MiSs Ya!TAlK To Me,hAvEn't hEaRd fRoM YoU....
------------------------ZoE

Eve-

Thank you for your kind words about "Taking the Cup". That one was so intensely personal that I almost didn't post it, but if it touched you, touched someone, then I guess I'm not sorry I chose to hit the submit button....

-Isolde

*sigh*
Isolde - "Taking the cup" - thankyou... *yet another sigh* wow.

Romeo/Scott - (forgive me if I've got the name wrong) "her lips" *bigger sigh* my mind is blank for words... but it moved me.

Oh dear.. I came back to comment on these two pieces they moved me so much and now I can't express how they both made me feel. The are both so personal, so touching and so... so... wow.
*deevaa leaves to go and get a cup of coffee*

OOPS~ I believe CLIMACTIC is the word I meant in MESMERIZE
overlook please!

I would also like to welcome Screaming Angel~ Powerful emotions!

Angel

Isolde~"Taking the Cup", what a shame if you had not of shared this one!

Angel

I'm here ZoE! Where have you been? I got you on my pager...can't never catch you on line though...i'm no1halo...knock sometime! Hello Desire, Santa's coming!

Angel

kevin & angel----
i consider 'powerful' a big happy compliment---thanks :)

ZoE---
my real name is angela (the angel part---screaming part is self explanatory)

i am 18

i just moved here (here=texas by the way) from my hometown 2000 miles away *tears*
i dont know anyone yet
all i really do is read and write and think
its amazing what idle hands and over-analyzing nostalgia does to what i write
*love*

ScReAmIn AnGeL,
hope you'll be posting from now on! i like your writing!
AnGeL,
I'll add you to my "friends" pager section! i'm excited to talk to you! hope Matt and i save up enough money to get a real christmas tree(we always have dumb fake ones that just aren't the same) and some good presents. Were putting all this money that we say we won't touch in this jar! were tryin' to be good!
-----------------------ZoE

sCrEAmIngAnGeL,
welcome, abit about me... I am 25, live in Wellington, the capital of New Zealand, and work as a Desktop and Web publisher for the NZ Ministry of Health. I am married and I have a 13mth old baby boy.
I paint and try to write poetry... (Oh and I spend far too much time here... watch out this place is addictive!!!)
I also thought your words where powerful... and look forward to seeing more postings from you soon..
dee

Comment time!

Eve-
I liked your Shakespearean reflections in your Blender Board post today. Nicely done.

Kevin U-
Many fine submissions recently. I especially liked "all things made".

Angel-
"Mesmerized" - very real, I can definitely relate.

deevaa-
"bitter hurt" - excellent! Your best haiku yet. Powerful and moving.

Kevin (new Kevin)-
"heart and hand" - I liked the progressing heart and hand metaphor carried throughout the poem.

Thanks for the nice compliments on my work, guys, I appreciate them.

-Isolde

Thanks to Dee & Eve for your compliments--especially to Eve for taking time out of her day to construct a poem to comfort and reassure me (that meant a lot to me). The fact that my poem touched you means that I might have succeeded in expressing myself as a fellow romantic. Thanks again. :-}

As a not-so-subtle aside, here's my take on intellectualizing "Love":

Poetry can be quite cathartic sometimes, and I won't be the first to admit that some of my most personal pieces come from reflections on the simple creature comforts that make life worth living.

As for the nature of Love, I don't really care about trying to probe or posture about the "essence" of Love. Love "is" and love always will "be". Love defies all physical boundaries and should rightly be defined as supernatural--one of the true unexplained mysteries of our universe.

Maybe I'm just espousing a different school of thought, but to put "love" under a microscope is to destroy its very nature--elusive, insatiable, enigmatic and (more often than not) painfully blissful.

Take care,
Scott

either you are or aren't one who lives by love. 'Romantic' is something you are with someone you truly love and who truly loves you. The rest are spectators in this life.

To Romeo / Scott:

Ooooh..... more public insults (although they are somewhat artfully veiled, I must admit). So much for the theory that the first go round was just a mistake or misunderstanding...

Usually, those who are just "espousing a different school of thought" don't feel the need to mock or criticize the ideas of those whose opinion differs from their own. The whole idea of "schools of thought" implies that there are various different opinions, each valid and worthy of respect.

You are a gifted writer, and I believe you know full well the exact impact your words will have on others. Surely it might have been possible to state your own opinion without insulting that of another?

-Isolde

(shady emerges from the shadows in the corner...:-)

I have a comment to make, about Romeo's comment. Although I think you are right Isolde, that the comment was meant in a negative way to all discussing love in here, I do have to agree with him. So much of love is the misunderstanding, the mystery. The feeling of love partly comes from being part of something so big, so immeasurable, so incomprehensible, that picking it apart completely might make all of its little secrets not so special.

A parallel to this, a stupid story, bare with me...when I was younger (a whopping 10 years ago), I used to be obsessed with the night sky. I mean, I had a telescope, I would just sit outside and look up. And the sky seemed so magical and out of reach and immense. I'm only 21, but the sky seems so much smaller now. And much of it has to do with reading books and asking questions...learning about it made it smaller. Still beautiful, but not in that same incredible, 'butterflies in the pit of your stomach' way. I miss that.

Corny story I know, but it came to mind.

I don't know if Romeo was maliciously attacking us, as Isolde scolded him for. It is natural to want to know everything about something that makes you feel so damn good, but, as he said, picking it apart leaves love as a little less....


(receding into the shadows again...;-)

(poking head out for one last moment)

I do not mean that to learn about something ruins it, I mean that if you study something, and learn that there is too much to learn, and it is impossible to ever understand and envelope its grandeur, then let it be, and just enjoy it.

If you are lucky enough to have it, enjoy it.

(buh-bye)

Ahhhhh!...then I was right to belive that...IGNORANCE is BLISS!!! Thanks, Shady, for affirming my belief...

Angel

*deevaa puts her hands over her ears* la la la la lalalalala
I can't hear you.. I can't hear you...

why oh why must my two favorite poets fight??? ... stop yelling at each other... (please) I don't understand, and I don't want to.

Isolde, I just popped in to check out your new pieces, I thought your loves words where beauiful... and your mussings on what makes a poet.. oh how true your words are.

Play nice now.
dee

*wonders if she should not have said what she did, goes and makes a coffee and worries that she might have upset her friends*

Who's fighting? Heehee...

Dee, girl, puh-lease...who could get mad at you? :-)

Angel, thanks...LOL...Ignorance is Bliss, I have not heard a statement quite so true...and it applies to so much.

Isolde...thanks for the e-mail...:-)

Homey time,

shady

*yelling to shady as she walks up the street*
Shady!
I added the words to my page.. check it out.... and hey! What is happening with that guy?? Huh? *blushes as the whole street stares at her... mutters*
I'll just go inside now shall I?
*shuffles back in the door*

(trying to hide because he was late to class)

pssst...

Shady-

I appreciated your comment, but also your clarification. I have concentrated much of my adult life in the quest to discover all that I can about love. All I can say is that every day brings about new awareness and knowledge. Shouldn't love be that way? How else would it grow, and have knowledge of its own growth? Analyzing love itself, while seeming to be an oxymoron - to study passion dispassionately - is another way in which we discover our true selves. For love, true love, is an act of the mind as well as the soul, heart, and body. (BTW, I will pass you a note later!!)

deevaa-
Your poem "bitter hurt" touched me deeply. My best friend experiences that hurt every year... So when I read this poem, I felt her pain yet again.

ZoE-
WOW! "heart hurts"... This poem took my breath away. You know truths that some people never dream of... "we pretend so much that the truth feels like faith"... So true of so many unhappy people I have known in this life.

"infinite is lies unveiled to us we see ourselves"...
This line is so deep that I could spend hour exploring it. It is as if you have weaved a symbol in my mind's eye of never ending infinity with that one line...

Isolde-
"Poet?" is simply beautiful. I have always felt that my poetry comes as songs within my heart. (As an aside: heart Song, you know your very nickname embodies this, don't you?)
The crooning of my heart is a very intimate thing, and I am still shy in front of a room full of people, even if some of you are good friends. So I will keep sharing... A little at a time.

Angel-
"*MESMERIZED*" was to me like a reflection of myself from an angle I hadn't quite seen in that way before. That was kind of scary!

"What a SHOCK to find such a brilliant gem
when I was not even aware I was seeking one"

I have most definitely been there... At least with my heart...

-K

Kev~...ooH! SCARED myself!

I need an EMILY fix!!!!!!

Angel

Kevin -
about "bitter hurt" everyone tells me I should let it go... and I wish I could.. I thought by writing down how I feel that it might make it easier to be at peace about it.. and it does help.
This is the first year that he forgot... how could he? his own birthday is 2 days after. If it happens next year.. *fire burns in her eyes*

Hey!!!!!

I hate to say this but, I couldn't access the web all weekend, and well, it was a relief! Ahhhh finally a break! I discovered something called Television! it was great, it had a screen like a computer and the pictures moved and there was sound! Something called Urban Cowboy! Wow! But, I am back! Gee, did anyone even miss me?! :-(
LOL

Kev,

I agree with you...about the self-exploration part. I think learning how you yourself love teaches yourself alot about you. But I do not think we are talking about self-exploration here, I think they were talking about taking love itself, the 'idea' of it and picking it apart to understand what it is to everyone, to understand how to receive it from anyone, or know if it is being offered. Everyone loves different. God, knows I do not love in the 'traditional' way, but it does not mean my love is any less...... if anything after my experiences, it is more because I have endured so much and appreciate the love from others I do have, and give. Whew, that was a mouthful.

I don't know. I hope that clarifies a bit more. I have a whole lifetime though, I guess, to learn what there is.

shady

Thanks everyone for your comments.
I have been writing for almost 30 years. It centers me and helps me know my heart and soul. The only parts which should be the leader in this life.
Oh, the comments this month on what love is.
Love should be given away, without expecting anything back.
It is in the act of giving love that the best feelings come.
Giving love, expands our ablity to "feel" it. Always.

"To love is to place our happiness in the happiness of another" Gottfried Wilhelm Van Lubreitz

" Love grows by giving. The love we give away is the only love we keep. The only way to retain love is to give it away" Elbert Hubbard

"It is not our toughness that keeps us warm at night, but our tenderness which makes others want to keep us warm" Harold Lyon

Touche, Harry!

KeViN,
What would i do without you? he he you have a great ability to build my "poetry esteem"!you definately can always made me smile!
--------------------------ZoE

Had a couple of reports of things being down, so this is a test.

Wow. Didn't fully realize that my blunt opinion about the nature of Love would insult anyone. I apologize for the rift, however relevant it may be.

Just expressing my own opinion. Thanks for your support, Blenderites.

Scott
:-}

(whispering to whoever will listen)

Oh Master Keeper of the Blender,
Thanks for giving us back our fix... You are truly a prince among men, Kirk.

ZoE,
keep writing, you will find that it helps you find out more about yourself... And what there is to find in you will be so wonderful (so don't forget to share!).

Heather,
I have 'only' been writing semi-seriously for about twenty-five years (on and off), and have found the same things as you. I am glad that I returned i the past year or so to more creative expression (the rest of my writing is rather dry, I'm afraid).

About your comments and quotes... Nothing more to what you said need be added except that I agree with every word. Thank you for sharing that with all of us.

Shady,
Yes, my friend. As far as the intellectual exercise goes, it has little to do with how love applies to our own relationships, so in that, I agree with what you have said. Thanks for the further clarification. But the truest form of self exploration is in what we see of ourselves reflected in those who love us.

heart Song,
You know darn well that *I* missed you! Welcome back! Hope you are rested enough to share some more of your beautiful songs with us...

now back to the salt mines...

-K

Hey everyone...

heart Song, Congrats on discovering TV...hehe...and Urban Cowboy, oh I love that movie!! Sooo cheesy...but that one there are actually two songs in that movie I LOVE. "Love, look what you've done to me." and that other country-ish one that they dance to...ugh...

Heehee..."Fine, fergit it..." sorry, I've seen it like 20 times...


Kevin, I have yet to understand what you mean, as far as self-exploration through others eyes, goes. But I think that is because I've yet to trust someone so much, that if they say I am funny or beautiful, that I actually believe them, and that they are not saying it for alterior reasons. Only time will tell hun, but thank you, I'll be looking out for it...hehe...;-)

Aside from how pickig it apart might take away from love, it can just be so damn complicated, and can take every ounce of energy you have. :-) I am BEAT!

(sitting in Kev's former chair) I'm sitting in the back, before I get detention...hehe...


shady

Hey everyone, I finally got to the new submissions! (just don't tell my boss!) hehe...

Dee - "fighting words" I love it, it was just beautiful, very real and truthful.
Heehee…"words" was great.

Kevin - "for a friend" I love the last line. Very sweet "Steal Me" - again, very nice, sweet.

Misti - "taste test" - love the last point made at the end of this work.
"sedated" - beautifully heart wrenching. Misti, you and you words…harsh and perfect and smooth, all at once.

MEg - "Bite My Tongue" Great! I read your work and think I’m reading my own sometimes. We have such similar styles, but you choose great words and subjects.

Maureen - "dead in the water" - I really liked this. Very good job.

Scott - "Breathing without Oxygen" - Ugh, I really liked this one, loved the last line.
"Back to Sleep" - Loved that one too, you make me want to be in love, not a typical thing for me.

