By amandakuli@hotmail.com
Date: 28 August 2000

The story of us!

The story of us written by amandakuli@hotmail.com from connecticut :o) okay, let me tell you the story about how we met and what a mess it was. Heather, my best friend, was a supervisor over at our local CVS pharmacy and justin started working there. Now when he started working there i was going out with this kid named Brian, who has always been one of my closest friends. I was in florida with my mother at the time. I called heather a couple of times during my trip and she was telling me about this kid that she said "is WICKED HOT" at her work. (now if you knew heather you wouldn't pay much attention to her thought on guys) She LOVES everyone...!! :o) Anyways, she was talking about justin like he was god. She said that she'd let him sit up in the office with her every night when she closed and she NEVER made him do any work. Now he knew that she liked him because of that and I'm sure that she flirt really bad with him too. OK- let's make the story more complicated!! :o) ready?! Well, brian is a Jehovah's witness and he had never had a birthday party in his life and he hated his b-day because of this. Now i was "supposed to be" in florida the day of his b-day though he thought. But our flight came home the day before. SO, as soon as i got home i had a lot calls to make and things to do to prepare for his party the next day. I, of course, invited heather along with me to run all the errands and stuff. I even went to his work and tied balloons to his car. (it was great..giggle) back to the story. NOW, Heather didn't have to work that day or the next day, but she told me that she told justin she would pick him and another kid up from work when they got out. And since i just got home we were ALL going to hang out together. (now remember i just got home from florida, a week and a half of laying on the beach getting tan, my hair was long and wicked blonde, NEEDLESS to say i was looking mighty fine!) ~wink~ giggle Anyways, we got to cvs and i NEVER saw either of these kids before, and BOTH of their names were JUSTIN. Isn't that weird, huh?!? Now i looked at both of them and PRAYED that the one she liked wasn't the one that i thought was cuter! So i just got into the back seat and figured which ever one got in front was the one that she liked..And wouldn't you know, DAMN, it was the one that i liked. IT was okay though cause i had brian and she had just broke up with mike, who she dated for 4 1/2 years. She needed to have some fun. He was such a little cutie. Actually both of them were but i liked hers better! (giggle) Now, we all, (the four of us) decided to go to the package store for some lics-We all went back to justin's condo's and sat down by the pool. We drank and smoked ALL night. We were all trashed. Justin(the one that was supposed to be mine) suggested that we go skinny dipping. Now that would have been wicked cool cause i had NEVER done it before ...BUT it just so happened that amanda had her "girlie thing" so i said ...well how about topless. Plus heather's a little on the chunky side and i DON"T want to see her swimming naked!! giggle WE all agreed and justin took his shirt off first. Then the other justin...then the one that heather liked...my bf now..took off his shorts. He didn't have tighty whitey's on he had tighty bluey's so that was his nickname from me ...BLUE so that we wouldn't keep getting confused about who we were talking about. I noticed that he and heather were having a lot of fun and he didn't seem to pay much attention to me. So i kind of flirt A LOT with the other justin to see if BLUE would get mad or jealous. I let justin pour beer all over my chest and the lick it off...then heather did it and BLUE just swam off. giggle..then out of the blue..giggle BLUE...we saw a cop car pull up. Heather and i BOOKED out of the pool i grabbed my shirt and we jumped over a fence....and justin ran the opposite way from heather and i...but blue just stayed in the pool swimming around. The cop came over and talked to him for a little bit. I put on my shirt, and went to the car to get one for heather cause she wasn't as smart as me. We didn't get into any trouble or anything he just told us to quiet down that the neighbors were complaining. So we decided to go back to heathers house and just hang out, this was at about 1:30 in the morning. We looked all over for Justin...but blue said that he's a "pussy" and that he probably ran home. So just the 3 of us went to heathers house . And we were all sitting in her living room just talking and laughing about what had just happened. I was sitting on the floor and heather and justin were on the couch. I was kinda sitting right between the 2 of them, justin's right leg was touching my left side and heather's left leg was touching the right side of me. Anyways, it got really quiet and i turned around and they were kissing. I was kind of upset to see that because i really thought that justin liked me, not her. I sat there and just closed my eyes. Heather's leg started to shake, so i knew she was enjoying it. Then all of a sudden justin's hand stared to touch my shoulder. And i got all tingly inside. He moved down a little closer to me and started to touch my boob, giggle. I was loving it. Heather got up, and said...i have to pee. So i stayed right on the floor and justin started to tell me that he liked her as a friend but nothing more. He said he felt bad cause she is his boss and that he was afraid that she was going to make him do work and break her heart if he didn't pretend to like her. I told him that it was going to hurt her more if she found out he was only pretending. HE said, i don't know what to do. And i said, well just be careful. I said, let's go watch tv, so we went into the family room and i sat on the BIG couch hoping that justin would sit next to me and he did. :o) though i was all the way on one side and he was on the other. Heather came in and sat right in the middle of us. (i knew she would) Justin said that his knee was hurting him so he stretched out his legs. His feet were right by my lap. Heather turned towards him and started kissing him, so i watched some tv trying