By maria maria@net999.com
Date: 31 July 2000

loving me

so i sit here
alone
with a bottle of Jack
staring at the ceiling
wondering where i went wrong
and you're out somewhere
with her and a condom
and no conscience
and i wonder how you can do it
how you can be sublime to absolutely everything
except the touch of her hand on your skin
and just the thought of her makes you so damn happy
sometimes i'll see a smile sweep across your face
until you're grinning uncontrollably
as you remember what you did with her last night
or what you're going to do tonight
and you lie and say you're thinking of something else
but i know
i always know
and you use me over and over
as someone to fill the time when she's busy and can't be with you
and i wonder what happened to you loving me

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