Screaming Angel - "too bad these are memories" - I really liked it. I have to admit, I don’t usualy read all of the longer ones, but this one kept me hooked ‘til the end. "Obviously confused" this one was really good too.

T.K. - I already told ya what I thought of "The Mail is in the Kitty", thought I’d tell everyone, I thought is was really cute, very amusing.

Tristan - "Beacon" simple is always nice. (I love your name by the way, ever since Legends of the Fall…hehe…mmmm…Brad Pitt!)

Isolde - "Poet?" Aw, I love this one! And "The Doves"…ooh, very nice…I’m blushing…hehe.

Great job everyone, as always!!


shady

Thanks Kirk...and I bet I know who the other half of 'both' is...

Oh, could you put Chris's poem on the sub. page...I really liked it...missed it somehow...I wouldn't want it to be forgotten...thanks again

Angel

OH! SHADY! You DID it AGAIN! Captured me with the first few words of "The Moon Smiles Down", and kept me spell-bound...simply adored it!!! The 2nd stanza was my favorite

Angel

Just have a sec....

Wanted to say thanks for the kind words about my recent submissions, especially to deevaa, Kevin and Shady. And I will pass on the compliments to my beloved on his work. He actually came to the Blender to look for himself last night, but I believe he only read the New Submissions page.

About "The Doves" - thanks Shady. That one was inspired by something he said, but I reworked it enough that I felt I should submit it under my name. I'm glad someone "got" it. I thought the reference might be too obtuse...

heartSong - Yes. Welcome back.

Later-
Isolde

Shady, Shady, Shady...
all your new stuff... I am liking it girl.. I liked "Sunday mornings" .. damn, I think I can remember it being like that... *deevaa frowns... thinking hard*
and "The Morning After" MMmmmm - Mmmmmnnn.... *winks* you did good girl!!

dee

Oops! In my poem entitled "Set the Table" It is supposed to be 'I have nothing to lose' not 'I have nothing to loose.'


--Jenna

Mark U
I felt like I should've written The Day After.
I hope you're not still waiting by the phone like I am.
I screwed up and he'll never ever forgive me, not in a million years.

I really do read "everyone's" work ... and am always awed by the personal pieces of yourselves that I find there.
Far to many to mention by name ... but but but .. Shadygirl, for some reason, Sunday Morning REALLY made me smile inside!

Maybe cuz I'm to be married in 4 short days ... ya think!

: )

heart song...
"Rock me in time to the beat of your heart"
OMG!! babe that is.. beautiful, graceful, eloquent and moving... "the thing you don't know is... from the very start, That I say your name with each beat of my heart." Wow! I love it.

*deevaa skips about showering everyone with daisy's and tulips* Summer has just hit here.. the weather is fantastic, it is 3.30pm now and the temp. is 26º Cent. (I don't know what that is in your numbers) but it is the most beautiful day in a long time... I wanna skip in fields of flowers and play in the sea... *happy smile*

dee

Angel, thanks so much for your comment on The Moon Smiles Down. :-)

Dee, aw girl, thanks for what you said...it'll be like that with Ade again soon hun, patience my dear, patience. :-)

Crickett, thanks for your comment...WOW!! I really cannot believe you all liked those peoms that much. I've been experimenting so much that my style changes daily, I never know what to expect, thanks for all your support!

Love you guys!!


shady :-)

Crickett~ I'm so exited for you!!! Have a truly wonderful honeymoon~ then~ Ha Ha ~ write us all about it~:-)

Angel

Kevin...my dear wonderful Kev. "Growing Pains",let me just pretend that ,That one, was written for me!

Angel

Heartsong~ I see you put the ole telly aside! I loved your latest submissions...especially "Rock Me in Time to the Beat of Your Heart" and "I Need You"...knowing you makes these poems even more real to me...glad you turned off the tv!
Oh! I did'nt get the last atachment you sent...couldn't open it?

Angel

Brandi~ You did it again, baby~ Pure and Simple

Mommy

Hey everyone, just trying to keep up!

Jenna - I really liked "Set The Table". Can definitely relate to that one!

heart Song - "You and Him" - very touching poem. M…"I Need You" even better, if that’s possible!

Andrea - "abuse me" - very good, I liked this one a lot.

Kevin - "Growing Pains" - This one is really nice. ("As long as we got eachother, we got the world spinning right in our hands…baby you and me…we gotta be…the luckiest dreamers…" blah blah blah..sorry, the title reminded me of the theme song…hehe…:-)

And to our dear sweet l’il Brandi…way to go girl! :-) I think we have another Emily Dickinson on our hands here!



shady :-)

(whispering again)

Angel,
yes, the heart as a kite. Good metaphor. Sometimes I feel as though mine is crashing into the ground at a hundred miles an hour. But I always want to get ip up and flying again...

Shady...
wow. YOU deserve to be the 'She,' you know... And 'Morning After'... the imagery is incredible... Thanks for sharing that private and intimate expression.

Jenna
In regard to 'Set the Table'... You are the main course and should be savored long... Don't settle for those who only want a taste... They don't want the flavor of your heart to burn into their palette...

Crystal
You are not 'Alone.' You are among friends here.
And looking back at your posting above - remember that true love always forgives... Or else it was never true...

heart Song
I always wondered what was going on in the head and heart of my beloved in moments like the one you described in 'Rock Me in Time to the Beat of Your Heart.' Now I think I know. Beautiful song from your heart, my dear friend... The construction of this poem (the circularity of it) is very well done... two hearts beating in the same rhythm...

And 'I Need You' is not silly... It struck me as being quite poignant, knowing you as I do...

Andrea,
Yes! 'hunger'... I find that sometimes a good kiss can be the most erotic thing in the world... thanks for the description of that truth...

-K

Good morning everyone! Hey, I've got a lot of catching up to do! I'll be reading the new submissions all day! Yeah!

Brandi,

I was you at one time! Sweetest little poem from the sweetest little heart on the blender! Angel, you must be so proud! You and I are some lucky moms huh!

deevaa,

thank you so much for such kind words, can I dance with you?

Shady,

A circle of friends! I'm glad we are intwined!

Kev,

From my heart to yours. Thank you, because you have been there for me in my greatest hour of need, and the strength you infuse into me derives from me songs of inspiration!

Shady:

YES, it is entirely possible to "hold a part of yourself from the one you love." Each of us has a past, that is part of who we are. Sharing your past with someone else is your choice. It should have no bearing on any relationship that is happening in the here and now. It simply isn't relevant. Should you choose to share it...that's your choice, but should not be a requirement. What's more important is who you are now...not who you were yesterday or the day before. Because....you are no longer that person. Hope this helps.

Jeanmarie.

Hey Blenderites. Happy Wednesday to everyone!!!

I have a question for the Board... How does everyone feel about the quote: "Pain is the breaking of the shell that encases your understanding." I believe it is from Kahil Gilbran's "The Prophet" (great read), but can't remember as I read so many books last year to get me through a rough part in my life.

I was speaking to someone recently who only liked to think about "happy thoughts" and ignored or buried the rest. I totally disagreed with this person. I think that unless we can feel the pain and deal with it, that true understanding can never come. The pain can be cathartic if we deal with it properly and thoroughly.

Just thought I'd ask. Take care all, and thanks for being here.

Kevin:

I hope you are happy today. Your words touch me so deeply. I have always had a soft spot in my already "mushy" heart for any man who can write as beautifully as you do. You are truly a wonderful man (I can tell even from not knowing you) and only deserve the best that life has to offer. Any woman would be lucky to have you in her life. So, be choosy, because she is out there...

Take care.

Hey you guys...is the weather as crappy everywhere as it is in NY?

Oh Kev, EEEK! You make me feel so damn guilty. I've been so crabby to you these past two days...you are an incredibly amazing and patient person. Thank you so much, for your comments, for everything. I say this, on the board, not e-mail, because I want everyone to know how great you are. (oh, puh-lease...like they don't know already...;-)

heart, intwined...anytime girl...:-)

Aaaaah jeanmarie...thank you that is exactly what I wanted to hear. I'm not entirely sure I agree, (I'm always contradicting myself) but, I hope you are right. I'd like to think some part of me can be left behind, why bring the past to the future, right? Especially if it can only cause your 'other' pain as well. Thank you for answering! :-) As for your question, I agree with you. Unfortunately. I mean, of course it is easier to ignore the pain and focus on the good stuff. Some may consider that to be optimism, but I would think optimism means going head first into the bad and telling yourself you can make it good. I sometimes think to myself "Why do I let this bother me...it will not matter to anyone 100 years from now." But the plain truth is that is just laziness. Who cares about 100 years from now. I still have another 60 years or so in me, why spend that lying to myself just to save a few tears. Of course I make it sound so much easier than it really is. But through self-exploration, as we've been discussing in here, comes a greater understanding, not only of yourself, but then of those around you. Once you undertsand yourself, I would think happiness comes easier, and pain subsides with less effort. Leaving you time to help others do the same. Hmmm...this is a long answer to a short question. I think you need to focus on your hurts, not ignore them. :-)


And that concludes shady's two cents...;-)

Hey, all. Happy Wednesday. I can't stay long, I'm on my way to seek counseling at the student center here on campus. I figure with on-campus counseling, spiritual counseling at church, and writing tons of poems, I should be sqared away before too long. In this century, perhaps.
Thanks for the all the comments and compliments on my newest submissions. As always, I truly appreciate the feedback and support so many of you have given.
Stream of Consciousness Stuff:
"Urban Cowboy" is one of my all-time favorites. I have a small collection of videotapes- "Urban Cowboy", "Prelude to a Kiss", "When a Man Loves a Woman", "Flash Gordon" (my fave), "Waiting to Exhale", "Purple Rain", "Son-in-Law", and "Saturday Night Fever". Oh, and "Shag".
I think you should keep some things to yourself when in love. There's no way you can share every aspect of your being with another person. That's what God is for. But that's just my personal belief.
"The Guy From My Not-So-Distant Past" called me last night and told me he has bought me a diamond sapphire ring. I'll believe it when I see it. This guy has the same birthday as Clinton, consequently (Aug. 19), and he has a tendency to lie and exaggerate. He also has a somewhat perverted sexual history. Staggering, huh? I've always been fascinated by astrology because I have found so much truth in it. My birthday is February 17 (1973...6:29 p.m.) which makes me an Aquarius-Libra on the cusp of Pisces with a Virgo moon and Virgo ascendant and Mars in Capricorn, Venus in Aquarius, Mercury in Pisces, Saturn in Gemini, etc. etc.
If any of ya'll have any synastry (compatibility) questions, e-mail me. I've been studying this questionable science since I was in elementary school.
****ZoE,
Do you really think Courtney Love has sold out? "Celebrity Skin" is the only single I've heard from her new album. I want a guitar so bad.

:) Misti

Thanks to thoes of you who commented on my poems.
I haven't read the new sub. yet but i will and get back you you guys later.

Kevin,
Thanks for the kind words - you always know how to make someone feel better!

Brandi,
I wish i was as talented as you when i was your age. Keep it up girl!

--Jenna

Jeanmarie,

"Do you not see how necessary a world of pains and troubles is to school an intelligence and make it a soul?"
~ John Keats, English poet.

Misti, LOL...we share the same taste in movies, I have almost all of them, except Flash Gordon...hehe...I was born on December 1st, 1976, what can ya tell me about me? Heehee... :-) That is so great, I was into astrology, but never could really get too into it, to learn all of the aspects. But my Tarot on the other hand...although I haven't touched them in months, for a while I used them 1-2 times a day. Why did the 'not so distant' guy buy you a ring? My ex did the same thing. Told me "Oh, I bought a ring, put the down payment on it..." blah blah blah, I told him a thousand times it wasn't necessary, but then, all of a sudden it just wasn't brought up anymore, and that was like...'hey, I didn't care at first, but, if you are promising something to someone keep the promise...' sounds materialistic, but it was the fact that he was promising something and didn;t go through with it that annoyed me...I wear little jewelry anyways...I'd make a very cheap wife...hehe...

As for Courtney Love selling out...what? I was never real big on Hole before, but after everything that girl has been through, I would have to say it would basically be IMPOSSIBLE for her style and view and message NOT to change. I think she looks great and is doing great. And, I happen to love Celebrity Skin, the album. It's fun, because it isn't the typical thing you'd expect.

