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By RainbowChaser Date: 2003 Jan 20 Comment on this Work [[2003.01.20.18.15.10823]] |
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What you don't see is that i'm strong, determined, and able to do anything that I want to do and I will You can't see how much pain I've endured in my life but still came through with a smile you would never know how deep you've wounded me nor how much I love you Do you even care that I've sacrificed for you I've asked nothing in return yet you still remain so rigid, tough, and uncaring towards me You don't see that I am going places and that you should come with me or risk being left behind in this hell hole with no real friends to speak of You are so naive, immature, and stupid to think that anyone cares for you as much as I do they all only see what you can give them they offer you little, and you reimburse with all you've got You never offer to pay me back to give me a kind word, your hand, or even brighten my day my days are cold, lonely, and long without your love but you can't see this You can't see that I'm very spiritual yet my spirits are waning my heart is breaking and I want to give up, to stop caring I have so much pressure that I can't afford to be given your vengeance I'm trying to move on to not need you, but i'm failing miserably everytime you come around my world brightens my tears dry up and i feel alive again you can't see how hard I've tried there are men that want me, can you see that? and i hold on for you, my life is passing me by, and you are taking your sweet time does spending time with me really drain you so much that you can only afford ten minute increments you're going to lose me can you see that? i'm on the brink of giving up on you forever i need to be loved, caressed, and held not ridiculed, riled, and despised you mean the world to me, but slowly i'm coming back to earth an earth where you don't exist your role is minimal so small, that to obliterate your lines in the play would hardly alter its course even if you don't want me, and i refuse to give you my friendship my course is already charted my spirit will rise and when you do finally see all that you aren't seeing now...you will kick yourself a million times over |