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I have been reading this page occasionally for about two months now... and perhaps the people might be able to relate with me and help me come to some type of closure with my "problem". I recently told a close friend of mine how i feel about her, and instead of opening up to me and letting me know how she feels, she has blocked me off. What should I do?? I can't take not knowing, and I can't wait much longer, its driving me crazy. I met with her today to try and see if she would finally open up, but she only told me that she was too confused and couldn't talk about it. I'm at an impass at what I should do next. Any ideas????

I am kinda upset I sent 2 poems and saw neither of them i thought they were pretty good can I ask why they were excluded Thank you please write back!

JamieCarey18f@yahoo.com

Bryan,

You "can't wait much longer" or what??? How close a friend is she? First of all, you need to answer a difficult question and be true to yourself and her. How would YOU honestly handle your friendship with this girl, moving forward, if she did not feel the same and the relationship could never develop further than just a friendship? If that were the case, would/could you still be a good friend to her....without an agenda? What about if you two gave a go at it and it didn't work out. Could you still be friends then? Sometimes a close friendship is just too valuable to risk in that manner. It could be that she is "confused" because she doesn't know how to handle this situation without the risk of damaging the friendship (whether she likes you in the same way or not). Basically, the bottom line is this: You need to reassure her that you are truly happy with the friendship the way it is and if it never grows to anything more than that, then you won't be disgruntled by it. Anything more is bonus. If you fall in love, fantastic. If not.....that's okay too. You'd still be happy being friends. Of course, you need to be sincere about this. I'd reccomend that you sit down and write her a letter, if she is uncomfortable talking to you about it (as many people are when thrown into such a situation involuntarily). And most of all.....don't turn this into an ultimatum. So you've announced your feelings. That's fine. Just don't force her to decide and act on it. Be willing to accept the friendship as is. You need to re-establish a comfort level with her again.

Just my 2 cents......since you asked for it.

A few points-

1: You ask people not to panic, but your overview reeks of your own panic. Calm down...

2: Do you really think people aren't aware of this issue? The less the average joe knows about it the better, since he'll probably react the way you are. But I'd be impressed if you can find a major organization in the US which isn't totally focused on Y2K at this point. Some of those companies will fail to fix the problems and they'll go under, but other companies will step right in a take over. You'll know way ahead of time, which companies aren't gonna make it (IDD :-) )

3: I think you overestimate the role computers play in your life. Most of the essentials are still pretty devoid of technology. The scanner at the supermarket might not be working, but I bet the food will still be there and they'll find a way to sell it to you.

4: The financial industry is probably the most vulnerable, but they are absolutely sensitized to the issue. I expect to receive my bank statement on time, no problem.

The whole thing is gonna cost us a lot of money, but life will go on. Stockpiling food and water is probably going a little too far. I can still drive to the damn reservoir. If I'm wrong, I'll start looting in Cambridgeport :-)

-paul

(For the record, I live in Cambridgeport. Thanks Paul ;-)

i just wanted to say,i haven't heard much from my friend,HeArTsOnG in a while and i missed her understanding!Also,i wanna congratulate her on making the next issue of love blender with "puh pum",that was a deep few words that meant so much!

Kirk,
is "heart on a sleeve", a section for all the poems that didn't make the most recent love blender issue?

So my point is that while I think the 10 or 15 or so poems I pick out to put on the front page of the Blender Digest are particularly good, that selection reflects my own biases, but the Heart on Sleeve corner will always be a completely open forum.

Friend ZoE,

Don't Worry! I'm still here! I didn't think you'd be around today until this afteroon. How was your week-end? Mine was rememerable. I feel so priveledge to have been chosen for the front page. I had hoped, but didn't expect it! Funny thing was that I had gotten comments from all my submission except "Puh pum" ! I'm glad you liked it ZoE, so many times I feel lost in this world, it seems time and again that I am just starting over again. But, therewithin lies the emotions to which creativity is born huh! So, I loved "The Wedding" I remember it. LoVeYA!

ZoE,

"I crawl under the table
frosting in my hair
holding my aching heart"

I liked that!

HeArTsOnG,
thanks!i thought it was only me who had these 18th century pastlife things! i loved,"a little kiss"...definately a mother knows best,keep your legs closed type poem! i approve! LoVe Ya 2!

Kirk,

I just wanted to say thank you for recognizing my work in the September issue. As always, it really does my heart some good to know my work can sometimes be understood and/or related to :) Thank you again.

Marla

Kirk,

Ditto what marla said. I am gratified, but more importantly, I am comforted just knowing this place exists.

Thank you for all the hard work you put into this.

-K

Bryan,

I think TK is right. Be true to yourself. Be true to her. She probably needs time to orient herself. Depending on how close you two were. She probably wasn't expecting you to tell her how you feel. You probably just startled her. But I can't say anything for sure. Follow your heart and go where it leads.
§ Live and Love §
Snow

Kirk...

Thanks so much for including my poem in the September issue and for the comment you placed beside it. It meant alot to me...

Robin

Just some comments about some things in September's issue that especially touched me.

Snow leopard
Searching, Seeking could very well describe me and my ongoing search for my soulmate. They always say that true love comes when you least expect it or when you aren't looking for it. But what they don't tell you is how to stop searching for someone to share your innermost feelings with, someone to trust, someone that you want to take care of for the rest of your lives together...
So...if I'm always searching, and true love comes to you when you aren't searching, does that mean it won't come to me until I'm too tired to search anymore, when I feel I have nothing left inside to give someone, hehe...guess you can tell I'm a little stressed today, eh? *lol*
Just wanted to say I liked your poem, and I guess I should leave it at that. *smiles*

Marla McGinley,

I loved your poem "From One Night." It touched me and I'd love to have my own "One Night" other then what the term "One Night" usually brings to mind (One Night Stand). I'm glad youve found your love. and wish you both a lifetime of happiness.

With warmest regards,
Patty

Lastly, I'd like to comment on Stacia's submission, "Red Light in San Francisco"

I loved it. And can see it happening in my mind. I, too, had a Red Light encounter that I will never forget. I am from a really small town, Wheeling, WV, and was having a bad day, caught up in my own thoughts and problems, and really...feeling like a love-deprived ogre hehe, I came to a stop light where a man was selling bouquets of flowers and single roses, I looked over, and thought to myself "How nice it would be to get a flower from someone that cared, they are so pretty and really say so much and can brighten a person's whole day..." Well...it must have shown on my face, or perhaps we linked psychicly *lol*, for whatever reason, this man that sold these flowers beside the road, GAVE me a rose and a smile. When I said "I'm sorry, I don't have any money..." He just smiled and shook his head and walked back to his bouquets.
My jaw must have dropped to my chest...I was touched by his kindness, and that one rose will live on in my memory for a very long time. I felt so much better after that, I didn't feel as alone as I have in the past. One stranger shared a moment with me and for that I will truly always be greatful.
I kept that rose long after it had wilted and dried, Almost as a momento, until it finally fell apart, now it lives only in my heart. Thank you kind stranger, you will never know how you brightened my life for a brief moment. *s*

Hey Meow,
Tnx for the good review on my poem. I wrote that when I was in a pretty lousy mood. I had just found out that the girl I loved, and thought loved me, didn't share my love. So I felt 'inspired' to write that. Because I thought that she was the one. But I was wrong. So I'm still in the middle of finding out what was wrong with us and what happened (Gotta Love long distance relationships). But I've probably said to much already. If you don't mind check out the little story/peom I wrote this month. I wasn't at my best when I wrote it so don't be to harsh.
As for searching for the one person who shares our hearts, I can offer no answers, only best wishes. Good luck in your search for your soulmate. And wish me luck with my search, which seems to be never ending.
Sorry for the somber tone of this. It hasn't been a real good day.
Snow

§ Live and Love §

Dearest Snow (a.k.a Flounder..sorry to use your nickname),

Anyway, life will get better.. When it rains it pours right?
Remember..God gave two people one heart to share.. I know that someday you'll find the one who holds the other half of your heart.
Hey, long distance relationships can work too Snow! Look at your bestfriend Ariel..She hooked up with Eric and she lived in the sea! hee hee. :) You just have to work harder in the relationship but in the end both of you will come out strong.
Hmm..Strong. Right now that's what you have to be. I mean, how will us meek folks survive without your wisdom? :)

Lates!

Drusilla

P.S.

Our World is amazing by the way.

Dear Patty,

Dear Patty,

Alright we will try this one more time, I have a bad habit of hitting tab, obviously from working on computers too much :-) Anyway, thank you, I am glad you enjoyed "From one Night" it is a poem that describes to me the meeting of my destiny. I had no clue when I wrote that poem that Sean and I would ever even see one another again, except in my heart where I was sure I knew. Yet somehow through all of the obstacles of distance and our different lives we have managed to build a wonderful life together. Neither one of us was looking for love, in fact neither one of was looking at all. We had both been burned pretty bad, and were enjoying the company of our friends without the pressures of dating and/or relationships. Funny we never should have met, but everything kept going wrong for me and my plans and now I know why. We met in a chance encounter in a busy city where neither one of us lived. Enough rambling, the point is if you search you may be looking so hard you look past the one who you were meant for. I have become a firm believer that there is one person out there who can really grab your soul, Sean is that person for me as I am for him. But as I was saying we weren't searching, things never go as planned in life, I am sure no one needs to have me remind them of that. Yet everything that happens is for a reason. Don't give up, your "destiny" is out there and when the timing is right you'll find it. I wish you the best of luck in your quest for your soulmate, never give up hope, because somewhere out there he is searching for you too.

P.S. I know I am contradicting myself on the searching thing, please excuse me it's late and anyhow even when we are not blatantly searching (as I wasn't) you heart always is.
Marla

i'm missing my friend HeArTsOnG! you have to create me some more great poetry!ok hun,well when your on leave me a post!
LuV... ZoE

Hey,

I read a great piece I swear was called "passion" or something of the like and was trying to find it, but forgot which page I saw it on. It was some views on passion and in it it said "A likes B who likes C who likes someone else..." Any clue?