HEY! Has anyone heard that song...I don't know the title, or who sings it (some help I am) but part of the Chorus goes "Wanna throw my tender heart in a blender, watch it spin around into a beautiful oblivion, rendez-vous, then I'm through with you." or something like that? It totally reminds me of this site, and of that inside joke about the Heart Blender Smoothie...hehe...



shady

Shadygirl,
That's cool that we have the same taste in movies! What is your absolute favorite? I say "Flash Gordon" but I know it's a hard-core "B" movie. I think "Gone With the Wind" is a masterpiece. I also like "The Wizard of Oz" and "American Grafitti". I have no idea how to spell "grafitti", by the way.
I saw "Waterboy" with my ex from 2 years back last Saturday. I laughed aloud several times but I don't think it's Adam Sandler's best effort. He is hilarious, though. Definitely one of "SNL"'s best.
I always say that the perfect man for me is dead and I never even met him. His name was Andy Kaufman and I think he was a genius. I was excited to hear that they're making a bio flick about him until I learned that what's his face (from "The Mask" and "Dumb and Dumber") (Jim Carey???) is going to play Andy. I loathe that guy.
FYI, you are a Sagitarius-Aries (like my daughter, who will turn 2 on December 8). You were born in the same year as my sister, the Year of the Dragon. I would guess that you are a raging extrovert, full of confidence with an exceptional sense of humor. I would have to look at a book to do your chart, but I know offhand that your polar opposite is Gemini (strong sexual attraction, MUCH chemistry) and for a marriage partner you should consider a Libra, Leo, Aries, or Aquarius. There are more Sagitarians in my family than any other sign. Libra is a close second. Now I'm thinking that Saggitarius should have 2 g's instead of 1. MY SPELLING IS SHOT!!!!!!! Oh, well.
I have nothing bad to say about Courtney Love. I have nothing but respect for that woman. She rocks. She's a Cancer and Kurt was a Pisces. Their signs were in trine, as were John (Libra) and Yoko's. Yoko is Aquarius-Libra, like me.
That song you mentioned is ALWAYS on the radio but I forget the name of it. I think maybe Third Eye Blind sings it. My new favorite song is "Slide" by the Goo Goo Dolls.

:) Misti

Crickett, four more days huh?! Congratulations!!!!!

Hey there Zoe!

Marla, I miss you!

Isolde,

I tried to pick out just one peice of yours to comment on, but I just couldn't do it! They are all still milling around inside of my heart!

Heart Song - damn! Of course I'll dance with you... best offer I have had all day!

Jeanmarie - "A Day in your Shoes" ah…very good. Very clever.

Misti - Oh my...the year of the dragon eh? (Roar!...wait, do dragons roar? oh well...) My fave movie? Oh geez, I love the movies. I thinkit can be so great to experience someone else's emotions for a little while, escape your own world for two hours. Lets see, my taste changes so often, so I'm sure if you asked me the same question next week, my answer would be different, but here goes nothing: as far as thinking is a great movie because it was well made, I would have to say Boogie Nights. Anyone reading this who is not too open-minded, be wary, it is about the porn industry. But, I think the way it was done was excellent. It gave an almost documentary feeling through out the whole thing. An emotional roller coaster, and that one scene with Mark Wahlberg (a total hottie) when he and his mom are in the fight, it was so good. He really proved himself.

My fave sappy movie, hmmm...there are so many!!! In addition to those you mentioned, I love Bridges of Madison County (the one movie I can say was honestly way better than the book). My throat was sore for an hour after I saw it the first time, from crying. I loved the movie Kama Sutra, it was an Indian love story, kind of Romeo and Juliet-ish. Any Romeo and Juliet movie, love the story, love the movies. I loved the 1996 remake with Leo and Claire Danes.

I'm horrible with horrors...so don't ask...;-)

I loved Breakfast Club and all those Brat pack movies of the 80's. Anything funny, like Tommy Boy. Geez I didn't breath for minutes at a time during that movie.

Hehe...as for my personality...I was an extreme extrovert when I was younger, but I had some hard times, and I think that is what made me shy. But, as I regain my confidence I have noticed I do love the spotlight. So much so, that I am considering singing for my father's band once in a while on weekends...eeekk!!! And you are so right about Geminis!! Although I do tend to be attracted to alot of Sags as well, friendship and romantically.
Not bad girl!! Not bad at all!

Anyways, I better get going, having company tonight and my kitchen looks like I just cooked a 7 course meal...and then threw it on the floor...(well, not THAT bad.)

See y'all in the morning!

shady

Shady:

That song you were talking about it is called "Inside out" by Eve 6.
I know how things like that bug me so it hhought i'd let you know.

--Jenna

HeY hEaRtSoNg!
mIsTi,
So far all i've heard is celebrity skin but i really don't like pop music and she relates her new album as a pop sort so i haven't been rushing out to buy it. live through it and pretty on the inside were some heavy albums but they may not have been if she wasn't using so many drugs. i'm glad that she's clean especially for her daughter,francis bean but i think it won't fuel much deep deep music. what do you think?

Sorry i haven't been on a lot lately but Dez is certainly doing a good job of keeping me busy. Hope i talk to KeViN,HeArTsOnG Or aNgEl on the pager soon!
----------------------------ZoE

I think Kirk's coment about Mobius was right on the money. *Dada-esque* indeed.

(whispering for no reason because the room is empty...)

I have been busy all day catching up on my homework. (Okay, I'm lying, I had detention! Too much work!!!)

Jeanmarie...
I have been waiting all the live long day to speak to what you wrote this morning. I read Gibran's "The Prophet" at a young age and placed the words in it close to the core of who I was, and surprisingly, who I still think I am... What you mention about his words is worth looking at closely (at least to me)... My own writing is premised on one of the things he writes about 'Self-Knowledge':

*Say not, "I have found the truth," but rather, "I have found a truth."*

One human being can never possibly handle the whole truth. What's more, the whole truth is unknowable to human beings... We can only catch glimpses of it. If we can expose these little kernals of truth, then we have meaningfully participated in the lives of others... That is what Gibran did in his most famous work...

What struck me very hard to see again in black in white were these words he wrote about Love:

*Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.
...And think not you can direct the course of love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.*

AND furthermore, Jeanmarie,
Thanks for the expressions of mush... (Today I was too busy to even think about whether I was happy or not, but now that I have a moment, yes, I am!) What you have been reading a lot of lately have been my personal discoveries of the knowledge of too much tenderness. Yes, my own understanding of love has wounded me but the flowing of blood from these wounds has produced some incredible things... I have never been too choosy in the giving of myself to my friends or the *love of my life* (maybe overeager to please), and I have never before thought that I always deserved the best of what life has had to offer (but now I have a lot of friends who keep trying to disabuse me of such a notion)...

Thank you for your kindness.

Shady,
my friend... I don't think you have been crabby in the slightest. (Um, not everyone knows me, hon, so don't make me blush in public!!!) You have nothing at all to feel guilty about.

Yes, you hit on a truth when you said "you need to focus on your hurts, not ignore them."

Even if it is not always cathartic, it can make for some really great poetry, huh?

Jenna
not just kind words, my dear... kernals of truth. words will pass, it is what they leave behind that matters most...

Crickettt
Yes! I wish you success in love! And as much happiness as you can handle...

ZoE
been working late... sorry!

-K

Tony oh
Tony oh
Wherefore art thou
Tony oh

G'mornin' everyone...it's Thursday!

Jenna, thank you for the name of that song! That stuff does annoy the heck out of me!! I'm happy everyone has heard it!

Kevin, I HAVE been WAY crabby. It's ok, you can say it. Heehee...(I won't bite your head off anymore...;-) I LIVE to make you blush in public...hehe...anyways, wait until you hear the latest chapter! John is back, in full force, last night was interesting, to say the least.

Dee, heart, ZoE, Marla, Angel, crickett, Romeo, and everyone else I just forgot, hello!


shady

Goodmorning Everyone! It's a beautiful Day!

...heartsong, you always seem to make it brighter :-)

Angel

Isolde~ simply LOVED "Shooting Star", You say so much...seemingly effortlessly...amazing!

Angel

Well it is Black Friday here... *checks under her desk for black cats*

Shady - well today is the day... his last exam starts soon, it is 2pm and it is at 2.30pm... then I get my husband back! (I hope) He will have a Masters degree in Economics and Commerical Law... and I hope that is the only thing that has changed!

Misti - how about checking our our signs... I am a Libra - born October 18th 1973 at about 5pm in New Zealand (if the place makes a difference) and Ade is also Libra (an indecisive couple...) - his birthdate is October 20th 1968 born in Nigeria (I don't know what time)
also what can we expect from TK (or son) born Sept 21 1997, in Wellington, it was a Sunday and he was born about 1pm.

*deevaa smiles and goes back to her work*

oy, deevaa!

21 September was a good day to be born! I was born myself on that day in 1961... (almost the stone age, huh?)

-K

Mobius, I have a challenge for you. You do indeed have a very creative mind, and a knack with words, but - do you dare to look inside and write something from your heart? Something serious? I think that you have much to share.

WELCOME~WELCOME~WELCOME, Wade Erickson...Your writings are overflowing with genuine sensitivity...I adored,"Riverside Romance" and "Dear Beautiful Woman", but all of your work is great! "Plea For their Return", almost made me cry...We often overlook male sensitivity,but it is there...I love the way you let it show!

Angel

Dee,

Wish your hubby luck from the Blender...hehe...!!

Don't worry hun, things work out for the best, they will be fine. How can anything be bad on a Friday?

*HUGS* and *KISSES*

shady :-)

Thank the Good Lord above that it's Friday!!

Hello there all!

Have a great weekend!!!!

Has anyone heard the new song by Fionna Apple which is actually a cover of a Beatles song which is called
Across the Universe? Well the song's lyrics have a lot of deep meaning and like you poets should check it out.

Where is everyone?

oh well, Hi! Happy Saturday!!!!

HEY!!!!!!! I am alive can you all believe it? We are finally here and have our stuff and are sort of unpacked. I just didn't want you all to think I had forgotten about you because I haven't. I can't wait to read the new submissions for this month, I am so behind. It sounds like we have a lot of great new writers and of course the the wonderful ones that were already here as well. By the way, I miss all of you :-( Well catch up to you later, I only have a second.

Marla

BoO,
Hey everyone so we survived FrIdAy the 13th!!!Have been submitting but not blender boardin'!Figured I'd take a spare minute out while Matt and Dez are out to see what's goin'on here....i missed you guys *i'm such a goon*!um....well KeViN aNd ScReAmInG AnGeL i loved your latest submissions(couldn't have said it better myself)!ShAdY aNd mIsTi,WHERE ARE YOUR NEW SUBMISSIONS???MARLA TOO????um...well *hugs* to everyone!!!

heart Song
I liked reading your book! Keep sending your thoughts and feelings. I feel as if I know you!

SYMPATHI---
i sympathize more than i can say (re:ALONE)
sad to say i've become accustomed to hopelessness in this area
please don't do the same

kevin---
on helpless: sometimes the ones that crush aren't vicious they are just unspeakably frightened and uncertain. it is easier at times to crush than wait to be crushed...but i am not saying it is right by any means
"many a chance has been thwarted by fear"

*love*

(Hey, the clock in my world says it's Sunday so I don't
have to whisper...)

sCrEaMiNgAnGeL
There was a time in my life that I felt the pain of the loneliness that I never thought I would escape. It is during these fall months that that feeling returns to me most often, in mostly bitter memories... I see reflections of myself in some of your work... Just know that there are people who will care if you let them. And some of the most meaningful relationships in ones life are friendships...

In response to your comment to me directly, yes, there is truth in what you say. But there is yet another layer to this. Sometimes the ones we care about are buffeted about by the winds of life like waves in the ocean. They cannot control these forces any more than we can. Sometimes it just happens that we are all in the right place, but at the wrong time... That is life...

SYMPATHI-
What I said above about loneliness applies here also.

"In need of a forever friend..."

That is something I have personally been touched by. That single line sank deeply into the recesses of my heart...

Know this:

As long as there is love within your heart (even though you know it not), there is hope...

-K

Dear Blender,
Wow! I loved your page so much that I had to add it to my 'Romance To Go Mall.' I'm the new kid on the block (www.romancetogo.com), but I think you will be happy to see your site listed as one of my 101 stores, shoppes, and boutiques. I would be delighted to have you make a visit to the mall even though it is still under construction. Your page is located in the mall directory in the 'Fun Court' section.
If you have time, drop me a line. I would love to hear from you. Our goal is pretty much the same. I, too, enjoy reveling in the greatest thing that any of us can experience--the special love of another person and doing all those little things that bring happiness and pleasure to their lives.
Looking forward to hearing from you,
William (Bill) V. Mason
P.S. I'm still working on attaching my e-mail pop-up forms to my website. So, please use the address above to contact me. Thanks <s>

ANOTHER of the sweetest things he has ever said to me (just
this past Friday....).....

"What's your ring size, left hand, ring finger?"

Kevin:

Thanks for responding... I really do love The Prophet. As I said, it got me through many a rocky time... causing me to explore my feelings on a deeper plane, forcing me to think about all the "tough questions." It was a lifesaver. I find myself rereading it over and over... looking for meaning between the lines.

It's funny. I am so happy now...and that scares me a bit. I find myself thinking that since I am so happy, if for some reason something should happen, the fall to despair will be even longer this time. Guess I shouldn't think like that, but be grateful for what I have been given... at least for today.

Life's journey never ceases to amaze me... and the strength of the human soul... it's incredible. I read your words, feel the emotions of your words and find myself smiling... when people can express themselves so eloquently...it's a joy to behold. That's what it's all about...feeling the pain and getting past it. Using the pain to forge forward toward the happiness...looking deeper within for the hope.

Have a great Sunday Blenderites!

Hey all,
Weekend has been great, I am just starting on Monday here, and I am so far behind on the new submissions, I will have to catch up over lunch.

Kevin, *winks* TK gets his looks from his daddy, but if he shares his birthday with you .. lets hope that he shares your way with words...

