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snow leopard
i really liked pouring rain. i can relate to feeling like it's only
raining on yourself and no one else. i just wrote another poem
similar to heat about a roll in the sand i had with a guy. check
it out. lately, i've been writing more about pleasure than
heartache.

one thing i forgot to add. carrying the conversation from last month,
that song Kissing You off the romeo and juilet soundtrack
is the most moving love song i ever heard in my life

i could stand a thousand trials
the strong will not fall
but watching stars without you
my soul cries

touch me deep
pure and true
cause i am kissing you
(or something similar;i don't know every word)

later.

I agree with Leah.. Kissing you really touched me too..

Snow,

where r u? Must have fainted during football practice or something.. hee hee..Just email me..k?

~under the sea..Under the sea!~~ (just joking floundie)

Hi.

You know, for the longest time I have been writing.
But I've noticed that many of my poems are written in my
saddest and lonliest moments.

Now, I am truly happy in love. When I am with Nicolas
I feel safe and loved and special. Completed.

But now, the only times I'm inspired to write at all are
when we're apart and I'm lonely.

I wonder if I'll ever be able to write a poem that can
express my almost constant joy and contentment.

Any comments?

Dear Penny,

I used to be like you. I can only write sad poems.
But recently I met the man of my dreams.. He means the world to me. It's like there was this huge earthquake when we met and little did I know that my world re arranged itself so that he's in the center of it. :-)

Anyway, think of all the good times.. Block out all the loneliness and think of how u feel when you're with him. Believe me, the words will just come rushing out. And if it doesn't, then try again. Take your time. :-)

Janelle

Li know precisely how you feel. have a look at what i written in past months and you'll see that very few of them are about being happy. yet during that time i was probably more content than i've ever been both with myself and with someone whom i love passionately. i find that it's difficult to articulate sheer happiness in a way which doesn't come out sounding just plain cheesy. not only that, but i neglect my writing in general when i'm happy. i'm not depressed and brooding - instead i'm delightedly enjoying life. so as far as realistically writing about happiness in love, i unfortunately haven't found a solution. but know that you are not alone ! and many congratulations on your new love ; )

Those were some very moving comments. They are very true I might add. It's great to be able to read about these things and have somebody explain it all.

Thanks.

Hi everyone..

I'm in a long distance relationship and am running out of sweet things to do for him.. Does anybody have any tips? :-)

Thanx.

Hello! I love this place! I'm here every month, and I read everything, no matter what! Some people are so talented, I envy it! One request though.....more stories and prose! =) PLEASE!!!! They're my favorite!!! =)

Janelle

I two am in a long distance relationship right now (marriage actually) Instead of the normal little care packages food etc... I have tried doing unusual things such as sending a feather pillow like the ones we use at home, or an off the wall picture of the two of us framed from a special time. I also have found that things like a favorite movie the two of you like found in the mailbox is a nice surprise. Then of course there is always the vast supply of hallmark I miss you cards that are sent on a regular basis. I hope this helps

Here is a quote from a feisty female character named Gabriel Rusack in the book "Dark Waters Embrace" by Stephan Leigh:


"I suspect if mankind had never known sex, we would have invented it anyway: the women to celebrate friendship, the men to celebrate themselves."


Thought it might work in the Blend-O-Matic . . .

Kirk,
In response to your "editorial" here is my letter to the editor. You questioned whether there was one "ideal person" out there or a group of people who could be the one. I guess I had to comment because I always believed that there were a million (slight exaggeration) different people out there who could be that one and it was just a matter of meeting that person at the right time for both of you. But when I met Sean, who is my husband now, that theory seemed to disappear. Granted I realize that maybe I am just so absorbed in my love, but I believe that there really is only one person out there for you. Fate, chance, destiny or whatever you want to call it brought us together and I know it was meant to be. After experiencing the love we share together I know that there could be no other for me before or after him who could complete me as he does. So in response to your ramblings about love and romance, I believe that when you find that one special person who you were meant for, you will know, I knew the first time I ever met him. Once you do know, you will realize that there could not be any other possibilities out there besides the one you know and love. It's almost as if the love you have is so overwhelming because you never believed love that intense and true could exist. Anyhow, just thought I would share that with you since it is something I have thought about and come to a personal conclusion on.

thanks first of all to kirk for having this site (and for responding to e-mail so quickly!). sorry, folks about the non-wrapping text in my prose (sofa)!

i agree and disagree with marla. i do believe that there is THE ONE out there for everyone. but i also believe that you may never find them. further, i believe that two people can meet, fall in love, and live reasonably happy ever after and NOT be that ONE to one another. AND those people, if they love one another enough will probably never wonder about THE ONE that might have slipped the hook.

