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By RainbowChaser Date: 2003 Jan 23 Comment on this Work [[2003.01.23.09.00.18487]] |
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Today I died my world crumbled the earth stopped spinning around my perfect fantasy world and my heart stopped Was i so naive, stupid, and childish to believe that you would never date another to believe that when we broke up you couldn't bring yourself to embrace another that i was your one true love i found out today what I had never allowed to enter my mind that you could hold, caress, or kiss someone without the thought of me crossing your mind i've trusted you without jealousy for the first time in my life, I'm such a hypocrite so what if i've done this to a greater or lesser degree i just thought you would be mine so i didn't share my deeds with you, as you failed to share them with me why did you break up with her was it because you couldn't give her your whole heart you couldn't make love to her and feel it as you've done with me or is it true that you're a liar, a cheat, a typical man why do you keep telling people that there's no chance of us again do you really believe that why do you keep holding onto me if you don't want me you are taking all of my life,soul, and spirit Today I died all over again as i imagined all the times you and I have shared intimacy that can never be matched according to you, I'm the best you've had or ever will have then why didn't you just return to me thoughts of banishing you from my life make me weak i've been so hurt by you at times that it seems the only logical conclusion but then your good moments are so refreshing that i feel guilty for doubting you it's no lie that you aren't the same man i fell in love with you don't worship me like you once did but our relationship is becoming real I'm seeing your flaws and you're seeing mine I decided to forget all the stuff I knew to block out your world that hasn't formally invited me yet but we're on the verge can you feel it these women that you do whatever you do with has it taken that many to replace me only to find that you fail miserably i'm a whole package...you know i'm the one..what's taking you so long i can't deny that there will always be a place in the back of my mind that doubts your words now that wonders where you are when you say with friends have you slept with these women or are they merely meaningless drunken makeout diversions do i even have the right to ask you aren't mine just yet but you will be soon and i've chosen to call it even after all, i'm no angel but i doubt if you would want to hear about my trials would it pierce your heart as it did mine would you have the decency that i've had to let it go do you know that i know why didn't you tell me that you were dating someone while still holding onto me that girl meant nothing to you obviously i have so much more to offer you and i pray that you see it because i was almost pushed to the edge today, but the thought of you brought me back give me my surprise brighten my day, show me that you care as you have and i'll be part of your life today i died-but you brought me back |