Shady & Isolde... thanks for your wishes, we spent the weekend together, just hanging out... it was nice to spend time with him after so long - then Sunday afternoon, Ade took TK out for the Morning, so I lay out on the deck and painted, and started on some new poems... my legs and arms are abit pink.. I got carried away in my creative world and forgot about the sun... *happy contented smile*

Shady... tell me what is new with your romance... *grin*

Well enough ramble from this chick..

dee

*smiles*
just started on the catch up...

Carmen.. like your stuff... Hat man and Perfect .. in particular.. Same man?

Isolde ... *bows to the haiku goddes* Golden Rod and Venus.. hmmm.... *blushes*

X ... OMG!!! *blushes more* waiting and wanting more from you! Conjour... as good as Temple door... so very erotic. Please share more.

well... back to designing the work Christmas Card.. *yawn*

dee

I WEAP



Each time I see that longing face
I weep

Each time you say that you love her
I weap

And each time I say to you that I do love you
I weap

For the fact that you say you love her
and that you want me

I know that either you are lieing to me or her
And I weap for I know that you lie to ME!

Testing, 1... 2
Testing, is this thing on?

Ok, anyone got some advice for me? (sorry this is a long post)
There was once a lovely woman in my life. We met by chance through mutual friends about 5 years ago while I was still in college. We had a long distance (3 hour drive) relationship on and off for about 4 years. Then she wanted to get a little more serious, but there was not enough time in my life at the time so I tole her that I just wanted to keep the relationship at the same level for now. I could hear the hurt in her voice. About 3 weeks to a month later I realized how much of a fool I was and what I was giving up. I told her I was ready for more, but now she had changed her mind. Well, I did the typical male thing and got all panicky and obsessive and started sending her all kinds of flowers and letters and cards... This all pushed her further away to the point where we rarely keep in touch anymore. It has been a year since we stopped seeing each other. I have dated since then, but recently I have started missing her terribly. It is to the point where I feel like Im cheating on her when Im with the girl Im seeing now (who by the way Im not very serious about because of these same feelings). I would be willing to pick up my life and move closer to her (to fix the distance problem) if she would so much as agree to give me another chance... no committments or anything, just a chance. Am I just crazy? Anyone have any tips?

It would be nice to pass on paticular poems or other
entires on to other people we care about on the net.

Could you add "forward" to your web page?

Donavon, try telling HER what you just told us! If that doesn't work, trust fate: it wasn't meant to be...don't be afraid to tell the one you love that YOU LOVE HER...that is the MOST important line of ALL! Good Luck to you, Donavan and welcome to the board.

Angel

HELLO MARLA!!! So glad you are back...hope you and Sean are snuggled comfortably in your new home...Get on the pager so we can chat sometime! Looking forward to your new subs.

Angel

Good morning heartsong~ Rainy days and Mondays....

Kevin~ "dancing"

Isolde~ "Like Unto Venus"

Mulan~ "Angel's Wings"

*S M I L E *

Angel

Hey Angel~

THanks you for the advice. That is the thing I have been wrestling with recently. I forgot to add that I did get to see her for a couple hours about a month and a half ago. We agreed to meet. She came out to watch me race my car. Before we agreed where to meet she asked if my roommates would mind if she came to my place to visit. That is what gave me hope. The problem is, now I am not at home. I am in southern Oklahoma and she is in Omaha Nebraska. I will be down here until April 1st. I am at a Military course. I will be able to go home for Christmas for two weeks though. The dilema... do I call her, pour my heart out in a letter, or ask her to meet me sometime while Im home for Christmas and tell her then? Im no good at this stuff. My only other serious relationship lasted four years and I never had to deal with this type of thing. So far, even though we are not together, she has taught me alot about true love.

Donovan

***Zoe,
I agree. The stuff that Babes in Toyland put out wouldn't have been quite as powerful if it hadn't been for the drugs. Same with Hole and most rock bands. Everyone knows that the Beatles hit their peak when they were on drugs. "Sergeant Pepper's" and "Abbey Road" could not have been made by "straights". Lewis Carroll was on drugs. Edgar Allen Poe was on drugs. Jim Morrison and Jimi Hendrix and Janis Joplin and Robert Plant were on drugs.
That's not to say that I'm advocating the use of illegal substances. Alcohol is enough for me. Whiskey and beer is all the party that I need. But you made a valid point.
I just submitted a new poem and am about to submit a few more. I've been busy living. Spent the weekend in Austin with a friend. Saw "Ever After" and talked with an accent for the rest of the night. Ate at Sonic. Hung out at a couple of different coffee houses. Got my ass whipped at checkers.
*****deevaa,
I'll research your son's astrological profile the next time I'm in a Hasting's. For now I can tell you this:

You are a Libra-Gemini on the cusp of Scorpio, as is your husband. Your husband has the same birthday as my sister! My sister is an overachiever. She's a senior at The University of Texas in Austin and will graduate in May. Her major is corporate communications. Autumn has always made better grades than me but she is not an intellectual. I love to read and she loves to mingle. She's a total extrovert. Like most Libras, she's a social butterfly. Full of charm. Can be a bit bossy at times. Can also be moody as hell.
It goes without saying that you and your husband are supremely compatible. I'm guessing you're probably both pretty mild and uneasy with confrontations. You're also probably hard-core romantics. You probably have a lovely home. Do you like Van Gogh? My sister has two or three Van Gogh prints hanging in her apartment. I'm more of a Dali fan. I also like Kandinsky and El Greco.
Your son is also a Libra! He was born in the Year of the Ox, like you (I was also born in '73, by the way). Libra-Libras tend to be less moody than Libra-Geminis. Does your son seem to have a strong will? Does he smile a lot? I bet he's a real charmer! Next to Sagitarius, Libras make the cutest babies. My daughter is a Sagitarius, so I'm prejudiced.

I went to the campus coffee house the other night. First time I'd been to a poetry reading in years. I had subitted a poem about homelessness hoping to win a cash prize. First place was a hundred dollars, second place was fifty dollars. I didn't win but I did read my poem and I got a compliment from someone I respect. Also, I got a free t-shirt and hair dye (Egyptian Plum- it actually looks decent) and some other goodies. I discovered that I want to start reading my poems more. Maybe in Austin, where it's really competitive. But I'm afraid that I'd get eaten alive. I think my poems read well but they aren't really meant to be read aloud.
Speaking of Austin, my friend took me to this awesome restaurant called the Kerbey Lane Cafe. It was inside a house and it's open all the time, like IHOP!! I highly recommend the blueberry pancakes. You can wear pajamas and no one will even notice. But that's Austin for ya.

OOPS!!! I just realized I left the "b" out of submitted. Sorry.

OOps again, I didn't leave out the "b" but the "m".
I found this awesome book called Love Is Blind. It's a book of photographs that capture that old saying. There's a picture of Hitler and his lover and Joan Crawford and her two children and lots of other weird pictures. It reminds me of my life.

Donovan~ I wouldn't wait one moment in expressing my feelings...true 'in person'does seem more fitting;however,there have been a many loves lost by waiting too long...I would definately express my feelings in a letter,or better yet a phone call before I would put it on hold until Christmas...Good luck! Keep me posted.

Angel

MVR~ Two of my favorite lines from,"Odyssey" are:'You keep lighting me up like a carnival',and 'Our mad swirl of colors beyond the rainbow makes sense only to us' Glad to see so many good subs. This was my favorite!

Angel

Misti -
well you got me right, social butterfly (or I was until I had a baby!), charming (I wish!!) and bossy (hell yeah!)... not sure about the moody...
TK is very strong willed, he does smile alot and he is a real charmer... if he wants some thing he will offer you kisses for it...
Ade is totally an over-acheiver, hence his spending the past 9 weeks with his head in a book... he has just graduated with a degree in Commercial Law and Economics.
The only art we have hanging in our house is mine... I am trying to get enough peices together to have an exhibition, but am not confident enough about my stuff to approach a gallery!
Thanks, Misti, email me sometime and I will send you a photo of TK to prove how cute he is...
dee

MiStI,
I totally agree!It's not to say that great masterpieces can't be created by non-drug or illegal substance users but those who monopolize the record industry are generally drug users!Right now I am watching "hole" on tv and they are no comparison to what they were during "live through this" and "pretty on the inside". I loved your poem "celestrial reject". It really inspired me to release the fire in myself so i submitted another poem!

AnGeL,
How's Brandi? She's certainly taking after her mommy as a great poet.I read "Hearts Comin' Atcha". It was adorable. I better get Dez writing poetry(once she actually learns to write) Brandi's an inspiration!

HeArTsOnG,
Miss you and your "magical" poetry and you!

KeViN,
Miss you! We gotta pick a time to pager chat!

ShAdY,
Where are you?
--------------------------ZoE

Well I though it was cool and I hope you like this crazy

poem i wrote to my crush is the firts one a write wen I was

in 7th grade.

Wen love comes you will see me there wen it faith

I will banish away in to thin air and tell you I love you

as crazy I am

Hey Misti,
I love astrology (that's right, isn't it?). Can I ask a favor and have you give me a "reading"? My birthday is October 18, 1974.

Hey Angel,
I agree. I have to tell her. I have written a letter, but it does come on rather strong (at least I think it does, I guess I am just afraid to drive her further away-- thats the chance I have to take though, right?). I think I will try to re-write it and I hope in the process I will get up the guts to call her. :)

Donovan

Donovon..
*winks* great birthday!
I am sure I am not the best person to ask when it comes to relationships, I have done what you are doing and wrote down how I felt and what I wanted for "us". I didn't end up with the guy, he was over me, but is sure did work to help me get the feeling out of system and at least I knew I had done all I could, and could move on... and in the process of moving on I found my "one".
(email me if you wanna "talk" about what you are writing)

Take care of your heart. dee
(email me if you wanna "talk" about what you are writing)

Opps... I used the copy command instead of the cut command... the (email me if ya wanna talk) line is ment to be before my name... *blushes more and runs to hide under her desk*

Have been very busy, so just caught up on all the new subs tonight. Many excellent submissions, but a few that struck my fancy in particular:

deevaa-
"just words" - cute and clever

Angel-
"Walking That Tight-Rope of Love" - evocative

Meg-
"words on paper" - liked the imagery

kevin lee-
"if I were..." - very whimsical!

Misti-
your news subs were powerful, vivid and gritty, as always

Marla-
Welcome back

-Isolde

Hey everyone, I'm here, I'm sorry, I've been so busy lately. I promise to update you all.

Dee, I owe you an e-mail...oh boy do I!!

ZoE - Thank you for noticing my absence...:-) I feel missed...:-)

Everyone - Do you all know how great Kevin is? Just gotta love that man!!!

Talk soon!
shady

WAY to GO, Donovan!~ Keep us posted :-)

Hey ZoE, Brandi is just DANDY~ Ha Ha Ha!!! THAT child is SMITTEN! What's a mama to do? OooH! I dread those teen years...she's swooning at SIX! GEESH!

Misti~ I'm a GEMINI...6/3/62...ANALYZE me!

Heartsong~ Ya gotta get your e-mail straight dear...I keep getting returns.

YES, Shady...Kev. is a DOLL!

Are ya *BLUSHING*, Kevin?

Isolde~ thanks for 'evocative', glad I moved you!

Angel

Hey everyone, I am trying to get caught up on the new submissions...I can't believe how great some (most) of them are!! I only got so far today...so...here goes nothing...

Heart Song - Loved "Between Us"…especially…"there was never a cold spot in our bed." I like that.

X - Wow…"I Conjure You" was delicately passionate…I really liked it a lot. Just when I thought you may have gone too far, all of a sudden the emotion changed. Really very good.

Angel - I love the last line of "Walking that Tight-Wire of Love"…great!

Romeo_romeo (are you the same as 'regular' romeo? If so…) - once again….your work never ceases to make me smile….loved "if I were…"

Wade - I loved all of your work, I loved the line "When we were together
We invented laughter…" great…

ZoE - "imagination" was terrific…I can’t even point out a particular line, I loved it all… "Outcast" girl, your style has changed so much since I’ve been keeping track of your work, and I think it just keeps getting better…great work! "Emaciated Girlfriend" another great one!

Mulan - I hope that story "Angel’s Wings" is true…how sweet!!!

Carmen - great line from "King Size Bed"…"… I took all of the space
like someone not missing someone." What a great line…

mEg - I really love your style! Keep writing! More than "perfect"… "Words on paper" another good one!

sCrEaMiNg - "scary" boy oh boy, do I relate hun…"note to me" geez, another…we could both be writing about the same person!!

SYMPATHI - "ALONE"…so sad…geez hun, e-mail me if ya need someone, loneliness bites the big one ;-)

Dee - girl if you ever say to me that you are not sure if your work compares to the rest on the blender again, I would be forced to force some sense into you!! "Love in his hands" is wonderful!! (Must’ve been some welcome back weekend…;-)

I'll try to get to the rest when I can, I can't wait!!



shady

*laughing*
Shady - it would have been a better weekend if TK had stayed asleep!! (did I say that out loud? *blushing*

Isolde - Chamber, your man has the sweetest words...

Misti - oh I loved enough-nothing.

Wade - Walk to another Moment... I was almost in tears at the end of it!! Powerful.

Donovan... good luck man!

*looks at her watch* Time for another coffee.

dee

Angel-
"Wired" - In light of my own situation, I can really relate to this piece. Some excellent images. I read it over several times, and proabably will again. Thanks.

Isolde

(talking softly, just above a whisper)

Shady...
You my friend, are too kind. You have a kind and generous heart and I am happy that you are my friend...

