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By RainbowChaser Date: 2003 May 03 Comment on this Work [[2003.05.03.00.41.31722]] |
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Was it not enough that you took my body and manipulated it for your pleasure and disregarded my desires you not only raped me, but took a piece of my soul is it not enough that i will never be the same because of your blatant disregard or that i will constantly relive that incident over and over wondering what i could have done to prevent it wondering why i didn't scream why i didn't fight why you would do something like that to me why i even let you in in the first place is it not enough that the sight of you makes me physically ill that sex is no longer just pleasure for me that i run the risk of losing the greatest thing in my life because of a sin I didn't commit my grandfather is constantly criticizing me now maybe he doesn't believe me i'm going through the unbearable task of prosecution only to find it moving so slowly they haven't even talked to you yet there may not be enough evidence and you may get off scot free while i will live with this for the rest of my life piece by piece you are trying to take over my life to stuff me in a closet, unable to breathe, to live a normal life you are slowly spreading your version slowly scrutinizing my every move, as are others if i happen to go out with another man god forbid, i'm getting on with my life if i happen to have sex before a set point then i definitely asked you to take advantage of me if i smile, and flirt, and wear 'revealing' clothing then i provoked you if i done anything, even in the slightest bit, to encourage you then i deserve what i got and more fuck you, jason can you not get it through your head that you have fucked me over that i want nothing to do with you that your game is over you are slowly driving me to the edge i can't walk to my car alone anymore without hearing your mindless threats do you have to kill me before anyone believes me it's not like your even good looking you are a tattooed, sex crazed, manipulative frankenstein even on my worst day, i would rather die than allow you to destroy me piece by piece you are slowly worming your way into my friend's surroundings to make her question what really happened how could she believe someone like you your words, sugary sweet drip from your tongue the sight of you touching another is like electricity volts surging through my body how could anyone make out with you after knowing the way you forced your tongue into my mouth and other parts of my body how could someone willingly allow your hands to hungrily graze their body to passionately embrace you and whisper all their desires to you you fucked up my whole world..isn't that enough why must you try to take over my life piece by piece to remind me everyday of the part that you took away from me the innocence and the naivety that are shattered for eternity i told the man that i loved more than the world and he walked out on me do you know how that made me feel i've had plans for law school for years i even killed myself trying to graduate early now i can't concentrate on classes without your nasty, predatoral face gazing at me all the time, whether i'm asleep or awake i don't feel safe, but most of all i can't live a normal life with you stalking me my routine is the one thing i have you would want me to stay home, locked up because of fear well fuck you, it's not going to happen as for my friends, they will find out what you're about if they ever have the courage to say no and stand up to you what you did will not go unnoticed you will be punished i wish i could punish you with a bullet to your groin so that you would never use that instrument either with or against someone again then i would purposely watch you squirm, as i tried to invade your life piece by piece |