Love is like life, you reap what you sow... If you do not make an emotional investment, you cannot expect any returns. That is one of the hazards of loving - if you put your heart out there, the other may just eat it raw. Or they may take it, nurture it, prune it, make it grow and bloom. It is not just feelings, or hormones, it is hard work too. Love, like life, is not always easy.

hi everyone,
i have trouble writing when i'm happy or in love,because the words flow more freely through sadness for me! sometimes when your happy it's harder to express the emotions in words for it than it to describe sadness,because each and everybodies idea of happiness is totally different! for me love is never having to worry that the other person may be trying to hurt you,because i've been in so many hurtful relationships including the one i have with my mom!
Leah, i love your poems! i wish i could write poems like yours,they are so deep!have you read mine? they are in the new poems section on this site! e mail me: ruby.star@snet.net

just wanted to say i love this: By d (devon@bliink.com) Date: 5 August 1998 in your smile:in your smilei see mineand that is how i know

Zoe-

Your poems....they are so deep. How do you come up with your great material? I can totally relate to your poems. The way you write is so moving, so inspiring. I love the poem, Lillie. It is so obvious what your message was. Everyone is affected by a a Lillie in one way or another. Everyone has problems. Everyone needs a solution. I feel your pain, it stabs me like a knife. When my boyfriend Jimbory dumped me, I could hardly express my pain. It was a happy pain, though hard and sorrowful. Jimbory was a troubled soul, but I could never reach him truly. I long for those troubled days..for now I am worn like a dirty sock. Longing for the past, striving for the future. Which way do I turn? Who am I destined to be with? Could it be Jimbory, my long-lost love? My dear... never look back and continue to keep up the oh so wonderful work.

karissa

erin good to have you back. i've been missing your angst. ; )

Hey,
thanks a lot,Karissa for your nice comments about my poem,Lillie! Although i'm not a really talented poet in my eyes i really like to write poetry,because it works in a way as therapy for me! Sorry about your problems with your boyfriend.if you want you can e mail me sometime at ruby.star@snet.net and we can talk! by the way ARE THERE ANY POETS ON HERE THAT FIND CERTAIN MUSICIAN'S LYRICS VERY POETIC OR HELPFUL IN IDEAS WITH THEIR OWN POETRY? IF SO TELL ME ABOUT THEM! I FIND THE LYRICS BY THE DEFTONES VERY POETIC AND ALSO THE LYRICS BY WEEZER! *thanx*
by the way...visit my website and sign the guestbook at: http://www.geocities.com/SouthBeach/Port/2579/

Hey Everyone.
I've been away doing stuff. Thanks for the comment Leah. I should have siad thanks earlier but I havn't been here in a while. I guess I'll talk to everyone later.
Snow

To: J. Martin

I really enjoyed the poem you submitted you have a wonderful way with words and expressing yourself and I hope to see more of your work.

To: J. Martin

To: J. Martin

Alright we will try this one more time, I was talking about "The Storm" and everyone please ignore my creative and intelligent last blank comment. :-)

You are wondering, "How Do People Manage to Fall Out of Love?" I think, "One does not fall out of love in the first place. Why? Because there is such a thing as falling in love. If you have already fallen into that pit called love, how can you fall out of it? What happens is really a long painful, uncertain journey out of that pit called love. While you find doubt in each step, every passing blow tells you to go on. Once you've reached the top, you can look down and decide whether to jump back or simply walk away. That is when you've climbed and walked out on love. Literally it means, "walking out on the other party."

Twinkle
12-Aug 1998

Thanx Marla. I've been on vacation for the past week so that's why it took me so long to reply. I think I might try the stuff that u said. I've been sending him cards and virtual cards so I think your ideas sound nice.