Angel...
YES I blushed when I read what you wrote!!! A doll??? Goodness gracious...

And I actually stopped breathing when I read "Wired"... It was like looking into a mirror... You captured a concrete truth about one who has staked a claim in my own heart...

Isolde
"Secret Chamber" spoke to me in a way that I have been almost unwilling to admit... Sometimes it takes the love of others to show us the hidden rooms within the mansions of our hearts...

ZoE
I am sorry, my dear... I am on restriction at a decent hour in your time zone (wouldn't be on until after 11 most nights now) until I either get that T1 direct connection at my house (LOL) or at least a second line... But then the keyboard would graft itself onto my fingers... Have to keep everyone around the house happy, you know...

Misti
I have noticed that the Virtual Fridge is on hiatus! Maybe we can keep you around here for a while! I wish you success with the poetry reading. I lack the intestinal fortitude for such things... Your best work will be good enough for them, believe it!

-K

Hey y'all! I just wanted to say good work. THere are some really beautiful works just around the corner on the other page. I only wish Icould find the words to express what I have been feeling lately. If I do I will sure post it, and dont be afraid to let me know... writers block sucks, and you cant force it... as evidenced by my post a few days ago. Keep it up, I love reading all of them.

Donovan

ShAdY,
I love ya! Your great at buliding up my "poetry esteem" if that makes any sense!now,i better go see your work!
KeViN,
I understand,it's the same way at my house. It's hard to please everyone around here too,especially accomidating my internet obsession with the extra work for Christmas I have to do to get Dez presents!:)
HeArTsOnG,
How's everything going? i miss ya,where are you?
-------------------------ZoE

AnGeL,
I loved "Heart don't fail me". It was so powerful!"i'd pity you to live in such a hollow soul". I read it twice(i hardly ever do that)Keep them coming! Keep Brandi inspiring me and Dez!
IsOlDe,
"Stumbling"-i loved it!! "for having acknowleged our fragility",that line stuck out in my mind! you are a true godess not only of haiku but also poetry! props to you!:)
----------------------ZoE

ZoE~"Where does it hurt?" 'You flick me like ashes in to the breezes of Autumn',and 'but you have summer in my eyes'~ two GREAT lines!

Kevin~ "The Love Market", 'as long as it is invested freely in hope,but never in expectation,of getting any return', loved the line, but KEV...can you truly have HOPE without EXPECTATION?
LET us PONDER this BLENDERITES!

Tristan~ "Secret Chamber"...cute :-)

Still reading
Angel

OH, God! ZoE!~ my answers to number 10 and 11 were,DISCO DUCK and WILD THING!!! HELP ME! By spreading a little youth my way :-)
PS: Number three was right on the money ))))))))))))))))))))
Angel

heartsong~thanks for the flock~baaaaaaaaaa!

Angel

X~"Forbidden Nectar" Loved it!

Isolde~ "Stumbling", Isolde, you amaze me...please hold my pen awhile!!!

Angel

(whispering again because the teacher is giving me "the Eye")

psssssssssst

Angel...
Yes, oh yes, one must learn not to place expectations on what one hopes for, or one will SURELY become heartbroken, and maybe embittered...

If I deeply love someone, I give her my heart unconditionally... I love her simply because she exists in my world, is willing to share in my life, and share her life with me... Certainly when I make myself so vulnerable, I have that hope that what I have given freely will be returned freely... But it cannot be free if I expect or demand its return...

(as an aside: this is true in friendship as well, although, I believe that friendship, even a deep and abiding love for a friend, falls short of 'romantic' love in a couple of areas... and that is not a rationalization, it is generally a fact of circumstance. I do realize that it is almost impossible to rationalize matters of the heart... boy and how...)

That is my two cents for the day

-K

But,KEV...HOPE is defined as...To wish for something WITH expectation...I always expect a return of my love...makes me WISH harder!

Angel

ZoE-
"Where doe it hurt?" - I liked the line "...beautiful girls that...coat themsleves with your approval..."

Angel-
You seem to be on a roll!
"Refresh" - I loved the line "devour me completely to make me whole"

"my heart is cracking" - very clever word play! I was quite surprised when I came to the last line. Well done.

-Isolde

(standing up now)

perhaps we are both right, Angel...
Hope is a very enigmatic word... And an even more enigmatic feeling...
As a lover of words, however, I checked on what you said...

According to Webster:
----------------------
*intransitive senses*
1 : to cherish a desire with anticipation <hopes for a promotion>
2 archaic : TRUST
----------------------
that is my feeling about my own hope...
----------------------
*transitive senses*
1 : to desire with expectation of obtainment
2 : to expect with confidence : TRUST
----------------------
that is what you have said...

hmmmm... Perhaps we are just seeing the same thing from different angles...

Angel, this is truly food for thought here! Thank you for that...

-K

hey everyone, happy hump day! I finished the rest of the new submissions...and I just have to say, they were all really so incredible!!

Misti - girl, as always, I’m going to say what I always say…boy oh boy, do you have a way with words!!! You always put the perfect words together, and can take two words like "patio talks" put them together and create an entire image in my head. I always look forward to reading your work! "We" was great. Great last line too… "enough nothing" - marvelous!!! "celestial reject" another great one ‘the hell of who I’ve become.." great line! I love your anger. "Nauseating" and "Hard Rain" too…

ZoE - hun, your poetry esteem should be on the rise, through the roof!! "Where does it hurt?" was incredible…I can relate perfectly right now…"flick me like ashes…" great line…I swear! I was not able to be online for like 3 days, I come back and everyone has become the Great Poets of the 20th-21st centuries!!

Angel - "my heart is cracking" hehe…very cute…

Dee - get my e-mail? How you doin' today hun? Sorry to hear TK interrupted the 'festivities' this past weekend...hehe...
;-)

Hey Kev - Thanks hun...I value ur friendship too, as you already know.

Hello to everyone I missed, Isolde, heart, Marla, where are you all?

Only two more days to go, and then I'm off for vacation!!!



shady

Hey you guys, I just have to say something...a nothing something.

Has anyone heard that new song by Madonna? She says "You were my lesson I had to learn, I was your fortress you had to burn." I hated it when I first heard it. Actually I've disliked every song that she has come out with recently, at first, and then, this weekend, now that 'he' is back in my life, all of a sudden they have a new dimension. I just kind of wanted to make sure, anyone who hated them, gave the songs a good listen, because there is so much more to her words than what first meets the eye, (or ear...;-)

I don't know why I felt the need to tell you all of this, it's been a crazy day. But the song was just on, and I wanted to share it.

Hope everyone's day has been great!
(Any Dawson Creek fans in here?)


shady

Yes,Kev. , there are more than one way to look at things...glad you pointed that out...I HOPE you EXPECT better from me in the future :-)

Angel

X - your stuff is so erotic... I think it is GREAT! I totally want to add one of your peices to a painting I have on my site.. can you email me? Please?

Shady - Dawsons Creek? That is a famous winemaker here in NZ... kinda expensive...

*laughing* sometimes New Zealand feels like the end of the world... but really we are the beginning of time.. we are the first people to see the dawn each day... hmmm... what an amazing thing to ponder.. my today is your tommorrow, yet the stars that we wish too are the same ones.
wow...

ShAdY,IsOlDe,and,AnGeL,
Thanks for your compliments on "where does it hurt?" Guess it's easy to write poetry if your an emotional person! (thanks ShAdY for saying I'm a great poet of the 21st century....:) well if i am,so are you,your a great poetess yourself although i'm awaiting your new submissions,i always admire your work) Isolde is awarded by me and probably everyone else on this site,Haiku Godess!AnGeL,you are amazing,your recent work gets deeper and deeper,it's no wonder you taught Brandi so well!
EvErYoNe,
I'll be away in Connecticut visting my mom with Matt and Dez! Wish me luck! these are never pleasant visits and i'm prepared for the lecture,"it's not good to live with someone your not married to,it gives them ideas"(she's so old fashioned)then the " having a baby out of wedlock is wrong" speech. should be a fun couple of days if i don't go out to a motel instead of staying there!eeek....well at least i won't be alone there! I'll miss you guys while i'm gone! keep your fingers crossed for me!
----------------------------ZoE

I'll only be gone Friday and Saturday so don't stop posting me messages yet 'cause i'll be sad! he he i'm a dork!
-------------------------ZoE

Helena--
When Love Fades... jerked my heart and almost brought a tear to my eye. I loved it. Sums up a lot of the feelings that Im dealing with right now with someone very special to me.
Thanks
Donovan

I found this board in the summer and love all the emotion expressed here. It's become sort of a refuge from the daily grind for me.

Deevaa - Thanks for the comment on "Hat Man". I tried to find "Perfect" but couldn't. Don't think it was mine but that doesn't mean it's not the same guy...

Shadygirl - Nice to hear your comment - thanks. I've been reading your stuff for months - always fabulous. "She" was particularly poignant.

And while I'm here, Heartsong regarding "I Need You," I could feel it.

-carmen

carmen, opps...sorry...I just went back and checked.. "perfect" is by Meg, her submission is close to yours on the "new submissions" page, I guess I read it at the same time as "Hat Man" and thought that they had the same author... the sentiment is kinda the same.. admiring from afar.
*blushes*

Donovan - How is that letter going?

Shady... wow.. you have such a story to tell girl!
(have a nice holiday)

dee

I thought it woud be better if you would of put I, insted of mo so that way it sounds like a love poem for my girl friend and other peoples girl friend or boy friend.

I thought it woud be better if you would of put I, insted of mo so that way it sounds like a love poem for my girl friend and other peoples girl friend or boy friend.

Dee,
Well, I wrote another letter. Call me a chicken, but I decided to take another route. I decided to just ask her how things are going and tell her whats going on down here at Fort Sill. I guess I wanted to see if she would actually write me back. I hope its not the wrong route to take, Im just so scared to put a lot of pressure on her again. I figured I could work on it from there. Im open to suggestions though, and will check back here before I send the letter off. I gotta hit the sack now though, I have an early morning ahead of me. :)

Donovan

(talking softly again)

My goodness, some powerful stuff!

T.K.
Such anguish... Yes, tears seem somehow to provide 'perverted comfort' when in a 'numb coma of sadness.' Very moving imagery...

Angel
"Caressing Hardware"... Your work is truly sensational in this area, and it speaks to me deeply. And the metaphor of 'those keys' as 'portals to my love' is brilliant...

Isolde
"Opening" is as a reflection as well as a revelation... The removal of defenses is indeed a most sublime operation, particularly when the fingers performing it are trembling with the excitement of discovery... And what lies behind your words are the implication that the operation requires the perticipation of two, for truly being open is impossible without yielding to the love of someone willing to peel layer upon layer of defenses, and then peel some more...

Carmen
I have experienced that "Silence" you write of... Yes, silence can be the cruelest thing...

ZoE
I'll be sending you my best wishes all weekend long!!! (Prayers too)

-K

Thanks, Shady...Thanks Kev...Bye,Zoe,have a good time...Marla, where are you?
*H E A R T S O N G*, I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Angel

Dee - Haha...no, Dawson's Creek is a sappy show that I can not miss each week. I never watch TV, literally, I don't even know why I have one, because it isn't used until Wednesday. But I love that show, I was just wondering if there were any other dawson weenies like me in here. My story? LOL...I'm sure everyone has an interesting story to tell...I'll write a book someday, always said I would, maybe I'll even sell one or two...;-)

ZoE - thanks girl...I know I've been slacking on submissions, I've been so buys, I've had poetry running amok (sc) in my head, but haven't had a chance to let it free on paper...maybe today at lunch...

carmen - thank you hun, very sweet of you. :-)

Hi everyone else...it is almost friday!! I can not wait for the weekend!!! Par-tay! (I have the ENTIRE house to myself, and a few dozen friends...hehe)

heart? Marla? Misti? where are you girls?


shady

Is this thing working?

oooooooooooooh! That Tickled!

hmmm... wow...
kev- powerful stuff? damn right.

Isolde, Shady, Romeo, and X ... I am stunned all of your work has touched my very core.

X thanks for allowing me to use your piece.

Shady... you must be inspired by someone... *giggles* I wonder who...

Romeo - your haiku... mmm...mmmnnnnn.

Isolde - what Kev said, only louder.

Angel - I very much liked Carressing Hardware also

Donovan, your not a chicken, and I would never say it... let me know how it goes...

hmm... there is more poetry that I have not read... or there is a publication to put on the web... hmmm... which should I do...

Just found out I will actually be home this weekend (what a concept!). Have almost forgotten what that is like....

Helena-
"when loves fades" - I like the line "marooned in the shallows of our friendship".

Angel-
"Caressing Harware" - You know I have a taste for poems on this theme, so I can hardly help but be moved. I especially liked the line "the absence of your flesh intensifies your soul". Wow. Hit home.

Romeo-
"In Bloom" - I have a soft spot for haiku, and I thought yours was very well done. Also, I am publicly extending the olive branch of peace....

Shady-
"To the other girl..." - excellent line/image about making your friend ugly with "the mask of my own yearning and jealousy". Powerful.

Shady-
I also very much enjoyed your three new haiku. Nicely done. Liked the image of 'wrapping yourself in tomorrow'.

Zoe-
Hope your trip goes well (as well as possible) this weekend.


