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By RainbowChaser Date: 2003 Apr 28 Comment on this Work [[2003.04.28.12.37.22142]] |
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Uncertainty looms like a predator consuming my thoughts, actions, and desires i just want to know what to do i want to return to times of simplicity to times when everything was mapped out for me so simple eat, breathe, sleep then wake up and do the same thing all over again to live in a routine is what makes me feel secure to know what to expect and to succeed by simply surviving i've trained myself on how to get by and how to smile even when i just want to burst into tears to make decisions is a silent hell i go through day by day is it just me or is fate a practical joker because right now i can't laugh, i'm so scared scared of the uncertainty that's looming like a bad taste in my mouth i can't rid myself of it yet do i want to i'm so happy with the simplest things now and once again my days are filled with loving anticipation but uncertainty remains what am i meant to do i know what my calling is but i'm afraid to jump in right now to leave all that i've known behind for an unknown, unfamiliar destination when did i become such a coward afraid of my own wings i'm afraid to fly away from all the good things in my life fate has taken its time in granting me happiness now i want to savor it to hold on, with all the courage and strength i can afford uncertain is what i will do about us are we meant to be do you care for me as much as your bold actions illustrate or will i take this step only to be disappointed uncertainty is my biggest problem right now i'm uncertain about which road to pursue but then i try to remind myself that everything that happens is meant to be |