By sinneD
Date: 17 July 2000
i'm not ready for this
it took all of my love
to forgive and try to forget
ate my pride reluctantly
until there was this sick
feeling in my gut
silenced that part of me
saying i'm played for the fool
took to smoking again
to calm my nerves
but you didn't help me a bit
and i'm not ready for this
i took comfort on hookers
slept on unfamiliar beds
woke up on countless mornings
with a headache and a feeling
i'm not worth shit to you
anymore than a stranger
you meet on the streets
but love is a discomfort
coz i still stuck with you
though you didn't help any
to alleviate my mood
and you mocked me
treated me like a kid
said i'm too poetic
too romantic
i'm not ready for this
so i asked you to leave me alone
for the sake of knowing truly
no chance is left for us
coz it hurts not being sure
waking up with a fear
that this day will be the last
of our story
the suspense is killing me
so you went your own way
finally, but damn, i can't believe
i'm not ready for this either.
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