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By RainbowChaser Date: 2002 Oct 21 Comment on this Work [[2002.10.21.16.27.6508]] |
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If I would have known that you would have made such a lasting impact on my life, I would have thanked you IF I would have believed that I could love one person so much I would have held on tighter, tried harder Instead I Just feel as if I'm running against a brick wall with no hope of knocking myself out, but with only the dread that I can't move past this obstacle that has been set If I would have known that you would be gone from me in less than a year, I would have enjoyed things more like getting up early, way before the alarm clock or listening to the rain while you drove or listening to different music on the radio, even NPR But I couldn't have known that when you left my whole life would change so dramatically Forever Forever is such a long time, that my mind refuses to comprehend it just yet If I would have known how seriously you meant forever, I would have told you about my forever In my forever, you are in it There is no doubt, no questions, no anxiety It just saddens me, that there is no chance of forever But maybe, if we open our hearts to what we once had If I would have known it would hurt me this much to be without your kiss, your hand, and your smile I would have done what I felt was right Only sooner But you must understand, that I did all that I could I loved you without abandon, and I opened my heart without fear Because I trusted and loved you more than anyone the only thing left to say is I would have done some things differently, but never would I have chose not to love you |