Guess that's enough of my yacking for now...
-Isolde

It's been a few months since I've been here, and I must say, I'm truely impressed. I'd almost forgotten the beauty of the words of poetry- I haven't written any since August... I guess I just didn't have it in me for a while, though I've had plenty to write about. I commend you all for your submissions from the bottom of my heart- they have the power to move me. And get ready for a few pieces from me in the near future... ;D ...julianne

T.K.-
I just wanted to say that it is nice to have you back. I, personally, missed your poetry very much. I'm glad you are submitting again.

-Jenna-

deeva,Kevin,Isolde~ thank you all for the nice comments on "Caressing Hardware" Net Love is a relatively new concept and I am quite fascinated by it, sorta like on a new frontier...I love to explore! ...I especially knew that Kev. and Isolde would enjoy it! Thanks guys.......I'll keep writing...uh oh! I feel my pen moving NOW! :-)

Angel

Oh! Welcome back, Julianne!

Where ARE YOU heartsong?

Angel

X~ "Conquering the Citadel", OH! my Heart is in heaven... I just love this 'ole world stuff...weakens my knees...refreshing!

Angel

shady-once again you amaze me, i love 'the other girl...' and 'his angel' and i like your haikus!
misti-i love all your new stuff
zoe-handful of pennies was really nice, i love the way you write, everything just kinda spills out

erin

ShAdY,
I loved,"Blind" and "to the other girl". they were 2 of the greatest pieces of read in a while.The wait was wourth it! Thanks for the good wishes.....KeViN and IsOlDe! I'm gonna miss you guys so much for even those 2 days. You guys spoil me so much 'cause i can come on here anytime and see my messages! Well,better get Dez to bed,it's getting late! So much great poetry posted lately i have to catch up!
---------------------ZoE

Hey everyone!! It's Friday!! It's Payday!! And it's my last day of work before my 10 DAY VACATION!! I AM ECSTATIC!!!

hehehe....;-)

Dee - *giggles along with Dee* you know it girl...thanks for what you said, I'm glad you like it...:-)

Isolde - Thank you...powerful eh? Wow, I really didn't think I would get too many comments on these new ones...

Julianne - Thank you, from all of us...that is really so sweet of you, I hope you start submitting regularly again also. :-)

erin - aw, thank you! That's so sweet! I'm so happy you guys liked this stuff...:-)

ZoE - WOW!! 2 of the greatest pieces? I feel like Kevin *blushing*...hehe...;-) Thank you so much, now you are boosting my poetry esteem...and it needed it, I really didn't think these new ones would be accepted this well.

Thank you guys so much!
Today is going to be a crazy busy day, getting my desk cleared off, but it is well worth it. I will try to get in here as much as I can today, because I will not be able to access online as often on my vacation...due to other activities (hopefully...and NO, not those activities DEE!! Unfortunately...hehe..;-) So, if I do not get to say so later, hope every one has an absolutely wonderful and homey thanksgiving!

I am thankful for all of you!


Happy Friday...
shady :-)

Thanks for the compliments on my feeble attempt at haiku. I'm not great at that art form, I have to admit. Shades of teenage angst and sorrow emerge when I ponder haiku nowadays.

Really cherished the poems by Eve: "*Tell Me, I'll Try*" and Heart Song--"Enfolded" and "Book of Lessons" (the latter left a big lump in my throat). Enjoyed Mulan's poems, too. And as for the works by Misti, mEg, Shady & Angel--Wow!

For some bizarre reason, I envision some guy in Jersey frantically scribbling "In Bloom" on a card that will accompany a dozen roses to his "significant other." I guess poetry is only created so that it can be shared with others. Such is life.

:-}
Scott

(standing up)

Sorry teacher! And everyone else...
I just looked at my fictional submissions and noticed that the text wrap did not work at all... I apologize to everyone (Kirk! Help!!!). Any future submissions of such a nature will probably be in html... Again, I apologize...

(sits down sheepishly, remembering to check his homework next time before turning it in)

-K

OK, I'm all caught up...here's the run-down:

Isolde~"Enchanter",Reflection","Addiction","Stealing Heaven","As You Dream"...WOW! HAIKU GODDESS, You have been busy!!!

John Lorenz~ "Angel", I certainly liked the TITLE :-) And you also gave me a CHILL with that one! YIKES!

Carmen~ "Speak Up", A very good ryming piece...everyone knows my weakness for rymes! Loved It!

Julianne~ "deep(surrender)", Sowing plenty assures a bountiful harvest! Good One! Looking forward to more :-)

Shady~ *SMILE,SMILE,SMILE* "His Angel", Wonder why I liked this one so much,hmmmm? :-) Got me again on the very first line!!!

AND dear KEVIN~ "Catch and Release", Cute, Cute, Cute and Cutesy cute!!! And I also took the trouble to read, "The Invitation", Well written 'fiction'!

Angel

Hey everyone!

My my my, the new submissions page fills up quicker than anything I've ever seen, I don't know how I'll ever keep up!!

Romeo - Thank you so much for the 'wow'...;-)

Angel - *SMILING BACK* glad I got you to smile...hehe... :-)

Julianne - Wow, I really liked "deep (surrender)" it started off really slowly and than you had no choice but to read I faster, as the lines got shorter, climactic…the style itself is very suggestive of its content. Very clever.

Carmen - "He whispers" - very nice, sweet, sad…I liked it a lot.

Isolde - You have been busy!!! Great work as always…you are the Queen of 'few words'!!! I love the line 'stealing heaven'…great…!!!


Ugh, back to work y'all...talk to you soon!

shady :-)

shhhh.... *blushing* damn shady you are gonna get me a reputation!!!

Isolde - wow all you new submissions... I liked 'em all, that man of yours, he really inspires you.. it is beautiful to see. I loved Reflection alot.

It is Saturday morning here... I am gonna take my Saturday morning coffee and sit in the window and bask in the Saturday morning sun -hands up all who are jelous?

ME ME ME!!! Dee, I'm hopping on a plane with my sunglasses and I'll be there soon, I like my tea with no sugar or milk, thanks!!

(hehe...)

What's it feel like to be able to talk to someone in the present and past times? I mean, you can actually tell someone that you wrote to me yesterday/a few minutes ago...

Sorry, my mind is mushy, its friday, and weird things are bound to escape my fingertips once in a while...

I'm glad to know it is the weekend somewhere!!!



shady

Hey Gang

K, don't sweat the wordwrap, I'll get it at least when I
assemble the journal, possibly before. I keep meaning
to update the entry method to be the same as the comment
method: i.e. Carriage returns are respected, long lines
(like in a story) wrap, but extra spaces are ignored.

Which kind of reminds me, I've always wondered about the
classroom metaphor-- I'm hoping (and it seems to be true)
that I'm not the "teacher" in this context... if anything,
I think I'm more like the custodian, in the blue shirt
with my name right on it. (In that vein, regulars might
notice that I've been responding more often via the comment
form, rather than editing the page by hand.)

Anyway, I'm busy polishing up my alienbill.com site. I'll
give a yell when the improvements are installed.

--Kirk

(stepping out into the hall, calling after the nice guy that everyone looks up to, the one with his heart on his right sleeve and his name on a patch over his shirtpocket)

Kirk!

You, dear sir, are a prince, as most custodians I have ever known are... It is, after all, the custodians who run the place anyway, right? Or at least they know more than the rest of us...

As for the teacher metaphor, I think that in this sense, the blenderites are as a community of kids sitting in a classroom... We all see the custodian (and all wish we could thank him enough!), and have come to love this place almost as much as he does... I see 'the teacher' as some kind of big shot poet (er, college creative writing professor, if you will) out there in the ether... If you think of the classroom analogy as if this were a Peanuts cartoon, we (blenderites) are the actors in this play... The 'teacher' is the one off screen who only makes noises of "OH WAH WAH WAH... WAH WAH..."

It is my way of playing a bit with the words I post on the Blender Board. Because the meat of every post I have ever made here has and will always come from the genuine me... No persona, no alter-egos, no hidden agenda... Just me...

Real poetry comes from the same place in everyone, no matter who we pretend to be on screen or off...

-K

Thanks so much, Blenderites, for your kind comments about my pile of submissions yesterday. You do me far more honor than I deserve (but I must admit, it is a great boost for my self esteem!).

For some reason, yesterday was an incredibly creative day for me. I wrote all of those new poems in one evening. It was as if they were just pouring out of me (I had to ask a waiter in a restaurant for some of his "tickets" to write on because I had run out of scraps of paper from my purse - lol!).

Thanks especially to deevaa, for acknowledging the source of all my inspiration...


Still feeling high on love...
Isolde

(standing up)

Isolde......

I am in reverent awe at your mastery of haiku...
I cannot find the words to explain all that I find in your latest submissions. Wow... Your work was, in fact, so inspiring to me that a haiku sprang forth from my own pen. You are a blessing and an example... Thank you.

-K

this will not be that long, it was good

wowwwwwwwwww ......

I go away for a few days and there are a bazillion and one new pieces that have been shared here. I'm still on a "honeymoon high" ... so they all have touched me. From the ragged edge of broken love to the sheer pleasure of two being as one.

Cricket

Welcome back, Crickett...and...CONGRATULATIONS!!!
I know you didn't want to LEAVE that cabin... :-)

Angel

Welcome back Crickett! Congradulations!!!

Hey EvErYoNe,
I just got back from visting my mom. Matt and I are suddenly encountering some terrible problems. I feel like my heart hurts. Matt is very angry at me,because of something pretty trivial to me but really bothered him. He won't even talk to me and I don't know what to say or how to apologize. This fight did,however minimize the annoyance of my mom's lectures.My heart feels ripped in two. Matt is the greatest thing in my life besides Dez and he is so special to me. He's staying at his friend's house now and we just haven't talked. All I want to do is cry. Even Dez is shook up,because Matt isn't living with us anymore. I don't know what to tell her when she asks where Matt is and why he's not here. Well,i guess i didn't bear the most pleasant news.
---------------------------ZoE

ErIn,
Thanks so much for your compliments on "handful of pennies". I look forward to reading more of your work.

CaRmAn,
I loved "he whispers". I guess I'm in a tragic mood,because that poem almost ripped my heart out!

IsOlDe,
I loved "As You Dream". I hate to sound redundant but you truely are a haiku godess!
----------------------ZoE

carmen -
"Engaged" - I think you conveyed the emotions of that situation very well.

John Lorenz -
"Angel" - Interesting twist from 'her' point of view to an 'outside' point of view. Some excellent imagery there, and I particularly liked the line "her wisdom remains ungerminated".

Kevin-
"Eros" - A well done haiku. Honest. ;-)

deevaa -
"I am your goddess" - I loved this one! Excellent. Passionate. Very moving.

Cricket -
"Seeds" - Beautiful and romantic. Oh, and congrats on your nuptials and honeymoon!


Enjoying my weekend at home-
Isolde

Zoe-

I am sorry to hear about your difficulties. If you want to talk, or I can help, E me...

Wishing you all the best-
Isolde

Hey Zoe,
Let me know if you need someone to talk...er rather write to. Im a good listener, and occasionally I come up with some advice that even amazes me (even though I cant think of any for myself to follow) :)

Donovan

Zoe ~

"We are all travelers on a journey and must look out for each other on steep mountain sides". You have many frinds here : )


Angel, Deevaa, and Isolde ~ thank you for the warm "welcome home". Trying to get my feet back on the ground. Figured this was a good place to start. There are many writers here who must be "inside my head" ... cuz I read what I'm feeling, but am unable to write.

Life is indeed a grand thing
Cricket

Good Morning,ZoE
Hope you are feeling better this morning...nice chatting with you last night...keep your chin up!

Angel

Zoe - sweetness, I hope stuff is OK with you and Matt... Ade sometimes gets very angry at me for stuff that I also think is almost nothing... keep trying to talk to him about it, explain that you didn't mean for it to hurt him and now that you have hurt him you are sorry. All my wishes are with you girl... you have a whole lot of support here at the blender and i am sure that anyone of us would try to help as much as we can if you need to talk.

dee

I really have to figure this out. keep erasing all my messages before sending - very frustrating!

Isolde - Glad you liked Engaged. Couldn't begin to comment on all yours, though especially like Reflection. All seemingly simple, yet not at all so. Great stuff.

Zoe - Glad you liked He Whispers. Sorry for your sad situation, but things will get better...they always do. Try to smile

Angel - Angel's Cry - eloquently written

Shadygirl - Thanks for your nice words. I love the turn to him at the end of His Angel.

Kevin - Eros - you underestimate your haiku abilities.

-C

"Arrows", by Quarter Moon~very creative~you STRUCK me!

"Exhale",by Carmen~ I could HEAR the breath coming out of you! Very descriptive piece!

"Signing Off",by Tristan~a few words very sweetly put!

"Watch Me",by Romeo...OH ROMEO!!! You did it again~A REAL pearl!

Angel

Marla,have you gone bye-bye?
ZoE,*Smile* for me!
Kevin,Hi!
heartsong~THANKS for being YOU!
Misti~you didn't analyze me!

Angel

Fellow Blenderites,

I would like very much to put to use the chat Kirk so thoughtfully created for us;however,I seem to always be alone there...I'm sure some of you have had this same problem. Perhaps we could choose days and times most convenient to all to meet there to chat...that would be soooo cool...I'm fairly flexible~work from home~stay on-line alot...let's work this out to keep the chat!