Snow,

Hey! I'm back..Email me so I know how u coped without my knowledge. hee hee. Just jokin. :-)

Janelle

This is a test to see if my comments page is working again
(my web host changed the directory location without bothering to tell me! Sorry for any inconvenience.)

Kirk

If you've ever 'loved' Mr. Toad's wild ride, go to www.savetoad.com. He needs your help!
JT

My girlie and I have been together for about a year. I love her with all of my heart, but we are having serious issues...

For the last year, we spent all of our time together. We both had our own apartments and lived alone. About 2 months ago, one of my good friends got a job in this town and I moved in with him.

My girlfriend has had a lot of trouble adjusting to this. She didn't want me to do it in the first place and is now very distraught. She only likes to stay at her place because when we are at mine, the roomie is always around. Now, we hardly ever have sex and when we do, she never even finishes (you know...). She sais it is because she feels distant from me... she wrote this to me today when I asked what is wrong:

it is time, brother man. i feel like we are slipping away and the little kisses and hugs can't cover the gap. The way we are doing this is not good... i feel depressed about it because I know that we have strong love for eachother, but that alone doesn't mean we can stay together. we have to do something drasticlly different because we are on a really sad course. i am lonely and i miss my b-friend.

I don't know what to do... I really love her and I want to stay together. What would help us? I don't see an answer... any way to change our course and I am sure that I will lose her.

Please help!

Weezer is poetic? Let's examine...

"If you want to destroy my sweater, hold this thread as I walk away..."

Deep.

Gabe,

Maybe you guys should plan a romantic getaway..just the two of you..Go to a cottage, have a midnight picnic at the beach ..anywhere as long as you're alone and together..

Tell her what u feel and try to find a compromise.

Sweet

Kirk~

I thought you said that the new submissions page was working?
Why must you still press return? Oh yeah and how come whenever i go into the blend-o-matic whenever i hit return no quotes come up?
Well thanks!

~*~Jenna~*~

Kirk~

Nevermind about the blend-o-matic. It works.. .sorry!

~*~Jenna~*~

I love the poems from this issue
I love to write poetry and love to read others
I will be making my own poetry page once my dad gets our computer
Have a nice day :)
Jennie

Stacia! I just read your little scene, and it really spoke to me. I really felt what your voice had to say. The imagery was fresh, and you captured a moment that most of us are not lucky to have ever experienced. I *loved* it.

I remember the day that we parted,
the day and the way we met.

You hoped I would be broken hearted,
I knew we should both forget.

But the best and the worst of it is,
that neither is the most to blame.

For you have forgotten my kisses,
and I have forgoten your name.

Dear Kirk,

Thank you, once again, for putting me on the Digest.
I meant to thank you sooner, but see that you have
had some problems with your server. That is okay.
We will all gladly wait for you...you have already
proved you will work hard to get all of us verse-
driven writers back on your site again.

Again, thanks...........Rennie Lorca

BRADEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHO ARE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE ANSWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Excuse my boldness, please!

"Loves last words"
By, Braden.................????

No, E-mail address to respond to...
Hm?? Mind racing......

Contact me by E please...?'s for you.

Kirk

I just wanted to thank you for recognizing what my poem was all about. (The one on the "front" of the August issue) I haven't written in forever but I started again last year around this time. I love your site, and I am absolutley addicted, I check it everyday for new submissions and to read the comments. I love being able to share my poems and my love with others as well as being able to share in their love, pain etc... It amazes me how we all go through the same emotions even though we often feel we are so alone. I think the last year has proved to be the first for me in writing during happy times. I must say I do truly enjoy the freedom love has brought to me when I write. Thank you again for recognizing my poem it's nice to know that what I feel actually was able to come across somewhat clear on "paper".

Marla (Marla_McGinley@compuserve.com)

I think thatīs a very romantic site. I loved it and it helped me in my choice. Thanks. And I just think that should be some more things about atual movies, like Titanic and Think of love. And you should have more things about Romeo and Juliet, the most famous couple in the history of the history.

