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By RainbowChaser Date: 2003 Mar 18 Comment on this Work [[2003.03.18.11.29.16913]] |
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Who ever thought that once I got you back I would be unable to allow myself to move forward to experience the true bliss of your arms around me of your heart beating side by side with mine That the love that we are able to make would leave me wondering what you're feeling what you're thinking and if what you promise will become a reality i'm scared to lose you I've dealt with that for almost 4 months now it's not that i'm scared of being alone because having your friendship was almost as lonely i held so much back for four months that i've grown accustomed to putting on a stone face to swallowing words to avoid alienating you but now it's only me whose alienated i'm afraid of you not afraid of your words, or you leaving me neither can harm me, nor will you leave me but i'm afraid of loving you of how much it might hurt if you can't return to the man you were and i can't make you happy like i once did all this pressure that looms behind me i dread waking up in the morning to see your admiration because deep down i feel that i don't deserve it it doesn't feel real i've held back for so long that honesty is hard to bear that passionate embraces make me uncomfortable it's not that i don't love you or that i doubt your love for me i'm just so confused so entwined in a reality where we'll never reunite that now that we have reunited i'm in disbelief afraid that once i get your love, i'll only throw it away |