Angel

Happy Monday, everyone. I'll be back later to respond to comments on an individual basis and do the astrology thing but right now my eyes are burning and I've got to get to class. I just survived a rather hellish weekend and I've got a few new poems to submit. I'll be back after class.

Hard Word To say

Why can’t you say the word
The hurtful word goodbye
How long can I linger
How much longer will I cry

Have I played the fool
Been a fool long enough
Yes I do know this
Yet goodbyes are really rough

A word I do not like
I would rather say g’day
Waiting,patiently,lingering
Still on my mind you prey

I know it will be hard
Goodbyes are what I fear
Still open without closures
I dry up another tear

One day it will come
Maybe soon that fateful day
I still think its difficult
Goodbyes so hard to say
Hope

I am so tired and my body aches. I don't know what's wrong with me. I was going to respond to the different comments on an individual basis and do the astrology thing but I'm out of time. I spent all my time submitting new poems. Zoe, Shadygirl, Kevin, erin, and whoever else I forgot- thank you. I am glad I can write poems that mean something to other people. I am so grateful for this website. It has been
a lifesaver.
If I don't come back before I go home for Thanksgiving, I
hope you all have a happy and safe holiday, surrounded by
people you love. I hope you find things to be thankful for. There are always things to be thankful for. If I can say that and believe it, then it must be true!
One semi-positive thing in my life...I now know how to play baccarat. I'm sure that knowledge will serve me well.

Okay, I have a few more minutes to spare. Thanks Isolde and
Deevaa, for the compliments. Donovan and Angel, I will
analyze your charts as soon as I get the chance.

Hi there! Sorry that I have been MIA! I guess time just got away from me! I can't believe how much I have missed! I can't even catch up! No way! I have been slightly under the weather and wasn't able to keep up. I'm felling better now though and I never want to put the blender on the back burner again! I love this place. I am covered up at work, at home I have to fight for air time! Everyone has gone internet crazy!

Angel-I think I got the email thing worked out! Thanks for caring so much about me!

Zoe- I heard what happened and I am sorry that I wasn't here for you sooner. I know it's hard for you right now and Dez is shook up. If Matt could leave you over something so trivial, I think you might have to look a little harder for the real problem, if he caves at something so simple, what is he going to do with real problems? Do you think he was just looking for an easy way out? Babe, if he was, let him go, I know it's hard, but you and Dez don't deserve this.

Marla- are you around? I miss you lots!

Shady-Haven't you gotten any of my email, I'm having trouble reaching you. How's the muriel?

Kevin-How are you? Couldn't get on line this morning early enough to talk.

Hello to Eve, Isolde, and the rest of the Gang!

Hey everyone,

Sorry I haven't been around for a couple of days...I am living it up at home. I love this, total vacation!

ZoE - Hun, stand strong, I'm here, if ya need me!

Carmen - Thank you for what you said about His Angel...:-)

heart Song, no I have not gotten any of your mail, have you been sendng it to my new hotmail address?

And hello to everyone else!

My weekend was really crazy, Crazy things just keep happening and I am surprising myself that I have the strength and the patience to put up with it. Me and 'the one' have really gotten back on track. Not as far down that track as I may wish, but well on the way, way beyond normal freindship. The weird thing is his girlfriend is totally fine with it, and she has only gone home for one night since I've been home from work. I really like her, she is great. She's really nice. Unfortunately. Heehee...it just keeps getting more and more weird as we go...so by the end of this week, I should have some pretty strange stories to tell you all. :-)

I hope everyone is having a great week, had a great weekend, and will have a great holiday.

And Misti, hun, you do not sound goo. Please write me, if you need to. You are so much more than you give yourself credit for. So much more.

Love you all!
shady

P.S. hi Kev...long time no talk.

Misti-
I just read "resigned". My god. This is by far the most powerful poem I have read in a long time (or maybe it just struck a deep personal chord), at any rate, I am crying as I try to type this, the tears on my cheeks. Since I'm sitting here alone, it doesn't matter if my makeup runs. But I understand...only too well. About 'alone' and 'without'. About 'complications' and 'emotion' and 'crazy'. About "excess". And sadly, about being used to it. About as good as it gets.

Take care of yourself, Misti. Life is tough, but so, I think, are you. Good luck.

-Isolde

DoNoVaN,IsOlDe,CrIcKeTt,AnGeL,DeEvA,CaRmEn,hEaRtSoNg,ShAdY,
Gosh,you guys made me feel so happy. I'm such a lucky girl to have friends like you and i thank you endlessly for letting me vent. i hope the situation improves but until then i'll keep posting my sappy,angsty poetry! you definately all brightened up my day!
-------------------------ZoE

wow - Misti, you have blown me away! "resigned" and "My Leo Dictor": so totally powerful, so heart wrenching, I am tingling from the overwelming emotion. Do those poetry readings chick.. you will win everyones heart if you don't win the prize!

Tristen - bound... I wish that my man wrote or spoke words like that! Isolde is so lucky!

Shady - chick I haven't emailed cause I thought you would be away from the computer... I will get right onto it today!!

Play nice now!

dee

Misti~
Hey, dont worry about it... take you time there is no hurry on this end as I am stuck in military training until what seems like the end of the century. One additional request though, if you would allow me to do so. Could you "cross-analyze" me with a woman born on March 3rd 1976? I would appreciate it. Just want to see what the stars have to say about my never-ending quest for the one who I have decided is the love of my life.

Thanks,
Donovan

Misti~
OOPS, I miscounted the years. She was born in '75. Hey, I stopped over and read "Resigned." One word - POWERFUL.

Donovan

sweet deevaa-

Thank you for posting "Phenomenal Woman" for us Blender ladies. It helps. Especially today...

-Isolde

YEAH DEE, THANKS! *S M I l E*

Angel

I posted that poem because I read it and know I am all those things.. when I have an "ugly" or a "fat" day I read it..
Each and every one of the women that come here is amazing in their own right.. you all deserve to know it.
dee

Thanks for the compliment on "Watch Me," Deeva. I really liked "beach walking"--"drifted away with the tide" was my favorite line.

Also enjoyed Misti's newest works, especially "Mermaid." Great imagery in that poem; the last few lines were a clever and refreshing twist.

Thanks for the olive branch, Isolde. Hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving.

Scott

Happy Tuesday! Hope everyone is well and you will be on my list of things I am thankful for this Thanksgiving!

:-)

heart

Ah, poems, poems, poems! So many excellent submissions, here are a few that caught my eye:

Angel-
"Paradox" - I loved the first sentence, and thought the echoing of the 'paradox' image at the end was great (verity/dreams & myth/reality).

Misti-
I admire your style, you don't pull any punches. All your new submissions were well written, but I especially liked:

"Mermaid" - The images were very vibrant, and there were some fantastic bits of word-play. I also liked the visual flow of the words on the page. And the ending, so....hopeful?

"Flores Para Los Muertos" - I also love Streetcar, and you truly captured many of it's essential elements in your poem. Reading your poem made me see flashes of the film and the play in my head, when you mentioned certain key phrases, so I had these overlapping images, your words, Williams' words, the actors' words, little snips of the film. It made the 'experience' of reading this poem very intense. Brava!


Inspired now, so perhaps I can write something new...
Isolde

DeEvA,
Thanks for posting "phenomenal woman"! you are a true phenomenal woman! right now i don't feel like i fit the description!
KeViN,HeArTsOnG and AnGeL,
I hope I talk to you on pager soon! i have important news!
Well for now I better get Dez to sleep! she's using Matt's moving out as an excuse to stay up late with mommy and eat junk food! LoVe YoU GuYs!
-----------------------------ZoE

Isolde-

You were not kidding, inspired! "Beyond" is as a reflection of a truth I have just discovered. The paradox of loving means that clarity may come when those lines start to blur...

ZoE-
E me, you have my address...
Our lines never seem to cross lately...
FoR tHaT I aM tRuLy SoRrY!!
Forgive me?

-K

Zoe, if anyone here is an amazing women it is you.

I am truly Thankful...for the Blender...I am Thankful for all of the wonderful new friends here who brighten my day...and for their words that echo my hearts' own...and for the Blenders' Sender (Kirk)...Thanks!!!

Angel

ZoE...PAGE me!

Angel

Isolde~ LOVED "Sacrifice",You touced on a little reality there!

Angel

they all sucked the only one i like is TO U my
heart
get better poems please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Angel-

Thank you for your kind words about "Sacrifice". Yes, that one was very heartfelt and real. I think reading Misti's recent work inspired me to look at the darker side of my life. She is always so fearless about baring her soul, so unflinchingly honest about the gritty reality of life. I seem to have two lives lately, one dark and hopeless, one bright and vibrant. Until now all of my poetry here has been about the bright life. This one was the exception to that trend...

-Isolde

Also ADORED,"Audible" and "Beyond", Isolde...You are the ONE on a ROLL!

Angel

...role,role,role,role,role,role,role,role...ok, punishment enough...I'll try to do better, teacher!

OK teach, I was right the first time...do I get a TREAT?

(whispering as the teacher says WAH WAH WAH WAH WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH to my friend Angel)

PPSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSST!

Angel,
your treat is more poems to inspire you! You can't expect the TEACHER (nodding toward the front of the room) to give us a treat, can you???

-K

Kev! You have moved Up here, I see...to the front row with me...atleast momentarily...just pass the note and get back in your seat before you get caught! LOL...Yes my Treat is always more beautiful words...and I'm hungry for some...so pick up your pen Kev.and get writing......

Angel(the teachers pet)

Angel, Isolde, Tristen and X...

*slow contented smile*
Oh you guys have just made my day so damn happy... Angel, I loved the you latest "rock me to the beat of your song" I almost thought is was by HeartSong while I read it.. (where is she by the way??)
and
Isolde and Tristen.. you guys stuff is just getting better and better ... more please.
and
X - I hope you know I you are fast becoming my fav...

Shady... will you hurry up and get back girl.. this chick misses you...

Take care of your hearts.
dee

PS... Oh and Angel, comparing you work to HeartSong's, that was a compliment by the way!!! *blushes and runs off*

And a very WeLCOME compliment..."DiD you Hear that SIS?"
Some of you has rubbed off on me...thanks Dee...I really love heartsongs' work and now I am smiling because I knew
we had a connection there somewhere.

Angel

Romeo~ "Ballerina", Romeo, I just can't express how this poem made me feel,but it could very well have been written for me...I'm keeping this one!

Dee~
"beach walking", I could almost taste the lonliness and despair of this poem...loved the last line,'I melted into the sunset-and all was dark and quiet'

Tristan~ "Heartbeat",SWEET

Kevin~"Exposed", endearing poem...so free...loved the line...'it has pulled down the pants of my life...ect.'

Angel

Hey, I think it's great poetry and I'm always glad to see others involved in it to. BUT I think you could expand on the themes....Eg(love is not always one way) Think of a stalker in the way that he/she can genuinly think they are in love with this stalkee....just an idea, I personally like it more abstact!!!! KEEP ON WRITING...:)

Hope everyone has a fantasic Thanksgiving!

-Isolde

(standing up, wondering where everyone is at... even the teacher is gone today... What the heck? Is it a holiday or something??)

I am thankful for being in love, having that reason to seize each day as it comes.

I am thankful that I decided to pick up that pen again and write poetry... I have always loved reading it...

I am thankful that I found this site, and ever so thankful that Kirk tends it so well... (Thank you again, Kirk!)

I am thankful that I have made some incredible friends here who have inspired me to write even more than what I knew has always been within me. Thank you all; you know who you are...

Happy Thanksgiving to you all, and to all who are loved by you...

-K

HeY GuYs,
I just came in for a quick "hello" and saw some great poems that i have yet to comment on. i'm busy as ever getting everything ready for thanksgiving (luckly were all vegitarians and no one eats turky so i don't have to risk making one). It's only 10:30 and Dez is running around the house in that turky costume i made her prepared to scare guests. i'm rushing around. in Dez's words "happy sanks' givin'" to everyone and don't eat too much turky. For now i have to get myself together 'cause i look like a scrub and guests will be here in an hour!
------------------------------------ZoE

*laughing*
You guys are all off playing (and eating turkey) by the sounds of it and I am sitting a work.. how unfair is that?

Zoe, you are truely amazing... a turkey costume? what the..?
(someone will have to fill me in on what this is all about... once again I am at the end of the earth)

X - "liberation" another one for my to copy and paste!

and for every one that wished Ade well for his exams, the results are out and he passed his masters with all B's and B+'s I am very proud of him.

Happy what ever it is the you are celebrating.. I for one am celebrating the end of my week... Take care.
dee

Kev - ohhh.. I liked "Unknown"

and Dr Jeff, I liked your "The love that could have been" so very true...

anyone wanna help me out with my new piece in progress please do, I it doesn't quite flow right in the last stanza.. please...

(not afraid to speak because the light's on, but no one's home anyway...)

Deevaa!

Thank you for your kind words...
I would be honored to help you with your predicament... 'E' me!

-K

*blushing* maybe it is too naughty for on here.. ummm ...

oooooooooooh! deeva!!! "Wrapped"!!!!!

Angel

*blushing horribly* oh, it was too naughty for here.. I am sorry!!!