Congratulations and feep doing this great job you are doing. And for the people who come to the site, be romantic, keep loving and, if you need someonde to talk or to, maybe, love,
send me an e-mail and we can be best friends!!!

With all my love,
Tammy

"If love is the wind
Who give us the summer brise
Let it tuch your hair
And touch your heart
And then, you can
Fall in love with me"

Kirk!

kudos on publication at maura johnston's little e-daily slice of life! hey everyone, go see kirk's work at www.bittersweets.org. while there, sample some of the morsels of the bitter and the sweet of love. and truly appreciate what Kirk is doing for us here. Thanks, Kirk!

I liked "Lillie".

Hello from England. I am searching for a love poem I read
10 years ago in a poetry criticism text book. I don't know
the title or poet, but remember the theme of an emotional
connection despite a physical separation. The poet used the
imagery of a compasss or a pair of dividers. I would be
very grateful if anyone recognisies this poem if they could
let me know what it is, Thanks alot,

Sarah

Please email me at my boyfriend's address which is

giles_g.bayliss@virgin.net

Our two souls therefore, which are one,
Though I must go, endure not yet
A breach, but an expansion,
Like gold to airy thinness beat.

If they be two, they are two so
As stiff twin compasses are two;
Thy soul, the fixed foot, makes no show
To move, but doth, if th'other do.

And though it in the center sit,
Yet when the other far doth roam,
It leans and hearkens after it,
And grows erect, as that comes home.

Such wilt thou be to me, who must,
Like th'other foot, obliquely run;
Thy firmness makes my circle just,
And makes me end where I begun.

I'm the one who usually comes in the side door ... quietly finds a seat in the back and watches. BUT there are some truly wonderful pieces here this month, and had to write.

Stacia -
Red Light In San Fransico ..... made me smile all the day long!

Just L -
carnivals .... life .... what a "Ride" : )

Katherine -
The Response .....you are a beautiful person ... with a soul that flies higher then the mind can see.

Heart Song -
When Women Weave ... your words chosen so carefully that we can feel texture of the "cloth" that she weaves.

HeArTsOnG....
thanks so much for your compliments on my poem Lillie! i'd love to read some of your work!

ZoE...

I have two of my heart songs in the new submissions this month. " Passionate" and "When Women Weave". It took me a while to decide to submit, but I really am enjoying it and will be doing it more often. I'm sure I will continue to enjoy your fine masterpeices.

Very Sincerly,

heart Song

i just wanted to say i really liked Cinderella's poem eyes wide shut 'cause it made me wanna cry, you are definately talented girl!i'd love to read more of your work!

HeArTsOnG....
"passionate" was thrilling beyound words and i understood your whim in it! you are very talented in writing and i really want to hear about how you wrote these deep poems and the stories behind them as i will tell you mine!some more of my poetry is on my website at: http://www.geocities.com/SouthBeach/Port/2579
LoTsaLuV,
ZOE

I have a problem
I'm in love.
She loves me to. She has told me on several occasions.

She is seeing someone else right now, whom she can't seem to get the courage up to break up with.
"He's just too nice", and she's afraid of hurting him....you see she cares about him, but she doesn't love him.

He's not the kind of person she wants/needs... He doesn't have the sense of romance she does, not just in a relationship but in life.. he doesn't see the thirst for life, the vitality she has. The need to get out and see the world, I see everything in her...I do. She knows I do. I want the same things she does, I don't want to get married right away, or have kids until later on (actually probably never due to circumstances of life...keep reading)

I hang out with these guys all the time. I've known her for awhile. Him too. I worked with him for awhile, we're actually quite good friends.

I spend alot of time with her or both of them. They don't make a public display of their affection (in fact they don't make private ones either according to her..) or anything, they rarely hold hands, never hug or kiss, except goodnight sometimes, on the cheek.

Her and I have never gotten intimate, never even kissed, we keep coming really close, but I can't, the thought of him in the back of my head is just too much, because he is my friend. I actually encourage her to work on their relationship, because I can't stand the thought of hurting him. I know why she doesn't dump him. He is a terrific guy. never done anyone any harm, and it's not like he wouldn't have trouble finding another woman. Believe me.

There is one more thing. I am Dying. I was diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor a few months ago. No one knows, not even my family.