Dave

ZoE,

"One night in August scared me. Did I take it wrong? Very emotional. What's your meaning. I know alot of my works are based on true life and feelings but thank God some of them are not. I look forward to hearing from you each day, you make my day! I submitted a peice today
" So Far in My Life" it was just there, what do you think. I've got a lot of things on my mind right now, I'm in the middle of this weird triangle thing and it's hard to seperate my feelings and thoughts. I'm not sure what to do. If you knew the whole story you would absolutly freaK. I'll tell you someday! What's going on with you. What's your inspiration lately? LoTSa Lov

heart Song

HeArTsOnG,
"one night in august" was about a boyfriend i had who had serious drug problems and i was always trying to help him. it's about one night and the feelings and fears i had at that time. my latest inspirations are things that i fear will happen! sound strange? i'm sorry that my poem scared you! i wish i could explain it to you,tell me a particular line that scared you and i'll tell you what it was about! "right now in my life" is not classic of your style but it's good to flip things a little! i love hearing from you too everyday!
LoTsA LuV... ZoE

hi my name is ryan and i'm looking for some poems that my girl friend submitted awhile back(3-4 years ago). i saw the m on your web site a few months ago but they are gone now. her name is Amy Overman and it would be greatly appreciated if you could let me know if there is any way you can find them or if you still have them somewhere in your data base.
your help would be greatly appreciated.

I'm baaaack. Hope everyone enjoyed their summer and was
inspired. I didn't and wasn't. I'm experiencing a bit of a
dry spell. But that's okay. I'm a trouper. I'm a writer.

ZoE,

With your explanation comes understanding, thank you. I a small misconception about "One Night", a binge is a lot different in an intentional overdose. Sorry! I tend toward these thoughts unconciously because I lost someone close to me by suicide. It's something you never get over and that with you everyday, even if you don't realize it. Never underestimate the power of love. I submitted a heart Song for you. I'll try not to stray to far from the path friend! Have a great day.

hi Misty,

Welcome back, I am a new submitter, but from what I've heard through these pages your an icon. I know alot of people are glad you are back, right Kirk.

Kirk,

You made me feel at home. I am glad you liked "Puh pum" and put in on the front page this month. To me it is an honor. Thank you very much. P.S. What is Tiddley pum?

Respectfully,
heart Song

Sorry about the letter dropping, I'm really not a bad speller, my fingernails are getting to long!

Thank-you to anyone who has been trying to work out who

wrote a poem about compasses!! Well thank-you to Kirk who
contacted me with a solution to my query;- John Donne's "A
Valediction: Forbidding Mourning" from Sarah

Title: You make me dizzy

Dizzy with the heat of your body,
The air trapped near you softly
Carries warm and spicy, secret smells.
Swirling half-awake sensuous dreams.

HeArTsOnG,
that's exactly how it is! i wrote that poem when the incident happened and kept replaying in my head and i had to get it out! that was how that poem came! i loved your new heartsong and mine is comin' soon!
----------------------LuV ZoE

Kirk, What a surprise to see my work "Is It Over?" in the September issue! Thank you so much. I feel honored. "Just L"

heart Song

Just wanted to tell you I really loved "The Flame of Love". Keep up the good work so the rest of us can enjoy reading it. :)

Marla

To everyone and no one imparticualer.

Why is love so important to everyone?

Snow

Snow,

Love is so important coz it completes the soul, fills the heart but empties the brain. Without love then our lives would be meaningless, insignificant and well..boring.
Love can hurt, I must admit. But when you hurt, you learn. You learn to not make the same mistake over and over again.
You learn how to be sensitive towards other people's feelings.

Love brings tears to our eyes yet it also brings smiles upon our lips.

Love holds different meanings to different people. Love is important coz then you learn about life.

Remember this? "Love can be the cure for any illness except one. And the one illness that love can't cure is a broken heart."-Flounder

Love is life. That's all you need to know.

Drusilla

Oh boy. Something went snafu when I was submitting the uncle Bonsai piece---can it be corrected? Last line should read "good morning, lover." Currently reads "good mo", whatever that means.

FYI---am giving my first poetry reading in 15 years on the 14th. Scary stuff. Am including last few blender pieces. Thanks for a place to make it all happen again.
Went through withdrawl for a few days when you were down!

I think that it's really interesting that no one (except my buddy Paul) has commented on my Y2K "Ramble"-- guess that's what I get for posting such an "off-topic" thing. Glad I haven't scared anyone too too badly, then.

Marla,

I'm glad you enjoyed "The Flame of Love". I would ask you how thing are going but I know I don't have to because soon enough I'll read about it in one of your beautiful poems. Take care and thank you so much for your encouragement.

Snow,

I guess you want to get a forum started on your question.
I think we all know the answer to why love is so important to us, and even though we are writers we may not be able to put into words our thoughts and opinions in words and rhymes. My answer is going to be the purest, simplest, and maybe childish answer you get.
"Just Because!"

ZoE,

Where have you been today? I really have enjoyed your latest work. I've gotta go, got a busy weekend. Hope you have a good one!
-LoTsA LoV-

Welcome home Misty!!

I've missed your writing! It's powerful!
"Consequences" whew! girl!! Blew me away!! Literally!
I am speechless...my heart goes out to you!
Truly sorry! You had to experience this pain!

Sister to sister! If you ever need to vent!!
Drop me a line! I know we're strangers! But sometimes
it just dosent matter!! K...:) Best of the
best for ya Mist!!!!!

HeArTsOnG,
thanks! which poems (recently)did you like? i still hold "passionate" as my favorite of your work so far! it was breath taking!all i ask is you provide me with more of your great work!
--------------------LoVe ZoE

hey everyone.
You really ought to check out Kirk's monthly ramble. He treats the issue with a fairly level head. There is cause for concern, but also not cause for excessive alarm. The powers that be in this world tend not to let things happen that would in any way reduce their hold on power (certainly a sobering thought), so the really important stuff will not be disrupted...
But all of you as 'netizens' really need to do the following, as Kirk's ramble has caused me to do:
obviously your computer is an important and integral part of your life and identity. But where exactly does its role (and its existence as an inanimate object) fit into your priorities? Ask yourself what is really important in this life. And those of you have have someone to love who loves you back, this question applies to you multiplied by a factor of (at least) a million... What (who) could you live without? Just my 2 cents on this...

('If you ain't lovin', you ain't livin'')

Dear Kirk,

I'm wondering what you look for in a poem that seperates the poems you choose for your monthly journal from the rest of them.

Thank you,
Mark U.

There's no set formula. I'm usually less moved by poems with forced rhymes or that make situations seem too simple. I like works that capture the complexity of emotion, whether happy or sad. I like prose and tiny little poems that get their point across in the smallest number of words. I most appreciate works that either have something new to say or a new way of describing a well-known feeling.

Hey!! Ok I read a poem a long time ago called (i think) "I dies for love" and I really want to read it again but cant find it!!! If some one knows where it is PLEASE let me know!!! Thanx

since this is a romance website, i was wondering if i could get some advice on a romance/friendship problem i have. my boyfriend and i broke up two and a half weeks ago, he did the breaking up. he told me that he hoped we'd go out again, and that he still liked me, but he wanted to be single. now, i've found out that my good friend and him are fooling around. she was constantly calling him and inviting him places while we were going out, but he said there was nothing between them except friendship. i believed him. i know that nothing happened between them while we were going out.

so now, i don't know what to do about her, and the fact that she was supposed to be a close friend of mine, and him, who was probably lying about his feelings towards her. i am so hurt by this, and every time i think about them together i get really pissed off at the fact that she could do this to me.

i need suggestions on what to say, if anything, to her. has anyone had this happen to them? help!

Sept 7.

It all boils down to if you trust your ex or not. Do you belive him that nothing happened. And if you do belive him ask him specifics about what him and the friend did together.
But people are rarely that honest. I don't really know what advice to give you. You need to find the truth. Find out what has been happening, if anything. Then sit down and have a nice talk with them both. Tell them they can have each other. Then have nothing to do with them. I don't know. It's probablly bad advice. Good luck whatever road you take.
Snow

snow,
that's pretty much what i'm doing now, not paying attention to them. i called her yesterday to basically say i'm not going to ignore her at school, but i'm not at all impressed with what she did to me. she is all smiley and fake when i'm around, trying to be overly nice. i don't say much to her, and i haven't talked to him since i heard that they'd been going out. what hurts most is that she doesn't think stealing her friends boyfriend is wrong...

Marla,

When is your husband coming home? I hope soon for your sake, your words are so forlorn. In the mean time I'm here, we all are. I know that's not much consolation, but if I can help. Smile now!

ZoE,

I really think Dandyloions is good!!!

Sept. 8
I hope everything works out for the better. It usually does in life. You just have to be patient and keep a light heart. Live and Love.

Janelle,
Where are you girl? I hope you're feeling better. Write me if you get a chance, please.

Snow
§ Live and Love §

heart Song

Do I sound that bad? Sorry, okay, I'm smiling, better now :-) I think. Anyhow, we only have ten days, but hopefully I can absorb myself in packing and getting ready to move so I can snap out of this horrid state :-)

Marla

Marla,

That's better. I guess things will get pretty frantic for you. I hope that you'll still have time and energy to submit and converse. I'm glad he's coming home soon, so your moving, (like I know where you are now) I hope you will be on line no matter where you are, I would miss you if not.

heart Song.

My last submission doen't fit your scenario, "Morgan" is not short, it rhymes, but is not forced (too much). Hope you like it anyway. Your last submission rhymed and it was so real I felt like I was there man!! (I'm making a funny). See ya.

