Since he has now said it out loud, I can now talk about it. I was too scared to say anything before he did in case I jinxed it, or in case I was dreaming.

We are working on things. I have alot of faith in our relationship. I believe in us. I admit we have a long way to go before we become "Mr and Mrs Perfect Couple" however we are on the right path, and I think we are heading in the right direction. We move forward stronger, and with more understanding than we did before.

I have personally grown over the past week, I've seen that my view of my world was a little screwy, and something I believed I have no control over I now know I can take control of.

and so I say 'good-bye pretty ring':

I am a little sad to see my pretty ring to go back out for sale, but I know when we are ready again there will be something equally pretty will replace it.

We have changed some of our plans for the future, but I can say I am 100% certain that we are doing the right thing. I have no doubts, no regrets. (I do have one regret that involves a lighthouse, but..... well, ya know..I'll live.)

I am in love with a guy with sparkling green eyes and the most amazing spirit, and I know he loves me. He balances me. His strengths even out my weakness, and I'm pretty sure I can say 'vice versa' without landing in too much trouble.

On the way home from work yesterday I picked up $10 worth of daffodils and jonquills wrapped in tissue paper, from where I am sitting the whole world seems happy and full of hope.

Hope and beauty still spring eternal.