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By RainbowChaser Date: 2003 Apr 08 Comment on this Work [[2003.04.08.13.55.13087]] |
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Too much is what you said when i broke down and told you my dilemma you had apologized, but it was online how could i have known what you would say you were more supportive than i thought you didn't call me a slut, or tell me i provoked him you were there and frantically trying to call me for my safety do you really love me as much as you say is that why its so hard for you to deal with to imagine the swift hands of another on the woman you love who doesn't want them there that the one you made love to may never be able to accept your advances again, without guilt or memories of yesterday's offenses that you could have somehow prevented it by being there by being loving, instead of selfishly, hatefully hiding yourself away too much for you to deal with what about me i don't have a choice i have to deal with this, or slowly go insane too much is never good but how can you choose what to deal with and what not to deal with i didn't have that option when you came to me and spilled all your problems all over my floor, my couch, my heart and soul if i had told you too much you would have been angry just as i am i'm so angry that you could just walk out when i need you most that your fear and anger for another could drive you from me keep you from loving me when i need it most keep you from holding me, shielding me from the storms that are raging in my body and soul when i have nightmares, will that be too much when i cry out, will that be too much when your touch brings back memories, will that be too much when love is involved there is never too much i've had so much go on with me, that i could never say too much to tell you it's too much, is to give up to quit trying, and stop living and to do that is letting him win and for me that's too much |