Kirk, my last comment was to you, about the scenario and all. Guess I was thinking you'd just know that huh!

HeArTsOnG,
thanks! i really want to hear about you! how old are you and what you like to do...whatever!*keep up the poetry* i have a new poem on the site now!
---------------------*hugs*ZoE

ZoE,

Check your e-mail.

heart Song,

Yes I promise not to stay gone too long, however I may be off for a month or so, I am actually having to move twice, once temporarily locally (using my parents as storage :-) )
and then out of state with my husband. But I will catch back up quickly once we find a place to live, get moved, settled in, etc... In the meantime everyone keep up the awesoeme poetry and I will catch back up as soon as I find a local server in NC. I'll miss this page, but I have one more week to "gorge" before withdrawal hits!!! :-)
Take care!

Marla

Dearest Snow,

I'm right here.. Just needed a couple of days to clear my head. It's still kinda confusing. One minute he's o.k. and the next he acts.. distant.

Just email me, Floundie.

dru

I'm really disenchanted with the blender board. I'm kind of
burned out on people using it to ask for advice and give
advice, when the whole purpose should be for Blenderites
to comment on the work that has been submitted. I didn't
know this was a bleeding heart forum.

Shane,
I agree. By the way, I love "his Lies" by ZoE.

I like "the wedding", also by ZoE.

Oh boy---I'm really going to catch it now. I'm a semi-luddite when it comes to computers, meaning I use them, and respect them---but don't really trust them, n'est pas? I agree that panic is useless. But a degree of preparedness is intelligent. I suggest that working souls write to Social Security now, and request a report on their earnings. They will supply you with a detailed account of every penny you've paid in. (yes, it's depressing, but useful.) I think if nothing else, this is a wonderful argument AGAINST the "paperless" office. Might be a good idea to make sure you have a valid license (other than the poetic, of course.) or any other document that might prove useful.
The concept of a world wide computer crash is unnerving. But so is the speed with which we have embraced this technology. They switched he rail system in my area to computer control, and the result was a recent train crash. I'm not saying "let's slink back to cave dwelling", but when a system crashes, the effects are profound. Even with back ups, it's a nightmare. We can't lose sight of the fact that people are required. The computers are there to serve us, not the other way around. And when the servant becomes the master, something is seriously going South.

tAwNiA,
thanks! i'd love to hear some of your poetry too! what did you like most about my poems?
very thankfully yours,
ZoE

Erin,
i really liked your poem (untitled)!

ZoE,

Your getting pretty popular! I really like "Unique People" especially the ending. Keep up the good work. Your endings are always full of meaning. You are so abstract, don't reach, your feeling are right there in front of you. You said you liked "Morgan, me and the Sea" ZoE, it's not my traditional style or could it be I have many different sides? What did you think about "In the Mourning"? I hope to hear from you soon.

I was thinking about asking an opinion on the board but.....

Alright since it seems everyone around here is allowed their opinion, here is mine. Maybe the original idea of the comments page was for "blenderites" to comment on each other's work, but if you look at the top of the submission page for comments Kirk's words state exactly "The Blender of Love welcomes comments, writer's talk, and romance-related conversation as well as creative work. " Which I would take to mean asking advice about love related issues is more than appropriate and acceptable. Maybe I am the only one who disagrees with Shane but I thought the purpose had more meaning than a bunch of I like your poem ... I mean everyone has feelings and at times everyone gets a little confused, some of us are not lucky enough to have all of the answers all of the time so we look to others who may have been through similar situations and might be able to help. I'm not trying to be an absolute "witch" but I am known to be strong in my opinions and that comment really hacked me off. I guess if you are not pleased with the comments page then don't read it, stick to the new submissions. I mean granted you as well as everyone else has a right to their opinion, but it is a romance related web site, romance and love are not always perfect. Not to mention that a lot of people, most in fact, write when they are down and depressed going through hard times. Wouldn't it be natural then that discussions about not so perfect romantic situations would come into play? Alright sorry everyone, but like I said, that comment has really hacked me off, and I haven't even asked for advice. I guess the point is, I completely and utterly disagree with you Shane. Anyhow, how boring if all we said was hey ... I really liked ... Granted that's about the nature of my personal comments, but none the less I enjoy reading everyone else's and if I felt I had valuable advice, I would readily give it. But enough of that, everyone is entitled to their own opinion and this is mine, so if I have offended anyone, please forgive me, no harm intented. (Just had to blow a little steam)

Marla

By the way everyone please ignore my spelling errors, boy when I get irritated I get on some sort of typing rampage so I can keep up with my thoughts :-)

Marla

I agree with Marla. What is the point of writing about love if you can't talk about it. Life is Love. And the only thing important in this world is Life. I don't know what Kirk intended for this message board to be, but I know what it's become. It's a thing where we can trade critisisms, trade ideas, and trade condolences and advice. Me, personally, I enjoy(bad choice of word) reading and replying to people's sob stories. I like to know I can come to the blenderites and share my meager knowledge, and hear other people's advice for my problems with love. Life is Love, and only life is important. It's like the substitution property. Love is important. This, like everything else I post on the love blender, isn't supposed to offend anybody and I'm sorry if I did. Life is Love,
and only Life is important.
Snow
§ Live and Love §

mEg,

I love your poem "Geography sucks" and I can relate to it very well. There is nothing easy about being far from the one you love, especially when you live for moments such as the one in your poem, those short lived weekend nights that are always to far and few between. I think my husband and I have spent more nights in strange hotels and surroundings than we have in our bed together. Just never give up hope, because if it's meant to be than it will. Best of luck to you!!!

Marla

P.S. ---> Here's to contributing to the national long distance fund :-) (well at least that sounds better than saying "phone bill")

I agree whole-heartedly with Marla (and not simply because I have responded from time to time with advice in the short time i've been a blenderite). None of us have all the answers. That is why we seek a communion of like minded, or in this case like-hearted, people. Not because we seek to burden others with problems, but because we know this community will lift us up. Isn't that what love is in it's largest human context? I respect the right of others to express such negative opinions, but this forum, the blender board, is most assuredly NOT about negating other people's emotions, hopes, and dreams regarding love. I'm not too apologetic that I find it uncivilized to whine about others' 'bleeding hearts.' Energy consumed in this way cannot be recovered. Energy used in loving, instead recreates and increases itself. That is a big part of what is so mysterious and wonderful about love. So lighten up, people!

I'm very happy that a community has formed here, and it usually tends to stay on-topic (romance and writing.) I exercise little editorial control, though I'll sometimes chop out commercial posts or misplaced poem submissions. (I was tempted to start chopping during the flamewars of previous months, where the attacks were getting personal and having less and less to do with the Blender)

I would greatly appreciate any feedback ya'll could give me in regards to my poem Alaina. It was written before I found her. It remained unnamed until I found her. Unfortunately, I've lost her. It hurts when they tell you they love you, but can't be with you. I hurts even worse when your girlfriend gets engaged while you're still together.

How can you help a person who's been pushed into a choice, knows it, yet doesn't have the conviction to get out? Alaina is strong, but her emotions can be manipulated and her resolve softened by pressure. I told her that I would step back, giving her the room she needs. Unfortunately, her manipulative ex won't do the same. I hope and pray that she'll have the strength to pull away again. Was I wrong to step back? If you want or need more info, let me know. Once again, I'd appreciate any feedback on my poem Alaina.

mEg,
i really liked "geography sucks"! i could tell it really spoke from your heart! i look forward to reading more of your great poetry!
--------------------MoSt SiNcErElY yOuRs...ZoE

HeArTsOnG,
i thank you for your compliments!your an excellent poet as well so your compliments mean a lot to me!i agree that "Morgan, me and the sea" is not really a type of poem that would describe your style of poetry but it's a very deep poem even though the words are so delicate!i really don't write poetry for it's popularity, it comes from the heart and remains there but i love for people to read it and maybe relate to it! nevertheless i love to hear what people think of my poetry!
*hugs*
----------------------------fRoM The CloUds to YoU FrOm ZoE

Everyone is up bright and early this Friday morning.

Marla,
Geography Sucks was good wasn't it?! I also agree that there should be freedom on the Blender Board.

If someone isn't happy with the way things are here, maybe this is not the sight for them. It's optional if you want to comment on someones work or not. I think that here at the blender we are not critics. I would like to think we are all friends.

mEg,

"Geography Sucks" was very good! and your right, it does.

ZoE,

I was wondering why everything was taking so long to go through, we're posting at the same time!! When I read all your comments this morning I thought you missed me! I'm glad you didn't. Thank you for your comments and encouragement. You are such a special person and I love your work. I can tell your poetry comes from the heart. I don't write for fame or to be popular, or to be noticed. I wrote "Morgan" January 27, 1989, and this is the first time it's been presented to the "public" I have only had one poem published. I also write songs and stories and publish a monthly news letter. Writing to me is just in my blood. It's who I am and I never know what I'll write next. Sometimes I write in my sleep. You ever do that?

Marla, Kevin and snow,

AMEN!

ZoE-
What I liked the most about "his Lies" is the attitude
it conveyed. To be real honest, a lot of the poems I have
read on this site have turned me off because they lack
true style and mental strength/substance. I've come across
a lot of cliches. Debbie Gibson would be proud but Courtney
Love would gag. Your poems (especially "his Lies")KICK ASS,
in short. You are a true poet. You are able to turn your
thoughts and feelings into solid poems that transcend the
norm. You know how to string words together in an artful way. I encourage you to seek publication!