to not be upset that they were getting into it again. The next thing i know his foot is wondering around in my lap. His toes were pressing into my crotch and i was getting so turned on. (by his foot mind you while he was kissing my best friend) :oO Then he said he had to go pee, so he got up and went to the bathroom. I was talking with heather, and i asked her if he was a good kisser. She said, he's just slobbery, but he's ok it's probably cause we are so drunk. She was so happy, she really liked him and she thought that he really liked her too. The more she talked about him being so sweet and cute the more i wanted to throw up all over her. I wanted him!!!! He didn't like her...he didn't say he like me either but he didn't like her!! Then he came back and heather said that she felt like she was going to throw up, she never could hold her lics!! giggle (she's better now) So i took her hand and took her to the bathroom, i sat her on the floor and gave her a wet washcloth to hold over her face. Then she said she was cold so i told her that i would be right back. I went into the family room to get her a blanket and justin wasn't there. When i was walking back to the bathroom to give her the blanket justin was standing in the kitchen waving for me to go to him. So i went over to him and said, man she's fucked up, i think she's gonna puke! And he just kissed me. It felt so good and so right, but at the same time wrong and bad. I knew how much heather liked him, how could i, as her best friend be kissing the man she's in love with. I felt like dirt and i told him that. He said, don't i really don't like her. I said then you need to stop making out with her. He said, i'll try she's the one who keeps sticking her tongue down my throat and drooling all over me.. I just giggled and said i'll be right back. I brought her her blanket and she asked where justin was, i said oh i think he's in the kitchen making something to eat. SO she stood up and walked out of the bathroom into the kitchen where he was, and she hung all over him, i wanted to kill her!! Luckily she trusted me, i never did anything like this to her before, and trust you me i NEVER will again!!! Anyways, every time heather had her back turned to me, justin touched me or winked at me or just smiled at me. He made me feel so wanted. Even though heather was hanging all over him.. It was like he was re-assuring me that he didn't want her he wanted me BUT i didn't know that. So i said, hey cheddar (that's what i call her sometimes) why don't we go in the other room so you can lay down. She said okay. So we went in there and i always sleep on the big couch when i sleep over there and she sleeps on the love seat. So i laid down on the biggin' and she laid on hers. Justin sat on the floor inbetween the two couches leaning more towards her way. Then heather wanted him to lay with her, so he did for a couple minutes then he said he was feeling sick to his stomach. So he got up and went to the bathroom for a couple minutes. When he came back heather was almost asleep. He said "i am just gonna lay here on the floor ok.." and she said, she said ok but not too far from me. He just ignored her last comment and laid right next to my couch (back towards me) It was dark so i don't think that she really noticed anything. He kept reaching his arm up behind him to touch me. It felt so good....I didn't want him to stop. I didn't care that she liked him i wanted him, but i knew it would kill her to know what was happening right in front of her in her house! So we kept quiet. He touched me EVERY where and i jerked him off for a little while. HE started kissing me ...and HEATHER WOKE UP...she just stood up and stormed out of the room into the kitchen. I said you stay here...and i went in there. She gave me the DIRTIEST look and i said what the hell was that. And she said, i heard a noise. I said what kind of noise. She said..like a gushy noise like he was fingering you....I said hey genius, i have my period remember, do you think that i would let him stick his hands down my pants....i wouldn't even take them off to go swimming. SHe's like...oh yeah then what was that noise. I said i didn't know we were talking, he was telling me that he felt like he was going to throw up. She said..oh ok and went back into the other room.. She turned the light on and gave him a nasty look and got back on her couch. HE said what the fuck was that for...and she said the same thing to him and he said, you need to chill the fuck out. so she did, and she passed out again in no time. We kissed and made out all night, and i had MORE FUN than ever before in my life. I don't know if it was because we could have gotten caught at any second or if it was because i really started liking him. WHO KNOWS! Anyways, we all hung out again for the rest of the summer. Smoking drinking swimming till 3 or 4 in the morning EVERY SINGLE NIGHT! BUT justin and heather were always acting like a couple and it was KILLING ME. I wanted to be able to hug him and kiss him whenever I wanted to, it wasn't fair. One night i got a page from heather so i called her at her house, she told me all these NASTY things about how much she loved justin and bla bla bla and she asked me if i wanted to call him with her. And i said...yeah that'd be cool..So all 3 of us talked on the phone all night long. Of course heather fell asleep on the phone cause we were fucked up again. Justin and i were testing the lines to see if she was awake. We started talking about were we'd LOVE to have sex, not with each other just in general. Then i said, hey lemme hang up and just call you right back. So i did, and he told me to come over. I told him that i didn't have a ride, I didn't have my drivers license yet so he came and got me. We went down by the pool and talked until almost 6 o'clock in the morning we didn't mess around or anything but i really wanted to just jump his bones. We always had so much fun... then brian called me the next day and asked me why i haven't been hanging out with him as much and why i was always having him drop me off down at justin's condo's. I told him that heather, he and i hung out every night, and smoked and drank