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By RainbowChaser Date: 2002 Sep 22 Comment on this Work [[2002.09.22.10.18.19086]] |
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OCD the three little letters that for me, spell a four letter word: HELL OCD is like sleeping, but your eyes are open It envelops your heart, and leaves you no room to breathe It takes all that you have, and uses it against you OCD takes a strong, agile mind, and uses it to terrorize the being inside It causes hurt, pain, doubt and sadness Every day, I wake I am determined to fight this battle only in this battle, I am competing against myself My mind never sleeps, my brain never lets me think of anything else there are only split seconds in my consciousness where I am truly free I feel like some days that maybe I am going insane Maybe there is a break in my sadness, or a break in this hellhole known as reality My worst enemy is me I am the only person who knows what buttons to push to send me over the edge The only problem is...that because I know, so does the OCD it has so much control over me, and I don't even know when it came into my life It has pretty much ruined my life concerning love I have hurt loved ones, or pushed away other people, because of doubts expressed by OCD When it comes time that I am finally happy, OCD causes me to misinterpret actions leading me to drive myself insane I am always trying to read signs, trying to pray, trying to count, and trying to clean How did this start? How will this end Each day, I say a prayer to god, Make this go away |