By Misti
Date: 2002 Jul 16
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Will I Live Through

the most recent humiliation
yes I will
won't swallow pills and whiskey
won't slash my wrists
stick my head in the oven
sit in my car in a garage
stand in front of a train
jump off a skyscraper
and leave a tear spotted note
for my One & Only

fuck that
I'm through
you got it?
you hear me?
no offense
but no one I know
is worth living for
let alone dying for
I will never go back to that place
the slap in my face was hard to take
but it was ego
it wasn't love
believe me
I'm lying
love me
I'm dying

I'm trying to express something simple
but simple eludes me
the truth is never ABC 123
kindergarten for you and me
we know better
I think
I hope I am not alone in this

fuck it
I'm more pissed off and bitter
than ever
before.