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By RainbowChaser Date: 2002 Sep 16 Comment on this Work [[2002.09.16.00.06.15405]] |
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What makes me angry? Why can't I control this uncontrollable rage that sometimes consumes me I want to know, I want to understand, to be patient But everything inside me aches to come out, to experience the air I've never felt this way before, so upset, so engrossed, so scared I am so angry with everyone who has ever promised me and failed to follow through I'm doubtful that things will ever be good, or ever be the fairy tale ending It's never gonna happen, give up hope My white horse, my tall, dark, handsome stranger, they don't exist I'm not meant to experience happiness I should lock myself up and never allow myself to experience happiness I'm so curious as to why my whole life is riddled with bad luck What have I done to displease God? Why am I constantly being tested or persecuted? This is driving me insane, I feel my grip on reality slipping Anger fumes all my actions..I am so mad that I could... Who am I mad at? I'm mad at everyone, and at myself for trusting anyone Don't trust people they will only hurt in the end Don't believe in miracles, you will only be disappointed So I shall walk along this path with a jaded bird on my shoulder I shall expect the worst, even as I long for the best deep down Knowing that there are things that are impossible For example, it's impossible for me to be happy right now..too much pressure |