By Misti
Date: 2002 Sep 20
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Shattered

it never really mattered
what songs I wanted to sing
how high I wanted to fly
why I cried when I heard "True Love Ways"
on the eight-track while the rain
streamed down
I was the appointed clown in petticoats
and Mommy's rouge
I never refused the spotlight
every Friday night was a new slumber party
everyone had fun
except for me
I took it all too seriously even in my Underoos
I abused my solitude
never in the mood for knock-knock jokes
something in me broke when I stood onstage
wearing a rhinestone tiara
Daddy wasn't in the audience
and I was wearing
a banner
I had excellent manners...I won the Miss Courtesy
award
I was tolerated if not adored but I floored
my family on trips to see Uncle Greg
at college when I said
But it isn't College
...it's Jail
they knew I'd tell all the secrets
call them on the smiley face lies
I was beyond my size and full of
surprises
even in my Capezio tap shoes
I knew
the blues.