Eve,
Thanks! I just read My Declaration and I was impressed.
But I'm curious...are you literally an atheist because you
lost your lover? I mean, is it a literal expression of your
lack of faith? If it is, I want to share something with you.
I know that when people go through trials and tribulations on this earth they tend to rage against God and then denounce Him. To quote a Langston Hughes poem,"Life for me
ain't been no crystal stair" (or something like that)-
as anyone who reads my poems must know, I have been through
quite a lot and can be very bitter and angry at times. But
in the midst of all my suffering and pain, I know that God exists and He loves me. That's what gets me through.
Last night I heard something interesting. Someone said
that God knows our every tear. He collects them and keeps them in a bottle! I think that is truly awesome. It gives me
comfort, anyway. Now, I am not some innocent Christian brat
who blindly embraces doctrine that has been shoved down my
throat. I went through an atheist phase. I've denounced God
and asked questions. For a time I was even into white magic.
But when I was nine years old I asked Jesus into my heart, and when you make a decision like that you always come full circle, you always come Home.
Sorry for the sermon, but I just wanted to encourage you.

I just wrote a poem and tried to submit it but it wasn't
submitted, for some reason. I didn't have it written
down, it was in my head. Oh, well.

Maybe you didn't submit it correctly. Try again.

I can't! I forget how it went! Now my day is ruined.
Demolished. Time to go to Dairy Queen and drown my sorrows
in a cherry vanilla Coke.

I can't! I forget how it went! Now my day is ruined.
Demolished. Time to go to Dairy Queen and drown my sorrows
in a cherry vanilla Coke.

this is just to say I appreciate all the new submissions,
they are all wonderful...but I especially like *watch* by
Tawnia. Did that really happen? How much money did you get
for the watch?

Oh my God, I think I'm a Debbie Gibson!!

HeArTsOnG,
i have one published poem too,maybe i could e-mail it to you and you could e-mail me your published poem! i write a monthly dork grrl 'zine called "jUnGlE KiTtY"! i'm pretty sure some of my deepest thoughts come in sleep! LoVe Ya
---------------------------ThUmBliNa CoMiN' OuT oF a FlOwEr...ZoE

tAwNiA,
thanx for your compliments! i read your poem "watch" and i loved it! i think we share some commen vibes 'cause i'm a riot grrl Courtney Love fan! i don't like to insult other people's poetry but some of the poems on this sight were cheezier than "kraft" products and i wanted to gag myself with a plastic spoon! debbie gibson,hallmark card typical shit! what ever happened to true raw emotion? sap isn't real emotion 'cause not everyone is always fucking happy in love...sometimes love is hard! well,i wanna hear more of your thoughts grrl! keep up the rockin' poetry!
----------------------------fRoM tHe sTArS....ZoE
ps. check out the archive or whatever it's called if you wanna see some of my older poems!

I'd appreciate any feedback on my poem "Alaina". I'm not afraid of godd or bad comments.

heart Song,

I loved "Simple" I hope you truly have found someone to replace the lock on your heart. Very deep... very moving... please keep touching us all with your work. I think the best part of this website (at least for me) is enjoying everyone's talent and their unique and individual ways of expresssion. Even though we all have our own tastes and ways of sharing our feelings, most of us mean the same, that's what makes each poem so special. (alright, I'm a little long-winded lately).

Marla

Marla,

I'm glad you liked "Simple" I might have found someone, but I really don't know for sure, I have tons of work but I don't want to be a submitting HOG. I've already counted, at last count there were 78 poems (I think) submitted this month and seven of them were mine. You have only submitted three and that is a shame because I really want to read more of yours! I am glad for the open forum. I hope that no one has been hurt or discouraged over the comments being made there. Criticizing ones work is the same as criticizing that person, cause that may very well be who they are. We are all individuals here, each have our own unique way of expressing ourselves. I think a poem is a soul being reborn. I look forward to seeing more of you Marla.

Most Sincerely,

heart Song.

P.S. I'm long winded too!

Have a great week-end everyone!!!!!

Thanks for saying you liked my poem "Geography Sucks"... and it really does suck on a Friday night when you are 370 miles (actually 378 miles to be accurate) from your best friend. *smile*

I have been reading the Love Blender since January - and finally worked up the courage to submit something. I have enjoyed everyone's work! ~megs

I don't mean to disturb the group grope that's been happening in here recently, but what does everybody think about love in a threesome? Is it possible? Or is it just a big flesh sandwich?

Is George Michael right? Is sex best when it's "one on one?" Can't love transcend society's conventions about a monogamous relationship? What about self love? Am I cheating on my partner(s) when I'm with myself? *sigh* I'm so confused...

I go forth to ponder, conquer and multiply.

Frank:

How could you even ask a question such as is there love in a threesome? Of course not, how the hell could there be. Love is one on one!!! It would be insulting to say otherwise, have you read anything in here to make you think otherwise??? Anyhow, I wouldn't normally grace such as questions with an answer, no offense of course, but none the less, in response, hell no!!!

mEg,

I am glad you decided to finally start posting, I really enjoy reading your work, "Business Card" was really good as well. Keep it up!!!

heart Song,

Don't feel like you are submitting to much ever, anyway, I submitted a ton of work the last couple of months, since I found this place, I went on a binge one night and pulled a lot of old poems out of Word and copied and pasted. Who cares, if you think it is worth sharing, share it, no one should care how many you submit or at least I don't ;-)
I haven't really submitted anything lately, I guess some of it was too personal to share with everyone so I've kept it to myself. Anyhow, here I go again, and I really should be packing, shame on me.

Marla

James-
I just read Alaina. I think it's a beautiful, lyrical
poem.

ratboy,
you are a disturbed young man. Where's your pride, dude?

Lay off of Ratboy, frank. At least he's being honest about
his weaknesses. Nobody's perfect. Not even The President!!!

RaTbOy,
i loved "miss demenor"! you are a raw un tainted poet! fuck everyone who criticizes your work! at least you speak truely and from the heart!
-------------------------ZoE

Marla,
I appreciate your response, but I was hoping for perhaps an interesting dialog, not closemindedness. Oh well. I should've known better to post here. There's some good work, very inspiring, but the comments section definitely lacks some...some... je ne sais quoi... Ahhh. But I digress. Anyhoo, take care, live long and prosper. I surely will.

As for "self-love", assuming you're talking the physical variety-- well, to paraphrase Woody Allen, "Don't knock masturbation-- it's sex with some I truly love and admire." It's a great stress release (clears the sinuses too) and I feel that it's very important to "Know Thyself" before getting involved with others-- if you don't understand your own responses, how can you expect someone else to? On the other hand, you don't want to take it to such an excess that you can't respond to someone else's ideas and touch in bed. But I wouldn't consider it cheating in any sense.

ZoE

man, your work is really the best i've read in awhlie. i like the
style you write with. i've printed copies of all your poems
cause they had such a effect on me. sorry 4 not writing sooner

yes, ditto what leah said, ZoE. i haven't responded directly to anyone else's writing, but YouR VOice iS fResH! keep writing and submitting. you speak to all of us and enrich our blender experience... thanks.

I would appreciate any comments on my poem, HIS. My boyfriend loves it, of course, but he's hardly objective.

Marla,

I tryed to e-mail you, guess I got the number wrong. Did you have a good week-end and get a lot of packing done?


Cassie,

"HIS" in my opinion was very good! I really enjoyed the simplicity of it. I could feel it. Let's see some more.

Just wondering, There seems to be an awful lot of heartache reflected in most of the poetry submitted. How many of you are in a happy relationship??

I actually just cancelled my compuserve account last night, I don't have an address at home since I will only be here for another month, but please e-mail me at work, I would love to hear from you. And yes, I got all of my packing done and am moved, thankfully. (My e-mail address is Marla_McGinley@panda-law.com)

Talk to you soon, I am on my lunch break, just wanted to catch up real quick.

Cassie
I second heart Song's opinion.

Marla

Leah,
thank you so much! i really have loved your work for awhile even before i decided to submit my first piece! i respect you completely! you are a great poet! could you tell me a favorite poem of mine that you have?
-----------------------vErY rEsPeCtFuLlY yOuRs FrOm ThE sTaRs....ZoE

heart Song,

please excuse that, I don't know where my mind is, anyhow, as is probably obvious that last comment was from me, for some reason I always put the person's name I am commenting to in the top blank, I just usually catch myself. Sorry!!!

Marla

KeViN,
you too are a great poet and i find your work to point out things in most people's love lives that most people don't even realize or consider! props to you for your work! could you tell me your favorite poem of mine and the reason? i would love to hear what you think!
---------------------FrOm ThE sTaRS...ZoE

To Whomever:

In response to your question, I am in an extremely happy marriage and actually if you look at some of the poems submitted today there are several other people here who are as well. But yes you are right, there are a lot who are not. Hopefully that will change for them, better to be optimistic and hopeful than not. :-)

Marla

L. Penny

It is never to soon, not when it's right! Good luck and keep up the writing, I really enjoyed that poem.

Marla

Snow,

Just wondering.. what do you think is the most romantic film of all time?

I just wanted to say thankyou to Misti and Crystal. I'd hug you both if I could.

jamie

Sept. 14.
Happy relationships are hard to come by. I'm not in one, but I havn't submitted anything in a long time so the question probably doesn't appy to me:)

Dru,
I thought it was pretty good. Some sceens are pretty good. But the very end is stupid. But that's just my thought.

Snow

ZoE,

i guess if i had to pick a favorite of yours (and i don't like to with anyone's poetry, because to prefer one above *all* others just doesn't seem right), it might be *HoTeL LiGhTs*, just because i understand what your voice (and hence the heart behind the voice) is yearning for, and the ache of the longing you have to be loved. You write of your inability to express in this poem, yet you are most wonderfully expressive. i find that touching, because there is something beautiful in this kind of innocence. You write not of desperation (even when you are saddened), but instead of the hope, the possibility of love. i must say that i enjoy your other work as well, particularly KiNdErGaRdEn VaLeNtInEs and lOnGiNg. You have a talent for expressing yourself - i can FEEL the yearning that burns within that you put into those words. You are raw in your craft, ZoE, but the earnestness with which you package your emotions really speaks to me. Your tools are all there, and your heart is out there ready to be laid bare. Keep writing, living, and loving, and I'll keep loving your poems... (And thanks for asking for my humble opinion!)

