By Jai, dejai80@aol.com
Date: 16 July 2000
Light
Light
Lost in this darkness, I unleash my tide of tears that cascade to this world. I walk alone, the frost nibbling away at whatever warmth my heart creates. I slowly descend in to an abyss lost and hurt. No longer can I find my way through this thick foilage that blocks my every sense. Had I held a tighter hold..perhaps...but to reminisice invites only darkness. Yet how can I not.
That light which shone my path through this jungle, I lost. I do not know how. I was traversing through the jungle holding her close to my beating heart...when...I cannot say how..but there appeared darkness, as if she was merely a contraption of my mind. The pure light of my heart dissapeared while I made feeble attempts to grasp the faint wisp floating away.
I was warned of this that my light would leave, she had told me many moons ago. She had no choice but to dissapear in to the heaveans where she descended from, for does not the flower grows weary of the desert. And with this I accepted her to guide my heart so that it may beat again.
Yet how could I understand this? When my whole vision was spent gazing at the darkness, how could I understand light? When hate and fear is all that the cruel wind would shed upon me, how could I understand love? When all that I saw was bent and ghastly, how could I understand perfection?
It is not fair, I scream. Yet there is none to hear. Silence has descended upon me once again. All taht was lovely, and beautiful hath faded in to the winds, and arisen to the clouds...why did my light forget to grasp me as she began her ascend? Now all I can see is a darkness that threateans to swallow me and disember my heart.
Please forgive me, but I have lost my strength to continue this journey for I have lost my light. Without her, I am a lost soul. Let me commence to make a bed of tears so that I might float away in to an abyss, while I dream of my light that became my love.
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