By sarah iristakeroot@powerlynk.com
Date: 27 July 2000
saving love
i tried to tell you of the nights
i spent lonely in beds with
warm bodies next to me and the feeling
of cold as it would creep over me
come the morning
of how i wanted to understand how
they could want to feel my body in the
midst of a momentary passion but
not feel my hand in the warm sunshine
the next day when our sins would be
glaringly apparent in the bright rays
i tried to tell you of how when i see you
and hear your voice and lie next to you
that i'm giving myself to you, giving of myself
and not of my body
i'm not sacrificing my body to you
but i sacrifice my heart to you and hope
that you don't leave that in the morning
and that when i cry to you and try
to tell you of the pain and how much i've denied
of how much i regret letting my body fall open
to so many and not realizing the rage i put
in myself at such actions
but now you see me, you see me standing
and you see me through the tears you try to wipe
away but they fall to quickly for you to catch every one
are your arms strong enough now
can they carry this and hope that one day the guilt
grows lighter and the journey is easier
because we're just beginning baby and there are gonna
be nights where my body is racked with guilt
and my body tries to remember the lust that once led
me to fallen arms that let me fall with them
and how i flung my arms out in the rain and
screamed to a god who seemed to flee away on the
straddling clouds around the moon
but you hear me you hear my voice behind the rage
and you hear my voice in your ear at night whispering
how you came and saved me from my self
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