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By CryingShame58 Date: 2002 Aug 12 Comment on this Work [[2002.08.12.15.41.11605]] |
| Where is the kind man that I married? I feel so helpless. For so many years you grimaced and snarled in my face. On a daily basis you have degraded my character with criticism. Deep within my soul I knew you loved me, but it was as if you hated the very sight of my existence. I prayed for a miracle that somehow you would be my friend and lover that is lost somewhere inside of you. I did my best and it was never good enough. Oh, how I tried to please, but you rejected me. It was if you wanted to argue, fuss and fight at each encounter. You blamed me for whatever went wrong. You threatened me that you would leave me and divorce me. I felt as if I failed you and failed myself. You wanted to fight, so by golly, I gave you the fight of my life. If you shouted at me, I would shout louder. I thought I could wear you down, but no indeed. Until my spirit was worn down to a frazzle and my spirit could no longer endure. I retreated inside myself and realized I had enough of this kind of life. I didn't think you had it in you to be the partner that I longed for you to be. Finally, when I told you that I was planning to leave you, you didn't take me serious. I told you that it would take me two months to get my ducks in a row in order to move. Not until I started moving out my personal possessions did you realize I was serious. You shouted that you thought I was wrong for moving and that I made a vow to take you for better or for worse. I reminded you that you vowed to honor and cherish me. I had enough. You just became angrier. Six months later---- So now, tell me who is the man that inhabited your body? PLEASE, enlighten me. All physical appearances are the same but the exceptions are applauding. Over the past three months there are gratifying eyes looking into me. I am greeted with compliments, praises, warm embraces and tender kisses. Could it be that my prayers are finally answered? Did the abusive guy leave or is he disguising himself? Which guy is my husband? Doesn't matter at this instance. All I have is NOW and NOW you are the kind of man I married. |