By evangeline
Date: 28 July 2000
cold feet
Once there was nothing
and then there was you
then there was nothing again.
i waited for ever
for fucking ever,
i swear.
i changed my life
you’re making me your wife
is this the right thing to do
or am i just a toy to you?
The countdown has begun
where am i without you?
Is everyone with you?
Where did my friends go?
Suddenly they’re all siding on yours
and i can’t seem to get enough coors
drinking until i just can’t see
drinking constantly until i can’t help but pee
waking up to go to work again
i wonder if all of this is just another one of my sins?
do you love me more than i love you?
Is it true?
I love you more than i love my life
but what is that worth to me?
Am i destined to be cold and worthful
or alone and wonderful?
Will someone tell me what to do?
My mind has gone dry
is this all a lie?
Trust your heart, not your head
that’s the standard advice
but what if what my head is telling me is right for once?
And my love to you is sworn
and you’re just looking for free internet porn?
I’m lost and I’m wandering
I’m lost and I’m wondering
when it’s real is it more than just a love song?
Is it more like pat benetar than tesla?
Is it more like bonnie raitt than monsters of rock?
Is it more like love than hate?
Is it more like life than the movies?
I’m sleepless in alexandria
and you’re sleepy in philly
when is it like “magic”
and when is it tragic?
will i have to just wait and see?
Is there really more to me?
More than five beers
and two hours
more than sex and flowers?
More than lingerie
and years
more than silence with tears?
More than music and the new groovy quarters?
Can anyone else tell me
what i seem to know
but don’t?
I’m tired of waiting it out.
All i wanna do is scream
and denounce my clout.
I’m alright
I’m fucking alright now.
I’ll just keep quiet.
I’ll keep it to myself.
No one will understand anyway...
Maybe I’ll just fade away...
Again.
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