I have 3-5 years left, and I don't want to split them up so she can end up a 'widow' in her mid-late 20's. But I love her, and after a grueling 2 years, conveniently, after I was diagnosed, I find out she loves me too.

It's just so painful at times, because there are so many reasons we should be together, yet so many reasons we can never be. I try to tell myself she's better off in the long run if she stays with him.

This whole situation is killing me inside, the only time I feel good is when her and I are talking, or going for a walk....I just love when she runs her fingers through my hair.. or when she takes my hands in hers, and just looks into my eyes, I could lose myself permanently in those eyes...

But eventually one of us notices we're getting to close, or the phone rings, and we shake out of it. We compose ouselves, then talk about the reasons we don't just let go, and do what we both want.

I'm afraid one of these times I'm just going to let myself go...

If you've ever heard the song "Who wants to live forever" by queen, that's pretty close to how I feel.

I doubt too many people have a suggestion, or have ever been in this situation, but I'm desperate. Please help.
My soul is slowly falling to pieces.

Yes, it really chews you out sometimes.

I, too was diagnosed with something "always fatal"...and eight years later, am still here. Why? My healthy husband is dead, so is my child. Why? Why should I have an answer? Don't rationalize...life is not always rational as we come to know it.

I am well now. Never let someone tell you that you are terminal...accept that when your heart no longer beats. You are in love, you care...sometimes, I believe that this is the "cure" for the ills of the world.

If you care for someone, tell them. Tell them no matter what circumstances surround you in life...circumstances change. Real love does not change. There is something missing if your lady does not declare herself to be your love or friend. You are missing out on something. Both of you are missing out on something very precious in life...the ability to love. There are no guarantees in life, but you are young, and you need to learn to grasp life and what it holds for you. Accept your life...never accept what you may believe may be the end of it. My healthy husband was killed in an unforeseen accident. And me, the sick one, now well and still here. Circumstances do change...don't be fatalistic...be realistic. Love is realistic in this life.

Yes, there was a time when the Queen song meant much to me. I had time to think about those lyrics and hold them to my heart. I thought about what my death would mean to others and what the death of those I cared about had meant to me. I decided that I would still love. I learned that I could have love come back into my life again...more wonderful than ever before. I only needed to have my heart willing to accept life and love.

Few people are able to read our minds...we must be willing to tell them how we feel. They may surprise us by responding in kind...or they may be kind and tell us that they still care for us as great friends, and that is what they need the most from us. We need to be best friends with our lovers. Don't leave someone trying to read your mind...talk to them honestly...you will have honesty, a wonderful real first step in a true realationship. You are not alone, nor should you be lonely. Reach out as you have done here.

Miracles do happen...I know that they do...Rennie Lorca

By the way, that was not a typo...that is "realationship"...something real in a relationship.

Rennie

I haven't cried since I was a baby, I forgot it could feel good...

I never really thought about love as being a cure, however, usually I stop thinking about dying when I'm with her because she makes me feel so alive...

I will find a way to let her know that our love is worth any adversity life throws at us...

You have already seen what needing and accepting the ability to love can do with your life. A friend who loved me, and also refused to just let me die, sent me a book titled "Love, Medicine and Miracles"...by a wonderful, caring physician, Bernie Siegel, M.D. You can read some about him at: http://www.healthy.net:80/bios/siegel/advisory.htm

Like Kirk, with this Blender site, here is someone who also believes that there needs to be more done with love in this world.................Rennie

ZoE,

I looked back over the last few months in the blender for more of your work, so you read my mind when you gave me the info on your homepage. Later I'll give you the scoop on my Bio. Till then create me a Masterpiece.

Ditto

what did u think of my poetry on my homepage? i'm happy that my poetry reached you,because my only goals in it were to put my thoughts and emotions on paper! you are so talented and your work is deep! CrEaTe sOmE EmOtIoN (poetry) 4 mE!!!

Heya all. I have been reading evryones comments and poems for a long time and I think that it is pretty cool what has been put together here. I recently found this poem that is just...well just really my kind of poem. Hope you like it as much as I did:]

One look at love
and you may see
it weaves a web
over mystery,
all ravelled threads
can rend apart for hope has a place in the lovers heart.

