By Old Wyze Eyes
Date: 5 July 2000
The Letter
I used to believe in forever. I thought it would never end. In some ways, the best ways, the (bitter)sweet memory ways it never will. And it seems every poem holds a wolf within except for one, the one I always wanted to give to you but could never find the words to fit. The words to say "I'm sorry. I love you beyond words, please forgive me." I have tried to escape through miles,years,drugs,tears and one night stands but your face and smile would haunt me all the while. I would only wake up with a broken heart,forgotten promise,remembrance,regret and a missing you feeling so intense that I could not escape - until now. Until I could see you face to face,hold you once again in soulful embrace. I am here with my heart in my hand. The reason for my return: Maybe I'm just lonely and needing, I'm so tired of my soul's bleeding....maybe I'm truly in love. I fear I always will be and it scares me to know I took something from you that might never be replaced:
The look in your eyes when you told me "I love you. I always will."
Once upon a time I kissed away your tears,quieted your fears and helped you to believe in magick. Now I realize you will cry without my lips to wipe them dry and that everything magick has loss to even it out, that fear is a part of growth. All I can be is a friend until you want more. Will that be enough when love was not? I used to believe in forever, now I just believe......
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