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By RainbowChaser Date: 2003 May 10 Comment on this Work [[2003.05.10.14.05.22445]] |
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Tomorrow marks the end of childhood and the beginning of adulthood it marks a lifelong goal of mine which is now being achieved with the loving support of my family tomorrow will overwhelm me and frighten me at the same time just months ago, i knew that i was ready now i long to postpone the inevitable because after tomorrow i will be a different person with different expectations, ideas and credentials who will be forced to make lifelong decisions without the hope of a shelter for the first time in my life i'm scared of what tomorrow will bring i'm scared to grow up and face reality on my own in college, i learned so many valuable lessons enjoyed true friendships while they lasted and lived my dreams i was actually a part of something in college and will remain a part of this forever my sorority, my life, my dreams are all over and my future is ready to unfold i rushed to graduate in three years now i long to have the security of at least another semester the decision i made my senior year of high school has carried me this far i can't say that the road has been easy i've learned who my true friends are i've learned how to be myself i've learned to think but most of all i've learned to survive and not really give a fuck about what people think after countless breakups dealing with depression and an eating disorder and being in recovery when all of a sudden, i was blindsighted by an attack on my body, mind, and soul that left me incapable of coping but tomorrow, it all comes together, my one moment in time, is when i have that diploma in my hands why does that little piece of paper mean so much? my whole life, there have been people who didn't believe in me they questioned, criticized, and even made fun of me but i've had the last laugh don't get me wrong there are times when i still cry times when even i doubt myself but then i realize that tomorrow is a chance to start anew to take all your mistakes and turn them into lessons take all your tears and turn them into laughter life keeps going but when you stop realizing the value of tomorrow, you stop living life so tomorrow, i will get my piece of success but it's not the end nor will i forget all the lessons attached to that piece of paper it will be tomorrow within the blink of an eye |