I am in an extremely happy relationship and it just keeps getting stronger and better. Just takes time to find the right one. Although I know my poem may sound like we are alot older because of the white hair line in it, we aren't. She just turned white early. So for those that aren't. Hang in there it will happen and when it does it will have been worth the wait.

Robin

Luciano..

"Love sponge" How innocently sweet!! Made me smile! :)
Two very lucky ladies!!!! :)

Misti...
read your comment...have much to say
But have class...I'll catch up to you k :)!
Thxs :)

heart Song,

Did you get my e-mail yesterday? I sent it return receipt because I wasn't sure about the address and I didn't get anything back yet. Just checking...

Marla

heart Song,

Did you get my e-mail yesterday? I sent it return receipt because I wasn't sure about the address and I didn't get anything back yet. Just checking...

Marla

KeViN,
thank you! i wrote my poetry only to put my heart on paper and i thank you for even bothering to read it! i think mostly in my poetry the focus is not always uplifting but it helps me get my feelings out! you are a geat poet yourself,props to you! since i love your work so your compliments mean a lot to me!*hugs*
-------------------FrOm ThE sTaRs....ZoE
ps. tell me about your poetry and how you wrote it....

In my humble opinion, some of the best stuff ever written
(poems, novels, movies, etc.) is not happy and simplistic.
In fact, most of the Best Stuff ever written (again, this is
only my humble opinion- "in fact" is just a figure of
speech) is NOT happy and simplistic. If Sylvia Plath had
been happy sappy in love we wouldn't have The Bell Jar.
I could make a very long list of worthwhile literary
contributions that hardly espouse the Don't Worry Be
Happy philosophy (I'll just name a few- Job, which is a book
in the Bible, Catcher in the Rye, "Terms of Endearment",
"Sophie's Choice" etc.), which often falls flat in a world
where rape, broken hearts, and a million other kinds of
tragedy are reality for many people. I'm not saying that
we should give into self-pity or whatever, I'm just saying
that we should applaud people who are able to turn their
human suffering into an art form.
Most of my poems are either bleak or angry and I will
continue to submit bleak or angry poems as long as that is
what I'm going through. As far as I'm concerned, honesty
is the foundation of poetry and every other art form. It can
also be about escape, which is when irony comes into play.

Luciano ~

"looks around .. raises her hand ... oh oh oh ... my turn, my turn ... I agree with Eve ... made me smile too!"

Oh, and one more thing before I go- I'm "Cassie". I wrote
His in, like, two minutes. When I asked for comments on that
little piece of work, I was expecting to get thrashed for
my lameness. My intent was to write a lame poem and see how
people would respond to it. I'm also "ratboy" and "Tawnia".
No, I'm not schizophrenic. I'm just really bored.
I've got some exciting news, however, and I welcome any
advice or suggestions. For the first time in my life, I am
getting paid to write. It's just for a weekly supplement
to the campus paper (a 'zine called Galaxy)but I am very
psyched about it. I have not written for a paper since my
senior year of high school and I would appreciate ideas on
what to write about! I've told the editor that I was tossing
around the idea of writing a spoof on "Love Lines" but that
kind of thing could really get out of hand and offend a lot
of people. Any ideas, anyone?

Marla,

Got your E-mail! Get mine? I know that ya did!!

Misti, or whatever your name really is... at least one of your personalities (Cassie) can write.

Not to be a rude but I'm sorry you won't find much thrashing of other people's poetry around here, even fake ones. I think the more common form of courtesy is if you don't like it keep your mouth shut. I believe the comments made on "His" by your "personality" Cassie were given to encourage the writing of what appeared to be a young girl who cared for someone and was maybe a little insecure about her writing. No one thinks about what mood compels you to write, people write when they are inspired, whether their inspiration comes from anger, pain or love. I don't agree that the best writing comes from horrible times though, anyway, the opinion of what is good and what isn't is simply that, an opinion. Everyone is entitled to their own preferences and I am truly sorry that you believe love inspired work is not commendable. Maybe if you were in love or cared deeply for someone you would change your opinion. You sound like a very unhappy person, and I am truly sorry for that, however don't knock the happiness of others, it doesn't become you or anyone else for that matter. I hope I haven't offended anyone, if I have, I'm sorry, however as always, everyone is entitled to an opinion, and this is mine.

Marla

By the way, that last comment was to "Misti"

Jeanmarie
I just read your three poems and i have to say that i loved all of them, especially "go help yourself". I think it's very to the point, that you can't expect any one to heal your own wounds except yourself. "Sheetmarks" is also well written.

MiStY& RaTbOy& tAwNiA,
Although i'm still a little confused,hmmm.... i guess your identity is out! well, i just wanted to say that in thinking that you and ratboy were the same person.... i commened him on his work and not you! well, props to you,girl! and i want to hear your ideas!
------------------LaBeLwHoRe....ZoE

Sitting alone in my room,
Thinking of you,
Wondering if you ever think of me.
I remember the movies and the times on the phone,
But the memories don't satisfy me.
I want to be able to see you,
And just have a memory.
I long to see your smile and feel your kiss,
I just hope that it won't be long,
Before I get lost in your eyes once more.

Then, on that rainy humid day,
I had to say goodbye.
Maybe for a month but maybe for a year,
You took a piece of me with you that can't be replaced.
You captured my heart with your smile,
And it will never be the same.
Who knows what time will bring,
You may forget me when you're there,
And we may go our seperate ways,
But I know you were my first love,
And that's impossible to erase from my heart and mind.

A friend sent me a few lines from the Poem "Footsteps" by Paul Varley (English Translation)--and said she found it in the "loveblender..." But where--is there no search engine?
jb

misti,

i had to laugh at your "cassie" et al experiment...you actually confirmed my belief that anyone could get a compliment if they just ask for it. critical AND constructive criticism doesn't seem to exist here recently, which is sorely missed. i mean, i KNOW some of my stuff sucks...and i'm sure as hell not gonna ask for an opinion. the truly great poems (and poets) stand on their own, and often need no "props" or back patting. i'm glad i don't see my name in here often...i might be doing something right.

Jeanmarie,

Was "Go On...Help Yourself" posted somewhere before? It rings a bell.

I agree with 'j'. If people ask for comments, they should get constructive criticism on style, form, etc. Everyone wants to know where their writing needs improvement, right? What good does it do to ask for a comment (or even worse, the "what did you like best about my poem?" comment) when the response is canned? If you're strong enough to submit something, then be strong enough to accept criticism, good or bad.

okay, i really must weigh in on this one. in principle, i agree with both james and 'j'. anyone serious about the craft (and the art) of writing should gratefully accept constructive criticism. that would be especially true where a writer is seriously seeking publication. however, poetry is a little different. there is much more art than craft to it. so much depends on individual tastes, just as with any other art. i am not a professional editor. none of us publish literary reviews (except kirk, kudos to the keeper of the blender!). so just what kind of criticism is desired? perhaps one seeking such criticism should enroll in a creative writing class at their local institution of higher learning.

as for me, i believe that i was recently asked what reached me in poems, not how i could pick them apart. (as an aside, what marla said is true - common courtesy dictates that if you don't want to be negative, you simply remain silent.) many of the poets here are feeling their way at the art and the craft at which some of us have labored for many years on and off (in my case more off than on). but that's part of what makes this site special. in this venue, we are all 'friends' of a kind. we share more than simply our affinity (as well as our aptitude) for writing poetry. in my case, i cull MANY poems out of the herd before i bother people on these pages with them. i don't need to ask someone else if a poem of mine sucks... that is instinctive... I, for one, am not bored, so i see no reason to be less than sincere about anything i have to say in this forum or anywhere else.


my joy in writing is in the search for those kernals of truth that really do exist in this life. I have found that most of these are related to the presence (or absence) of love in one's life. If they are found, they will ring true for others and not just for me. For real truths are transcendent.

So freshness appeals to me, and the talent that gives voice to that freshness, even if it be raw, deserves a compliment every now and then. If for no other reason than to say "Hey! I'm a person out here, I am real, I can read, I can think, and my experience has been enriched by allowing a different perspective than my own to speak to me." That's what art is, people... And the appreciation of it... just my 2 cents (plus interest)...

Staci ~

On your work My Valentine

what a wonderful phrase ...

"imprinted into the layers of my life"

I think this answers the earlier questin about really good work written when you're in love ...and not on the outside looking in.

Wow, look at the chaos my boredom has created. I'm stunned.
My name is, in fact, Misti Velvet Rainwater. That's what
is on my birth certificate, anyway, and anyone who doubts
my identity can peruse Blender issues from the past year
and see my full REAL name on the front cover a few times.
When I write a poem that I am proud of, I use my real name.
When I'm bored I create a goofy persona just to see how
people will react. For those of you who believe that the
best poems are happy poems, I have nothing in common with
you. For those of you who believe you have to be in love to
be happy, I have nothing in common for you. For those of you who wish me all the happiness in the world, GIVE ME A BREAK. You do not know me and so I somehow doubt your care and concern is genuine. I have bared my soul on this site and believe me, it won't happen again.

For the little anonymous person who said that at least one
of my personalities can write-
You are an idiot. 'Nuff said.

G'bye all!!!!!

Misti Velvet Rainwater,

I for one can take constructive critizism!!

To: Misti Velvet Rainwater.

I don't think anyone is saying that happy poems are the best poems. That is not how poetry is viewed. The best poems are ones you can relate to; the ones you can lose yourself in. Today I might be happy, tomorrow I might be sad, so I will relate with others who feel the same way. And being in love doesn't mean your happy. Love has many sides. Love is not always rosy rosy. One of the most painful feelings in the world is love, because love is hard work, love is sacrifice, love is making someone else happy and they in turn making you happy. Besides, when you write a sad or heartbreaking poem, or a I'll get over you poem or whatever, at the time you are writing it you are still in love or you wouldn't bother! I don't know you, I don't relate to you, I don't feel sorry for you. The only part of you that I knew before all the choas you created broke out was the poet. I respected that part, I wish it could have stayed that way. I don't like to see all this animosity. I think we are above that. I hope that all the games and name calling or over now. Let's get on with it!!

