By Misti Velvet Rainwater
Date: 14 August 2000

Nonlinear Transcript #2

you are a new person EVERYDAY...and I don't like the person
I am seeing right now

don't touch me, get away from me...you're a monster

I want you OUT of this house tomorrow!

You remind me of my step-father You remind me of O.J. Simpson

Your step-father...O.J....Jay...Brian...Chase...Andy
everyone is in this relationship except for US!

I just want to fill my veins with stuff
Call Joe
Let me go to the liquor store
all I need is a fifth and some cigarettes
and your daddy's gun

You are throwing this away
I'm the best thing that will EVER happen to you
no other guy could take the things you're saying
and love you as much as I do!

everything is black and white to you
and simple
I don't want a lover
I don't want a husband
I just want a friend!

I can't take this
I can't work all day and tell all my friends about you and then
come home to this

I told you from the very beginning that I'm no good at intimacy
I told you I'm not worth much
I don't have much to give

you are the most self-centered person I have ever MET!
it's all about YOU
and YOUR pain!

yeah...I'm so self-centered
I gave away my daughter so that she would have a better life
I gave you six months of my life
I loved you even when it wasn't fun or easy
I lit a candle tonight and put on A&E because I know you love "Dallas"

we are talking about NOW

I had to get away from you
I fell off the porch
you know I'm scared of the dark
I was on my hands and knees
in the wet grass
I was afraid but I had to get away
from your words

I don't run away
I talk things through

oh, please don't be a monster
please don't be my step-dad
please don't talk at me
don't yell at me
I would rather you put
my head through the wall

I could never do that to you
it's just not in me

I would rather be battered
than talked at like this

I have never been abusive in my life
you're the one who is verbally abusive
I don't believe for a minute that only men
abuse women
that's BULLSHIT!

I'm so tired
so so tired
of all of this

don't cry, baby
let me touch you
here...dry your eyes
I'm scared of losing you
that's all

just please
don't be
a monster...

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