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By RainbowChaser Date: 2002 Sep 17 Comment on this Work [[2002.09.17.18.22.19838]] |
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Who am I? That question used to be so hard for me to answer But you know, through patience and praying I see the person I am before me as clear as day They long to be loved, to be cared for, and to be appreciated In my life, there have been times when the pain consumed me totally But, I like the phoenix, rise from the ashes of my soul to completely rebuild myself No one, can ever take away my drive, my desire, my urge to succeed and be happy To overcome what ails me I thought that once you walked out, my life was over but you know what...the sun still came out, the clouds still floated, and my heart, suprisingly, is still beating I am a complex person, and I am happy for that I am not stupid, but in fact, have a lot on my mind at any given time I can get a long with anyone, and I love people I actively search out people who are different, and who provide the missing links in my life that I can't provide for myself Sad music, inspires me, it truly makes me believe in spirituality and romance to love someone so much, that you give up your happiness for theirs..is truly amazing I am into knowledge, my soul hungers for knowledge, for something new I am deeply connected to the people in my life I long to love and protect them, and it hurts me to lose them Sometimes, I feel as if the pain of others comes to me, is that possible? I just recently discovered that poetry is my outlet My shelter from the storm, my umbrella from the pain that sometimes overwhelms me I am so easily overwhelmed, so obsessed with the idea of perfection that I give myself nightmares I am so focused, that to not view myself in the future scares the hell out of me I used to wonder what purpose God had for me I used to think that I could end it with one swipe of a blade But I am too deep to let a shallow problem gnaw me to the bone and my friends are too wonderful to let me get bogged down by minor details So, when asked who I am, the question is so complex, as am I I hope against hope that when people look at me that they see that I am finally at peace with me That I long to share the love I have right now for everyone and that most of all, I am 100% authentic, no phoniness or fakeness found here EVER! |