"Any authentic work of art must start an argument between the artist and his audience."
~ Rebecca West

"Criticism is a study by which men grow important and formidable at very small expense. . . . He whom nature has made weak, and idleness keeps ignorant, may yet support his vanity by the name of a critic."
~ Samuel Johnson

"I would rather be attacked than unnoticed. For the worst thing you can do to an author is to be silent as to his works. An assault upon a town is a bad thing; but starving it is still worse."
~ Samuel Johnson

To TK - thanks for sharing the words of wisdom

To the real Misti - thanks for yours as well. i personally respect your right to mess with people's minds if you so choose. i too have a sense of humor. But i would much prefer the 'real' you.

To ZoE - in light of all that has been said recently (the furor, or the horror, i'm not sure which), i sent you my comments through e-mail. if you did not receive them, e-mail me your actual address and i will forward them to you.

AnOnYmOuS,
anyone who's too ashamed to put their name on their comment should save their breathe or more like their typing!
MiStI,
i can't judge you,because i really don't know you but it seems you'd be a great actress with your ability to fool everyone with your alter egos! by the way, be yourself,that's how i like you the most....but i do really like Tawnia's work!

KeViN,
Got your e mail and i hope you get mine!
------------------ZoE

"It takes courage to grow up and turn out to be who you really are." E.E. Cummings

BRAVO!!!!

it was beautiful as diamonds
i was nieve as a child
thinking it would always connect for me to never lift a finger
as sweet as sugar you were
as delicate as lace
i was rusty
you made me shine
i was too blind to see
you were my stimulant
my first ember of pride
i sit in a path of thorns
i will hold you close to the roses
your lips as pink as petals
i am a thorn
i wish i had your love to float around and shine
to make me feel no roar
you beckon heaven's door
i wanted to keep you safe from the storm
i was always the child
my palms are raw
i am empty of warmth
without yours

Kirk:
In spite of your friend Darlene's "lovely" comments, I think it's a great Web site--even if nobody reads French Poetry and it doesn't have a search engine!!! (ref: note re: Paul Valery's "Footsteps" poem 9/15/98
jimbob6820@aol.com

Hey Snow..

Was wondering what happened to you.. Where r u??????

Janelle

Janelle,

I loved the Kiss!!!!!

Marla

No Title Required

She was acting up, and well, she
needed to be dealt with…
She was not a very nice woman.
She'd met a comfortable man named
H O R ACE.
And slowly she kilt him with
plaid shoe racks
and grievances.
It was nighttime in halitosis-land,
honey in a metal jar,
The Flaming Anus Show.
Like you, I too am a piece of wheat toast with berry jam and butter.
But sometimes, I dream I can breathe fire and roar in Japan.
Don't tell anyone, ok?

Bonus

My arm
has a pen
connected to it.
My brain don't think.
My arm writes stuff
and some of the time,
I like it.

She Loved You So Much

She threw rotten apples at me
Arms and legs dangling from the trees
Curled up asleep on the front seat
A gentle, sweet summer breeze
Constant busy signals
Giggling, silly girls
Earrings on the counter
A ride on the Tilt-a-Whirl
Two birthday tickets to Cats
(I’d hoped she’d take a friend)
Boys outside the windows
I’d like to catch and...
Milk mustaches and makeup
Perfume and Saturday cartoons
Hair experiments and tears
Cheerleading practice in the living room
Highly encrypted notes
Folded who knows how
Sleep-overs without the sleep
I miss it all so now
She used to call me Dad!
A feeling I can’t describe
I never knew such a simple word
could light me up inside
Her old pine dresser…
I had to take it when I left
I hugged her in the hallway
Said good-bye, I’ll stay in touch
I got a call on Sunday
About six a.m.
I heard the words float around my head
She’s gone from this world, she loved you so much...

Mark P. Roberts ~

"She loved you so much" ... I come in the side door frequently, just sit in the back, and every so often am moved to respond to someone's work. This one of yours, I re-read at least three times. Swallowing the lump in my throat, feeling this enormous void overwhelming me, eyes burning .. it is very good. Thank you for sharing.

crickettt

Hey Kev~~

Heartbreak... this feeling... the attachment...
It happens when you get to know this other person from the inside out... the wave... the ability to feel & sense the emotions before they are ~~ text-urized~~ so to speak...
It is compassion...friendship...the hearts eye!!
I have met many interseting people. Some becoming close
friends. Some just a interesting open room conversation.
A giggle, lmao!, <S> ...And yes even the cyber sharks lol!
Who are as shallow as thier words!
Friends come in many shapes & sizes... and these days to
our benifit... text! :) ....just a thought...

Yes, Eve. The attachment comes from the inside out. It is wondrous strange... For me, the immediacy of what is possible is what is so wonderful through today's technology. As one who loved once (more like once upon a time!) through snail mail, it is much the same, but very much accelerated. There is little time for emotions and their consequences to percolate naturally into the heart and soul. If one is not careful, speed can kill... My, but you *are* perceptive!

"Thanks for noticing me" - Eeyore

heart Song,

It's still quiet around here, I am going to miss it while I am gone. If you like you can e-mail me at Taking_Leave@yahoo.com and I should be able to get back to you, I just can't access my other address except from the office. If not I will talk to you in a couple of weeks. Take care.

Marla

Marla,

I hope you have a great trip and I'll be waiting to hear from you! Check your Yahoo E-mail every now and then. Tell Sean I said Hi. Be carefull!

Shadygirl

I really liked "Centrifical Force" it was great. And the way you typed it to where I had to slide the page over to read the whole sentence made me dizzy, like I could feel the earth turning. Really!

Thanx Marla.. :-)

P.S.
Snow,
beautiful times was beautiful.. Very touching.

Your gushing friend,
"Star <3"

Tystnaden.. lämnar min tung
den är nära att prata.. längtan vaknar i mina ögon
den är nära att brinna.. och sorgen är nära att explodera
jag ropar på di i tystnaden .. i längtan och drömmer på imorgon
imorgon blev igår . älskling det är dags att veta..
jag är en själ innan jag blev en kropp.. gud gjorde fel .. när han skapat en mängd av känslor.. han skapade trheten och planterade
den i mina kärle.. han väntade tillgivenhet och falla den tårar i mina ögon..han vet inte att jag lever i en annan värld.

LAILA

KIRK!!

I'm sorry, but I submitted something with a pretty stupid error, of course in the title. So, I was hoping I could point it out (like you wouldn't notice) and maybe you could fix it when you set up the October Heart on Sleeve. I just submitted a piece on 9-18, and I spelled the word Centrifugal incorrectly in the title.

Thank you!
Shadygirl ;-)

~ Shady ~

:)Loved Centrifical Force!!
Excellent piece...!!

~Kev ~ Pooh to your Eeyore :)

Piglet to Pooh, " Whatcha doin'?"
"Oh, nothing."....(sitting in the grass watching a bug)

As children we used to take the time to ' do nothing' all the time. Examining the lady bug on the rose petal. Exploring the depths of the backyard. Admiring the shapes of cloud formations. The innocence of doing nothing..:)Finding new things, absorbing...learning. As adults, doing nothing... is a great pleasure at times... some forget the innocent & fulfillment of it.

Taking the time to notice the things and people around you (out there) an innocent pleasure. As long as one is honest with themselves and with others. (reflecting off of-
perception & "The Me You See" & "Roads"

Completely agree with comment about speed...
I believe any relationship that moves to fast here, or one on one...friend/lover etc... are the ones that kill...
Taking the time and this has nothing to do with tech. is
the factor that make relationships last. Friends/lovers are there through it all the good, the bad and the ugly!! :)

...just another thought..:)

ps... Hey Kev, "Whatcha doing?"... :)

~~ smilin~~ would help to put my name eh? Eve :)
Thx Kev

Dearest Snow,

Geez.. I don't know what to say. (wow) that's a first.

Have another line for our poem:

I don't believe in magic for what we have.. What we share is magical enough.

~~~~~~~~~>
Now finish it snow.

Star <3

Janelle,

And what we have will last longer than the magic that makes the stars shine.
Your love is the Magic that makes your arms as close to heaven as I want to get.

There's the ending. I hope you like it. Love is the only thing that is important to life, and without it you become a shell, that you can only be freed by death. I wish everyone out there has found or soon finds thier soulmate, thier other heart. For they are the only thing important to the world. They are more important than Life. They are more important than Death. And when you two are together, then Life becomes Death, and Death becomes Life. All that vanishes, and all that's left is your love for your soulmate, and thier love for you.
Snow

I hope u saved that ending. :-) Finally we're done this blasted poem! hee hee.

Hmm.. what should we call it? Give me your ideas , i'll give u mine and we'll compromise..k?

Star <3

Dear Snow,

P.S. Two raccoons was very touching. Memories.. Sometimes that's all u have after a heart's been broken and a love's been stolen. But they're really useful on a rainy day.
Nothing to do but remember.

Jills,
just wanted to say that i loved "jeff the truck driver".
----------------------ZoE

Snow,

If you can read this, can you please email me? I really need to talk to you.

Where r u?

Once again, any feed back would be glady accepted. I posted two things one is an essay titled, "Love and Selfishness", the other is a short story, Simple Black Dress. The story is an original by me. I just thought the essay was interesting. Let me know what ya'll think.

Wow, you guys, thanks alot. I never really check the Board for comments, and the one time I did, I can not believe there were comments about my work! Thanks for the boost :-)

Heart song,

Can you believe this the AF computers will not let me access Yahoo mail. Access denied, I think they blocked all e-mail servers besides theirs. Oh well, I was able to get as far as being able to see I had new mail, but I couldn't check it. Oh well, no one ever said depending on the government was fun. I am going to go check the new submission now since Sean should be getting off soon. Take care and I will try and check back later. If not I will talk to you when I get back. Have a great next couple of weeks.

Marla

Marla,

I hate you can't check your mail! I am looking forward to seeing some new submissions from you since you are around your object of affection. There are some good new submissions aren't there, one from P.C. I might submit a little something. I had a really great week end, hope you did the too!!

Eve-

Sorry, but I just now noticed that you posted to 'lil' ol' me. Please forgive my tardiness in response... (although I'm racking my peanut brain to discern whether it was you to whom I responded on Sunday last... I feel so foolish now!) Nevertheless, I place this out there for everyone:

Yes, indeed, you are correct that as an adult we often yearn for simpler days when simple pleasures were larger than life, because we did not have to contend with the weight of living as adults. The hustle and bustle of life in modern culture has given us an environment where time is of such an essence that we do not know how to spend it if not at warp speed. All too often, we hurtle into relationships with the same warp speed, without stopping to savor the fullness of the other. We do not then taste the richness that is possible. Real love, and friendship too, takes time to brew (or ferment, like the finest wine)... But there can be those rare moments when the heart just 'knows,' those little epiphanies, the exceptions that prove the rule (the heart never lies, but the head must help renew love - each and every day - once the initial 'newness' begins to fade - this is the essence of commitment)... I try to capture some of these moments in at least some of my poetry. I am pleased that some of the truths I have found ring true for others as well...

-K

Dear "K"

*sigh* I love what you said.


Shadygirl :-)

Heart song,

I had a great weekend I hope you did too. My in-laws got hit by hurricane Georges, they live in St. Croix, so Sean's dad had to make an emergency flight back there this morn, he is in charge of the FAA down there. Anyhow, we are heading to Ohio sometime today with my mom in-law but I had a few free moments so I thought I would check with you. I don't think I get to go to FL with Sean now, they are making him fly, rather than drive, and have changed it to Jacksonville instead. I am still thinking about renting a car though and meeting him there it's only like 5 or so hours from here. Who knows. Well, I look forward to being able to e-mail you soon. Oh, and about the new submissions I really haven't had a chance to read them because there is a time limit in this computer lab. Oh well. Tell all later, and I hope to have some new stuff to submit when I get back. Take care.

Marla

Jeanmarie,

I really enjoyed your poems, thanks for submitting them.

Shadygirl,

"The Cane" was good, in the last verse, you say to let go and you'll help someone walk out of their past, is that spoken from the 2nd persons point of view? I thought you were the one letting go of the cane. anyway good writing!

Marla,

It's really quiet around here, it's good to hear from you. I guess when it gets toward the end of the month everyones saving thier creativity for next month. I haven't submitted any new works. I'm gonna wait till Oct. also. Hope your in-laws weren't hit too bad. How long is Sean going to be in Jacksonville? If it's several days I think you should go ahead and rent the car. Time is precious. Heard any good songs lately? I'm making a tape of my favorite love songs, one night I'm going to kidnap my honey and go for a drive, park the car and dance in front of the headlights. Then later on maybe I'll write about it. Got any good ideas? Be careful okay!

i liked the poem about the 4th of july. it made me smile
and reminded me of someone

~~ Kev ~~

Jelly for your peanut butter!! lol ! Flavor your choice!
And it is I who should be saying "sorry"...I've been so crazy busy...!! Pulling 18hr. days between school/work/home.
I didnt have a chance to respond to your E. Well, actually I did! On break, while sitting under a shady tree. The thoughts you shared about "The Me You See" were fresh in my mind. So I put them to paper, old fashion I know :) lol!
Check you E later...

ps...RE: lover of words... have you read
" A Distant Touch" By James Silva... if not you should!

~James~

I read " A Distant Touch"... oh, about 10-15 times!
I captured my attention immediatly! Then my heart and soul!
Your words... expressions...emotions...!! INCREDIBLE!!

..."Escape impossible, desire will not relent, no ambiguity,
listen close my dear, this plea for life, and love, also
forevermore, in faith, I love, and it is you"

Excellent piece James! Excellent!!

I'm the one that wrote the poem about the th of July. Anyway i would just like to say thank you to whomever wrote that he/she liked it. Im glad it made you smile!

--Jenna

I'm the one that wrote the poem about the the 4th of July. Anyway i would just like to say thank you to whomever wrote that he/she liked it. Im glad it made you smile!

--Jenna

Heart song,

Hi, thanks for reading "Your Cane". Actually it is about letting go of my own need for help to help another. If that makes any sense...;-P

Shady :-)

Eve, or James,

"A Distant Touch"...where is it? I saw what you said, Eve, and I'm curious and would like to read it myself, but where is it?

Thanks!
Shady:-)

Shadygirl,

Yes it does make sense, I don't know why I didn't see it myself. Very good.

James,

It's in this months new submissions.

Marla,

Saw the disaster of the hurricane on T.V. Bad!! I didn't realize it was so bad! I didn't even know there was a hurricane until you told me. I don't hardly ever have time to watch T.V. This winter when the Drive-In is closed I will, I know that this will probably lower your opinion of me, but here goes anyway. Just about the only thing I make time to watch is WCW wrestling. If I can't watch it, I tape it. I know, I know, romance and wrestling don't go together. I just can't help myself. I know it's not real, but it's like a soap opera for men. And there are some hunks!!
I hope your in-laws are alright and didn't lose alot! If there is anything I could do, I would, just let me know!!

Everyone on the Blender,

Have a great weekend!! See ya later.

heart Song

James,
Sorry, that statement was for Shadygirl.

Shadygirl,

It's in the new submissions.

Marla,

I have a new E-mail address: try Superstarmnw@webtv.net
I don't think I'm a superstar this is my sons address! SEE YA!

James,

Unbelievable. I love it. Especially ALL of II. Elegantly choppy and eratic, and smooth all at once...mmm, loved it.

I'm glad you brought it to my attention heart song! Thanks for the location...:-)

The Shady Lady

shady,
i just wanted to say i liked pathetic. it was simple but it is proof that not many words can say so much.

heartsong,
you have a son? how old is he?

marla,
saw that you like WCW,don't feel bad i do too,i feel very cheesy now. i feel like someone at an alchoholics anonymous meeting confessing their habit or sumthing 'cause i really do like to watch that cornyness....
---------------ZoE

Thanks ZoE!

"Pathetic" was one of those two second things...

:-)

Shady Lady,
I like that (The Shady Lady). That poem was good wasn't it. I have really enjoyed your poems, I am glad you're submitting more. Look forward to more of the same.

ZoE,

Yes, I have a son, and he has seen several moons. So, how many kids do you have. I also have a daughter.

Marla,

I have missed you, I hope you are having a great time. Can hardly wait till your back and writing again. Take care, yours sincerely,

heart Song

hEaRtSoNg,
i have a daughter,DeZiRe! she's only 1 yr. old. she'll be 2 next month.
----------------ZoE

heart Song,

Thank you, I'm trying to submit when I am not working. It's been so long since I've been on a 'writing spree'...good to know someone is reading! :-)

Shady

Shadygirl & Eve,

Thanks for your kind comments on "A Distant Touch." I have
a little secret to share with you about the writing. Take
each verse and the first letter of each line, and read down vertically. It spells out who I wrote it for. Now, again
with each verse, take the last letter of each line and read
down vertically. It spells out why I wrote it. Poor girl,
she'll never know I wrote it for her.

Now you know why it was kind of erratic. Perhaps I've got too many commas here and there. I have another one on New
Submissions - "I Let You Go." It might be a little smoother.
My humble attempt at Rhythm & Rhyme.

Shadygirl: I loved the verse you wrote in "Whisper Dancer" -
"A phrase dances on your breath and pirhouettes in my ear,
before bowing low." Very nice imagery!

Regards,

James

James,

I hope my comment about "A Distant Touch" did not offend you, I did not mean erratic or choppy in a bad way, I thought it portrayed the way thoughts kind of pop up very well, because Love is a word that covers such a broad array of emotions...emotions that pop up and disappear, and contradict and compliment eachother all at once. Different and the same for everyone.

Thank you for your comment on Whisper Dancer. :-)

I liked your other work! And that is really funky about the little 'secret' to A Distant Touch, thanks for sharing... truly special. :-)

Shadygirl

Coffee, tea, cola anyone...fresh scratch pads
and pencils?.........good to see the
constructive banter this month. :)....Rennie

Heart song,

God, I feel like I have been away forever!!! I can't wait to get back into the groove of things. I didn't end up going to Jacksonville after all, it was going to be too expensive and so Sean's mom stayed here in NC with me. Everything has been crazy, there wasn't to much damage at Sean's parents place, so that was good but there was quite a bit of all around damage on the island. What about this hurrican that is hitting right now, you are too far away from the coast right??? Anyhow, I am glad you got an e-mail address at home finally. By the way, you liking wrestling doesn't affect my opinion of you, everyone has their fettish. I liked you idea about taping the songs and going dancing with your sweetie in the headlights. My only sugesstion might be a glass of wine, but with or without it, it sounds romantic and fun. Sean and I have been going ninety mile an hour since I got here but I did manage to write a little. Some of it seems to personal to submit so if I decide not to, maybe I will e-mail you so you can tell me what you think. Anyway, I still haven't had time to read the new submissions so I guess I will catch the rest of them when I get home. Take care, and I will catch you soon, I will be back Thursday.