I really enjoy the poems that Ive read here and I was wondering what happened to the old poems, the ones that are no longer here. I remember one more then any of the rest and it was my favorite it was called I live my life in you. I was always meaning to print a copy up but never got the chance to. I was wondering if there was anyway that I could read this wonderful poem again? Also I would like to know if its possible to submit stories with out putting my name on it? Please email me back at snoops@yesic.com

I liked *wrapped* by deevaa, it was nicely erotic, and not too naughty in my opinion.

Can somebody tell me if I really suck at writing or something??? I want to be able to convey my feelings effectively and try not to be too surreal...so, if it's not working please tell me. Thanks!
KatyBeth
SnooprBoot@aol.com
P.S. If anyone understands, then I would love to know

deeva...quit *blushing*...it was just just naughty enough to be erotic...not trashy...I was complimenting you! :-0
;-)

Angel

Angel,

Really loved "A Rainy Day" It kind of hit home.

-Jenna-

To all others,

Sorry to all the others that i haven't gotten a chance to reply to i haven't been online due to Thanksgiving and yesterday, on Thanksgiving (what a day to pick), a dear friend of mine commited suicide. Two months ago he was paralized in a motorcycling accident and he shot himself in the head after his girlfriend broke up with him. I was wondering if you all wouldn't mind, could you please say a prayer for his family and friends that will miss him very much.
Thank you.

R.I.P. Eddie- I love you.

-Jenna-

My prayers are with Eddie's family...such a tragedy! May they find peace in the knowledge of a Heaven! And in the knowledge of the love and concern of caring friends such as yourself, Jenna.

Angel

Jenna, thanks for the compliment on "A Rainy Day", it was one of my meloncholy days......

KatyBeth, NO I don't think your poetry 'Sucks', or anyones' for that matter...we each have our own style...some of us have many...I tend to like the surreal ones...an art to dance around the real world...you do it well! There is an eager audience for every type of poem...this world is really that BIG now! Keeep writing!

Angel

I'm leaving...will be back Sunday for my Blender fix...looking forward to a mess of mushy stuff when I return...

Angel

Doctor Jeff- The Love That Never Was - Loved it and unfortunately it seems there are often too many of these.

Hey! Hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving! Now, maybe I can come up for a breath of fresh air. Isolde, that's for the compliment along with Angels. You all mean so much to me!

heart Song

for more on love, check out Martha Cinader's Mission of Love!

http://www.missionoflove.com

And stop by cinasphere to read selected poems from the production.

http://www.cinader.com/planetauthority/PoemOfTheDay/index.html

*not a promo, just a fan*

Hiya Folks!
I never thought there would be such a wide range of poems etc. about love. I thought they would all be the same sad and sappy tales of boy meets girl, boy loses girl, boy gets girl back again. Consider myself told!

What does everyone think of my poem - "Hate who you Love"?
Please I'm desperate to know, as a newbie!

I accept flames, constuctive critisism and even death threats as long as it's feed back!! Okay so I'm 14, but don't worry all flames will be met with a shrug and a suicide note!

ThanX :) Jane

i have been in a relationship with some one for some time..
i had met in on the computer. i have had several relationships on the computer and i care for this person.
i have encountered some situation that i cant let go of my other on line friend.. i want to start with this one.. and i feel i can but some times i think how it would be with the other ,, i do love him and he had started to send nude pic's of himself to other women... so i donrt feel i am in love any more with him if you can help please e-mail?
beac@starto.net

heart Song

IN MY CONTENTMENT is a very warm and sensual poem. I enjoyed reading it. Wonder where your mind was! ;-)

Marla,

Your untitled made my heart cry. I was afraid to think this would happen. take a deep breath and keep going.
Love and fingers crossed,

heart.

DeEvA,
Thanksgiving is the USA's token holiday (guys correct me if i'm wrong). Basicly it's about the uniting of a friendship between early American settlers and Native American (Indians)) Ok, so the basis of the holiday is eating lots of turkey and stuffing. Dez and I are vegitarians so we don't eat turkey so I made Dez a turkey costume (at least we'd have one turkey)!

jEnNa,
I am so sorry to hear about your friend. that's awful. i will keep him in my prayers! Keep yourself busy,it's often the best medicine for loss!

---------------------------ZoE

HeY GuYs,
I hope everyone had a good thanksgiving. Mine was busy. Dez was a great helper though. She helped mommy clean up all the crumbs off the floor. Now we're recovering over Saturday morning cartoons!
-------------------------ZoE

(pulls out old gum wrappers .. notes on blender pieces scribbled on the back)

Top of the week end to you all! I've not been real good about keeping up this month (must be this newlywed thingie I have going). But there were some that did stick out...

*Jo* ~ bright lights, blinding lights

Doctor Jeff ~ The Love That Never Was

Isolde ~ Beyond

Carmen ~ Madness of an Adultress

Angel ~ A Rainy Day

Marla ~ Untitles, of Course

Heart Song ~ In My Contentment

Deevaa ~ ahhhhh yes Deevaa ... Wrapped ..(nice blush!)

X ~ Sorry can't remeber the title (or read my nots) BUT BUT BUT ... like the "spice" that you add here

AND ... to all you new "Blenderites" .. as always, thank you for sharing!

Cricket

(pulls out handy dandy cyber camera)

Heyyyyyyy Zoe "say cheese"! Click ... love that turkey costume!

(heads off to Blender darkroom ...)

look, two days in a row, I'm getting better, see!

Zoe, I wish I could have seen Dezire in her turkey costume! I bet she was adoreable!

Hello Kevin, I still remember that you are in the world, oh wise Wordmaster. I have missed you!

Shady, are you around? I miss you too!

I miss Marla you guys!!!!!!

Crickett, I have missed you too, so how are the newlyweds? I can see you blushing! oh, and thanks for the comments on "In My Contentment" I'm blushing now! and it feels great.

heart

(whispering from somewhere near the back row...)

Deevaa-
Sorry I couldn't be more of a help... But I do like what you were already trying to do with that poem...

I did like your poem "wrapped"... It was tasteful, and did belong here, which I will get to in a bit)

heart Song-
<BLUSH>
Gosh, I am pleased to hear from you... AND more than pleased to see your new work... You know I wish for nothing less than your every happiness... But "In My Contentment"... <BLUSH> Ecstasy makes happiness all the sweeter every day of the week and twice on Sundays...

And lest I forget...

X

Your work is truly inspiring in a that most intimate way... Just as I was telling Deevaa about her little poem, your work does belong on the Blender as well... The more erotic elements of romance that have found expression through your work have really added some much needed spice around here... Love has many facets, and the one you have presented is an important one. Thank you.

-Kevin

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It is good to be back! I did catch "In My Contentment", by heartsong before the board was pulled down~ It was so
sweetly and sensually done, I applaud you, heartsong!

Looks like another month is upon us...and the chilly months ahead should be fodder for our souls...I SIMPLY CAN"T WAIT
To see what all of you have in store...Happy Holidays and Happy Writing!!!

PS: Brandi and I saw Santa and put in a good word for you guys...so be GOOD! LOL

Angel

*back again from her self imposed hiding*

Thanks everyone for your support about "wrapped" ... maybe I will write more like that.. (that is if I can get over the *blushing when I type them in here...)

I will check out the new submissions....

*looks about wildly* what is it a new month already?
They are all gone!

I'm here you all. I sat down Friday and tried to start reading all of the new submissions. My god there have been a lot this month.

heart Song,

everything is fine, it was one of those moments and I was feeling like things were very much out of my hands. We talked though, and all is well. I'm checking my e-mail finally so look for one from me :-)

Marla

Kirk - you know what the oddest thing is about sharing the intimate poems here... I still haven't had the courage to show them to my husband yet.... *blushiing more*

Kate-i loved "living room floor" and i hope youll be submitting more!
CriCkEtT AND hEaRtSoNg
Dez looks adorable in her turkey costume and it was a hit with the guests seeing a turky rolling around othe floor with her barbies!
-------------------------ZoE

Kudos to Kevin for his "Fulfilled!" Very nice

KatyBeth

(trying to hide near the back again)

Pssssssst...

Julianne!

I was moved by your poem "addiction three". I understand the feeling quite well. My own belief is that if you "fall out" of love with someone, you never really loved them to begin with. So, all the loves you ever have, if they are true, remain forever. It is circumstances that change (and the hearts of others)... But to deny that love remains after a relationship has changed is to deny the fullness of living that loving someone brings...

As far as the poem itself, I loved the imagery of "that unidentified question mark / that hangs on your tongue / that rings the instant message box..." Good work...

-Kevin

Well, I survived Thanksgiving. It actually went pretty well.
I got to meet my sister's new boyfriend and we really
bonded. They dated in junior high and then we moved to the
Hill Country. They lost touch over the years and then the other day my sister got an e-mail from him. So now they're
talking marriage! We had Thanksgiving at my grandparents'
house in Bridgeport and Jeff played his acoustic guitar and
I sang everything from "Sweet Home Alabama" to "As Tears Go
By". It's weird because right before Jeff e-mailed Autumn about a month ago she was saying she was going to marry her
high school sweetheart, who I thoroughly detest. I told her I would approve if she married Jeff Jackson and she just laughed and said she hadn't seen him in years and would probably never see him again. Weird, huh? Must be my Aquarian foresight!
What's even MORE bizarre is that my mom has fallen in love for the first time in her life! She'll probably get married sometime next summer. She's been married twice and has always had boyfriends but she said this is the first time she has truly fallen in love. So maybe there's hope for me, after all.
I have broken things off with Jay and am rereading Dr. Laura's book. No one in this world will ever hand me my self-esteem. I have to help myself to self-respect and dignity. Instead of doing the instant gratification thing, I need to start holding out for a much greater reward.
Got a newsletter from my daughter's adoptive parents. She is too pretty and self-assured to be two years old! She'll turn two on December 8th. She has tons of beautiful blonde hair (which is kinda strange 'cause my hair is raven)and big blue eyes. I can't wait to see her newest home video.
I'm going to Hasting's tonight to analyze Donovan's and Angel's natal charts. I'll let ya'll know what i find out.
Thanks to everyone who commented on my newest submissions! I was looking at an old notebook last night full of things I had written in high school and I was amazed by how truly awful most of it was. I think my writing has improved somewhat over the years. I've certainly had a lot of practice! I might submit some of my really old poems tomorrow or Wednesday just to show ya'll how my writing has evolved these past eight years.
Zoe and Shadygirl, I was wondering if you would e-mail me your mailing addresses so that I could send you both a Christmas card. I was thinking up my Christmas card list last night and I thought of ya'll. Anyone else who wants a Christmas card and a picture of me, you can e-mail me your address at MR50926@swt.edu. I love sending cards and pictures to people.
Here is my belated "Things I'm Thankful For" List:

1. My family.
2. My education.
3. My daughter and her parents.
4. My poetry.
5. The Blender Board and the friends I have made here.
6. That God is a God of Second Chances.
7. My dreams and goals.
8. My mistakes. They have made me who I am.
9. Wal-Mart. Where else can you buy a pair of army camo panties for two bucks???
10. Linda Goodman. GOOBERZ and LOVE SIGNS.

God Bless You All!!!!!

Love,
Misti

Uh-oh. I just went to New Submissions to print out some of
my poems and they weren't there anymore! What's the deal???

The reason I'm kinda freaking out is because a lot of the
poems I submitted were from my head and I don't have them
written down. I just bought a new journal for my favorite
poems and so that's why I wanted to print my newest submissions out. Kirk, I'm frantic!

I just realized that the new digest will be out soon and
all the submissions will be on the Heart On Sleeve Corner.
Whew! Nevermind.

Lizzie,
I just read Our Place and I was impressed. It reminds me
of my first date with my first love, Michael Chase Childers,
a Capricorn-Taurus who branded my heart and soul. We ate dinner at El Chico's in Denton and then we saw "Welcome Home Roxy Carmichael". I didn't want the date to end but he was worried about my curfew. I persuaded him to take me to the
park, anyway. It was October and I was wearing a short-sleeved dress so he let me wear his leather jacket. I can still smell that jacket. I slept with it that night because it smelled of his Obsession cologne. Anyway, at the park we sat on the swings and for me it was symbolic because we were six when we first met. My mom says we used to swing together on the playground. I don't remember that but I wish I did. Now he's in Turkey (he's in the army) and we have lost touch. But I will always think of him and regard him as my first love.
This is kinda off the subject but I love that song "We Were in Love" by Toby Keith. My sister has the tape and I listened to it over and over again. I also like "The Sweetest Thing I've Ever Known" by Juice Newton. I'm glad my sister and mom have found true love. I have so much love in me that I have to believe I will someday find it, too.

ARGHHHH! PLease can someone tell me what you thought of "Hate who You Love" ? Please I'm getting really desperate here. Okay so I'm a newbie but I need to know what you think so I know whether it was a load of shit or not.

You may think that because I'm only 14 I don't know anything about love or hurt but believe me I do!

You'll never know if you like it or diss it if you don't read it!!!
Don't mean to beg for feedback but I am begging. Hum strange.
Don't worry I'm not some teenybopping " Cat on the Mat" poet (though I must admit the poem was written in 10 minutes) and I'd really apreciate some feedback on this. Surely you must all empathize with what it's like when no one will listen to you because of your age. Please don't say you lot are the same.
Jane

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