Whispering world,
A sigh of sighs,
The ebb and the flow
of the ocean tides,
One breath, one word
may end or may start
hope in a place of a lovers heart

Look to love
you may dream
and if it should leave
then give it wings.
But if such a love
is meant to be;
Hope is home and the heart is free

Under the heavens
we journey far,
on roads of life,
we're the wanderers,
So let love rise
So let love depart,
Let hope have a place in the lover's heart.

Look to love
and you may dream,
and if it should leave
then give it wings.
But if such a love
is meant to be;
Hope is home and the heart is free.

Like it??? Well i gotta jet. Love yo hear from you. Later.
Sarah

Hey all! Ok ready? I got a question that a found and i thought it was kind of cute. Here it is.

Q) What is the anatomical juxtaposition of two orbicularis oris muscles in the state of contraction?

I'll give ya'll a chance to answer and next time i'm on i'll give all ya'll the answer.

And will some of you guys actually try it and try to figure out the answer. It is related to romance so... try it! It's cute.

-- ~*~ Jenna ~*~

By the way:
I just submitted "firework" does anyone have any feedback because I'm a little unsure of my "writing talent." Thanx

-- ~*~ Jenna ~*~

seeing as the orbicularis oculi in a state of contraction is squinting, the anatomical juxtaposition would have to be, um...not squinting? opening your eyes? I don't really understand the question...

And Jenna, your submission...
it's not poetry, it's not prose...
It's a part of your life, a part of you,
a part of your love.

And that makes it the most beautiful writing of all.

Oh I get it...orbicularis oris, puckering up, good one. :-*

ZoE,

This one (Golden Splendor) was so deep I thought I was going to drown!

I don't think you are one deminsional in your work, when I read the work on your home page I did not see the same person I see in the blender. I do not think you are a traditionalist at all. You are an absolute individualist. Your work is unique in every way being you have an old soul inside a young body. Although I think your will end up in one of those bands you enjoy so much! I truly enjoy reading poetry more than I like writing it (which I love tremensouly, especially when I write a particularly good piece and I even surprise myself.) When I read poetry I like to be able to flow on it's wings if you know what I mean, let it take me away and be a part of it. When I read some of your work I have to concentrate a little more than I like to for it to be relaxing. Your work is great it is most probably like you in it's complexity. I would call you a new age philosopher!

Most Respectfully Yours

Life-

Thanks for the comment on my writing. I was reall unsure of it and the rest of my writing for a while there. And Good job on the question your right the answer is:

A) The Kiss

Very proud Bravo!

Also, how is everything going with you and your female friend? Hope all is well!

-- Jenna

heart Song

I really enjoyed Golden Splendor, it's a very beautiful and thought filled poem which I can relate to very well. Your talent definintly shines in that one. Keep up the good work.

Marla

Marla,

Thanks for your comments on my poetry. It's really nice to get feed back from people you don't know! When you have a friend or family member give you thier opinion you never really know if they are being honest with you or just don't want to hurt your feelings. I have been following your journey on these pages. It's hard being in a long distance relationship, I know. But you seem to be so much in love that even the miles don't seperate you. Last night I got my phone call about 10:00 p.m. we synchronized our watches so we would get into bed at the same time and hug our pillows (when I saw JUST ONE WEEK by Z I had to laugh cause we're like that all the time) I said I would give my pillow a big hug and my love said not to let go, to hold on all night long, It's hard to get a good night sleep when your constantly afraid of letting go of your huggy pillow! I had to get a drink, I carried the pillow, I had to let the dog out, I carried the pillow, I had to go to the bathroom, I carried the pillow, aint love grand!

Truthfully, sometimes I don't know if I'm gonna make it through the week. I said " you realize I'm wishing my life away, wishing that each day would hurry up and go by so the weekend will be here. And then it's finally here and all to soon it's gone again. Love doesn't always feel good. Sometimes I feel like I can't breath and my heart will explode from the terrible longing feeling that I can't do anything about! Marla, what do you think.

so here's what happened, i told him about everything and he just kinda stood there not moving for i'd say oh about 10 minutes. i started to get really scared because i didn't wanna know what he was going to do when he finally decided to move. finally i just got up and walk off and so far i haven't heard anything from him. i mean whats up with that. i did all the right things and didn't goof at all and look what i get. what is the world coming to?? thanks anyway for the advice who knows it might end up working out. thanks again. wbs.