and he BITCHED at me FOREVER. He told me that i needed to grow up and all kinds of bull...So i said..i'll stop hanging out with them for a little while and i'll spend more time with you. And that's what i did. I tried to not talk to them or hang out with them but the entire time i was with brian i wished i was with justin. I couldn't stop thinking about how good he made me feel..inside and out. Then i get a call from heather about a week later and she tells me that her and justin had sex. I freaked out, i was like what do you mean you had sex, she's like...well it wasn't really sex but he stuck it in me for a couple minutes. then he said he had to stop cause he didn't' have a condom. (i knew he had one in his wallet though, cause i looked threw it that night we stayed out till 6) so i figured that his conscience took over and he started to feel bad about what he was doing to her. I was crushed though, my best friends happiness was my most dreaded day. I didn't know what to say, she was kind of suspicious that i wasn't happy for her, but i just wrote it off as i was having problems with brian. I said, hey i have a good idea how about the 4 of us go to 6 flags. And she thought it would be a ton of fun too. so the next weekend we all had off we went. IT was the WEIRDEST experience of my life. justin and i looked at each other the entire way there, he used to tell heather that he's neck hurt from the head rest so he'd take it off and sit sideways :o) i loved that!! other times he would reach his hand behind the seat and touch my leg or something...it was such a great feeling. ok back to 6 flags, we all decided to smoke some goodies before we got into the park, mind you brian BITCHED at me for doing this but he did it too. everything was fine for a little while until we went on this roller coaster...i instinctively just wanted to sit with justin BUT i knew that i couldn't cause heather and brian were there so i took a step back and let heather on. and then sat with brian. When we on it, all brian did was yell at me for constantly paying attention to justin, and heather yelled at justin for constantly paying attention to me. Giggle- i talked to heather for a little while trying to explain to her that i wasn't happy with my relationship with brian. She understood where i was coming from, and we decided that we wanted to go on those antique cars. We were taking a poll to see what cars people were going to go in...justin and i voted for all in one car and brian and heather voted for separate cars...so regardless of what justin and i wanted heather jumped into justin's car and made him take off before we could get in..so i was stuck with brian. The funny thing was that justin kept slowing down so that i would bump into him..and he kept turning around and waving at me and laughing his ass off!! I kept up with him even though brian kept telling me to slow down and let him go and we could hear heather screaming STOP IT JUSTIN...giggle but neither of us listened to them. We got off and heather and brian were PISSED. they said that they really didn't want to be there anymore so we left. That night we all went home to our own house..no partying or anything...i wound up braking things off with brian. Then at like 1am justin paged me. I called him up and he asked me to sleep at his house. I was..SHOCKED < happy< crazy...i had to, there was nothing that i wanted more. He came and got me and we went down to his room. We started to dance. IT was amazing how wonderful i felt in his arms. (we hadn't kissed or done anything since that first night at heathers house) so as we were dancing he lifted my head and we kissed. It sent waves of passion running threw my body. I had never felt so much from only a kiss. If kisses could talk this one would have said "amanda i know that this may be hard to believe but heather means nothing to me and i want to be with you more than anything in the world." It was the best kiss i have ever had, and i didn't want to stop. i didn't want this dream to end, it was "priceless" to say the least. I don't think that i slept over his house that night. But i was over there all the time when heather was working and he wasn't. We talked every night and hung out all the time. Heather really didn't know anything because when we were all together he was near her, letting her hang all over him. I couldn't stand to see it, and i didn't like the fact that he and i were both going to be the cause of her broken heart. The more justin and i were together the more i talked to him about telling her what had been going on. I said to him "if you don't tell her, i will" he promised me that he would. But just as most guys are, he turned into a pussy and didn't tell her anything. So one day while he was at work and i was hanging out with her. I told her. I said, justin and i have been talking a lot lately and...well i even hang out with him when you're not around. I can't keep it from you any more it's not fair to you at all. I love you like a sister, which i do, and i can't do this to you. IT's really his place to be telling you that he doesn't like you the way you like him BUT he's a chicken and you are his boss so it just makes things more complicated. We drove by CVS a million times, heather was driving, cursing out the window and waiting for him to be outside. (he wasn't) I told her that if she didn't want me to hang out with him any more that i wouldn't. Luckily she didn't say anything along those lines cause i don't think that i would have been able to stay away from him for even a full day!! She tried talking to him a few times but it just didn't work until we all hung out again. Once she knew, i felt like a million pounds of weight had been lifted off of my back. But i still didn't hang all over him, or even kiss him in front of her for a long time. The weirdest thing was holding his hand at her house when her mom and brothers were there cause they had heard heather ranting and raving about justin for the past month or so. I felt like trash but what was i supposed to do, justin was my love...still is and probably always will be. :o) I love you jussin! :o)
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