By RainbowChaser
Date: 2003 Mar 27
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Victory

Preparing for battle
that will surely result in victory
but no one understands or even realizes the war i'm fighting
the reasons why i would fight such a war

the benefits of victory are outstanding
fear is the only obstacle to overcome
is my willpower strong enough to sustain
this is the only solution to a problem that has haunted me forever

the rules of war are simple
food is the enemy
exercise is the saving grace
and i'm required to find that place deep inside myself

i can't go too far
i don't want to become a tragedy
a lost cause
i just want to experience victory

victory comes with a smaller clothing size
a smaller number on the scale
visibility of bones
and decreasing the amount of consumed calories

my darling-will you see my sacrifice?
it's the only way that i can deal with all my imperfections
i will never deserve you
nor will i measure up to your expectations

this is all that i have to offer you
i'll sweat, bleed, and starve to prove my devotion to you
i'll endure all that must be endured
until you commit to the promise of us

i know its my imperfection that drives you away
and i'm prepared to fix it
all of it
until you can no longer look upon me and feel disgust

victory will be achieved
if only i can get more will power
if only i can exercise more and eat less
then all my wishes and desires will be mine for the taking