Elora

heart Song

I know what you are saying about the weeks dragging on and the weekends passing too quickly. I let myself be miserable for months before I realized that by sitting on the phone saying how lonely I was and how much I missed him, I was making time slow down. So now we try and make the most of our conversations, we truly have perfected the long distance relationship although it has been far from easy. I am almost close enough to count down the days till I can be with my husband, but it still doesn't make it any easier knowing you are so close. It's funny though because the distance never got to me enough to want to give up. Instead it was always sort of a given that I had no choice. My biggest problem is trying to find the patience so I don't jump on the next plane out. In the times that I am to the point as you said "where you feel like your heart is going to explode", I write. I have spent many a tear filled night with a pen and paper crying my words onto paper. Sometimes that's the only thing that can make me feel better. Everyone is different and every situation is different and none is perfect, but you have to give him and yourself your best. I truly believe that if you are meant to be with someone you will be able to overcome any and every obstacle that life hands you until you can be together. Maybe I am just pathetically old fashioned when it comes to love and romance, but I believe that. I know I haven't been able to give too much input but it's hard when you don't know the situation. I do wish you the best of luck, and keep saying good night to each other. Even when my husband and I can't talk I always wish him goodnight and sweet dreams and hope somehow my words are carried to him wherever he may be. Good luck, and I look forward to seeing more from you.

Marla

HeArTsOnG,
thank you so much for complimenting my poetry,i didn't think it was that good but it was simply my inner most emotions speaking loudly without words. your latest poem was like it's title golden, it really gave me a sense of true passion and what it meant to you! when i read poetry i like to read poetry that flows like spilled milk but without rhymes.which of my poems so far do you like the most? my favorite of your so far is passionate although they are all so good that one "just got me"! i truely love your work and for you to like mine is a huge compliment!
YoU ArE RiCh In BeAuTy AnD YoUr PoEtRy ScReAmS iT!

HeArTsOnG,
coming from someone who's work is very deep and i admire so thouroughly you liking my poetry is a compliment in itself! i want to know which of my poems you like the most? for me poetry is releasing my feelings loudly and speaking without words although i really love reading it not only by famous poets but by some greats like you and people on this site!tell me about yourself and...
I KnOw YoU ArE a BeAuTiFuL pErSoN ,bEcAuSe YoUr PoEtRy ScReAms EcStAcy AnD tRuTh

Dear Kirk,

You get the general idea on "fumble"...I am not going to risk touching it again...lol...and make it worse...must not have been holding my mouth right when I was entering... :).............Rennie

Dear Kirk,

Okay....."uncle!!!" on the form.

Rennie

ZoE,

The first words I ever put on the blender was "I Like Lillie".
And that still holds true even though it was an understatement. "I love Lillie"! It is beautiful in it's simplicity. I'm gonna be reading up over the weekend so Monday I'll get you some feed back on your other works! Thank you so much for your comments on my work. I now actually feel like a writer, and a pretty good poet at that. Have a good week- end friend ZoE!

Truly,

heart Song


Marla,

Thanks for the encouragement, I feel better! See ya.

On my birthday i went to a Tori Amos concert and i met this guy who when i saw him for the first moment i felt an inner connection with him like our stars were aligned. he is everything i've ever wanted in anyone,he absolutely completes me in every way and he just "gets me"! i made the hugest mistake ever and when he asked me my age i lied and said i was a lot older than i really am( i'm 2 yrs. younger than him and i said i was 2yrs. older)now i'm so worried,because i'm afraid to tell him the truth. he could be mad at me for lieing to him or feel betrayed by me! i feel terrible! can someone please give me advice,because i feel like i'm always losing and i don't know if i should or how i should tell him the truth!!! HELP

HeArTsOnG,
THANK YOU SO MUCH FRIEND!lillie is a short poem i wrote and i wanted to know what feeling you got about it,because it came from the heart and maybe you could give me some insight on what it meant to you! i still hold your poem "passionate" as a deep favorite! tell me about you

