By Nikki
Date: 17 July 2000

How do you sleep?

Clothes suffocate a body
wishing only to take 
a shower in the hottest
water available
take me out of this
sterile room
with their sterile questions
asked over and over
to a mind that is set
on humming the melody
of 'You are my sunshine'
it was mom's song for me
but the sun is dead
and i feel like a rainy day
you screwed against my will
and stole my soul
and i wonder if i 
can ever trust again
it's been six long years
but the nightmares of that
birthday return to me still
and i wonder
     How do you sleep at night?


~He'll never see this....but I had to get it out...it was time~
NL 7/17/2000