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By RainbowChaser Date: 2003 Jan 01 Comment on this Work [[2003.01.01.21.09.12338]] |
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The way you used to be the one who loved me, held me when I cried, and refused to judge me The one who admired me completely and adored me regardless of what i looked like you made me laugh so easily You gave your love so freely You completed me on so many levels we even travelled to heaven together you used to be my friend, companion, confidante You listened to me bitch you took care of me during my roughest times you worshipped me There wasn't anything that could have caused you to stray from me you introduced me to happiness to the woman i was meant to become you showed me unconditional love Your smile brightened my days I couldn't spend enough time with you I treasured our moments together, and ached for more kissing you set off sparks in my brain and in my body How did you do it? How did you make me fall completely in love with you your dreams of us being together for eternity your pleasure in the small things in life The way you encouraged me to be your total equal in life You depended on me for so much and I depended on you for other things money was no object when we were together we made fun of people so guiltlessly never considering that there were times when we were involuntarily part of their conversations i saw your incomplete shell i saw your hard ass side, never believing that you would eventually turn your back on me fate separated us but i believed with my whole heart that you wouldn't let it end us forever but you turned your back on me how i miss the way you used to be when laughter escaped from your mouth when a smile rode on your lips and when you made stupid jokes just to see me smile your pleasure at little things, how much you resembled a little boy you taught me so much i thought that i had taught you but you find it so easy to leave to never look back you told me that you never broke promises but what about this what about how you ended our relationship, the one that was supposed to be a friendship you called in the beginning but the calls weren't exactly calls, but more of check-ins until they eventually stopped as you severed all ties I miss the way you used to be the way you used to love me the way you were my everything, and i was yours but maybe you stopped being that way to protect yourself deep down I believe that you know the price you've paid you may make more money now but you aren't happy you will never be as happy as you were with us i think you know that which is why you shield yourself from my view, from my touch, from my heart but you've saved me because I no longer have to choose between two people i love equally maybe i was naive to think that they could accept you that i would be willing to give them up would i have? society would have turned their backs on us and our children i miss the way you used to be, your ways were so non-male until the very end and then you changed to someone I don't even know anymore Who or what consumes your days now do you still watch kevin smith dvds do you still get down and crave chocolate and coffee or even still buy yourself toys does the thought of us holding each other in the rain spark a soft spot in you or are you truly over what we once had does the thought of our last two weeks together make you sad sad, that you didn't take me with you I could have made you so happy things could have stayed the same, including you but you refused to try and instead decided to change into someone who doesn't have room in his life for me, our past, or our future together |