Oh ms. FallenStar*! The heart often leads us in strange ways, doesn't it? If you feel like you really connect with this guy, and believe these feelings to be reciprocated, then you *have* to be honest with him... The longer you wait to reveal the real you, the less sincere you will seem. If he has a deep connection with you, he may well be hurt by the news that you misled him (oops, poor choice of words), er, that you were untruthful with him. Explain why it was that your heart brought you to tell him the falsehood (e.g., you really liked him, and were afraid of being rejected). If you are sincere above all else, your true feelings should win him over (if he truly feels a connection like yours). I know this from experience. When I met my wife (many years ago), I lied to her about being in school (I told her I had classes at the local University). I was extremely embarrassed when my lie was revealed, but I was sincere in how I explained it to her. I'd like to think that my sincerity won her over (she did know that my feelings for *her* were sincere!). She forgave me, even reformed my ways, and we are still married! I even went back to school to finish my degree! I wish you success...

Ever the Optimist....

By the way....

The Optimist fell ten stories...
And at each window bar --
Shouted to his friends below....
"ALRIGHT!...SO FAR!"

So, Blenderites............
Call me a few more names if I keep trying to fix this post.
TRY FUMBLING ALONG HERE....ROFL!

LET LOVE FUMBLE ALONG

Ever the Optimist....

By the way....

The Optimist fell ten stories...
And at each window bar --
Shouted to his friends below....
"ALRIGHT!...SO FAR!"

So, Blenderites............
Call me a few more names if I keep trying to fix this post.
TRY FUMBLING ALONG HERE....ROFL!

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HREF="http://www.geocities.com/SoHo/Cafe/1250/renniepoems.h
tml">LET LOVE FUMBLE ALONG</a><br>

kevin,
thank you sincerely for your advice which helps that you've been through a simular experience that worked out well! i am really scared about telling him the truth but from your advice i know it is something i am forced to do if i want to coninue seeing the one i am so deep in love with! thank you so much and if you want after i talk to him i'll tell you my outcome!
very thanfully yours,
fallenStar*

My Dear Ms. FallenStar*

I sincerely wish you courage and success with Mr. Right! I actually *do* know where you are coming from with all of this. I felt the same way about my wife as you did about this gentleman at said concert. After my very first date with her (we had been flirting for a couple of months previous to this big day in my personal history), I lay awake for hours just thinking about how we connected, about how much in love I was with her, and how very much I hoped that she was *The One*. Kind of sappy, I know, for a male of the species, but it's a true story. please *do* let me know if all turns out well. If he feels as you do, I suspect that it will!

I have a problem.

You see, I've been going with the sweetest human being for 3 months now. He's the best thing that ever happened to me and I don't know how to live without him.

But just a couple of nights ago, I saw my ex boyfriend at this park with his friends. We talked and he said that he still had feelings for me.. FEelings that he could not supress nor erase. We went out for a year and I thought I closed all the doors to my past.

I love my boyfriend..He's everything to me. But suddenly I'm thinking more and more about my ex.. I don't want to hurt my boyfriend coz it would be just like hurting myself. So how do I shake this feeling? How do I erase my ex from not only my mind but also my heart?

Dear Sweet Angel...

You indeed have a problem. The heart does not lie, and your feelings are indeed real. If you truly love 'the sweetest human being' and he truly is the best thing that ever happened to you, then you have to continue to invest your heart and soul in this. If you still have feelings for this ex-boyfriend, then you have to assess the nature and depth of these feelings you thought you had buried. What I don't mean is that you forget about what you had, as all emotional bonds we make with people over the course of our lives should not be forgotten. These experiences enrich us and prepare us for the the type of love you seem to believe you're experiencing now with Mr. Right of the last 3 months. But it is in your past. If he never really got over you as he says, then he was the one who made the grave mistake. You have moved on with your live, and if you are sincere in not wanting to hurt your present man, you have to move on with your heart too. Never forget what was good for you, but live in the here and now. I hope that it works out for you, as affairs of the heart are often the toughest things in this life...

-K

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