Marla

Marla,

Thank God, I've been worried. We have the T.V. set on the weather channel, so we are keeping a constant vigil on the circumstances, we are getting a Task Force ready to go to the coast, right now I am mapping out the area. Looks like our team is going to Biloxi and Gulfport. I'm glad your family wasn't hit to bad. All I can do is pray for everyone else. I didn't get to dance in the headlights this weekend but I did get to do a cracker jacks bit. At Wal-mart they have this I.D. maker, so I made this Dog tag that read, "I'm crazy about you (NAME). With Love (NAME). I very carefully opened a box of Cracker Jacks from the bottom and with a box cutter made a slit long enough to empty the cracker jacks and prize out. I have a scanner, so I scanned the prize packet into a printing program and enlarged it enought to fit the Dog Tag. I duplicated the prize packet side by side before I printed it out, so all I had to do was cut it out, fold it over, put the Dog tag in it and seal it inside out using a glue stick. Then I slipped the prize back in the box and used the glue stick to put the folded bottom wrapper back in place. You couldn't even tell the box had ever been opened. It went great and he still can't figure out how I did it. Dancing in the headlights WITH a glass of wine is definately in the near future! See ya,

heart Song.

ZoE,

Matthew's Birthday is today. Jessica's Birthday is November 2nd. Aren't kids great!

To anyone who read about the Cracker Jacks bit. I failed to mention that after I put the prize in the box I did refill it with the cracker jacks before I sealed it back up. Did anyone catch it? That part is really important, because it would be a dead give away if there wasn't any cracker jacks!!!!!! Try it and have fun.

heart Song,

That is a great idea...ingenious..;-)

If you don't mind me askin', what do you do, for a living, that involves the storm on the east coast here?

Shady

HeArTsOnG,
Although i had dezire too early (i was 15) she was the best thing that ever happened to me. It's hard for me though,because i support her on my own. i don't get any. i freak a lot when we spend our monthly paycheck in less than a week which is commen.i'm glad you are happy!:)
-------------------ZoE

ZoE,

I had Matthew when I was 17. So, I know how that goes. I got married though. Which it was a terrible, terrible marriage, but, I knew if I stayed home my kid would end up being my mom's kid. amd I didn't want that. I wrote alot back then. Matthew was my sanity and he is how and why I made it through that period in my life. He's a great kid!

To Shadygirl,

I work for the Corinth Housing Authority, which is funded by the State of Mississippi, so I am a city and State Employee (HUD The Department of Housing and Urban Development. Corinth is a city in Mississippi. I am a Grant Coordinator. I write Grants and If they get funded then I spend the money to improve the lives of our Residents. I am on a number of Committies and First Response Emergency Teams. I am Co-Chairperson for Project Homestead. Which is an organization aimed toward permanetlly placing children in Mississippi. That doesn't mean we take children away from parents and place them in fostercare, we want children to be with their parents so we see the need and try to meet the demand. We give parents classes and see that the parent is ready and able to take care of the child. Of course it is a different story if the child is being abused or neglected. There are alot of people out there such as Zoe, who have children and have to do the best with what they have. The CHA is a low-income housing authority and you have to have children or be elderly or disabled to live with us, rent is according to your income. Most people rent is very, very low. Alot of times if a person has no income coming in we will house them and give them a small utility check to help pay their electric bill. We also will give residents job training or fund the money for them to get training. We help them start their own businessess and buy their own homes. What about you?

ZoE,

I don't know were you live or what your state laws are but in Mississippi you must be 21 years old to be able to sign a contract or 18 and married. This is a new law, probably less than 2 years. It used to be if you were 16 and had a child we could give you an apartment. You might check ito it if you haven't already. I guess you get an AFDC check or on Medicaid. If your not, check that out. I hope you're still in school, if your not-get back in. I assume you are because you get a monthly check. Girl, I know it's hard, but don't ever give up, don't ever be ashamed! Keep reaching for your dreams, keep writing your poems, you'll make it!

Well, you basically have my life in a nutshell, and just as we learn from ZoE, life can be very tough, each of us on the blender have our own stories to tell, and different problems, but what brings us together is that we basically have the same outlet... Poetry and Prose, we all know, by the different works, that we are not alone and that there are others who are facing some of the same problems in life that we are.

Here's to the POETS!!!!! HERE! HERE!

Shadygirl-

Thanks for your poem 'Erase Me.' The first two stanzas are absolutely wonderful! I love the imagery you paint there. Good stuff...

-K

heart Song,

I am embarassed as hell to say what I do, after everything you have accomplished in helping needy people and children.

What is my story? I am a 21 year old Long Island native. I work in a university on the island as a sort of assistant supervisor to Accounts Payable. Nothing major, but it pays the bills. I have a few jobs on the side. I paint faces on dolls, and doll accessories for a local business, I paint portraits and murals for side money, for people and businesses, I also write cheesy sappy romance novels, (notice I said write, and not publish...;-), but I'm trying). Other than that I am going back to school full time as well in Spring, to change my major from Fine Arts, to Psych. Scary, but I can't wait! I want to help abused and battered women and children.

My passions are poetry and music though...all the way.

Kevin, thank you for your feedback! ;-)

Shady

Hey msj,

I really liked 'impact'!!!

Shady :-)

You are doing great, are you kidding me. The only difference is our age and that I have had more time to do more things, and get more settled! I went to art school early on, I mostly like to draw with charcoal pencils and soft pastels, or just plain pencils. I do alot of charictures for people just for fun, and alot of face painting. My cousin Katy and myself also write cheesy Romance novels!!! We are trying too!! We have already chose our name. My middle name is Jo. So we put both our name together and made Jo Kates. Maybe one day.... I also moonlight at other jobs. I help run a Drive-In Movie Theater. I am a movie buff. I love the drive-In, one of my goals it to not let them become obsolete!! Thanks for sharing your like with me and thanks for your comments. Don't ever feel down about yourself or what you do! We are all different and have different passions and life is a learning experience!! See ya!

Shadygirl,

I hope you know that last comment was to you. I got ahead of myself!!

Marla,

Three more days. Talk to you soon.

How I would hate to be the only who has to pick the work from the front page next month! I'm just glad I get to read all this great, touching, heartbreaking, breath taking stuff!!!

Meg-"Silent Game"

Shadygirl-"Erase Me"

mjs-"Impact"

Eve-"Burn Me"

Great, great, great works!!

Angel- your work is a breath of fresh air! I love all your work, but I love "One Last Dance" the best of all!

heart Song,

I was thinking the same thing! I don't know how only a few can be picked from the bunch that are submitted. Too much stress for me...hehe...

Artwise-, I work with everything, unfortunately not too much charcoal anymore, I though I used to love it. Right now I am sculpting an angel for my X-mas tree (I just moved into my apartment, so it'll be my first very own X-mas tree...hehe...I'm such a child...;-) and I am also painting a mural in my kitchen, of a picture window. But I mostly use acrylics and oils, and sculpt plain ol' clay. But when I actually do art for myself, not for money, than it all seems to come together in one big colorful mish mosh, anything interesting that catches my eye ends up plastered to the canvas...:-) But you find out alot about yourself, creativity is the key to the sub-conscious, and boy does sit show!!!

I am off of my main job today, so I've been taking the time to read some of the works I miss earlier this month.

It really is great work everyone...heart felt.

Shadygirl

Heartsong-I am thrilled that you enjoyed "One Last Dance"
so much. I am new to this site and already in love with your works...congratulations on "Puh pum"

thanks for the support, guys! "impact" was a spur of the moment poem that came to me yesterday while i was studying for a psychology exam, of all things. i just really liked it, so i thought i'd try to get kirk's attention with it. :)

i did get one poem into the blender in june--it's on the front page, titled "smoke." check it out, if you are so inclined.

keep writing! --melissa (msj)

I mean...heartSong. Cap. habits are hard to break!

Angel,

Don't worry about the spelling! Check it out, I did it on the 28th! You have done it again with "Visions", loved it!

Marla,

Two more days girl!

Angel,

Thank you for your comments on my work, it always makes me feel good to know someone likes my heartsongs. I'm glad you found this site. I love it. I was really honored to be chosen for the front page in the Sept. issue, it was my first time and my first month on the blender, I didn't expect it, I was so excited! See ya.

HeArTsOnG,
When Dezire was born I was clueless on raising and taking care of her but i had my mind set on living alone (even at 14 when i first got pregnant). I truely wanted to raise my daughter without my mom taking on another child and doing the hard parts. I did drop out of school and got two jobs(one at a clothing store called,diesel and another as a secretary in a law firm) and a small apartment with not too much overhead. I spent a lot of time researching services for single teen parents and now i do receive medicare although my mother did pay for my prenatal care.We also receive a lot of free clothes and toys from planned parenthood.My ex boyfriend pays child support very irregularly and i don't have the patience to bring him to court on it. He visits her occasionaly but mostly my current boyfriend is a father figure to her.
-------------------------ZoE

I wish

I wish a thousand things
that I know will never be
but perhaps the fact that I know that
makes them all more appealing to me
I wish I could fly,
to soar, and feel bliss...
I wish I could go back,
and relish our last kiss...
I wish things were different,
that I'd never been made a fool...
I wish that you still loved me,
that you hadn't been so cruel.
I wish my heart was full of love,
my mind filled with insight.
But all I seem to do is whine,
and then we end up in another fight.
I wish I had the patience
to take things as they come
I wish I had the perfect life,
with nothing to hide from.
I wish I'd been more honest
than I was with you.
I wish that when you cuddled me,
that I had snuggled, too.
I wish that you would love me again,
and I could say "ha, ha."
I wish that he had told me the truth
instead of blaming his ma-ma.
I wish that I'd walk out my door,
right into a beautiful man.
I wish the sun would go down at night,
and I would be holding his hand.
I wish that I had taken time
to prepare myself for the future.
I wish I'd spent a little less time,
dreaming all day of you, sir!
I wish a great many things,
all that I know won't come true.
But maybe someday I'll be lucky,
and they'll be granted, out of the blue.

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